I am clearly not my diagnosis Ginger Wildheart's song once said for if I'd listened to my doctors at this time I would be dead 'Cos that's the time they gave me back when the news first broke Although with chemotherapy a longer time was spoke
So that's what I am going for longevity into years this cancer will not beat me and will not result in fear I am not my diagnosis I will not succumb to this but will stand up to this cancer and live long to see the bliss
We've booked another cruise
it has been quite a time
since we have been on holiday
so here that feeling's fine
Before pandemic was the last
time that we left this shore
but that's now set to change again
in twenty twenty-four
Canary Islands wait us there
twelve weeks or so away
so soon the days we'll start to count
down to the sailing day
In the razor sharp clarity
of a crisp autumn morn
An erudite moment
of instinct was born
A momentary feeling
captured and held
Crystallised into form
to fashion and meld
In these days of uncertainty
moments like these
Akin to the feeling
of a warm summer breeze
Are the ones that will shape
and strengthen the mind
Providing foundation
with purpose to find
Life’s a rollercoaster ride
with its up and its downs
But when the scary bit’s over
Our laughs replace frowns
So when clarity comes
and the purpose is clear
The ride’s there to enjoy
With nothing to fear.
It dawned on me this morning
that the train trip later on
will be the last time ever
I'll do that and sing this song
The last time I'll return back home
from a business trip away
not something I will miss that much
I can quite safely say
Yes, I have made the most of them
and the cities I have seen
have been most edifying
of the places I have been
But the trips home when work is done
of which this is the last
have always been the best, and now
are firmly in the past
There's a sunset coming though a ways off yet
I can see the glow to the West
as the evening time approaches now
a bid at my behest
It's yellow, pink and pastel
and full of warming glow
foretelling of a different time
that all too soon I'll know
It's a sunset of the summer
one of a perfect day
and though it's lasted many years
I'm ready now I'd say
So here I breathe and deeply
satisfaction is replete
as the sunset coming gathers pace
and sees this time complete
[And yes…there’s a metaphor here. Third line of verse three gives a clue to what it portends. But I suspect there will be several more over the next few months to give the game away]
In days of heady youth, future just a dream
the wisdom of a caring mother prompted application
to an embryonic beginning
Forecasting fortitude to longevity never seen
decades passed to forty years
and as youth acquiesced to age, retirement loomed
Now wisdom of age to fruition seen, the curtain call
beckons to a new beginning
at this evening sunset of a twilight year
Tomorrow I'm back in London again
commuting up there on the train
leaving at dawn when no-one's about
travelling daily again
There's a bit of excitement but also a doubt
as Covid has not left us yet
but I'm boostered and jabbed and protecting myself
so I've really no reason to fret
It's back to Westminster so a walk through the park
daily is what I will do
for unless it is raining and blowing a gale
I'm avoiding the risk of the tube
I've a good book and music and a game on my Switch
so I will make the most of this time
and I'm sure the long hours will pass in a flash
and the journey and days will be fine
With its long reach
this station clad
with many journeys
I have had
Over the years
to different places
some with airs
and some with graces
Quiet, it exudes
a charm
which here has never
done me harm
A comfort even
home from home
from all the stations
I have known
For this is Shoreham
part of me
in this town
beside the sea
It's a first for me today
no trains for quite time
not since the first lockdown
have I braved the ridden line
And yet today to Worthing
I must venture yet again
for my first day in an office
and a journey on a train
So I'm taking all precaution
best foot forward and the rest
to make the day enjoyable
my safety to invest
And I know that it will all be fine
despite the butterflies
that I've now got in my tummy
which I guess is no surprise
So Shoreham station here I come
to travel on a train
and take another step to bring
normality again
...all about me and my life in words. I write most days, carrying an ideas book around in which I capture a word snapshot of life around me. So there's a lot here about Sussex and the sea and anything else I see that inspires.
The pictures are mine too. Some taken to match a poem; some poems written to match a pic; others chosen because they work well with words written.
Jemverse is life in words. Hope you enjoy the reading as much as I enjoy the writing...