Evading Insanity

11:05 PM racheal 0 Comments

There comes a time in every person's life where they go a little crazy. Some experience this time in an institution, others experience it whilst combating the everyday battles of life. I, for instance, have been dealing with my mild insanity for months--all the while changing diapers, cleaning up the same messes from the same drawers, listening to the simultaneously most charming and annoying voice on a constant loop from sun-up to well past sun-down. My fantastic husband has been going though some ups and downs at work and we've planned some major upheaval in our lives. Frankly, I'm pooped. And done. And if I stayed in this situation much longer, it would not have been pretty.

Serendipitously, my uncle and aunt-in-laws were unable to use up all of their time at a time-share in Whistler, BC. They graciously offered it to us, and I took it! It took some time, but I finally convinced my two sisters who live locally to accompany me on a girl's getaway--not the bad kind of getaway though, like from the police, but the totally legal kind like from your husband and kids and responsibilities. At least that's what I told the border officer.



Man those girls were so relieved when we actually made it across the border. 


We are closing our first full day here, And it has been perfect. We went on a Whistler Tasting Tour for a few hours where we tried a variety of restaurants, got some great exercise, shopping, relaxing, and hot-tubbing in.




Not to mention completion of our second puzzle since being here. Ooooh Yeeeaaaah. We are just that cool. And actually, we're pretty bummed that we only brought two 1000 piece puzzles. Ah well. Time to enjoy other pursuits. Like cross-stitching. I'm pretty sure that's how Canadians pass their time.




That's right. That's an ISpy puzzle.  Do you have any idea how hard those puzzles are? Piece of cake for these geniuses. I'll post again on our further outings and adventures. But if I was being honest, I'd tell you I'm just hoping for a lot of nothing. And silence. Punctuated by some giggling. But mostly silence.

I'm feeling peaceful. Sane. And excited for tomorrow.

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Blogging Season

1:15 PM racheal 2 Comments

Please excuse me whilst I reminisce through photos of drier summer times.

I gave myself the summer off from blogging: too many fun things to be doing outside. But now that Washington has given in to the inevitable 9-month-drizzle we've all been anticipating, I have no more excuses. So I'm back.

Also back to my rainy-day battle: mommy's creativity vs. the TV. Which will win in the epic of the winter? Today? Probably the TV.

I don't know if it's the weather or just me, but I've been feeling rather slumpy lately. At first it was just regular lazy, and then on October 1st it became Gilmore Girls lazy. So now the lazy is addicting.


Occasionally I can break the Gilmore Girls bonds long enough to read a good book. Lately I've read My Story by Elizabeth Smart, Heaven is Here by Stephanie Nielson, and The Rent Collector by Camron Wright. Mormon autobiographies and a fascinating read about a family that lives in a dump in Cambodia. I found all of them interesting, but Stephanie Nielson, of nieniedialogues.com is the one that really helped me change my perspective on things.


It wasn't anything she said about healing, though I cannot imagine the insurmountable hill that she had to climb in her recovery after her plane crash. Rather, it was her love for her role as mother that affected me. In her book, Stephanie shares briefly about her pre-crash life. She describes her love for caring for her children, her pride in maintaining a clean house, and her consistency with having dinner on the table when her husband came home. That is most definitely not the norm around here.


But it could be. I will not be in this mothering role forever, let alone with small impressionables around. Why wouldn't I make my role my passion? So often I am embarrassed to tell people that I am a stay-at-home mom. What a world of good that Bachelor's in Biology did me, eh? I often feel that because I don't have some successful side business, day care or Etsy shop that I'm not creative enough or industrious enough.


I am being more confident. I am embracing this role of "mother" with pride. I have kept my house spotless for almost 2 weeks! (Or at least cleaned everything up by bed time). Dinner for 2 weeks! Now I just need to get back to running. The TV might occasionally win this winter, and my passion for motherhood may waver at times, but I will not lose myself. And that still counts as winning.



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Celebrating Easter Like a Feminist

2:46 PM racheal 7 Comments

I am a faithful member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I read scriptures daily, participate in church on Sundays, and serve others when I can. I am a stay-at-home mother of two and a return missionary. I do not feel of lesser value than the men at church. I have an awesome husband and marriage in which I am an equal partner. 

That being said, I also have questions. I get frustrated when I see preferential treatment due to gender. I don't like that the last speaker in church is typically a man. I get riled up when I hear people generalizing negatively about the sister-missionaries they served with. I get annoyed when people limit themselves because of their sex. I guess you could say I'm a feminist. Among other things.

We have a few friends involved in the movement to ordain women to the LDS priesthood. While I don't agree with them on many things (like women needing the priesthood), I do agree that there is inequality that seems central to the culture and doctrines of The Church. Temple ceremonies even seem to enforce this. And that breaks my heart. Last night while talking to my husband, I realized why many people are leaving The Church over this. I get it. I feel that frustration and that need to understand. 

In the depths of my confusion and tears about this subject, one thing became very clear: 

I know that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. 

I know that he loves me. My testimony of him is personal, individual. And it is based on the testimonies of Him found in The Book of Mormon. When Christ appears to those in the Americas after His resurrection, He shows the people present (a crowd of hundreds or more) the evidence of His sacrifice. The Book of Mormon records this experience.

13 And it came to pass that the Lord spake unto them saying:
14 Arise and come forth unto me, that ye may thrust your hands into my side, and also that ye may feel the prints of the nails in my hands and in my feet, that ye may know that I am the God of Israel, and the God of the whole earth, and have been slain for the sins of the world.  
15 And it came to pass that the multitude went forth, and thrust their hands into his side, and did feel the prints of the nails in his hands and in his feet; and this they did do, going forth one by one until they had all gone forth, and did see with their eyes and did feel with their hands, and did know of a surety and did bear record, that it was he, of whom it was written by the prophets, that should come.

(3 Nephi 11:13-15, emphasis added)



The Savior in His perfect patience allowed every person to come forward and gain a testimony of His Atonement for themselves. 

I have questions. I do not agree with many of the cultural traditions within The Church. But I do have a strong, personal testimony of the Savior and His atonement, which I nourish daily with scripture study and prayer. I have had a witness that The Book of Mormon is holy scripture. And I have patience. 

I will wait in my imperfect knowledge for change, whether it is within The Church or within myself. I will trust that the Lord's ways and culture are not my ways and culture, and hope that they're better. I will doubt my doubts before I doubt my faith. 


Because my faith is in the Savior, I'll allow my doubts to be worked out along the way.

Happy Easter.

(photos courtesy of deseretnews.com and LDS.org)

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Potty Humor

2:41 PM racheal 2 Comments

This may be the best thing I've ever created. The rest of the bathroom is ok too, I guess, but I smile every time I see this bad boy.


I made it (old frame, chalkboard spray paint, chalk) initially with the intention to write something more inspiring, like "grateful", or "simplicity". The more I thought about it being in the bathroom, the more I started coming up with stuff like, "push harder" and other equally crass and silly things. This was the winner. I think the flower garlands really make it special.

My bathroom used to be beige with blank walls. I spend enough time in there (thank you IBS!) that I thought it worthwhile to spruce the place up.


I painted the mirror pink. Pink? Who does that? I second guess that choice every time I'm in there. At least it's thought provoking. This mirror is a hand-me-down from my mom and is a replacement for the builder-grade mirror that I very gracefully removed by myself late late one night. Word to the wise: when there's a 2 man project, that does not mean 1 woman. It means that if you do it alone, you will shatter the mirror and most definitely break your pedestal sink. Classy, I know.


I bought that awesome howling dog at a DI like a year ago. I painted it this awesome color with some of Oli's leftover wall paint. Now would be a good time to insert some sort of moon joke. If you're into that sort of thing.


Small bathrooms are really hard to photograph. Boo. but you don't need to see the plunger and the toilet brush and the baby-potty seat all stacked next to the toilet anyway.


Any suggestions for what else I could write on my chalkboard?

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Tubeless

4:06 PM racheal 3 Comments



Here lies
Gastrostomy Tube, "G-Tube" 
May it rest in a Hazmat Bin forever
25 May 2013-9 April 2014
It will not be missed.


Oli got her G-tube taken out! Yahoo!

Her last photo taken with it at the doctor's office:


Poor fool has no idea what's about to happen. Just kidding. It was painless. The doc just deflated a little balloon that is on the tummy-side of the tube and pulled it out. It took all of 20 seconds.

I did an post-g-tube impromptu photo shoot. I know, too cute. Honestly, I just put her in the corner, in the box that holds our gardening shoes, threw a blanket at her and asked her to dazzle me. I tried to find some newborn puppies or a fruit outfit or something, but all I came up with was her slightly wet diaper. So we made it work.






She looks drastically different, I know. Right now she has a square of gauze and a clear sticker thingy to keep the gauze place. I'll have to post a photo of her little scar after it heals up.

Hooray for Oli!


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Whatever You Are, Be Awesome.

4:25 PM racheal 1 Comments

Readers Beware: I am Mormon, and this is a Mormon-y post. 
Proceed with caution.


"Whatever you are, be a good one." And if you don't like what you are, change your label. 

One label I've been nostalgic over lately is the label of "missionary". I'm sure you've seen the missionaries around, usually in pairs, men in white shirts and ties, women in skirts, all wearing black name tags. If you're lucky they may have even knocked on your door during dinner or any other equally inconvenient time, possibly making you frantic as you came up with any excuse about why you are too busy. We all know how that goes. I've done my fair share of avoiding such well-intending door knockers.

I'm the one with the blue shirt and the gap in her teeth. The other one is Hanifah Namubiru.

Being a missionary was fascinating and awesome. I met hundreds of different people, saw way too many unsolicited body parts and ate even more bizarre animal body parts. I got to serve in Botswana for my 18 months, something I feel very, very lucky about. People serve all over the world as missionaries; we have four in our small ward or congregation here in Washington. 

Hmm... I am the one holding the chicken foot, only slightly nervous. Turns out they're delish.


Anyway. I think I had a point I this post. Oh yes. So, I work with the youth at church. We are currently having an activity we call "mini-mission week". During this activity, each kid roughly follows the schedule of a full-time Mormon missionary. As one of their leaders, I am too. This means waking up at 6:30 or earlier to study scriptures, wearing missionary-standard clothes (dresses/skirts--blurg), generally just surrounding yourself with uplifting stuff. It also means a media fast. No email, no apps, none of that good stuff which so easily consumes my day. It's been awesome. Instead of entertaining myself I've been improving myself. Concept.

Adopting an old-school African pose next to nature. I'm the one in the black shirt with an overly-sweet smile.
The other one is Candy Tladi, a rad local member.
The second part of this missionary lifestyle is sharing "The Gospel" with others. I put it in quotation marks because it's a term that Mormons use often without really understanding the practical application. The gospel of Jesus Christ is a series of steps we take to align our lives with Christ's life
Developing faith in Him, repenting (stopping the bad and starting the good), baptism by someone who has authority, receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost, and continuing faithfully. Forever. And Ever. No big deal really. 

Here, I am the dorky one. Oh, right. I'm the one on the left. Nam, again, and Ayanda Sidzatane.

I don't usually post about my religious views on Facebook or whatnot, (probably because I'm too cool or private or don't want to be obnoxious to those who aren't religious) but the truth is that I really like Jesus. A lot.

There is something in Christianity that we call the Atonement. It's the act that Christ performed that allows us to become at-one with God. His suffering in Gethsemane, His death on the cross and His resurrection comprise this. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, some bigger than others, so I of course appreciate the value in being forgiven and appreciate the Atonement for that. But what I enjoy most about it is its enabling power.

View from Kgale Hill in Gaborone, Botswana

The concept here is that while in the garden Gethsemane, Christ went through all of our specific trials and circumstances, and came out on top. He knows how we feel because He felt it. Because of this, we are able to rely on Him for strength. During my hardest times, both on mission and off, I have been able to emotionally rely on Him. When I felt weak and wanted to give up, I continued on because by turning to Christ, I could borrow His determination. The uses for this are endless. When I have fear, He has hope. When I have laziness, He has enthusiasm. Our flaws are made perfect when we team up with Christ. It's that easy.

I'll make this one easier for you. I'm the one with the braids in her hair. The other one is Suzane Odongo.

Ok. I feel like I'm wandering again. Oh yes. Mini-mission week.  Hmm... So the point is to follow the routine of a missionary and share about Jesus (see what I did up there? Yeah, I shared about Jesus. Go me). So all of this missionary activity has made me very nostalgic of my mission. I loved having a set schedule and a time reserved for me to study every day and exercise everyday, and rarely a crying child to distract me. Or whatever my excuses have been for the past four years since mission ended. I miss how bright and shiny I was! I miss that spirit!

Oddly enough, one of my many favorite parts of mission were the few road trips we took down to Joburg. Hmm.


And then I see it. I do not need to be serving a mission to feel like I am. I can wake up early on my own, study the scriptures on my own and serve those around me all on my own. I can create my own structure. We don't need specific circumstances to become our ideal selves. We can do it ourselves. And when that fails, we can do it with Christ.

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World Down Syndrome Day. Apparently.

10:41 AM racheal 6 Comments

I just can't get over the cleverness of this day. 3-21. As in three copies of chromosome 21. Oh the cleverness of you. So in honor of this day mean to raise awareness and acceptance, I will set aside my sardonic nature and share some things about Olive that have nothing to do with her diagnosis. Because in the end, it is who we are, and not what we are that defines us.

1. She loves to dance. And be thrown around (yes, we shake our babies). And to bounce. This girl feels the rhythm.


2. She is super determined. Once she realizes she can do something, she does it. Today I showed her that she could hold her bottle herself. Now she wont have it any other way!

3. She's got sass. Nuf said.


4. She adores Charlie. And she really likes Garrett and me. This is a rather new realization for us, and it's awesome to see her face light up when we enter the room. I LOVE IT.


5. She loves to eat. Thank you for giving me a child that enjoys food. I feel validated.


6. She has incredible focus. She will take a book and examine every corner, page, picture, texture, taste, you name it. She really experiences things. I love that about her.

7. She loves to be loved. Don't we all.

8. She loves water. She LOVES water.


9. She is all the African Baby I could have ever wanted. Dark skin excluded (though I'm still crossing my fingers that I've got some recessive genes somewhere that will manifest in our next baby)




10.  She is happy to be her. I hope one day to be as confident in my own skin as my 1 yr-old is in hers.


11.  She is serene. Well named Olive Serene. 



And she looks like my grandmother in this photo. So lovely.

The end!

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Making Awesome out of Almost Free

9:37 AM racheal 3 Comments

Disclaimer: As I am about to post this, I realize I'm posting about a collage. A collage. Really? Apparently I've got nothing else going on. Don't hate me. I promise all future posts will be just as pointless, if not more so!

Our living room used to look like it belonged in a model home. I say this, because frequently I would find our artwork hanging in model homes. Our earth-toned decor started getting sleepy. It felt oppressive. I was bored. So I tried to sell our couch and buy a new, interesting, lighter couch, and it didn't sell. Which is probably a good thing, because our kids are gross, and thank goodness for dark brown microfiber that washes easily and hides what doesn't come out!


So I had to get creative. And go against my comfort zone. After a lot of work, I feel like we're getting somewhere. I scoured pinterest for the rooms that I loved the most and the elements these rooms had in common. Most of them had collages. Really interesting collages. I loved this onethis one, and this one. I'm sure there are some people that can just naturally throw together a perfect collage, but I needed a formula to make it awesome. Lucky for you, I'm sharing it!




Awesome Collage
        
You'll need:

-a watercolor (I made ours), 

-an interesting non-framed piece or two (but not too many! You want the square frames to be the dominant element. 

-unique art pieces that don't really tie together (I'm a collector/hoarder of just such art)

-and the most key element: an awkward portrait. See our awkward portrait? That is me, done by a dear sister Ali many years ago. It has been hiding in a closet ever since. Finally, the time called for an awkward portrait. What luck!! I think it deserves a close up.



Truly fantastic. She makes other great art and you could even commission her to make an awkward portrait for you. Check out her funky awesome art here. (The mustache was an add-on that we found in our Christmas stockings).

The hardest part about building a collage is knowing when to stop. Remember to treat your white space like a vacation. Too much white space makes you bored, but the occasional break makes the decorated bits so much better!


Anyway. I’m done pretending to be an expert. But I think that formula turned out pretty well for us. As long as you keep the frames close enough together to make everything feel like family, you are set.

Isn’t that clock awesome? Ikea. No joke. And you can build it in anyway you want. Garrett may have wet himself. He didn’t, but it was a possibility for a moment. I've seen people recover these clocks with interesting fabrics or paper, and they look awesome. Lots of potential folks!

Don't care about the clocks and think my chairs look awesome? Yep, made those too. Check it out here.

P.S. If anyone can guess the embroidery hoop reference for "her?", I'll be super impressed, and probably your friend for life.


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Mr. Camera Man

10:25 PM racheal 4 Comments

This is Charlie. Charlie is a good little boy, and always very curious.

During breakfast this morning mister Charlie decided he wanted to hone his photography skills. After minimal direction, these are his best (read: clearest) shots. I call it, Ode to breakfast. Enjoy.

Green Smoothie. Oli trying to feed herself? 
Spoon.

And my personal favorite: Giving up.

And from my view.







I'm still crossing my fingers and hoping for a pilot (free flights anyone?), but I could settle for photographer. I'm excited to continue seeing the world through Charlie's fresh lens. 


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My Wicked-Awesome Wicker Chairs

8:00 AM racheal 1 Comments

I know. You've been just dying to get the low-down on my rad chairs.

Well friend, your persistence has paid off!


Bam. Awesome. First, let me tell you. We found these awesome chairs (which I'm pretty sure are lawn chairs) on our neighbors curb at 10 pm one night. My husband about had a heart attack when I told him I wanted to rescue/steal them. Now you know I have shady ethics about stealing from this post but even so I still thought it was a no brainer. And it was. We now have our neighbors' blessing. 


After a bit of cleaning up, these chairs sat in our garage for 4 months. We're super efficient here. When I finally got around to this project it only took a day to finish it. First a stop at Ikea for the pillow cushions on the back, to Fabric Depot to pick out some awesome fabric (my husband's super rad and super retro choice), and then finding a small camping mattress that I could cut into perfect cushion sized squares for the bottom! Actually that sounded like a lot. 

I sewed the slip covers using a method similar to this. I highly recommend it. The chair on the left is sewn like a basic pillowcase with a hole for a zipper. Turns out you have to buy those. So there are big holes at the bottom ends of both cushions where those zippers should be. The chair on the right required no fancy zippers, so it is obviously my favorite.


And it's closest to the TV, so it's Charlie's favorite too. He likes to set the throw pillows up as head rests for us to watch movies. I've obviously been banished to the left chair. The sacrifices you make for your children.

I have to say as a disclaimer that I don't love love those throw pillows on them, but we already had them, and I was tired of sewing. Free and easy always wins out in the end.


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Making Awesome out of Free

1:55 PM racheal 1 Comments

So we bought a house last year. And had a child. Who then stayed in the hospital for two months. And had two procedures after that. And had an ER visit for our other child.

What I'm trying to express to you is that we are poor. Like, the only money we spend all month on non-essentials is at the grocery store. For more essentials. Yeah, it's pretty awesome. Conveniently, we are natural cheapskates, so it's not too painful.

However, new houses come with large spaces and empty walls that are just crying to be filled. So, for all of my fellow cheapskates, I thought I'd share some of my cheapo crafty-crafts over the next few weeks.

I'll start today with my favorite project. Mostly because it is FREE, super easy, and makes a statement.


Pow! I love the punch of color it adds to our oppressively beige walls.

Supplies needed: a large flat piece of cardboard (we had some leftover from the move), a lot of paint swatches (I recommend Glidden for all of their bright and fun colors, though scrapbook paper would work also), and tape. Awesome, right?

Pretty straightforward procedure. Start on one side, work a row at a time. I'm sure you could just start at a corner and fan outward too. Either way. Make sure you extend the swatches over the edges of the cardboard at least a 1/8 inch, just to make sure the cardboard is concealed. One day I might frame it, but today is not that day. The cardboard in the photo below is visible when you're looking from the side, like this. If I cared more, I'd fix it, tack it all down or something. But I don't, so I won't.


After some trial and error, I thought it looked better to randomly assign colors, rather than following a specific pattern. I also made sure I had some neutral colors in there as well, to ground it (Martha Stewart and Behr have great neutrals and softer colors). I cut cut the paint swatches to different lengths (instead of having major overlap) and taped them on, making sure to cover the other pieces of tape.


I hung the final piece by nailing half-inch nails into the wall wherever the cardboard was bowing out. In the photo above you can see a tiny nail above the brown paint swatch.

I cannot stress how easy this project is.


Or how cute my kid is.



In the 6 months since I completed this project, I realized that I don't feel totally square about taking so many paint samples from Home Depot. I have done penance buying multiple gallons of paint using my awesome home paint chip display. There is a great post on the ethics of paint chip crafts here that offers responsible ways of acquiring samples. Next time I decide to paint-chip craft, I will do so in a more legitimate manner. Today though, I would like to thank Glidden, Martha Stewart and Behr, along with my good friends at The Home Depot, and would recommend their products.


Whew! Is my conscience clean yet?

On a different note, I love it. I hope it gives someone else some awesome ideas, and I hope the feds don't show up at my door next week.

Thank you, I'll be here all week!


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