Tag Archive | competition

Fail to Success

Feb16

In a self-pep-talk, I told myself some time ago, “Invite the no.” Don’t falter from fear of it.

I mean if someone is gonna think the work is bad and trash it, I can swing out. They won’t be reading it anyway.

I can have a kind of public privacy, dream for an introvert.

I can tell any kind of story, do anything in it. Experiment with anything. Kill concern that it’s ‘relatable.’

The nature of contests is to find the flaws, to disqualify. So I am gonna get dismissed.

Might as well have fun.

Besides, people see your name enough they become familiar. According to a film funder who I will keep nameless, they develop a kind of unconscious affection toward you due to familiarity with your moniker.

So I will submit, submit, submit, all over the place.

There is no spoon. No… no.

New Path?

Aug26

This is the next thing I will be applying for to further my filmmaking abilities.

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Everyone has ‘tastes’ and ‘opinions’ so I have no idea if I have a true ‘chance?’ But – what else am I doing? My mother is deceased, my father still alive, but the remnant of the friendship I’d forged with them is barely in existence now due to his own illness.

So I’ve been trying to tackle all my mother thought would serve the daughter she raised. She wanted me to have some fashion of relationship, a career, lifestyle that wasn’t so much of a hustle.

I was frozen for some time after her death, but grief counseling helped me remember that I didn’t die with her. So in the last couple of months I’ve picked up my tools again.

I took an animation class so I could get a head start on a newer project, paid off another directing intensive which starts next month, signed up for a fundraising webinar and online class, and now will apply for the above, which could take me to the city I recently decided to explore for putting up my feature.

So, off to the application.

(Wish me luck.)