Call Me FICKLE but I am there to learn
Dunno if you all read my post about me resigning to do crafty… But here’s the juice…
After weighing in the tons of goodness and badness, I have decided to stay on…
For just many many reasons,
1. To basically learn as much as I want and as much as I could
2. I still wanna run my own agency in the future
3. Crafty for now, will be on a random basis
4. I might turn to selling insurance, MLM or anything at all.
5. I love my clients. The very reason for staying.
6. Surrounded by nice nice people in the office.
7. Just there to get my job done and don’t care about anything else
Gist of the story for me not handing in my resignation letter after all. See me as fickle, weak-minded and whatever you like but as long as I am happy, I hope you will be happy too to see me happy XD
This is what I want
The amount of contemplation going on in my life today is just messing me up BIG like BIG TIME…
I have been thinking what do I really want in life… Many a times it struck me to just “Haiya, just do it first until you find your calling”…
BUTTTTT……
It’s not so simple as I thought… Kept telling myself do this first and then move on when you found it… But then its just so annoying that I feel I might just miss out on things if I don’t go ahead with doing it…
This is like getting so so so so so so so so so so so so so SUSAHHHH… Now, I have just decided that Branding is not what I am looking for and just tendered my resignation as of date 25 August 2011… I seriously dislike being the middle person… I mainly wanna do strategy but I thought I chose here cos I will be able to learn a L.O.T. Little did I know that branding was still not as fun as advertising…
I miss my days in The Distillery | M&C Saatchi… I want to be a startegic planner… Being the middle man allows me to learn a lot of things but FOCUS is still much more important… As much as multi-tasking can bring you and project management gets you involved in so many things but then the thing is I am learning too much until no longer sure what I have really learned…
It’s so frustrating and now my bosses (hubby and wifey) is asking me to remain back there as I have not seen the entirety of branding and all and there may be more for them to learn. Little do they know, I love Advertising more than Branding after all…
Anyway, negatives aside… I have been learning to do craft… Book stitching was what I have gotten my hands into recently… Sewing pieces of paper together to form into books… A nice skill to have and I would like to cherish this forever… After all, I am a die-hard fan of notebooks… I have done up 4 so far and given out two to my colleagues who have just left the company on 26 August 2011.. As part of a thank you gift, it is also for them to move forward and jot down new memories and life encounters in the near future..
I have been thinking and thinking real hard… Maybe its time to do what I love most… Crafty… To work my fingers and put them in action on the path of creation from papers to crafty arts and beyond… But not easy to make a living lor… haish… Need some help, need some motivation and a lot lot of money to start up….
I just wanna be freee and I just wanna be ME!!!
End of the day,
You are who you are and no one can change a thing. Change can only happen when one decides to. No amount of influence can actually lead to someone to change if that person is not willing. So Be Yourself. Be True to Yourself and always be who you want to be and not what others want you to be…
Life as of Now
It’s been a long long while since I said Hi on my blog… Oh I do miss you much…
Some updates, you all would know that I have started working since 18th April, my first ever step in climbing my career path. I did work till 19th May up to 20th May too.
However on the bright day of 20th May, I somehow managed to give a light hit to the leg of the table in the office, on my left knee and out came my knee cap. I experienced a knee cap dislocation.
I was in intense pain as my colleagues helped me out calling the Ambulance and sorts to save me and finally rush me to Hospital Universiti Malaya. It was the first time in an Ambulance and I really hope it would be my last.
Nonetheless, I was then sedated and finally my knee cap was popped back in with a plaster cast placed and granted a 6-day worth of MC. Follow-up was due on the 6th Day and the doctor said “You need more rest, and here maybe another two more weeks and you come back then and see.” I was given another two more weeks of MC and again I went for the follow-up. Seeing another doctor, he said “You can bend ur knee slightly right, great then we will put you on physio and here you go again, 2 weeks worth of MC from the date. With that I have a total of 33 days of MC with my current condition.
I came back sitting home and made a comparison of the days of MC vs the days I have worked. “33 days of MC vs 31 days of work” and I was like thinking “What an awesome start to my career!!! Damn bad impression to my bosses but they were kind and I am still employed. YAY to my company. I miss them much.
Timelines has been hectic liaising with clients and all from home. Darn, so damn tiring with the amount of work in office. I dread the day that I have to do filing when the time comes…
But anyways my life has been fun so far with little changes in weight and so on.
Yukirye has commented together with some of my frens that I have turned very very bitchy during the process of healing.. I guessed the bitch is always in me after all..
Love ya bitches… Love ya frens…
Thanks for all the drama!!!! Will be waiting for more… and will be more rajin in updating my blog from time to time…
First Labour Day of My Life
01.05.2011 was quite a memorable date for me and most of my friends…
It is the first time those who are undergoing internship and me and my friends who have been employed to rest our souls and heart from work every once in a year…
How did I celebrate it last night??? I was babysitting my cousins all the way in Genting Highland with my Grandma…
I officially launched wearing my sunglasses yesterday too… Make that two memorable events on the same day for me…
Genting, which is practically my second home is damn packed with the likes of humans, homosapiens and peoples alike…
The amount of cars could easily gone up to hundred thousands lining up even at the roadside… If you parked on where most cars have parked, along the hillside, you would need to walk uphill at least 30 minutes to reach into Genting only… But,you have to salute Genting for their amazing customer service… You do not actually have to walk up but can just wait for the shuttle van to pass every 10 to 15 minutes… After all, they don’t want you to tire out before you spend right???
But in the middle of the hoo-hah it has been real fun though… What more… Genting to commemorate Labour Day had a firework display for about 7 to 8 minutes at 8pm sharp at their outdoor theme park… Nothing grand about it but it is nice for Genting to celebrate with us together… You do know, Genting is operational 24 hours, 365 days a year right??? Hahahaha…
Enough about Genting Highlands, always one of my favourite place to shop, entertainment and holiday… Expensive as it is, but you really get to do a lot… A second home to me now and always… Unless I have bought my bungalow and my condo lot then it might be my third home… Hehehe XD
To all who are working and even housewife who does labour everyday, Happy Labours Day and have fun and love what you do always…
P.S. This blog is inspired by my friend Mr CYX… He is also a so-so blogger who blogs only once in a while…
Waking Up in the Early Morning
I have always had a thing about waking up early,
Despite how late I sleep, I always never fail to wake up earlier than 10 am in the morning,
I have always wondered why I do that although I have been tired and sleepy…
Hence, over the years it has come to my realisation why I behave in this way…
I also found out many plus points to waking up early in the morning…
One benefit is that I have a longer stretch of awake time…
I enjoy waking up early to the chilly morning and take a breath of fresh air before it becomes more polluted by the greenhouse gases and also exhaust gases… I found that if you wake up at about 10 am, you seriously miss the feeling of a cool morning and also feeling the morning moist on your skin…
It also gives me more time like seriously more time to wake up relax and go through my stuff in a well planned way… With this extra time, I wake up and plan what am I to do for the next 16 to 18 hours that I am awake…
One more, would be being able to have three meals a day… Breakfast Lunch and Dinner… I have seldom liked the idea of having breakfast but after living with my grandma for the past 8 months, I realised that having breakfast with her is quite enjoyable… For one, she has to eat with me, so I actually give her no reason to say that “Aiya, I don’t want to eat such a thing.” because at her age, it’s seriously important for her to eat even though it’s a little…
I also can’t miss the early morning cartoons, the early FB notification, checking of the mails, downloading of stuffs and videos is pretty much faster early in the wee hours when not many had started working… I find that as long as I perform online stuffs before 9 am, I get super fast connection… I only get this again at about 8 pm everyday…. So the additional two to three hours in boosting the download gives me another reason for waking up early… Some told me why don’t get Unifi, but then it’s just too pricey for that kinda connection… Sigh, now it makes me wonder when can we get connection speed of 1Gbps at a low price like Moscow… Let’s pray for cheap and fast connection to come in the shortest time…
Now seems like I have talked a lot about waking up in the early morning… As a point, I woke up at 6.25 am today and this was how I got the inspiration to write…
Hopefully, after reading this, some of you might start waking up early and follow in my lead… Hehehe XD
A Day of Resting and Sleeping
What have I done today?
I have slept for more than 10 hours which is not usual for me and also watched some anime today. What have I gained today? A day of rest and relaxation.
Some particular person had to come and spoil it for me though. Asking me very stupid and basic questions which I was like WTF is wrong with you. Please be smart for what you are showing to others la goodness. WTH is wrong with these ppl? As much as I love helping people there is a limit for me to help. I do not want to be someone’s reason in the future for them to say that “Because of you, my analytical skills are so poor”.
So I did it a different way today and I told that person, tell me what you have in mind and I will consider your answer. Like seriously I would wanna scream at that person and tell some specific person about this person’s stupidity. For someone ur age, be someone ur age la. The Creator gave u a brain for a reason and which is THINK! So today’s relaxation and sleep has let me rediscover something that I have understood long ago which is to think before I speak.
So a lesson for today would be
“THINK before u ask so that you do not people feel stupidity in YOU”
Just wondering…
Ever wondered what is inside a Semen Collection Room?
If anyone does not know what it is, it is where men go and donate their sperm for the purpose of the sperm bank.
I was watching a movie just about 10 mins ago and they showed what was inside the semen collection room. It was filled with picts of sexy girls to build up the erotic feelings in the man to be able to cum. It got me thinking there for one moment.
This was my thought, “What if the guy was gay and he wished to donate his sperm to the sperm bank, noting that most gay guys are hot and thus would produce much handsomer offsprings?”
Would this room actually work for them, or will there be a room that instead is filled with pics of hot and sexy men???
Or if its even legal for gay guys to do that???
Can anyone with such experience share or if they find any information share with me here so that i can use it for my next blog. Hehehe XD
Thanks and Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!
The Bloom
Like the morning mist,
It slowly fades,
Like the passing of time,
It grows deeper,
A seed sown,
Slowly blooming,
And was once a bright purple flower,
And now all is gone,
And the petals fall,
Slowly and dying,
One by one,
Until all that is left,
Is a stalk,
Barren with nothing else at all,
The petals, the leaves and,
The scent of love,
Is far sweeter than any scent,
But yet,
When it ends,
It fades,
Like the morning mist,
As the sun rises,
Into nothingness,
But will always remain,
Rooted and preserved,
For a long long while,
How can the stalk be uprooted?
When the roots have grown,
Into every corner,
Into every nook,
Into every path,
Searing deeply,
A mark of its existence,
Forcing one to never forget,
But also never to live on the same path,
Never crossing and never growing,
Land taken as it be,
But however great,
The new seed sown,
The old drying stalk,
Still stands strong,
Until one day,
Being enveloped by the growing of the new bloom,
And live with hope,
That the flower will bloom always,
And never wilt once again…
What a Day Out and Milo…
Hey 27 Jan 2011,
Submission of the hardcover of my thesis is finally done… Now I am officially left with my last subject of the entire semester to freakingly get an A for it….
Looking back at the days, I realised something when I was making something to drink few minutes back… I am a Milo Addict… Like a real real addict… I cannot end my day without having a cup of thick iced milo… My recipe for the thick chocolatey taste comes from lots of discoveries to brew the perfect cup of Milo…. 3 tbsp of Milo Powder mountain high, half Tbsp of Condensed milk and water 200 ml… Its thick and super rich but its just oh so lovely…
Now on my day today… I was actually singing karaoke and twitting at the same time… Hmm after handing in the hardcover of my thesis for my supervisor and my department, I called Emyn to come along to collect her thesis…
She too handed it in after me and when me, Pam, YX and Fern saw her in that sickly condition, we decided to send her straight to the doctor and funnily she complied…
Got herself checked and bought chicken floss bread, she decided WTH… Lets go la… I malas wanna stay hostel…. So in her not-so-well she was actually up for shopping at Times Square..
Little did we expect, we added karaoke into the list of to-do after getting Fern’s handphone checked… Time to say goodbye to Fern’s phone and to welcome a new one…
So, karaoke was fun with twitting rite??? Funny part is I was twitting with Pam eventhough we were just next to each other… Hahaha… We looked at each other after we replied to each of our twits and just smiled…
Now karaoke did end with a funny note, with us all “voiced-out” and Pam who was nearly at the edge of losing it all, ended up sounding very Sexy… And I still wanna proclaim this, I love ur husky, sexy voice Pam… Sorry CYX for the PDA… Just can’t help it… CYX was the same when he was singing the last song and couldn’t find his voice to hit the high notes…
It all ended with a joyous note… We next headed back to Times Square, and started some “Colour Shopping” and “clothes shopping” and well, again Fern ended up with many bags in her hand and Emyn with a whole bunch of scarves that we hope she will not misplace so easily anymore…
Here is to our day, Fern, Pam, Emyn and not forgetting CYX… Three cheers for all of us… And really love you guys!!!! Hugs and kisses to all of you!!!
Remembering the “First”
Do you remember the first time for anything in your life?
The first time you walk, the first word you say and even the first time you drink coffee…
Some of us sees this as very important, some sees this as not, but this are just part of growing up…
What I wanna share today is the “First Kiss”…
How did it feel when you first placed your lips over the other person be it a man or a woman?
A first kiss is something special, a moment of truth where two souls lock their lips and in the moments where words were unheard of, it was a moment where each of the person is vulnerable and totally opened up to the other partner.
Feeling that person, holding that person in your arms and kissing her/him lovingly is all that runs to one’s mind. Knowing that feeling, it was an ecstasy that would lift someone high up above the grounds and be in a moment of bliss.
The First Kiss may have already been lost since the first relationship one has toward the other, but I would think everyone who have loss their First Kiss would never regret losing it to the person that she/he once loved. I myself know that I did not regret it as in any new relationship, the first kiss would always be a special one.
Whispers of the Silent Heart 