As a senior in college, I’m coming close to a new turning point in my life. Actually, I’ve been a senior in college for about three years now so the importance is not in the status. It’s the fact that it is soon about to end but even without that, the past two years have just been a series of changes that has been spiraling in the last couple of months.

I’m not a a creature of habit and everyday always seems to be different. There are good and bad aspects to this fact. Stability has never been my forte and in some ways I don’t want that. It’s not good to be so complacent or settle ourselves into a normal routine without ever experiencing discomfort.

It is only in discomfort that we grow and for myself, writing continues to be one of them.

Grammar, spelling, diction, and organization of thoughts are something I still struggle with. In point of fact, my struggle with writing is probably a reflection of my struggles in life. I’ve never been able to take the route everyone else has or succeed in the same way as others.

My primary problem is perspective and people. Being in the public eye or doing anything that can have an audience of just a single person has a huge impact on how I do things or feel about myself. If it were up to me, I ‘d like to be able to walk outside with an invisible shield, go through my daily activities and interests without a single person ever seeing me or the results of anything that I do. Clearly that’s not exactly a normal or even possible wish. I can’t spend my life hiding and nor should I do so even if it were possible. There’s a lot to be gained and learned when doing things out in the open.

With the summer approaching, I will be having a lot of time on my hands and a new life to begin. It’s time that I get over my fears one by one and plunge headfirst into everything I do. I know it’s a process so I won’t expect too much of myself but I figure this is a start. I’m not sure what I’ll be writing about, how long each post will be or whether it’ll form any single format.

I just know that whatever it is, I want it to be an unadulterated and unedited reflection of me.