Mother’s Day

04:38

It’s Mother’s Day.

I can not sleep.

Just like every night I have trouble sleeping.

But tonight felt different.

I felt more lonely.

But I remembered that it was a special day for my mom today, a special day for the only person who truly cares about me.

So I texted her while she was at work,

“Happy Mother’s Day MaMa!”

I wish I had texted ‘I Love You’.

17:35

I just woke up.

I woke up hearing laughter coming from downstairs.

It was my dad, my two sisters, and my eldest sister’s fiancé.

I got up from my bed and washed my face.

My mom was still sleeping,

she works graveyard.

I went back to my room and started to think about bad things again.

Like I do every time that I am alone.

I hear my mom’s bedroom door open,

And I start to hear her laugh as she goes down stairs.

My sister’s got her presents for Mother’s Day.

I started crying.

They got her balloons, flowers, and a mug my other sister got her from Disneyland two days before.

Keep in mind that I’m still in my room.

I started crying because I was thinking,

They’re Happy without me.

They can be Happy without me.

They can Live without me.

And I hate having those thoughts, but I think they’re true.

They don’t need me.

I don’t need to be here anymore.

I can go.

Fate

  
At the unexpected meeting of our worlds, There are only a few that connect. And we feel it resonate. Your eyes are giving you away. . They’re screaming for love.

Why not pay attention to the lack of affection? We are hoping, No matter if it’s north or south, you are my ending point.And as your refuge I will be the one to save you.

Where are we headed? We are barefoot and puzzled, but the storm of fate is bringing me to the warmth of your embrace.

Why don’t you just say what you can’t admit? Are you just gonna leave it to the wind? 

Don’t be afraid at the whisper of your emotions. I’m here, and I’m listening to you. 

Open up. Let’s fight our way through this storm of fate together.

Give In – UDD

  

Hear my Confessions,

Lingering Intensions.

Bringing us to different directions.

So take what you can 

And take me where I wanna be,

Any place will do.

Feel the sand in between your toes,

Nobody had to know.

The pleasure that you take

In every step you make,

Harbor all the way.

Take me where I wanna go.

I have survived in defeat.

Do you know the tricks of fire?

I apologize,

But I’m takin’ me with you.