why ask who what when and where if the only asnwer you really want to know is why?

i hate my feelings today but they have been brewing for weeks now and have finally just reached the make it or break it point. After an incredibly long and painful night of hacking my lungs up, puking my guts up and all the while just insanely pissed off, it is official that my give a damn is completely busted. i can only try so hard before i just dont have the energy to do so anymore. i am constantly being drug into ridiculousness and to be honest i just dont care to even remotely be nice about the half ass attempts anymore. i am sick to the gills of people having rules in their lives of which only apply to others. no thank you! there is certainly not even an ounce of room for fake drama causing whores and if people choose to surround themselves with such, they can certainly do so outside the confines of my life completely. these are completely non negotiable and i have made it clear. i have had enough!  i dont want anyone in my life who chooses to associate themselves with such low life poor excuses for human beings. i am almost 30 years old and deserve much more than that ridiculousness. ive grown up and im set with my decision. i figure i will be the bad guy and as always im sure ill be a bitch too, but the reality of it is as long as people keep their fake ass hoes in the mix, they are clearly not ready to let go of the games and im not having any part of such. you cant have a relationship with the one you claim to love if you cant let go of the fake ass hoes! i hate that i feel this way, but the same rules apply to them as to me. i lost a few great friends because of someones wishes and rules and it seems its only a one way street. Sorry, I dont operate that way and nor will i ever! My exact thoughts are either stand up to the same rules you expect of me or go play your games elsewhere out of my life. i have much bigger fish to fry than to worry about such shenanigans. if such hoes are more important, by all means enjoy your life with them. i absolutely cannot ever remember a time that they were there in several years when things fell apart in life, but if thats what you think a true friendship is…good luck. Your definitely going to need it with “friends” like that. i will continue to be true to myself. i will not accept such in my life ever again. choices have consequences and my life certainly will go on in a peaceful manner. it’s non negotiable!……….it might be hateful and crass but its the gods honest truth and im not ever settling for anything less…..