I hate the ‘what if’ feelings…
I hate assuming…what may be said
I hate self-doubting
I hate always thinking of worst case scenario
I hate being misunderstood
I hate the misunderstanding
I hate falling for you…every time
I hate not knowing your thoughts
I hate the uncertainty
I hate me for hurting you
I hate falling in love
Because I hate being hurt
But still for you, I’ll always fall for you
Because…
❤
-Sol
Here I am…all alone
I’m tired of what people say
I’m sure I heard all these before…
People need to worry their self first, and mind their own business
I’m done worrying about them
Still they talk, still they hate, still I hear their dismay
I’m tired, I’m so ready to say fuck it
But I’m here standing face to face…
With the one person I can’t replace
One person I can’t just say I’m fine…
Or say I’m slowing dying, inside
I got to stay strong, even if it means to keep going
Even when people hating, betray my love and trust
It hurts
It hurts, but I know she’ll always be there
To catch me when I fall
To brush the dust of after the fall
So, here I am
All alone, though not as much as before
Thanks mom :).
I keep trying to remind myself
That it may seem it is hard sometimes
But through every dark night, there is a bright day that follows…
I know the world is a dark and scary place
It is filled with every kind of people
People that hate, people that love
People that cry, people that laugh
People that are evil, and people that are good…
People that are alone, sad, and cold…
However, we choose to be what we want to be
And so, I got to get up
Because life is more than suicide
And I know the sun will shine, one day at a time
So I got to love myself
And you got to love yourself too
Keep your head up
And keep moving…
I feel like death is always calling me…no, you wouldn’t understand
The stress, the pressure, the highs and lows…that’s life
I’m sick of thinking
I’m sick of talking
Matter of fact, I’m sick of living…
But, no…suicide is not on my mind
But I do want to leave, I do want to close my eyes
Because sleep is the cousin of death…
Nah, you wouldn’t understand…
God, please forgive me
For my disrespect
For my lies
For my miseries
And sins…
…and when it’s over, maybe…
Just maybe I’ll be up there
Happy?
To fall out off love and back in love again…then out of love again…and back in again
I am this
I did this
I don’t get it, I don’t understand it
Or myself, or my innerself…
But I think, if she left me…
My innerself will break and shatter
Though I could leave her, because I’m a selfish addict
Love hurts, and love heals
I cannot let you let go of me
But I feel I should be able to…leave her
Because I don’t want anyone else to have her
Selfish ain’t it, but they say everything’s fair in love and war…
Well then I love her and hate her
I’m so emotional, and I’m at war within myself, so I guess everything is fair
And I know if we spit, my life would be at its end
I consider my health a hazard…
This life is bittersweet
And my life bipolar…
I hope you understand…
Because love is selfish
And my heart is unselfishly accepting this…
Life/love Opinion:
I’m going through the most crappiest, most devastating moment in my entire life….lot of bad things are happening all at once.
And when I need you, need your support…need you to be here for me…you just leave. You abandon me and just disappear.
Then you got the nerve to come back and expect everything to be okay, like you leaving never occurred…WTF!!
I got only this to say: I’m done, when you left, my heart forever closed on you…so, you can GTFO. I don’t need you, I’ll be fine on my own.
My Life Opinion:
‘I bet you I’ll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won’t crumble
I’ll get back up
And I’mma still be humble when I scream fuck you
Cause I’m stronger than I was…’
I wanted the love
But not the heartbreak
They say love is forever and all-curing
But it’s really, truly painful
My Love Opinion:
Say what you want, but love doesn’t heal scars…it re-opens it
It only covers wounds, but the scars always remain…
My Love Opinion:
‘Oh I like you, so I’ll emotionally hurt you’….
what the hell is that? I don’t understand this…why hurt the person you like/love.
Why??
I don’t need that kind of love. And I definitely don’t want that kind of love. You can keep that to yourself, I’ll be fine on my own.
Everyday I swallow my tears again and again
Your image survives in my heart while trying to forget
Even if I give my whole heart, it’s not enough, my love
I can’t call you any more…since I’m choked up with tears
While the wound in my heart continues to grow larger
No matter how hard I try, I cannot erase your memory…
Longing for you, your image always lingers
While I try to avoid looking, you keep filling my eyes
So that my heart which is guilty of letting you go won’t ache more…
Dear beloved…
Goodbye…
Because my love wasn’t enough and made you cry…so, don’t have a painful love again
—Goodbye Day–Bridal Mask
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