Hardest lesson I learned today? I suck at friendships. One of my best friends since high school pointed this out to me many, many years ago. She said, “you are easily hurt because you trust too much. You trust that that person feel the same way as you. You are truthful and you want others to be truthful too. You give them your time, you want them to give you their time too. You give your heart,…
I wouldn’t want to be with me. Not today. Not in any day for the longest time already. I kinda hate her and I don’t know where it’s coming from.
I used to be fond of her. Like she’s one of the funniest, crazy person I know. Now, she’s all rants. And mental breakdowns. And emoshits. And furious bitching about everything. It feels like she swallowed hell and wants to spit it all out.
She gets…
Para kang nalulunod. Hindi ka makasigaw kahit na gustong-gusto mo nang humingi ng saklolo. Hindi ka makasalita kahit na gustong-gusto mo nang sumigaw. Hindi ka makaalpas kahit na gustong-gusto mo nang makaahon.
Matagal-tagal ka na rin namang nagpapalutang-lutang diyan, bakit ngayon parang eternal na pagkalunod na –walang katapusan. Parang napakahirap at napakabigat ng lahat.
Pagod. Pagod na…
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I heard my mother’s favorite song today. I can hear her singing along. “Don’t forget to remember me and the love that used to be. I still remember you... I love you.” She would probably ask me for a cup of coffee while she starts to prepare lunch. At 10 in the morning. Hahaha. She would be annoyed, for sure, because I’m obsessing over Park Seo Joon. “Mag-asawa ka na ng Koreano,” she would say. I would answer her, “Gusto ko artista.” “Anak, hindi pwede ‘yun,” as if there’s a slightest chance of it coming true. I never heard her say I can’t do anything. She would tell me to dream big, take chances, believe. But, she would also bring me to my senses especially when I’m completely out of it. I forgot to ask her about her Tinuto and Kalamay recipe. Also the secret to her spaghetti sauce. Sayang. Her spaghetti rap song now plays in my head. I miss you, Ma. Happy mother’s day. https://www.instagram.com/p/CAAi8oYB51q/?igshid=1egh299qho9m6
One of my favorite Beatles songs. Pardon the singing and the lousy strumming hahaha *** Turning 40 in three months and this lockdown had me thinking about how I’ve lived and how I intend to live better in the next half (If my lifespan is up to 80, then this would be the Half Life. Hahaha) I’m thankful for a lot of things especially for friends and family, for people I get to meet through life. Wala masyadong lover (LOL) pero keri lang. Di naman issue. Hahaha. *** I miss seeing people - my friends, my colleagues, my students. I miss seeing people kahit di ko sila kakilala or di ko sila gusto minsan hahaha. I miss movement. :( *** After this, we’ll come out as a different person. I hope this will make us realize that people, above all things, should be our priority in planning. Paraphrasing Jane Jacobs, I’ll take noisy, people-filled streets any day than sanitized, empty, silent streets. For now, to us with roofs over our heads, stay inside! #FlattenTheCurve #MassTesting #BetterPublicHealth #HousingForAll *** Siguradong papagalitan na naman ako ng kapatid ko pag narinig n’ya ‘to bilang ang tamad kong mag-strum ng tama. LOL https://www.instagram.com/p/B-yo1MthAyj/?igshid=n7mw0qh1ykqc
WFH stands for Work from home, so I was told. And my work arrangement was like this since last Thursday, 12 March 2020. I did not wait for any more guidelines. It’s common sense — Metro Manila has announced a lockdown; the number of confirmed cases has been increasing by the day; and I have trust issues with the government.
I am obviously panicking. The pandemic has reached our province. One…
When you look at yourself, what do you see? A formless being clouded by the shadow of your past? Or a faded reflection of what you could have become? You need to look at yourself again, this time look past the faults. Tell her she made it this far. Tell her she is loved. (at Gangwon-do, South Korea) https://www.instagram.com/p/B804gkDB8iq/?igshid=1ntb55v7at6j
What is unwanted, What is left behind, Will decompose, Will disappear, To feed the soul of the earth. All ending is another beginning That’s the circle of life. (at Secret Garden of Changdeokgung Palace 昌德宮後苑) https://www.instagram.com/p/B80Qx8XBtgM/?igshid=16xhklsszawis
Last week, we walked from Intramuros to Binondo. Along Jones Bridge, we saw these pretty lamps and some boys wearing briefs walking along the bridge. They probably went for a swim in the river. Ken didn’t quite understand why we had to walk that far just to see old buildings. “Well, it’s not that far though,” said Sepoy. “It’s Jones Bridge!” Ken exclaimed. I laughed. #Manila #ManilaChronicles #BaulStories #friends (at Jones Bridge) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6PH8xghPQ9/?igshid=1rp0oah07kp1w