happy anniversary! xoxo!

assalamualaikum...

dear abah & mak, happy anniversary to both of u! 28 years of mrge, dem, lame sgttt....! rily admire both of u, u guys were married more then ever, seriously, if u guys out ter cud hv a look on how my parents are so into each other, u wil laugh ur heart out, they r like bestfriends! ^_^

smoga ikatan yg telah dibina selama 28 tahun ini berkekalan hingga ke syurga,insyallah.. *quoting q nye ucapan dlm kad,hehe..* we brothers n sisters cud never ask for a better parents, u guys r the best! sory, bagi kad biase2 jek, but we family rily enjoyed our lamb shoulders,smoked salmon,triple play n glasses of sejuk2 drinks at chillis smlam kan?kan?kan?kan? best! best! *rase nk mkn camtuh hari2,owh junkie junkie!*

aniways, abah & mak, happy anniversary!!! thnk u for everything,muuaaxxxxxhhkkksssss!!!

the reasons behind everything good in my life ~ them.

TLC

assalamualaikum....

hari ni masih lg dlm mood nk tulis entri pnjang b'jela, n masih lg dlm mood nk story mory psal zman kanak2 ribena, zman2 di skolah,esp kt tepeng *actly,taiping,but locally pronounced as TEPENG,kicking! =p*...

me dulu after upsr skola kt mrsm dungun *kg abahku terchenta!!*..then after pmr, transit jap kt mrsm muar@muo *n now saye nk ngaku saye nih junior dr syeikh muszaphar sbb die ensem..owh ~* hehe..pastu baru b'mule episod 2tahun yg byk sgt bitter sweet memories kt mrsm tepeng!

mrsm tepeng, known as a school yg pentingkn academic excellence n me was no exception. not dat i ws excellent, but me x t'lepas drpd dikerah otak utk blajo siang mlam *blueegghhhh* memandangkn parents aku beriya2 sgt nk aku blajo sains bagai, aku dgn separuh rela smbung blaja kt tepeng, wlaupun hati nih m'berontak nk gi skola biase kt umah n amik arts stream, so bole jd lawyer, tp xpe la, at the end,alhamdulillah, jadik gak lawyer...

tp bukan itu nk diblogkan ari nih.. ari nih aku nk jd sentimental@blues@kenangan MODE...memories kt tepeng, x byk yg aku ingat psal study *obviously lah kan!* but here, i met true friends, repeat, friendS, ramai okayy...satu geng, n we ol nih sekepala amat, tp sekepala yg menentang arus norma kehidupan kt mrsm tepeng nih *haaaa...aku dh start ayat nk wat karangan nih....*

mula2, ade 6 org..me,paa,chueda,nopi,fadot ngan yan...kitorng sume satu dorm,dipisahkn oleh cube yg comei2 kt blok cempaka tuh..pastu qlod msuk,then nuai,then anne,atork,ela,cindai,yati..hmm...ade sape2 lg ek...rasenye sume dh sebut....

bdak2 laki pnggil kitorang TLC....derang ckp kitorng nih Team Lagak Cun..hahahhaa...guling2 kitorang dulu time dpat tau yg kitorang sume ade name geng...tp thnx to Dewa *name geng dak laki yg bg name kt kitorng, lagi sejuta kali x leh blah kn name geng diorang? =p *, we ol suke sgt dgn name TLC tuh..heheh...kekal smpai skrg ^_^ n i must say, the name is one of the reasons why we girls are glued to each other rite until now.. BIG muuaaahhhxxxxxx!

hmm...byk yg TLC dh buat same2...one thing dat make we sekepala was dat we were so much different from others at our skool. we were different in our characters *evryone is*. but that differences were the same among us..hmm paham x? mcm mane ekk nk xplain...

let me put it dis way..like i said b4, we girls sekepala yg menentang arus norma kehidupan kt mrsm tepeng nih...kt tepeng, students were trained to be academic oriented, i mean, we girls pun study gak but mrsm tepeng nih ade its own way of training n ajar the students how to excel n it is a MUST. tp kitorang x suke dgn benda tuh *especially aku* darah muda remaja, so to rebel was the only way out.

we looked for things dat we like to do most to deviate the kebencian inside us with the academic-excellence-oriented-system. me, i drained myself to debating n bahas stuff *mr.red ~~..oppss...tgedik lak*, nopi & qlod-sports, paa,cuda,yan,fadot,atork-lepaking around but stil sooo brainy, same mcm nopi&qlod. anne,gediking around,hehe..but not slutting ye, but comeling around ^_^. n the other girls,campo2 doing stuff n ol.

but the most important thing was we stick to each other, stood up for each other's back. gadoh2 dgn segala bagai kuasa autoriti kt skola tuh jgn cite la kan, warden,cikgu disiplin,haja mydin,cikgu homeroom,cikgu x homeroom,cikgu pj,n paling penting bwp,ldp *ala2 prefect skola rendah tu la* yg sebok kejar kitorng sane sini *n kitorang pon layan je la kn,diorng maen kejar2,kitorng pon lari la..weeeeee*

smpai satu tahap ni, cikgu cikgi dh x tau nk watpe ngan kitorang, diorng pisahkn kitorng dr duk same2 kt 1 dorm..ade yg kene pindah bawah,pindah dorm sbelah, tukar bilik,mcm2 la..credit to cuda la kan, aku rase mcm sume dorm batch kitorang pun die penah rase,heheh...tp tu la silap cikgu, diorang wat camtu, lg btambah hantu la kan kitorang, bak kate paa, makin nk mengembangkan pengaruh TLC kt ahli2 laen. =p

tp betapa nakalnye pun kitorang, kitorang stil x abaikan study 100% *mungkin kitorang abaikan 79.3% sahaje..hehe..* x caye? buktinye sudah ade,alhamdulillah....5 of us are doctors to be, 3 engineers, 1 geochemist, 1 architect, me loyar buruk, d others r in greatness as well.... alhamdulillah.........

buat cikgu2..kami mungkin x dpat spenuhnya keberkatan ilmu...tp senakal-nakal kami, kami hanya menjadi diri sendiri...siapa tahu, kalau kami paksa diri kami ikut arus, kami akan tenggelam.....kami minta maaf atas segalanya....tapi kami harap, sekiranya ada student2 yg mcm kami, jgn lah be too hard on them...give them the freedom they want,with restrictions, of course.....

to TLC.....no word best to describe u girls! i just love u girls so much! mmg sume org benci kita dulu sbb kita wat hal sendiri, we were the black sheeps of mrsm tpg *tp comeeii okayyy...*, tp kita ade LIFE kt tmpat yg kureng best mcm mrsm tpg. kita ade each other! rase nk repeat lg, kite ade LIFE...*ok ok y, korang ade life..hehe =p*

kit kit or pu kit! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......ingat x? mmuuaaahhxxxxx!

big B for bosan...

assalamualaikum.........

bosannye hari ni............hari2 pun bosan tp skrg lg bosan.........me dh lame x jmpe mr.red..........me x sabar nk cuti d whole week in 2 weeks time n off to jakarta & bandung for our yearly fmly trip! *owh ee dearie,kesian ee x dpt ikut...xpe2,nxt yr we ol raye di bumi kangaroo itu ye?insyallah..*

owh ye,kak kay dh bjaya meninggalkan firm yg x brape sronok ni,melangkah ke mana pun we ol x pasti lg,tp pape pun, all d best to her,keep in touch ye hakak,jgn tondan2 sgt! =p

bosannye..................................hhmmm......y y, x baek mengeluh......astaghfirullahalazim...........

*b.......rily need u......... !_!*

jabatan pendaftaran negara

assalamualaikum...

heee............since mr.bon2 digambarkan lebih kpd sekor ank kucing dgn gaye jlan terkedek2..so i am now officially announcing that mr.bon2 from now on wil be known as mr.red, honoring his huge interest n passion for team liverpool.....*me glory glory united okaaayyyyyyy*

sgt JPN! ^_^

the 'shortest' 7 years..

assalamualaikum...

greetings! *style krismas sket2,hehe*...dh lame x update,bukan xde cite,tp xtau nk tulis mcm mane...aku x pndai mengayat,eheh..alasan menutup kemalasan semata2..tp hari nih mcm ade benda je nk tulis, xmo sad2 stories,tp nk story mory dlm entri nada menggedik..yeee...tepat skali,ini adalah entri psal boyfriend...so sape2 yg rase nk muntah,mane la tau kot2 weekend ari tuh byk mkan,heheh..get ready to puke guys! ^_^

hmm...i've been in few relationships b4,not dat im proud of any, but those days rily taught me things. but in the middle of those ordinary relationships wic i am now ready to say dat "they were my biggest mistakes", there is one relationship dat i nvr thought of having, wic i am happily experiencing it rite now.

if kak kay has her mr.lampard, cik aan wif her hubby mr.comot, nuai wif her bf mr.ir, i have my mr.bon2. *kawen pun x lagi dh have have lak,hehe*... mr.bon2? dun ask!

we used to be gud friends,back in mrsm tpg. owh,btw, mr.bon2 is my junior, 1 year by age. yes,i dun mind, he doesnt mind, we r hpy wif it..bak kate mak aku,janji agama bagus n hati baek,hehhe..skrg baru terase nk ikut ckap mak jd anak yg taatttt....

ok2,back to the story..as per his story,he first set his eyes on me in 2000. time tuh ade minggu bahasa mrsm semalaysia kt mrsm balik pulau. i was in mrsm dungun, he was in mrsm gerik, & our teams met in final 4 bahas. he said he was jalan2 around the academic building when he saw me rehearsing. cut the story short, he fall in love lah..heheh *baru form 2 tuh....hehehe*

so,dat was his first moment. mine was different. me first know bout him when i was in mrsm taiping n he still in mrsm gerik. we went to mrsm langkawi 4 bahas2 thing again in 2001 n at dat point of time, my teammates wic were his seniors in gerik told me dat ter's dis 1 junior who is so hebat in bahas n i shud go n watch him debating. n so i did. i said to myself, bole tahan jugak la, so nxt yr if he masuk tepeng, bole la join the team. i congratulated him n he x layan me okayyyy!

so 2002 came. he did join our team. he was the 3rd speaker n i ws the 1st speaker, dipisahkan oleh jep. *jefri khairil zabri,dimane ye anda skrg...* surprisingly, fr a person who x layan me at lgkawi, he was soooooo nice to me thruout the 1 year we had 2gether as teammates. blanje2 me, treat me mcm princess btol2, since i was the only girl in the team n d others suke buli2 me. i got the feeling he likes me but me jual mahal la kan.lg pun die junior, ehehe..tp skrg die bgtau yg die sbenarnye xnak ngorat pun *eleeeeee....x ngaku lak!*

2003,2004,2005 passed by without me knowing his whereabouts were....but he knew mine....

2006, we met again....hang around,but only once. i broke his heart 4 giving him false hope. *b..if i cud change evrything... !_!*

16th September 2007.
after a year, he called me. but now, he called from bintulu. he said he was in training @ cadetship wif MISC, as a marine engineer. we texted the whole day...n i remember shortly afta he buka puasa dat day, he called me, saying dat he's leavin 4 japan 4 two weeks n i said ok. n dat was it. nothing out of ordinary.

16th-30th september 2007.
i was in pain. i dun know why, i dun know wut ws it. but one thing i know 4 sure, i cant take him off my mind. all the memories keep coming back, the presents, the bahas trainings, the bahas travellings, the smiles, the laughs, the makan2, everything! i said 2 myself, maybe i get too carried away or in other word, perasan. x mgkin die suke btol2 kt aku sbb dh lame sgt dh, dulu tuh time budak2, skrg dh besar, die keje besar,gaji besar, msti dh ade awek,die call pun sbb nk tnye khabar,u know;catch up n stuff. *sigh....*

30th september 2007.
he ws in pasir gudang, his kapal masuk dry dock, ala mcm servis kapal la kirenye, mcm kete camtuh..afta abis keje, he called me, we sembang2 mcm biase, mcm kawan je, we laughed a lot like ol days, it was so nice at dat time..since it was puase month, we talked til sahur time n afta sahur, he said he has sumthin to tell me. n swear to God, at dat point of time, i didnt think of anythin pelik or perasan2, juz perasaan biase..

n tis is wut he said...

mr bon2: awak,saye rase saye kene bgtau awak nih..

me: ha,ape die, bgtau je la, suspen jek,skema lak.. >> see...me sngguh brutal, x ayu lgsung!

mr.bon2: selama 7tahun nih, saye pegi blajar kt merata tmpat,saye belayar b'bulan2, juz nk cari satu kekuatan. saye rase saye dh cukup kuat dh skrg n ape saje knytaan yg saye akn terima lepas ni, saye akn blapang dada..

me: ish..merepek ape nih..bgtau je la,mcm bahas pun ade la awak nih..

mr.bon2: saye sbenarnye y, saye syg kt awk. saye tau awk mmg tau tp sy x tau sy silap atau x
bila sy x bgtau awk selama 7thun ni. sy slalu cari jalan nk dekatkn diri dgn awk, tp awk slalu hilang..kali ni,sy tekad, sy kene bgtau awk, dr hari pertama sy tgk awk 7thun lepas smpai saat ni, sy x penah bhenti sygkan awk...dpan kaabah sy b'doa, dlm menangis sy b'doa, kt tgh2 laut sy b'doa, sy b'doa sy dpt bgtau awk benda ni, n hidup dgn awk smpai bila2...

me: . . . . . . . . . . . . .saye x tau nk ckap ape. . . . . . . . .

mr.bon2: xpe, xpyah ckp ape2, sy boleh terima apa saje jwpan, tipu lah klau saye ckap sy tak
mgharap, tp sy akan lebih dr bsyukur even klau just dpat b'kawan je dgn awk...sy tau awk takut nk involve dlm relationship lg tp biar sy bgtau awk lg skali, sy akn lebih dr bsyukur klau dpt kwan dgn awk...awk jgn takut k? awk kn brutal,hehhe...

me: *in tears*.......knp awk amik mase lama sgt....

mr.bon2: mgkin saye hebat bile b'bahas, tp sy mmg x pndai dlm benda2 ni..sy tgk frenster awk, tgk gmbr awk dgn x-bf awk, sy sedih, tp hati n naluri sy kuat, sy yakin,insyallah,awk mmg utk sy...bila sy doa dpan kaabah sy nk msuk tepeng utk jumpa awk Allah makbulkan,sy dh tau, insyallah,1 hari nnti, sy akn bsama awk...dah2,awk jgn rase takut or pelik dgn saye...kita kwn je dulu k?awk bole pikir,amik la masa selama mane pun yg awk nak. sy bole tnggu, 7thun pun bole, kacang je..ehehhe..>>cess mamat nih,blagak lak die,heheh...

me: *gelak...smiling...* ^_^ ok, sy akn bgtau awk apa yg sy pikir k..thnk u sbb bgtau sy sume ni
dlm kdaan yg wat sy selesa...nnti sy bgtau awk k? bye..assalamualaikum..





dat was it. wut did i answer him?


there ws no need for any answer.....




b'coz 2weeks after dat, i was in pasir gudang ^_^

mr.bon2 & i in the cool overalls
*lookin happy in that steaming wardrobe malfunction,hehe!*
my 1st 'field trip' to a huge tanker a.k.a kapal besau giler!
*entry on the field trip coming soon ^_^*








p/s: time kaseh krn membaca entri yg pnjang ini. sngguh ku x sangke ku bole type pjg2.hehe..to mr.bon2, senyum2, me love u!

what a day!

assalamualaikum...

hmmm..post header-"what a day!" but to be read in a sighing monotone...siriesly,hari ni mcm antara hari2 yg smngat dlm diri terbang jap *!_!*....

korang penah x rase mcm tetibe je dlm satu hari tuh, kita ada wat salah,kene mrah,org mrah,kita xde wat salah,org mrah gak tp rase x smngat tetibe sbb xde sbb..errkk..maksudnye,rase lemah tetibe,without knowing the reason why....hmm...today is my day...dah lame x rase mcm ni, the last time was a year ago, when he left me (but not for good ekk...*unsur gedik msih bsemangat*..left me for his sailing job (post in progress ^_^)....

ok ok, back to the real world,me rase so lemah sgt2, mcm ade salah satu soul dh tinggalkan jasad dlm bdan,maybe soul tuh merajuk,maybe soul tuh cari body laen,maybe soul tuh gi jlan2...ntah la... *mind me,me nk merepek,altho me know we ade 1 soul je*

to be exact,rase K.O.S.O.N.G................................................

ntah la....smga Dia berikan diri ini kekuatan............



as the world keeps spinning round, im standing still......

welcome meself!

assalamualaikum.....
cuba2 ekk...testing semata...

hi semua...this is the countless time of me creating blog, b4 this ade kt friendster, pastu malas nk update *mcm yg ni rajin je nk update*...so the blogs b4 this dh jd arwah dh la gamaknye..tp ini resolusi baru sempena tahun 2008 yg dh nk abis nih *azam akhir tahun =p*..saye yg akn rajin mengupdate blog di blogspot nih n joining thousands of others to pen my thoughts n inner feelings! *n sesekali menggedik,so hrap2,bole tahan muntah ituu yer*

so,yeay,selamat datang cik elya ezrin ke dunia blogspot! *sedey,kata2aluan utk diri sndirik* tp xpe,janji aku leh tulis mcm2 lepas nih smbil mengisi masa lapang kt opis..oppsss..hehe..

selamat bkenalan jugak kpd sape2 yg suke bace blog org yg x dikenali..xpe2,saye pun same,saye suke bace blog org yg sy x kenal jugakk =p.

to kak kay, frankly,akak yg kenalkn saye kt blogspot nih n org2 laen punye blog..antare (wlaupun x byk *eerkkk*) pengaruh baek yg akak bg kt saye..hehe..thnk u,mwaahhhhh!!!!

me welcoming meself! ^_^!!!