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One more week before I'll  hand in this super duper *yawz* boring assignment. It's not funny to work and study postgrad at the same time. I salute to those who made it to the Masters while working full time. I think you guys must have some energizer formulated A+++ batteries to keep up with the workload.. For me, I'll be happy just to settle for a postgraduate certificate. Ever since the study took off, there is literally NO life in my life. There is always classes or assignment to be done almost every week. Hardly had the chance to do "nothing". 
I've exercised lesser, taking part less races, less volunteer activity, less travel, less hanging out with friends while my tummy feels rounder *boing*  (i mean, those nasty abdominal fats).
Due to my tight schedule, I shop online quite frequently. In fact, I'm planning to get all my chrissy pressies online too.That would be so much easier to get it delivered to my place instead ;p
I'm comtemplating of signing up for Singapore Duathalon. The early bird fees are ridiculously expensive. For a full race, it costs about 70 bucks just to join. 


Wonder how this Christmas would be like for me this year? I've got my dress ready to be worn at the church though. 



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 Lk 21:36

Stay awake, praying at all times for the strength to survive all that is going to happen, and to hold your ground before the Son of man.'

Prayer for my little Bro




It was unfortunate that he met with an accident without any serious injuries.


"Thank you Lord for your saving grace falling upon my bro. He did not suffered any massive or minor injuries under the wing of your protection. You are our saviour, our salvation and our redeemer. I pray to  Lord that he will live until the day that he chose to believe in Your work. And blessed those people who were involved in the accident. Have mercy on us and so we can continue to work in Your Will. "
In the name of the Father, the Son and Holy Spirit
Amen.
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Only for His Glory

I trust that the Lord has been with me all these while. In fact, something bizzare just struck into my mind today. Believe it or not. I've cried 3 times at different churches  when I got upset over the fact that he is probably not the one. I'm not trying to judge the person here. Just saying it from my observation, his practices and believes on his faith are quite the opposite.
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I'm quite tired today.....especially working in an enviroment where the senior lacks of experiences in terms of management.

Hebrews 11:1


My relationship with Mr K had ended 3 months ago. My parents couldn't be more happier with the news. Afterall, they felt that he didn't have the capability to look after me. What's more talking about spending the life with him forever.


Life moves on and I look forward to complete my postgraduate certification course. The good thing which came out of this relationship is I'm acepted as a child of God. I was on the verge on giving up the rite of baptism but managed to found the comfort in Him. It was one of the most painful decisions but it didn't take me too long to make the right one ;)
Work has been a real shit. I don't understand that it is tough enough to get recognition coming from a small populated healthcare professional like mine, the locals are still out there to 'kill' each other down. It is like everyone is taking their chances to shoot everyone down ( in angry bird style). 
sigh*


I was hinting to my dad that I wanna move back to Aust next year. He is certainly quite unhappy about it.


Decisions decisions.......

Feeling lost

I'm having one of those negative feelings on our relationship again. Why some guys can claim that they've found the love of their lives and yet, some are always feeling so lost.
I'm attending this Catholic class. On one hand, I do love God. On the other, I feel as though I'm tight down and yet I can't tell he's the right one for me or not.
Why can't I have a decent normal family life on my own?
Why must I wait for something which seems like forever?
Why can't he have a better foresight towards future?

;(

Where is my happiness?

How can I fall in love with someone who is already in his mid 30s and yet not ready to have his own family. I should rephrase this: " not keen to have a family of his own".
I don't wanna to be lead on in this relationship anymore.If this issue never get resolve,I am not mentally to think about settling down with him.
I tested him that will he have any issue having me to further studies? He said that's fine. How can it be fine when he said we can still get married after 3- 4 years or so?
My eggs are not probably in a good shape to get fertilised by then.
I've always feel that if a person never feel like having a kid, then chances are that person will never get a kid in regardless. I believe kid's issue can be quite ticky in terms of compromising.

What's the point to be married and remain childless? I still feel that I'll be all by myself when I get old and crippled. Might as well just stay single for now.

I was willing to give up my Aust PR and stay with him if we ever have plans to get settle down within these 2 years. However, the future seems bleak.........

I've come to my acceptance that I have to remain single for the rest of life as He wants me to.

There's a thing called Love

Moving on into my 8-month relationship with Mr K. Everything seems fine until we chatted about our future. We are already in our mid 30s. OK close enough to get to that range. He verberlized that he wants to date me a bit longer before deciding on the proposal. I must clarify at this point that I'm not asking for any propose marriage but really, we need to synchronise our thoughts on what we want in our future. And this doesn't mean it require just a day to plan. Rather, both parties need to be honest and upfront about their exchanged views.
At this stage, I felt our focus on relationship is very different.
The future of having a marriage life, housing and kids seem to be almost an impossible with him. I'm not sure if I can live with that.
I've been constantly try and psycho myself that "marriage is not for everyone and if He (as the creator) has planned my life to be single and unmarried".

He said if I don't mind paying 35% and him paying 65% on the wedding/housing cost.

I've always believe it takes a real man would know how to take care of everything for his beloved.