One thing they don't tell you is that Chemo's pretty shite If they did no one would do it and there'd never be the fight at least not one where poison is pumped into your body followed by three weeks of drugs insidious and shoddy
And yet still here with cancer it's a choice which must remain as you're always in the driving seat and the most to lose or gain I made the choice to leave it two infusions; six weeks in as it took away the best of me stopped me being; stopped my grin
That was right and right for me the opposite for others such is hindsight's privilege and the knowledge that it smothers Ten days followed, painful, long and the allegory of that choice from the car crash of withdrawal I now embrace and yes, rejoice
For though still a work in progress another change has taken place and one that's for the better as you can see from gait and face The CT scan at end of month will go ahead as planned But for the moment chemotherapy in this body is now banned.
[When, five months ago I was faced with two choices – three months, or chemotherapy and the chance of more, that’s kind of a no brainer. But, there’s also quality of life to think about. That might mean a shorter time. But a qualitative life has so much added value and is absolutely the only choice for me. So that’s the path I’ve now taken. ‘Joie de vivre!’]
Let me tell you a tale of importance and then you can make up your mind of what to spend time to think about and what to do to unwind You see it's all to do with values and comparisons at the end of the day some will be imperative some can go by the way
But when faced with a life changer so big it shifts its course Importance takes on new meaning and needs no encouraging force Because then all the things that once mattered no longer do that's the thing Yes they still carry their value but longer with passion to bring
The life-changer takes a precedence everything else second place by its side and that truly is cathartic with a feeling of peace deep inside Yes, I've the privilege of knowing and not everyone's getting that But if you could grasp just a facet you would benefit, that's a known fact
Importance is all about value what matters, what makes you tick and when coupled with a life passion there's benefit in all of it For causality sometimes is brutal and brings one down to the ground But precedent to the important is there if there's light to be found
...all about me and my life in words. I write most days, carrying an ideas book around in which I capture a word snapshot of life around me. So there's a lot here about Sussex and the sea and anything else I see that inspires.
The pictures are mine too. Some taken to match a poem; some poems written to match a pic; others chosen because they work well with words written.
Jemverse is life in words. Hope you enjoy the reading as much as I enjoy the writing...
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