To Know or Not to Know

A while back, someone I know was talking about a product that is widely used (the exact product is irrelevant). I mentioned to him research that indicates it can cause damage. He told me that he had just bought such a product and he didn’t want to hear about it, apparently with no irrepressible and overriding curiosity to learn about it. I accepted his response and said nothing further, as I long ago learned that many people don’t want to know many things.

It was just a passing incident, of no grand significance, and so I quickly forgot about it. But it’s one of those niggling observations that gets stuck in my craw. Though it happened a month or so ago, it’s been idling at the back of my mind and finally returned to the forefront of my awareness. Thinking about it again, I must admit that it seems plain strange to me.

In all my life, I don’t think I’ve ever asked someone not to talk about something because it was uncomfortable or inconvenient, not even when in my worst state of poverty, stress, and depression. And if I were to do so for some odd reason, once it had been stated, there is no way I would be able to pretend I didn’t hear it. This other person, however, seemed to have genuinely eliminated it from his mind and I presume he never thought about it again. I’m not capable of that.

Here is my concern. The person I was talking to is closer to normal in his exhibited behavior in this case. Most people do have the ability to shut out what’s unwanted from their minds, and repression does have its value such as with overwhelming trauma. More generally, it does make for greater happiness and functionality, at least in terms of conforming to the status quo and being accepted within the dominant social order. Most people just want to go along to get along, and I fully understand.

I suppose that, if I was able to act in that manner, I’d be attracted to doing the same. As an affable introvert, I’ve never had any particular desire to stand out as a deviant or rebel, to be accused of being a disturber of the peace in the hobbit shire. But I sometimes can’t help myself. I think, perceive, and notice what so many others don’t. For whatever reason, my neurocognition is set on high and I haven’t a clue how to turn it off, which can irritate some people.

In contrast, this other person can continue to use his product, seemingly, without ever giving a second thought about the possible health consequences. For me, however, it would bug me. I wouldn’t be able to get that possibility out of my mind, and I’d likely end up researching it to an immense degree. The only way I could get over it would be to determine, after looking at all the evidence, that the supposed health risk was only minor, was entirely unfounded, or could be remedied.

Otherwise, I can’t unsee what I’ve seen, can’t unknow what I know. But some others seem to have no problem with that. Many times someone has told me something they did or happened to them and later, when I bring it back up, they no longer remember it. I carry around a lot of knowledge about other people’s lives that they forget. For example, my now conservative parents rewrote their memory and identity to exclude their earlier liberalism. How can someone entirely forget who they used to be? That’s beyond me.

In neurodivergent territory, I’m somewhere between or adjacent to autism and ADHD (inattentive subtype). An explanation of one aspect of autism is, if the evidence is mixed, is that too many details are taken in with too little of it being neurologically pruned. This might be why some autistics can be masters of specialized fields of knowledge, as they can amass info — what may seem useless — in a way rare for a neurotypical. But in my case, maybe with ADHD, my attention and hence my knowledge is all over the place.

Another major feature is the liberal-minded personality trait ‘openness to experience’ (FFM). Compared to conservatives, liberals are prone to acute environmental awareness. They’re more likely to be constantly looking around (i.e., exploratory behavior), not only focused in on a single thing (or person), which makes for distractibility (and tends to increase cognitive empathy). Combined with ADHD-like mind wandering, my own high ‘openness’ makes it near impossible for me to shut anything out, even if I wanted to.

As I repeat, I’m not concluding my own way of being is optimal. Obviously, it’s problematic, considering my history of learning disability and mental illness. I totally get why normal people tend to exclude nearly everything that seems undesirable, difficult, challenging, or irrelevant. It sure would make life a lot easier for the individual. Then again, maybe it’s because too many have a knack for doing so that we live in such a shitty society, in which we can’t collectively face our collective problems.

My thoughts here are a continuation of another recent piece about my cognitive oddities (Knowledge and Neurodivergence). I’ve long realized that I’m extremely atypical, if the understanding of it has eluded me in the past. But as I’m used to being myself, I continually forget how far different I am. Then I’m reminded, once again, that yet another facet of my cognition, psychology, or personality is uncommon or divergent.

One thing that reminds me is studying the social science literature. There is an example from The War For Kindness by Jamil Zaki, a Stanford professor of psychology and director of the social neuroscience lab. He commented that human empathy is evolved for relating to individuals, such an assumption indicative of his WEIRD bias and neurotypical bias. An argument could be made that empathy, instead, was evolved for groups, networks, and environments (Luke Kemp, Goliath’s Curse). We are intrinsically social in nature.

Whatever it may or may not have been evolved for, my own empathy isn’t limited to individuals. Zaki argues that we humans aren’t designed for larger applications of empathy. If so, maybe I’m not human or else I’ve transcended my humanity — does that mean I’m transhuman? It could have to do with my extreme ‘openness’. All I can say is it’s easy for me to feel empathy for groups, including those I’ve never met (e.g., Gazan Palestinians), or even feel empathy for all of humanity, as an all-encompassing fellow-feeling.

Part of this is from decades of practice from depression that sensitized me to suffering in the world and to human experience in general. That was amplified by intense study of the social sciences that trained me to high capacity for cognitive empathy, along with study of other fields like history, philology, etc that familiarized me with the human condition. I have no problem whatsoever imagining the lives and mentalizing the inner experience of other people. Empathy constrained to individuals, specifically those personally known, seems sad and bizarre to me.

Yet another example came up in talking with a guy I used to know. He was a bit conservative-minded, and so he stated that people never change their minds. Really? I’ve probably changed my mind on significant issues and positions hundreds of times in my life. In constantly taking in new info and perspectives, and in being less able to shut out or forget, it would be near impossible for me to hold the exact same opinions and beliefs over my lifetime, however consistent are my values.

As I always return to, I genuinely don’t think I’m special. I doubt my genetics are all that different from others, if possibly my epigenetics allow unique expression of those genetics. But epigenetics is just the end result of environment, nurture, diet, etc. If the conditions of my life were precisely replicated for others (once again, not recommended), I’m willing to bet there would a higher rate of similar psychological and cognitive profiles. It’s merely a matter of enough factors having come together in a particular way.

The point is that what I or anyone else — neurodivergent, gifted, learning disabled, mentally ill, etc — exhibits is what exists as potential within the evolved brain and shared psyche, within the genetic stock of human nature. If we wanted a society of people who are unable to ignore facts, can’t shut down their curiosity, are open to the world, have broad inclusive empathy, and such, it could be done. We are simply the product of the world that shapes us, as we have have shaped the world.

Knowledge and Neurodivergence

My very own desktop computer and internet connection was first obtained in 1998, though I’d had some exposure to such things long before then. At the time, I was in my early twenties. And here I am almost three decades later, having just crossed the hump into my fifties. Much has changed over time or maybe it’s mostly that the changes have worsened and become ever more apparent. We are hitting a crisis point with the fuller takeover of the global village (e.g., tribalism) and secondary orality (e.g., agonism), as the centuries-long literary culture of the Gutenberg Parenthesis threatens to comes to a close. As a hyper-literate product of that once dominant literary culture, I feel like a fossil in this era of new media, with every decade bringing on the next wave of tech innovation, of which I have little desire to keep up with. (One of my pet peeves is when someone online doesn’t want to interact in text and asks to video chat. High level intellectual analysis, criticality, and dialogue requires text. If I love to casually chat in person, my intellect exists on a textual plane.) But even within literary culture, I’ve always felt like an outsider, largely because I’m an undereducated autodidact who isn’t domesticated and house-trained.

Then again, be it literary or post-literary, modern Western society is freakishly abnormal by the standards of the non-WEIRD majority, now and in the past. Yet it’s typically those conforming to the evolutionary norms of the species and the historical precedent of most societies that, among WEIRDos (or MYOPICS), are treated as the deviants and failures. Think of long-term planning (as part of the Protestant work ethic), usually an unconcern for hunter-gatherers who most often don’t think beyond possibly the next season, certainly not exhaustively working multiple jobs and/or double shifts to afford a house and car, pay for childcare, save for their children’s college, put away for an emergency fund, and prepare for retirement. We WEIRDos are expected to submit to and comply with the desperate struggle and insecurity of the hegemonic neoliberal system, not to rely on a sociocultural order that conforms to our human nature and serves our human needs as indigenous cultures operate. In deeply studying numerous fields (anthropology, ethnography, philology, history, etc), the stressful and anxiety-inducing alienation of our society becomes ever more poignant and hence the average person’s obliviousness to that alienation all the more frustrating — as such, with such a brainwashed population, why it’s easier to imagine the end of the world than the end of capitalism.

Few people skeptically question and radically interrogate the culture they were born into, in spite of a world of knowledge being at their fingertips. We like to think of ourselves as a society built on a highly educated elite involved in advanced scientific research, academic scholarship, and its technological application, and obviously a complex civilization wouldn’t otherwise be possible. Yet the vast troves of information and knowledge, maybe some wisdom as well, has little impact on the thinking of most, elite or otherwise. That’s in dramatic contrast to the few remaining indigenous cultures who, in their observant and obsessive study of the world around them, dedicate more time to learning, maintaining, and passing on knowledge than they probably do for any other activity. They have no other option, since they can’t write down what’s necessary for survival. Complex mnemonic systems (e.g., Australian Aboriginal songlines) are used to carry the informational and cultural inheritance over generations, centuries, and sometimes millennia (Lynne Kelly). Much of it’s practical, but surprisingly many such cultures seem to value encyclopedic knowledge just for the sake of curiosity, to know the world in intimate detail.

The engagement with people online, more than in everyday life, has clarified to me how cognitively deficient, intellectually inept, and sadly uninformed, misinformed, or disinformed are most people, including the college-educated (A Theory of Societal Retardation). For some reason, I didn’t fully appreciate it when younger. In the years immediately after getting dialed-up to the internet, I also got access while at work. When not dealing with customers, I’d peruse the web. I discovered the discussion forum run by the local newspaper. This is a liberal college town, a creative hub, and a literary community with one of the highest per capita of the highly educated of any city in the United States. Yet in talking with my fellow community residents in the comments sections, some of them published writers, I was shocked by their oftimes general incuriosity and underdeveloped critical thinking skills. Even when presented with counter-evidence, they’d simply refuse to acknowledge it. It was amazingly difficult to elicit worthy dialogue, often just mindless opinionating or combative argument or refusal to engage. This is contrary to my own intellect, as I’m uncontrollably driven by open-minded inquiry and investigation, ever ready to learn and change my mind.

I say that as a statement of fact. I spend an inordinate amount of time thinking and contemplating, researching and studying, reading and writing. But it never feels like hard work because I enjoy it and I’m inspired by it. My curiosity, wonder, and awe is near infinite. The world is an absolutely fascinating place. Why wouldn’t people want to use their time to explore it? I know I’m extremely abnormal. My neurodivergence consists of not just general divergent thinking that is unconventional: non-linear, non-dualistic, non-atomistic, etc. I have immense capacity for out of the box thinking, radically imagining alternatives, shifting perspectives, seeing far-reaching patterns, holding vast amounts of details in my working memory, and synthesizing across numerous fields, forming into what I call ‘thought-webs’ (i.e., autistic-style chunking). I’m also talented at intuiting and ferreting out what’s missing, overlooked, ignored, or suppressed, as well as having impressive cognitive empathy and psychological modeling that aids in metacognition (i.e., thinking about thinking); thus, my inquiring of interlocutors about their personal and intellectual backgrounds. My intellectual attack mode is simultaneously bottom-up, top-down, inside-out, sideways, and roundabout; with little possibility of anything escaping the wide net I cast.

But admittedly, all of this comes at great cost and with many downsides: cognitively, psychologically, socially, and behaviorally. My learning style, if impressive in its own way, is according to mainstream schooling a learning disability. I’m literally diagnosed as learning disabled, specifically with word retrieval (Aspergers and Chunking; & Specific Language Impairment), but apparently having had various other cognitive deficits as a child (The Stuff of Childhood). According to one assessment, it was stated that I “missed directions” (common among neurodivergents), an understatement and a major stumbling block. Having been delayed in reading skills and having struggled beginning in first grade, teachers genuinely thought I was retarded, the actual label used back then. That was until they tested me and found that areas of my fluid intelligence, such as solving puzzles, was at a twelfth grade level — I can easily take in the whole and see the solution. In old records, it was noted that I excelled in certain areas, such that there were, as one teacher described it, “significant discrepancies between his verbal task, just at the average range, and his work on performance tasks, which is in the gifted range.” I wish I knew what were the ‘performance tasks’, but apparently they were non-verbal and so likely visuospatial of some sort.

Looking back at the clues, I can start piecing together what was going on. Some of it’s basic: “Ben is stronger visually than auditorially.” And: “Weaknesses: . . . Language dev. [development] lag hinders ability to use context clues.” Of course, that would’ve interfered with so much else. “It was thought that he had difficulties primarily in transferring information from one modality to another in expressive areas.” That dogged me all the way into high school and early adulthood. As I was intelligent, I was put into an Advanced Placement class for history, as I was expected to go to college like my parents and my paternal grandparents before me. But that class blew me away. The memory part was hard enough, if I did impressively manage to drill twenty pages of notes into my mind. Yet then I had no capacity to pull out the separate pieces of info to summarize, explain them, form an argument, etc. I just couldn’t organize my thoughts for the life of me. That may have to do with the following comment: “Ben continues to have some problems with re-grouping in math and makes number reversals. he also has problems with sequencing which have hindered him in math. (What number comes before or after another number, etc.) Sequencing in stories is also difficult for Ben.” My mind was disorderly and it still is. The difference, though, is I learned how to use my cognitive chaos as an advantage toward cognitive complexity, a nifty trick. It also allows me to maintain a large warehouse of knowledge, in a way and to a degree most would find overwhelming. I’m an information hoarder and accustomed to the mental clutter.

In any case, such non-linear, divergent thinking was of little value for the pedagogical expectations within education proper. I would’ve flunked out of 7th grade if my family hadn’t moved to the Deep South with its lower standards, I only graduated high school by cheating on tests, and I dropped out of college twice, never to finish. Though as or more intelligent, in certain ways, than many professors I’ve read or talked with, I suck at formal education and personally despise standard teaching methods. Plus, I can only learn what interests me, if that’s not much of a constraint as my love of learning is voracious. It’s just I’m intrinsically motivated in a society entirely organized according extrinsic rewards and punishments. Said of my childhood self, his “problems are related to a history of learning difficulties and a present style of covert resistance to pressure. That is, Ben does not ever exert open defiance or resistance, but instead gives minimal responses whenever possible. He is never actively uncooperative, but the feeling he communicates is very definitely that he does not like being pressured.” That’s right. Leave me the eff alone. Fortunately, my intrinsic motivation has turned out to be high. So, where my teachers failed, I’ve figured out much on my own. Through sheer determination of intensive reading and writing, my verbal skills are now way above average. It’s actually become one of my greatest talents and assets, if once a deficiency and debility.

Nonetheless, it has little practical value for this culture of capitalist realism, neoliberalism, and social Darwinism. I’m a loser, baby. I’m an underachiever in relation to the material socioeconomic order; and in many ways, a smart idiot with a large disparity in different lines of development, with my forte not being the lines of development prized in this society: spitting back factoids, conforming to norms, following directions, coloring in the lines, financial acumen, dominance hierarchy ambition, managerial social control, etc. I’ve only ever worked entry level employment, if I’m at least able to hold down a job, despite periods of crippling depression. So, it’s not that I’m absolutely dysfunctional, as I’m talented at masking and playing the game to a minimal level, even having learned to schmooze from the modeled behavior of my more socially adept father, a former business manager and professor. In being able to survive, if not thrive, I have the bare capacity of paying the bills, maintaining basic hygiene, and more or less color coordinating my clothing. But that’s about the limit of my capacity to operate in this demanding and deranged society of alienated hyper-individualism. All I can do is put up a convincing appearance of semi-normality, as my high intelligence allows me to compensate in various ways.

Still, hiding it as I do, it simply remains a fact that I’m severely compromised and inadequate in so many ways. Take my learning disability. I suck at remembering names, birthdates, and other factoids; nor am I the best at facial recognition out of context (all memory for me is extremely context-dependent, and I’m a master at contextual thinking). This causes a haunting sense of inferiority, a constant source of shame. My neurocognitively declining parents in their 80s have better competence for recall than I do. Yet oddly, I’ve found ways to get around the limitations of my mental malfunction. While direct recall of facts is never going to be my thing, I have a kick-ass ability to remember information by way of psychological resonance, personal salience, and patterned interrelationships — ideas and info are enmeshed in feeling states. Also, my decades of published writings and note-taking, driven by obsessive-compulsive intellectuality and graphomania, combined with a large collection of books gives me a record of my past reading and studies to use as references. In addition, the associative nature of the internet is a tool I use to the advantage of my associative mind, which makes sense as much of the internet was designed by other neurodivergents. I can do advanced web searches and scan walls of text to find or refind info, sometimes obscure, in a way few could do; often with a hundred tabs open at once.

As for what kind of neurodivergent I am, I’ve been trying to figure that one out for a while. I seem to be somewhere in the range of autism and ADHD, if I’m uncertain about my precise profile. Maybe the latter explains why, though aspects of autism fit, my focus is far broader and diverse than specialized interests of the typical autistic. My mind is all over the freaking place, while I can sometimes access that magical hyperfocus (or stimulus overselectivity) that autism and ADHD is sometimes known for. But unlike the factory model of autism according to Simon Baron-Cohen’s theory of the extreme male brain, I’m equal parts systematizing (stereotypical male brain) and empathizing (stereotypical female brain), both highly developed. My cognitive empathy and theory of mind works just fine. Neither do I necessarily and entirely fit Uta Frith’s view of autism as “a detail-focused cognitive style” with weak central coherence combined with “superiority in local processing.” Instead my central coherence appears to be rather kick-ass. On the other hand, I do have some autistic-like monotropic tendencies of singular focus (Dinah Murray), what relates to autistic inertia. It is hard for me to multitask, if I can follow multiple conversations simultaneously just fine. I have to keep in mind that many of my present abilities are compensations that once were deficiencies. My diverse curiosity might be better understood as serial monotropism, as I don’t get permanently stuck on only one topic, subject, or view. It’s hard to distinguish monotropism from hyperfocus.

That’s complicated by the obsessive-compulsion of depressive rumination, which overlaps with monotropism and hyperfocus. In that state, the mind can narrow down, turn inward, and get stuck in loops. With the emotional numbness of anhedonia, there is a piercing laser focus and dead-eye neutrality that affords one a sense of depressive realism, in dispassionately and sometimes indifferently seeing the world for what it is and so coldly assessing it with accuracy. The mind is so overwhelmed in depression that it can’t do much of anything else. Some argue it’s the body-mind going into locked-in problem-solving mode, with the individual getting stuck there when the problem can’t be ascertained or resolved. It’s a mode of observation and thinking, not action. Maybe this is why executive dysfunction can be compromised, but problems with executive dysfunction are also seen with ADHD and autism. But rather than the emotional and sensory hypersensitivity of autism, I have more of the depressive non-reactivity. Also, on a cognitive level, I don’t match the autistic struggle to perceive the social and metaphorical. I’m not particularly literal-minded with, instead, a strong capacity for sensing different ways of interpreting communication, which is why I lean toward irony and dry humor. I don’t have ‘context-blindness’ (Peter Vermeulen) or ‘a mismatch of salience’ (Damian Milton). Quite the opposite, if anything. But in favor of an autism diagnosis, I do have attentional strengths of perseveration/perfectionism that aren’t found in ADHD and the neurotypical (A. Dupuis, et al, Hyperfocus or flow? Attentional strengths in autism spectrum disorder).

As I’ve previously written, “A theory on Autism is that it is strong focus on details which can lead to not seeing the forest for the trees, but if high functioning enough this can be compensated for. The Aspie takes in so many details that this can lead to distraction and cognitive overload. There are two primary ways of dealing with this. First, Aspies might limit their interactions and narrow their focus to create a more manageable space in which to think and to feel more comfortable. Second, Aspies often learn to chunk information” (Aspergers and Chunking). The zeroing in on details or parts, while missing the larger context or whole, is possibly explained by some research finding that neuronal pruning is decreased or delayed in autistics. So, it’s not only that one might take in too many details but also not be able to filter out and eliminate what might be extraneous. So, vast amounts of info gets squirreled away. That could explain my condition. My brain jealously holds onto info. I remember things about people’s lives that they forget. I will remember everything you did and said, so be careful around me — even if I forgive, I won’t forget. This might also relate back to the depressive realism. It’s why depressives, though they have an excellent grasp of present reality, are inferior in letting go of the past so as to create a different future. Happy people, if more self-deluded, are better able to act freely of the constraints of the world as it is, as they simply don’t recognize they exist, not that reality can be denied either.

Let’s hook this back into our initial discussion about the love of knowledge. Whatever combination of neurodivergence and mental illness explains it, my dedication to truth-seeking and knowledge-gathering is tenacious. And as already noted, much was sacrificed to achieve this rare state of mind. I’m not necessarily advocating it for others. It’s not only not normal but maybe wasn’t always healthy either, if our entire society is sickly and so my not having been exceptional on that account. When younger, while living below the poverty line, it wasn’t uncommon for me to spend my last dollar on a book, even when it meant I had nothing to eat until my next paycheck later in the week. I’d sometimes prioritize feeding my mind over my body, which likely wasn’t all that beneficial to lessening depression. Then again, maybe fasting wasn’t such a bad thing considering my high-carb, ultra-processed diet was so crappy, albeit one generally should never do fasting while malnourished as I was. The point being not many people have that level of an intellectual drive. If I’m in a better financial position now, and if my mental health is greatly improved, the same motivation continues. There is no such thing as too many books, too much knowledge — I’ll never be sated.

If I’m an extreme example, I can’t help imagining a society where most of the population was highly educated (not necessarily the same as highly schooled), where an intellectual mentality was dominant, where human potential was strongly manifest, and where there was a widespread literary culture. But in this idiotic and ignorant society, it often takes a neurodivergent to buck the trend of crass materialism, superficial knowledge, and lack of vision. The thing is there is nothing special about a neurodivergent. Such people are expressing the genetic potential that, more or less, is common to all of humanity. It’s just that, for some people, genetics comes together in a particular way with environment and epigenetics to tap something that otherwise lies fallow in the psyche of most. Even for someone like me, it can be guaranteed that I’ve barely scratched the surface of my potential. We are such a backward, primitive, and stunted society. If we ever dedicated our full wealth and resources, knowledge and expertise to supporting neurocognitive development for the entire earth’s population, the result would be a utopia beyond our imagination. In such a possible future world, the average person would look back at the geniuses of our age as inferior and pathetic. We who are alive right now are only impressed by certain individuals who manage to partly excel against all odds because of the contrast of our overall sad state. One hopes we’ll get our act together before destroying ourselves.

What does stress do to the mind? And why?

Frescoes in Sistine Chapel by Michelangelo. (Wikimedia Commons)

Threat and Competition, Authoritarianism and Dominance

Stress, specifically severe and chronic, doesn’t only cause, worsen, or increase trauma, physical sickliness, mental illness, addiction, alcoholism, antisociality, dysfunction, impulsivity, aggression, and violence; doesn’t simply or inevitably damage people, waste human potential, and cripple a society. It’s not only a factor of harm, as the human species evolved to deal with stress, sometimes to thrive in it. Human nature always seeks to make the best out of a bad situation, even when it comes at great cost. The human reaction to stress always attempts, however imperfectly and inadequately in many cases, to rise to the occasion. This might be why collective action is often most impressively successful in response to the hardest of times, such as the New Deal following the Great Depression. Difficulties can force people to think more deeply and innovatively. It shakes up the stultifying status quo and lets fresh air into the public mind and imagination.

Right-wing mentality, behavior, and social order is an evolved adaptive response of survival toward threats and competition: mortality salience, terror management theory, etc. Real or perceived threats, risk, danger, violence, and death induces right-wing authoritarianism (RWA), as linked to low measures of liberal-minded ‘openness to experience’. Whereas competition, conflict, high inequality, dominance hierarchy, and power disparity induces social dominance orientation (SDO), which is positively correlated to dark triad (Machiavellianism, narcissism, & psychopathy; + sadism) and negatively correlated to ‘honesty-humility’ (HEXACO). RWAs are the stereotypical authoritarian followers and SDOs the stereotypical authoritarian leaders, with Double Highs (RWA+SDO) concentrated on the far right (Bob Altemeyer). Threats and competition tend to coincide, which is why RWAs and SDOs tend to operate in concert as part of shared authoritarian movements, groups, and power structures.

The point is that its adaptive, however distasteful and demoralizing this is to liberals and leftists. Though one doesn’t want to get stuck in such a worldview, our species might not have survived without this capacity. Think of parasite-stress theory and the behavioral immune system. Infectious diseases and parasites that are spread by human contact (nonzoonotic) increase conservatism, authoritarianism, xenophobia, and punitiveness — oppressively closing down society and closing ranks to exclude outsiders. Every society that turned totalitarian earlier last century had high rates of such disease. Yet it can motivate and inspire a population toward greatness. Look how the USSR transformed a feudal society into a modern industrialized global superpower almost over night, if it can’t be denied that it was done brutally. The Soviets didn’t just generally overhaul their society but, specifically, improved public health. The infectious disease rate dropped vastly. This is the likely cause for why the late Soviet period saw a liberalization of culture, an emerging openness as the strictures loosened. Ironically, authoritarian policies, by having improved health conditions, likely contributed to authoritarianism having lost its binding power over the public mind.

Germans stand on top of the Wall in front of the Brandenburg Gate, before this section was torn down in the hours before the West German leader walked through the Gate to greet his East German counterpart. (Wikimedia Commons)

Regal vs Kungic, Greatness vs Goodness, Work vs Labor

Extreme stress tends to bring out extremes in human nature, both good and ill. The negative extremes stand out because of how destructive and sad they can be. So much unnecessary struggle and suffering is the cost of a stressed-out society, especially seen in high inequality (Keith Payne, Richard Wilkinson, Kate Pickett, etc). Yet at the same time, stress puts the psyche into overdrive to confront, tackle, and resolve problems. Consider how humans come together during catastrophes (Rebecca Solnit, A Paradise Built In Hell). This can even be true for long-term stress. For the lucky few who survive the harm and aren’t ground down by it, for those who escape the worst of oppression and persecution, the challenges of a dangerous and deranged society can occasionally induce greater levels and expression of cognitive functioning. This is part of the survival response. The brain goes into high gear because it has to in order to match demands, but running at the maximum all the time has massive costs and consequences to health and well-being. Individuals, segments of the population, or entire generations are sacrificed for group survival.

This might be similar to the underlying dynamic for the old observation about creative genius coinciding with ‘madness’: emotional instability, psychiatric disorders, alcoholism, drug addiction, etc. The data does show that neurodivergence corresponds with mental illness, as well as physical illness — those with autism and/or ADHD are more likely to have mood disorders, addictive behavior, psychosis, dementia, metabolic syndrome, etc. It also fits an observation made by Agner Fog in his scholarly tome, Warlike and Peaceful Societies. What he calls a regal society is a combination of RWA and SDO; maybe think of it as dominance authoritarianism, beyond run-of-the-mill group conformity alone. Kungic societies, on the other hand, are a combination of liberalism and egalitarianism. But the distinction between the two stands out in cultural output. Many of the greatest artists in history were products of regality. In regal societies, literature, music, art, and architecture tends to be perfectionist, complex, meticulous, ornate, embellished, luxurious, and pompous; often large, conspicuous, obtrusive, glorifying, monumental, and permanent; as well as rule-bound, precise, controlled, formulaic, stylized, and repetitive. Regality is like porn. We all know it when we see it. But as few of us Americans have ventured far out of regality, the kungic is less familiar to us.

Baiga Tribe in India is known for their art of tattooing or ‘Godna’. (Wikimedia Commons)

While the regal aspires to greatness, the kungic is often satisfied with mere goodness or else mere personal value. Regality is meant to impress and overwhelm or even intimidate, to make one feel small and insignificant in comparison, such as an Egyptian pyramid or medieval cathedral that towers over the individual and reaches up to the sky. The difference is particularly seen at the other extreme endpoint of kungic societies. That tends toward the personal and idiosyncratic, often impermanent or even transitory with no aspiration of it lasting for millennia, much less imposed upon eternity. Consider a traditional Zen garden where the patterns in the sand are meant to represent the shifting nature of reality, a monument only to emptiness and the intangible. Or more commonly, there is the widespread indigenous practice of tattoos, meant to only last as long as the body they adorn. To go further into the kungic might push us entirely into different territory. The example I always return to is that of the Piraha. Among known cultures, they appear to be one of the least stressed, traumatized, and mentally ill; as well as the least authoritarian, hierarchical, and punitive. Maybe that relates to why they also lack any native tradition of storytelling, art, and decoration. They don’t memorialize or cling to anything, don’t attempt to maintain collective memory — almost more Buddhist than Buddhists.

The world we know is the end product of centuries and millennia of regality. The remnants of all things kungic are so scant in the modern West, particularly in the modern US, to be almost incomprehensible. We generally assume that regality is the purpose of society, the height of civilization. We’ve been indoctrinated to revere greatness. Involving this insight, Fog argues that, “The regal periods in human history have not only produced war, tyranny, imperialism, slavery, cruelty, and mayhem, but also formed the preconditions for the highly developed society that we live in today. Most of the basic principles of law that are necessary for a civilized society to function today were developed in regal periods. Classical music, as well as many of the magnificent pieces of art and architecture that we are impressed by today, was created under the regal regimes of the past. We admire old fairy tales without realizing that they were written to glorify sovereign kings and emperors and to make unambiguous distinctions between friend and foe, between good and evil. And we enjoy the fruits of past scientific, technological, and political progress without thinking of the incredible hardship that made it possible.” An example of that is how the Cold War provoked a race between the USSR and the US to ever greater technological achievement and prowess, which included a concerted effort to mass educate the public in the STEM fields.

When I first read Fog’s book, that larger point of civilizational greatness stood out the most to me. While I was reading the section on art, I happened to be sitting in the domed atrium of the West Baden Springs Hotel. It’s about as regal as you can get. Located in southern Indiana, it’s an old resort area that once attracted a lot of money. It was a favorite location to visit by well known figures from politics, Hollywood, and organized crime. It was designed as an expression of privilege and power, of excessive wealth, extravagant inequality, and conspicuous consumption. The design, murals, statues, etc imitated the traditional style of European architecture that once would’ve been a symbol of aristocracy and nobility. But with its vaunting dome, it simultaneously was a modern architectural feat to inspire awe by it’s sheer magnitude.

West Baden Springs Hotel Atrium, built 1901. (Wikimedia Commons)

It’s not only that hunter-gatherers have never built such things nor would be able to. More importantly, they’d have no motivation to do so and likely couldn’t even imagine attempting it. One intriguing detail came up in a book I was reading lately. Generally, indigenous foragers are content to do as little labor as possible for survival. They’re usually societies of not only low stress but also low need. In particular when still living on traditional hunting lands, they don’t lack food and other resources to meet all their daily requirements. To maintain this healthy state, they use birth control to limit their populations to the carrying capacity of the environment they’re in. They’re incentivized to live in balance with the ecosystem and its constraints, not to endlessly strive for ever greater achievements, not to push the furthest extreme of consumption and destruction (i.e., Wetiko). This lifestyle allows them to labor far less than either farmers or industrialized moderns (Marshall Sahlins, The Original Affluent Society). Most of their labor is casual and social, particularly emphasizing the latter. It’s often more about a community solidifying its ties through shared activity, such as group songs and chants.

This reminds me of an old conservative fear, as typically trotted out as a critique of the welfare state. Though I’ve dismissed it in the past, I now recognize there may be a kernel of truth to it. The right-wing has often fallen into moral panic over human laziness, the belief that people wouldn’t work unless forced to and extrinsically rewarded with money, prestige, authority, privilege, etc. And of course, unless there is punishment for those who refuse to work or refuse to do the work that’s available — go down into that dark mine where you’ll get black lung or else your family will be homeless and starve. A major purpose for privatizing and destroying the commons was to deny people access to natural resources and so deny them the ability to take care of their own needs naturally, as humans have done for time immemorial. It’s part of creating and enforcing artificial scarcity. The capitalist class rightly understands that no one would freely choose to work in a factory, a data center, a warehouse, a big box store, etc. It’s not the kind or degree of labor we humans evolved for.

That’s why capitalism requires coercion, and also why it’s long been understood a free society isn’t possible with high inequality. Related to that, without threats of desperation, without enslavement or wage slavery, few humans would willingly participate in building palaces for royalty, skyscrapers for plutocrats, battleships for empires, or whatever else. And without an unfree working class to do their bidding and take care of the needs of the privileged, there couldn’t be sustained a class of architects, masons, artisans, and other related professionals to dedicate their lives to such massive projects. Specifically, a caste- or class-based society creates a privileged elite that has the free time, resources, opportunities, and support to sit around thinking about ‘great’ things. Without the suffering masses, there wouldn’t be professional politicians, generals, CEOs, tycoons, bankers, judges, lawyers, celebrities, etc. It would even be hard to maintain an intelligentsia of journalists, authors, philosophers, scientists, public intellectuals, artists, etc.

SpaceX CRS-14 Falcon 9 rocket lifts off. (Wikimedia Commons)

Vanity and Narcissism or Progress and Public Good

This is partly what is meant about Make America Great Again. It’s a desire for a great empire that’s capable of taking great actions, of forcing their greatness on the world — all guided by great (cis-hetero, white) men, of course. As an example, public wealth and resources are used to build Elon Musk’s rockets and satellites, as a demonstration of Western power, capacity, and supremacy. It’s largely irrelevant why we’re spending so much money to feed the narcissism of the already wealthy. There is no evidence that such activities are a net benefit to humanity and the planet. Every time a rocket is launched, more of the atmosphere is literally burned up. The motivation of the aspiring technofeudalists seems to be simply the fantasy of building space resorts and havens for themselves to escape to, as the world is literally decimated. In some ways, these elites apparently define their own greatness according to how much destruction they can cause, as part of an accelerationist vision of supposed creative destruction. But they mainly focus on the destruction part with the assumption that the creativity, presumably useful and beneficial, will follow later.

The point is that something like a rocket ship proves the greatness of not only the elite but of all society that the elite get credit for. It’s not a matter of a good reason for doing it, just that it can be done. It’s a vanity project. All of regality is about collective vanity, the reason group narcissists like MAGA evangelicals are drawn to follow individual narcissists like Donald Trump. The laboring classes are supposed to be satisfied knowing they’re part of the greatness. Similar to the wages of whiteness for racists, these are the wages of imperialism offered to imperial subjects. It’s supposed to be a psychological and social compensation for their miserable lives, as if all their sacrifices go to a greater cause. Unlike the oppressed and brutalized that are the targeted victims in the permanent underclass and in foreign countries, at least the favored imperial subjects in the heart of the empire get to participate in a shared identity of greatness. They get to watch the martial parades and hear about the great wars and victories of the imperial military. Or they get to watch a rocket launch into space to prove and demonstrate they’re defeating the commies.

Yet there is also a genuine sense of human progress. Not all of this aspirational greatness is narrow-minded self-praise. American imperialism, during the Cold War, had an air of leading the world into a bright future. Many Americans and even non-Americans were persuaded and inspired by that vision of greatness, in many ways utopian. It wasn’t merely about getting the first human to the moon but what it meant to have developed science and technology to such a degree that it was possible at all. If that could be accomplished, then maybe there were no limits to what humanity could do. It’s similar to why Romans could feel proud of what their own empire accomplished with highly advanced structures (Coliseum), infrastructure (roads, aqueducts, etc), and trade networks (pony express-style system, largest fleet of boats, etc). The Romans really had achieved feats of the likes never before seen. To a degree, there was a validity to that pride, if it comes before the fall.

Roman Colosseum. (Wikimedia Commons)

Even amidst authoritarian evil, people can feel uplifted in striving toward improvement, betterment, and progress. The Nazis exhibited this. They did more than just persecute and kill millions of people. Until self-destructing in a blaze of their military greatness, the Nazi government had resurrected the economy (e.g., erased national debt), improved conditions for the working class (e.g., German Joy), rebuilt infrastructure (e.g., Autobahn), and so much else. It’s why so many older Germans persisted in feeling nostalgic about the Nazis, long after World War II ended. The Nazis also had been the leading researchers in the world in numerous fields, from organic farming to cancer treatment. It’s true their organic farms were operated with slave labor, but at least Nazi soldiers got to eat high quality organic food. On a more interesting note, the Nazi leadership protected Otto Warburg, a cancer researcher who was Jewish and openly gay (Sam Apple, Ravenous). One official explained that they did so not only for the good of Germany but for the good of the world. By the way, Warburg’s theory increasingly looks like it might be correct (Metabolic Theory of Cancer: Past and Present).

It’s not unlike how the United States only became the new world leader of scientific research when it too became an empire, in enforcing Pax Americana. No other social system other than goliaths, as Luke Kemp calls them in Goliath’s Curse, can rally such vast resources and direct them toward targeted ends. Or at least, I can’t think of a counterexample, other than some smaller-scale regal societies like the Renaissance city-states. Part of it is that, when regality rules, many brilliant and talented individuals are drawn to the center of Goliaths. That’s why, during the height of Hellenic culture in the Alexandrian Empire, so many of the greatest ‘Greek’ philosophers, physicians, and teachers weren’t even ethnically Greek. And it’s precisely in concentrating so much human potential in one place that forms the creative hubs that potentially ratchets up dynamic innovation (Richard Florida, The Rise of the Creative Class). But the losers in this equation experience brain drain (Richard Florida, The Flight of the Creative Class). Once again, it’s not exactly clear it’s a net gain for humanity overall.

This is where the liberal and egalitarian have a strong counter-argument. What is all this greatness for? What purpose does it serve and to what end or whose benefit? In response to MAGA authoritarian rule, it’s not only a critique of what kind of greatness this is and whether or not it’s really great at all. More important, why prize greatness of any sort over all else? Why not, instead, seek to Make America Good Again? My point would be simply to note that, for whatever reason, so often the public good is a response to dark times. If not for the 1929 stock market crash and Great Depression, there wouldn’t have been the public demand to have elected Franklin Delano Roosevelt nor the political will to have enacted his New Deal, along with Lyndon B. Johnson’s Great Society following it, nor Richard Nixon’s shockingly radical progressivism. The post-war liberal consensus was a product of mass failure and strife that demanded a collective effort of both greatness and goodness. The US became the shining city on the hill. But the point is that it was the goodness that justified the greatness.

Theodore Roosevelt visits Washington, D.C., 1914-05-26. (Wikimedia Commons)

Only a generation earlier, the same pattern had occurred. The first Roosevelt presidency, that of Teddy, was in response to the Gilded Age and the conflict it spawned during the Populist Era. That’s what jumpstarted Progressivism in the first place. Though very much a product of regal authoritarianism and plutocracy, TR as a right-wing Progressive carried forward some sense of noblesse oblige, the ideal of moral greatness that was demanded of the leadership, at a time of crisis when many worried the elite no longer were able to rule well (The Crisis of Identity). But he also understood that the public good transcended identitarianism, including racial supremacy (Brian Kilmeade, Teddy and Booker T.), and partisanship (Confession of Faith; Socialism, II — Where We Can Work with Socialists; & Theodore Roosevelt, an Autobiography; see Capitalists Learning From Socialists). He was willing to be a great leader and to accept sacrifices. Like LBJ understood later about desegregation (“I think we just delivered the South to the Republican Party for a long time to come.”), TR realized that forcing political and economic reforms would come at a cost, specifically that trust-busting would lose him re-election. But that didn’t stop him. Rather than promoting his own personal greatness, he sublimated his identity into the greatness of the American nation as an aspiring empire.

It wasn’t only imperialism, though. Having had a sickly childhood, TR personally identified with the public health crisis that had been crippling society, not to mention having caused so much harm and death. [Tellingly, his nephew FDR also dealt with major health issues. This might be what allowed these figures to act as counter-elites.] In that period, many Americans believed America could and should do better. It was akin to how the catastrophe of the American Civil War helped promote an emerging national identity that coincided with national projects: railroads, national museums, land grant colleges, etc. Heading into the 20th century, a new period of large-scale projects came on the scene, partly inspired by nation-wide protest movements and strikes. There was no singular identity of being American prior to the US having become an imperial goliath, and it was a new national citizenry that could imagine national greatness. But it also inspired major projects at all levels of government, such as the Milwaukee municipal socialists being the first to build a sewage system for the entire city population, not limited to the wealthy areas. All that we take for granted now was once a radical proposal.

Emil Seidel, first socialist mayor in US, running mate of Eugene V. Debs. (Wikimedia Commons)

Great Problems Require and Inspire Great Solutions

Only great civilizations can achieve such greatness. But then again, only great civilizations need to do so at all. That’s because they’ve often created the problems they needed to solve or overcome. If not for mass urbanization exacerbated by mass industrialization, there wouldn’t have been mass malnourishment and disease epidemics. Obviously, hunter-gatherers don’t need to develop and construct a complex sewage system. It’s a non-issue. But also, under normal conditions while maintaining traditional diets and lifestyles, most indigenous people maintain high levels of health and so aren’t immunocompromised. They don’t require grand solutions to problems that they simply prevent from ever occurring. Most of the worst harms indigenous people experience come from outsiders: settler colonialism, conflict, war, genocide, encroachment, poaching, resource exploitation, and introduction of infectious diseases. Indigenous Americans, for example, had no STDs until Europeans came along. And malaria, likely as one of the many deadly diseases that originated in farming communities, only later spread to wild mosquito populations.

To shift gears, let’s descend from the stratosphere of greatness. The same basic principle applies at all levels and, potentially, in all societies. During times of extreme duress and challenge, there sometimes can be an impulse to pursue entirely new courses of action, often what initiates the move toward regality and the formation of goliaths. It reminds me of something Daniel Everett said. Trained as a linguist, he came to study the Pirahas as a missionary, with the hope of translating the Bible into their language. While being trained at a Bible college, a professor told him that a people can only be saved after they’re made to feel lost. The problem with the Pirahas is that they don’t feel lost, they don’t have any major problems that need to be solved. They are comfortable and content. But if you introduced some diseases, eliminated their natural resources, and deforested their territory, you certainly could make them severely and despairingly lost and hence suddenly in need of salvation from the civilizing process (Norbert Elias). That’s why colonial projects have almost always involved destroying indigenous cultures, lifestyles, and food systems; while forcing onto them the dominator’s religion and diet (see note about Charles Darwin at the end of Ancient Dietary Ideology Persists).

Pirahas of Brazil. (Wikimedia Commons)

As the reader might sense, the author is somewhat of two minds. We modern Westerners live in the accrued gains and consequences of centuries-long imperial and national greatness, as part of ruling global superpowers, their alliances, and trade networks. So much that the liberal-minded love about creative hubs and big cities is all the cultural greatness — beautiful buildings, museums, art galleries, libraries, universities, theatres, concert halls, ornamental gardens, public parks, etc — that accretes to and concentrates in such places. But we typically don’t think about what was lost in gaining that greatness, what horrors preceded and impelled its being built. That can be seen in the treasure trove of nearly every major Western museum that is filled with the stolen loot from past pillaging. In one sense, regal goliaths can be centers of creativity and innovation, but more often than not they simply pilfer the creativity and innovation of other societies, such as with the brain drain phenomenon. The brilliance and talent that was supported, promoted, and honed in another country simply gets siphoned off. Many great empires end up becoming dependent on a constant influx of human capital and culture of trust from elsewhere, as they eat their own seed corn. As Agner Fog notes, regality requires constant expansion and exploitation or else it collapses in on itself. Goliaths are never sustainable long-term.

It’s not that there is never an early period of genuine greatness when collective ambition dynamically transforms a society and propels it into becoming a goliath. But that eventually results in a lazy ruling elite that, in being used to feeding at the public trough, takes their wealth and power as a privilege that doesn’t need to be earned or justified. Contrast the Roman Republic to the Roman Empire. The Roosevelt administrations represented the equivalent as an American Republic, whereas Donald Trump’s MAGA is clearly in the stage of imperial decline. That was evoked so blatantly in the words of Jeffrey Epstein, a native-born product of the American Empire. In a 2009 email to psychologist Roger Schank, “This is the way the jew make money.. and made a fortune in the past ten years„ selling short the shippping futures„ let the goyim deal in the real world” (one might think the elite would know how to write and spell). And talking to Bill Gates two years later in 2011, Epstein asked “how do we get rid of poor people as a whole?” Once they’ve used up the peasants and drained them dry, once they’ve stolen all the public wealth and resources, once they’ve parasitized and enshittified (Corey Robin) the entire economy, what do they do with all the useless eaters that get in the way and will cause problems. This is the likely reason Epstein was obsessed with organizing and funding AI projects.

Donald Trump supporters storming the U.S. Capitol Building on January 6, 2021. (Wikimedia Commons)

That’s the strongest critique toward the idealization of and nostalgia about greatness. In the end, if a regal goliath lasts long enough, it will eventually collapse under the weight of its own greatness turned decadent, corrupt, and malignant. On a rare occasion, a goliath can persist for many centuries. But typically, they’re already facing the signs of their own mortality in a century or two; according to the data analysis Kemp discusses. So, in the case of the United States, we are already past our prime. American imperial aspirations began with the post-revolution Indian Wars (one of my ancestors, as a soldier, was already helping to militarily genocide the natives in Kentucky as early as 1790), the Federalist’s Constitution (Federalist’s “Vigorous Executive” and Project 2025’s Imperial Presidency), and President Thomas Jefferson’s Louisiana Purchase (stolen land of imperial territory transferred to the young nation-state).

We on the broad left have good reason to wonder if something else is possible. But it’s not necessarily an all-out attack on the concept of greatness as inspirational and aspirational excellence, collective or personal. In the argument being made here, there really is something about a certain level of stress that, under certain circumstances, can induce an increased development and expansive (or at least divergent) manifestation of human potential. That’s seen as well in the most small-scale of societies. Indigenous people are often initiated into the shamanic path after sickness, a near death experience, or some kind of trauma. One factor or another intervened to shift their psychological development in an atypical direction to bring forth otherwise buried abilities and aptitudes. When one capacity is harmed or lost, other capacities can be developed to a greater degree as compensatory mechanism (e.g., a blind person who can echolocate objects and/or feel the gravity of the moon).

One might note, by the way, the Piraha don’t even have shamans — that might indicate how healthy, low stress they are. It reminds me of something I read about shamanism. Belief in spirits, demons, etc usually coincides with higher disease rate. On a related note, the nutritionist Mary Ruddick, in following in the footsteps of Weston A. Price, has visited healthy traditional populations around the world. Like Price, her focus is on diet and nutrition. And like Price, she hasn’t only observed overall better physical health and immunity but also better mental health and prosocial behavior. She made one additional observation. While traveling somewhere in rural Africa, likely during one of her visits with the Hadza, she talked to teachers in rural schools. One thing she inquired about was autism, specifically how common it was in their students. The teachers told her they had never observed it. These were professionally-trained teachers who knew about autism, but just had never personally seen it in that area of rural Africa.

The pivotal paraphernalia of a shaman is the headgear called wasang in the Limbu language. It manifests the notion of soul flight. The picture was taken in Mangshila during a ritual. (Wikimedia Commons)

Genetic Potential and Neurodiversity

We are overflowing with immense potential, but all of that evolved as contingent responses to diverse environmental conditions that have shaped the physiology, neurocognition, psychology, and behavior of homo sapiens. It requires some causal or contributive factor to epigenetically tap a specific potential. Otherwise, it continues to lie fallow and unseen, as if it doesn’t exist. That fits in with my argument about neurodivergence. As a potential, of course there is all kinds of diverse cognitive capacity in every human, the possible ways our minds could operate. But there is a reason why modern forms of neurodivergence correlate, both positively and bidirectionally, with higher rates of toxic stress (chronic and/or severe), adverse childhood experiences (ACEs), trauma, chemical toxic exposures, unhealthy diet, gut issues, microbiome imbalances, metabolic syndrome, autoimmune disorders, cancer, dementia, mitochondrial dysfunction, brain inflammation, psychosis, mood disorders, etc (Chris Palmer, Brain Energy; Nadine Burke Harris, The Deepest Well; Lawson R, Wulsin, Toxic Stress; & Aimie Apigian, The Biology of Trauma). We should be unsurprised that every major type and category of physical disease, neurocognitive condition, and psychiatric disorder, along with numerous health issues, are all simultaneously increasing.

My own original theory is that, when times are most uncertain, human biology will increase the varieties of genetic expression in the population; and maybe increase mutations as well (e.g., autistics have more de novo mutations). Normally suppressed and invisible traits will appear and proliferate. It’s a defense mechanism, especially at the collective level. Most of those traits won’t be beneficial and will simply cause the individual problems, neither being helpful to anyone around them. But even if only a small percentage offer some immense and unique advantage in the face of a threat or rival, it could mean the difference of a population surviving the crisis or not. During the worst of times, out-of-the-box thinking and behavior could suddenly become supreme or, at least, given some tolerance, leeway, and priority. This might, to a degree, explain why technological progress skyrockets during wartime. It’s not only that the neurodiverse might become more common but also such people can become highly prized because they can, when the right individual is paired with the right problem, get amazingly effective, successful, and unexpected results. One imagines the scientific teams developing the atomic bomb were packed full of neurodivergents with highly specialized minds.

The “Baker” Explosion, part of Operation Crossroads, a US Army nuclear test at Bikini Atoll, Micronesia, on July 25, 1946. (Wikimedia Commons)

This is one of those personal lines of inquiry, as I’m a neurodivergent of some sort; possibly on the autism spectrum but almost certainly ADHD, if undiagnosed beyond learning disability, borderline thought disorder, and major depressive disorder. My thinking, in any case, is highly atypical. And as is often the case, many of my family and friends are neurodiverse in their own unique ways — we freaks tend to flock together. One of my neurodiverse friends also has struggled with many difficulties and challenges from childhood onward, in many ways far worse than I have. But in both of our cases, it was having been overwhelmed by problems at points in our lives that drove us to develop extreme levels of neurodivergent abilities. The thing is that, as a radical left-winger, I don’t have any desire to turn my neurodivergence into an inherent identity that is politicized as genetically-determined. That’s not my style, nor does it fit the evidence.

It was precisely having such severe problems that forced my friend and I to develop skills of problem-solving, although in entirely different ways. While strongly ADHD, she has some more common features of autism such as underdeveloped cognitive empathy, which is to say she has a hard time with accurately reading people’s state of mind and behavioral motivations. She makes up for that with highly developed pattern recognition and situational awareness where she models people more from an external approach. Instead of building models of individuals in and of themselves, she builds models of the worlds in which humans inhabit. These world models are visually real to her, in that she can see them in her minds eye where she can investigate and interact with them, can shift and alter them. It’s like Doctor Manhattan’s skill of mechanistically pulling apart matter and putting it together again, sometimes in new form.

The main cast of the 2009 film adaptation of Watchmen. (Wikimedia Commons)

My own neurodivergence went in an entirely other direction. Whereas my friend tended toward anxiety-driven manic phases, I’ve spent most of my life as a monopolar depressive combined with and exacerbated by introversion. I see the whole world as if from inside it, even to the point of imaginatively crawling into people’s heads and looking out through their eyes. It’s not that this was a talent I was born with, since I was actually rather obtuse when younger. I didn’t grasp people at all and the social world was beyond me. But I overcompensated to the degree I now have far more cognitive empathy than anyone I’ve personally known. Combined with social science study, this comes from decades of depressive rumination, to the point of obsessive-compulsion. I can expend amazing amounts of time and effort contemplating what someone else would consider a minor incident or interaction. My mind never stops. I worry over little details a thousand times until I know every facet of it, captured the essence of it, and internalized it within my cognitive repertoire and mapping.

This is what trained me to be a great researcher. I’m intensively and thoroughly focused, in ADHD style, when I’m on the trail of some topic or issue that my curiosity catches scent of. But like my friend, I’m additionally a master of pattern recognition. I’ve gathered a million facts, ideas, observations, insights, speculations, theories, etc. Then I’ve worked them over until I’ve linked them into a immense web of thought, usually with various overlapping hypotheses I’m working on to explain it all. It’s not uncommon for me, while thinking about a book I’m in the middle of, to dredge up a thought I had decades earlier in my life. I never drop anything, constantly gathering it all together and reinforcing the links. Talk to me about almost anything and I’ll instantly throw out numerous related pieces of info, references, and such. An article like this one here is a product of this never-ending process.

The point is what my friend and I are capable of is the product of specific environmental conditions that compelled us in our respective directions. And it came at an extreme cost for each of us, both mentally and physically. During my lowest periods, I barely survived my depression, as I had near daily suicidal ideation for years, including serious suicidal attempts. I came to obsessive overthinking because I was desperately trying to find my way out of a dark place. One of the intriguing aspects of depression is that it perfectly matches sickness behavior. I’ve come to realize that depression isn’t anything by itself but simply the mind and body’s way of trying to contain and solve a problem. But in my case, it took me decades to even begin to grasp some of the exact underlying factors that were involved (e.g., malnourishment from deficiencies (animal fats, fat-soluble vitamins) & excesses (carbs, seed oils)). In the process of escaping the clutches of depression, I developed an impressive toolkit of cognitive abilities, none of which I’d now possess if my life had been as pleasant and comfortable as the Piraha. Is that a price worth paying for greatness of a sorts? I don’t know, but I have my doubts.

The round barn at Hancock Shaker Village. (Wikimedia Commons)

Conclusion: Eustress and Alternatives

Let’s return to the collective level. I recently watched the biopic musical, The Testament of Ann Lee, about the early leader of the Shakers. As my great grandfather was an orphan raised in a Shaker community, I’ve long been fascinated by them and other kinds of communes, religious (Pietists, Hutterites, etc) and secular (Owenites, East Wind Community, etc). Mainly from the period preceding the American Revolution to the period following the American Civil War, the Shakers were a religious group that grew and flourished during times of strife, conflict, and uncertainty. But in the 19th century, though renown for their strictness, they became famous as the leading inventors and innovators of agricultural methods, seed cultivation, farming technology, and architectural design. They also had one of the largest creative production of music of any religion in history. One might also note they often took in society’s outcasts, and so it’s likely they ended up with a disproportionate number of neurodivergents.

Living in harsh times again, maybe we on the broad left can take some lessons from all of this. It’s sometimes when the world seems at its most dire that there can also be the strongest hope for something different to emerge. As proven by scholarship (history, archaeology, anthropology, ethnography, etc), humans are one of the most adaptable species on the planet and so, if not always thriving, we do have a knack for surviving in amazing ways. In a moment like this as the old order feels like it’s collapsing all around us, it’s the scenario of risk being opportunity. For inspiration, check out Rojava or Democratic Autonomous Administration of North and East Syria (DAANES) in autonomous northeastern Syria. It’s the application of social ecology (Murray Bookchin) as part of democratic confederalism that joins together multicultural communities. There is also Zomia, the region of Southeast Asia that has resisted rule by states and empires for millennia.

The autonomous administration is supporting efforts for workers to form cooperatives, such as this sewing cooperative in Derik. (Wikimedia Commons)

It’s good to be reminded that, while regality is treated as the norm and goliaths act like they rule the whole world, there remains numerous independently self-governed people. Rather than mere remnants of the past, those living counter-examples might point us to a different future. Then I’d put that into the context of the rest. We neurodivergents who have often felt out of place and unappreciated in the world as it has been might find that our thinking styles — if perceived as crazy, dysfunctional, and antisocial — might, in fact, have much to contribute. For those of us who have already paid the price, it would be nice to make better use of our hard-earned skills. But at the same time, it would be even nicer to move toward a less deranged society that didn’t push people into a victimized survival mode of neurocognitive extremes. If maybe it’s my crazy liberal-minded ‘openness’, I’d like to imagine we could find a balance point of eustress and so find a way to release more of our potential without so many casualties. While surely not fitting right-wing forced work of elite rule, I suspect more people would be willing to collectively labor toward a worthy society, if ever given the opportunity.