I breathed deeply as I looked ahead. I stared out a glass pane in front of me, transfixed by our speed of ascent; the ships in port grew smaller and smaller. The ground began to shake beneath my feet as we rose. Inches of metal beneath my feet separated me from death.
As I went to the top of the Space Needle in Seattle, I found myself reliving my hatred of suspended heights. How could the workers in it and the rest be so oblivious to how the observation deck swayed at the top? Of course it was constructed with safety in mind and sound engineering principles, but being 500 feet from land still does not allow the amount I am convinced in my mind to transcend into my stomach. But then I remembered that just the day before I sat inches from the window of the airplane at a height of 40,000 feet and temperature of -80 F! A break in that glass and a giant pressure vacuum ensues, temperature plummet in the cabin, Oxygen becomes scarce, and a life threatening situation is imminent. Yet this caused me the least concen.
The fact is this: every single day we live, we are given the breath of God. Greek mythologies devised their own philosophy to comprehend this phenomenon. They created three muses: one drew out the cord of life, the second measured it, and the third cut it. Christ asked his followers, “And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?” (Matt 6:27). We are to live to God as best we can. Somewhere above, the days of our lives are measured out. We may have the security of the ground beneath our feet or be only inches from death, but neither the danger of the one nor the safety of the other is any final guarantee; God will take us when he takes us. By knowing God, we may know our fraility, but by knowing that and knowing God, we may rest content more than the workers on the top of the towers who trust in man’s strength, having an eternal assurance.
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
Daily Archive
05/11/2006
05/11/2006
“So could you not watch with me one hour? Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation…” (Matt 26:40-41).
“Be sober minded’ be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour” (I Peter 5:8).
I find myself making an excuse for spiritual apathy and general apathy. What does it matter? I ask myself, I can just do that later. Oh, that is just a little thing. Oh, I know I should fix that now, but I am so tired. Get up early and spend time with God- I will just take my rest and do that later.
Yet Christ rebukes his disciples and tells them he desires their fellowship in the hour of need, as seen in Matt 26:40-41. Their fellowship with God is not desired so that they give God something, but that by being in God’s presence, they are guarded from the fierce lion who waits to tear them apart. Peter was warned of the temptation to come “Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers” (Luke 22:31-32); Peter was warned again to stay awake (Matt 26:40,45); and then when the temptation came, Peter gave in to the temptation to deny Christ (Matt 26:75).
Yet Christ’s prayer gave Peter the strength to persevere. Then Peter, humbled as one who had fallen before (I Peter 5:6-7) and who knew the bitterness of coming into the hour of temptation unprepared, admonishes his brothers to stand in Christ as well and to stay awake.
What is the takeaway lesson? For me it is several: 1) Be killing sin now as it comes into my mind and not later; 2) When I awake in the middle of the night disturbed by dreams or ungodly thoughts, come before God right away and bring his Word to mind; 3) Spend time with God when it seems hard or when I find myself desiring sleep badly; and 4) Don’t buy into the lie that if I do such things, it shows I am not just trusting in God or that it really doesn’t matter if I don’t pray.