Extend

 Salam.

I still can’t believe that we are about to depart from 2020, heading to 2021 in just about 48 hours. 😳

Alhamdulillah we managed to go through 2020. I have high expectation towards 2021 especially with the vaccine is already around. Things may not be back to previous normal, and I hope the adjusting bit will be easy for everyone. 

Let’s talk about the cliche since we are approaching new year, which is new year’s resolution. Haha

First, consistency, in the small acts especially. Like if I am too lazy to run, I can still make do with brisk walk and it is good enough.

Second, to be kind, especially to me myself. Lowering the expectation is one of the thing that I thought will help to help me reducing mental load.

Third, to really be cautious with my words and action. I hope I can only talk the good words that will only benefit others and me. Aminnn.

Actually there are more on the list but I thought some of it would be personal, so let’s have that written elsewhere. 

What I am grateful of with 2020?

First, this year really taught me to have full reliance to my god. 

Second, health is important especially mental health. Some people can handle stress well, but that does not mean that that is applicable to everyone.

Third, the power of doa. Having seen the doa and wishes from people that I am closed with granted, the small trivial one, I am so humbled and touched and even excited to pray more. 

Forth and totally irrelevant, working from home make me realize that my housing area is consistently having renovation works, especially when I am about to unmute my microphone in the virtual meeting. Piling works at nearby construction area is not helping too. I might need to have my ear tested pronto. Haha

Bye!

Bittersweet

Salam.

If there is one good thing I gain about 2020, is to stop being curious on why things happened. I used to classify most of events that happened to either me or my family or my friends, under a few categories. The naive me playing God last time had concluded that this event is due to these person needs some reminder in his or her life, that event maybe bad karma because he or she did something nasty, another event maybe because he did good and he got rewarded and these ‘sin/punishment/reward profiling’ applies to me too. I was always curious on the reasoning behind everyhing, especially if I did fall into circumstances that I did not favour, against my will. Almost instantly, I classified that as punishment to me. 

Thanks to 2020, I think I had spent my money and time on a few good books and I had learned that everyone is bound to have things happen in their life,  be it favourable or not favourable. No escape to the emotional roller coaster, at some point everyone just had to endure it in their life. I no longer curious on why things happen, since I kind of figured out the basic rule that everyone will be tested. The timing and form might differ, but these events, trials, tribulations are bound to happen. The mystery behind the occurence, safe to say now that it is for the best, a taste in life that I need to experience to make me better, no less. 

I really really really hope 2021 will be a lot better than 2020. Hope everyone is safe and take care! 🙃