better angels

A month after I got married, A (the ex-SO and father to my lost babies) also got married.  She is 17 years younger than him and in the prime of childbearing life.  And yesterday afternoon A emailed me to say that his son was born at the weekend.

I am completely happy with my life as it is now, I wouldn't change S for anything and being childless no longer bears the same sharp pain as it used to.  And I am happy that A has got everything he ever wanted.

But oh, reader, how I am struggling with how to word my congratulatory email to A.  Because deep, deep inside I can't help but think "it isn't fair".  I want my better angels to surface and take hold but they appear to be AWOL...

cobwebs

I am dusting the cobwebs off this blog with a couple of catch-up posts.  

Last year was full of incident, some incredibly brilliant and some not so much.  There was illness, a wedding and a funeral.

This year has been more quiet so far (fingers crossed), mainly taken up with some travel and plans for the future.

honeymoon

Because of one thing or another (tumours, bereavement, exhaustion) we had to wait until February of this year to go on honeymoon.  But it was the best time ever.  We went Sri Lanka for three weeks; two weeks travelling around and one week in the capital so that S could meet some of my relatives.

You know how you can build things up and then fear that they won't live up to your expectations?  Well, our honeymoon exceeded all expections for both of us.  We climbed an ancient rock fortress, we watched the sun rise over a cloud forest, we did a six-mile trek to one of the highest points on the island, we climbed a waterfall, we saw elephants in the wild, just taking a bath in a lake and we went whale-watching and saw a blue whale.  A blue whale!!!  It was incredible and unforgettable.

Reader, you should visit Sri Lanka, it won't disappoint!