Hellloooo? Anyone still there? : )

Wow... it has been FOREVER since I posted on here! 

For so long I was so limited in what I was allowed to write... although the "guidelines" on social media and foster parenting has loosened up some - it was still a grey area that I didn't want to risk.

Now, happy to say, my two kiddos are ADOPTED!  Now I can write, post pictures, share my life and love of my family as freely as I would like!  : )

So much to share, so much has happened over the last couple of years.  If anyone is still around, I would love to know... and if not I will still post for the love of it - and to have these entries to look back on later.  : )

Thrity-Three Weeks

Thirty-three weeks and my baby shower (well, the first of 3) is tomorrow! I am so excited! It is hard to believe that this little girl will be here in a matter of weeks!

I am blessed and amazed at the love I feel from all of my family and friends (in real life, and on here/ NW/ facebook). : )

I continue to hope that the dreams of everyone still waiting will come true quickly!

Cora-

I no longer have your email address! Can you post it as a comment, and then I will delete the comment without posting it...

I miss you! I have thought of you many times but have not known how to get a hold of you!

Twenty Weeks.

Amazing. I never thought I would get to this point.

For the last twenty weeks I have crossed fingers, prayed, and woke every morning wondering if it was still true.

With each milestone I would count my blessings but wonder if my luck would really hold out.

And with each milestone I feel like this is really it. : )

Twenty weeks. Amazing.

And it is a girl. Beyond what I could ever hope for.

I am so thankful.

I Guess It's Time

I am going to have a baby. For a long time I have wanted to share... and for some reason have not been able to here. I don't know why... facebook was easy. People in real life, hard - but not impossible. But to write it here seemed to be too much.

Why?

Several reasons, I think. First - because this pregnancy started off so tentatively. I began with a very low Beta (a level of 10 at 15dpt). I wasn't sure if it would be a viable pregnancy. I thought I had better wait before putting it on here. For some reason, facebook seems more transient - things come and go and more things get added and then you don't see the stuff from two days ago... you know what I mean? But to write the words on my blog feels much more permanent.

I also felt like if I believed it, then I would jinx it. Crazy, huh? If I say it out loud, too many times then it will disappear?

And I have lost a baby before... I figured that I had better wait till I got past that point...

And I really should see the heartbeat first - that would be a good idea...

Or make it to the twelve week mark, that makes sense, right?

But then all of those things happened and it was still hard to write it on here....

Maybe because I know so many of the people who I love and care about in the blogging world have tried so hard, just as I have, to fulfill the dream of having a baby. And I feel sadness that we are not all able to type these words. Maybe I have survivors guilt...

But there it is. After TEN long years of trying... dozens upon dozens of IUI's, a failed IVF, 20-some foster kids, a failed adoption... I am going to have a baby. And I could not be more thankful to God for all of his kindess and for knowing how and when this baby should enter my life. : )

Thinking of My Friend.

A very good friend of mine has suffered a great loss. My heart hurts for her.

I pray that her heart may be healed.

A New Start... In More Ways Than One...

I have decided to blow the dust off of this silly ol' blog that has been set up on the shelf... Seems like life has taken a new turn, and I have always loved having an outlet for all of the things that swirl around in my mind. So, I will take it slow... see if I can freshen things up around here, and get you all caught up on the wonderful things that are blessing my life! Thanks, again... to all of my friends and family that have been so amazingly supportive along the way! I am glad to be back!