Because Amy Schumer is one of the loves of my life and her words speak truth to my soul, I’m opening and closing today’s post with a quote of hers.
To begin, “I am a woman with thoughts and questions and shit to say.”
This morning, those thoughts, questions, and shit to say pertain to the pressure to be a certain way and the inevitable judgement if one doesn’t meet those expectations – In what that individual eats, wears, says, does, shares, essentially, lives. This may be due in part to the conversation surrounding those who make resolutions and are attempting to keep them, and those who are cynical of the idea and find it improbable that others would choose to make that attempt.
It occurs to me, that no matter what your resolution is (or is not) you will in many ways succeed, and in some ways you will fail. Because you’re human.
In the process of completing my personal training and yoga teacher training programs, I remember the daunting feeling I had that my future clients and students wouldn’t benefit from my teaching style, wouldn’t enjoy my classes, and beyond all other fears, that they wouldn’t like me.
So, in addition to giving myself pep talks while driving to teach (and I’m sure getting weird looks from strangers as I passionately pumped myself up) I also made it a point to memorize and absorb John Wooden’s words of wisdom, “You can’t let praise or criticism get to you. It’s a weakness to get caught up in either one.”
Wouldn’t you know it, not everyone likes my teaching style, not everyone enjoys my classes, and I’m not 100% sure, but they probably don’t all like me. And while I’d be lying if I said that doesn’t ever affect me, I also know that I didn’t sign up for the impossible job of receiving the undivided approval of others.
I still don’t have a 5 year plan. In fact, I’m not even sure what I’m going to eat for lunch today. I semi-regularly pose the question ‘What am I doing with my life?’ both internally as I scroll through my Instagram feed and aloud as I’m watching ‘Teen Mom‘.
With all that being said, I’ve committed to letting 2016 be the year that I commit to being me. Authentically, imperfectly, unapologetically (unless I’m being a jerk) me. Getting down with my best and most bad ass self.

I say if I’m beautiful. I say if I’m strong. You will not determine my story — I will. – Amy Schumer