Soul Blossom

IMG_2957I have always wanted to know how to garden efficiently. It is such a joy to visit somewhere and stand in a garden which has been tended to with such care and patience.

“Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food, and medicine for the soul” – Luther Burbant

Gardens are a sanctuary for some. To sit on the green, surrounded by plants, bushes and fruit trees, little benches and ponds with fountains spouting water from a stone cherub which stands above bubbles of frogspawn. Wooden birds perch on the grass, ceramic gnomes crouch under the bridge leading to the vegetable patch where strawberries and tomatoes grow. This is a dream, a safe place where we will grow as people just like the daisies around us. IMG_2956

Gardens bring hope. In the book of Genesis there is the Garden of Eden. Everyone has heard of Adam and Eve, this was a place where they were protected and free before the first sin was committed. Here stood the Tree of Life and Adam and Eve had a good relationship with God. In the Garden of Gethsemane Jesus had much to think about, he was struggling with what God had asked him to do. Here he prayed and spent time alone with God. And then we have our Tree of Life return in the garden in Revelation 22, standing in glory.

God is present in all of these gardens, we can spend time with him here, sit with him, talk to him, appreciate the nature surrounding us (whether it’s pretty and pruned or alive like a jungle). One day I would love to learn how to landscape properly, grow a garden to be proud of, a safe space to sit outside, full of berries and flowers.

Soul Blossom

Summer

sunglassHow lovely it feels to be walking down a street in the suburbs, through the sunshine and this British heat-wave. The sun is so warm and as I rarely get abroad, I take every chance I can to be outside.

There were very few people in the street that I could see, it’s usually very quiet here, but I could hear a constant chattering of voices and a buzzing of radios coming from the gardens behind the houses.

Cats were dozing in any shade they could find. Being 4pm, children were back from school playing with each other, and I could already smell the smoke from a BBQ so early in the evening and on a week-day.

Some neighbours were taking this light dry weather as an opportunity to tend to their gardening whilst others washed their cars. There were colours everywhere. People seem content. Nobody is rushing. This is why I love the summer.

Summer

Being Home

cuddlesThe comforting sound of the washing machine spinning my clothes around with soft thuds.
Of course we have a machine at uni but it’s not the same as our ancient one rattling away in the corner of the kitchen. I find everything about home so comforting that without realising, I accidentally spoon three lots of sugar into my tea instead of one, tasting the home sweet home of my childhood.

The smell of our old carpets. Our cats have been gone for a while but sometimes, I still smell them. What’s more, sometimes I’m sure I can hear the tinkling bell of their collars. But now I’m just getting creepy!

Our friendly neighbours constantly walk past, who smile and wave through the window. Some might feel this is an invasion of privacy but in our cul-de-sac everyone knows everyone and we always stop for a chat. Besides, it’s our own fault for not putting up net curtains.

There doesn’t always seem to be much food at home. All of my family work or go to school so if I pop home from uni without giving much notice, I’d have to dig in the freezer for leftovers or be creative with tins from the cupboard.

Everything about here feels comforting; my great nanny’s cabinet of ornate glasses, my parents’ wedding photo hanging next to the case of my mum’s dance books and my dad’s Japanese figurines, the cacti sitting on the windowsills, the oil paintings, the coffer on the landing which I’ve broken both my little toes on by running upstairs too fast and kicking it (owch), the damp clothes hanging all around the house whatever the season, the grandmother clock donging every half an hour.

When I’m home, I often order than we visit my nan because she lives just a couple of towns away and we don’t see her often enough. My favourite food in the world is her fried chicken, rice and gongo beans with warm apple drink on the side. Her homemade fishcakes with flying fish gravy. My nan’s home is full of even more warm memories of playing with cousins, the noisy cuckoo clock popping out on the hour, lying on the sofa with a sickness bug watching old murder mystery programmes on the television, playing hide and seek behind the sheds in the garden, climbing the big old tree to pick green gages and banging away on the old piano in the side room before our granddad got out of his armchair to come shout at us. One day I would love my nan to teach me how to make chicken just the way she does. I should do this soon.

Being Home

Missing Home

50555_326328254615_520416_nAs much as I love studying I do miss my family and friends back home a lot. Part of me wishes I had studied closer to home or even stayed at home and commuted to a London college but I suppose the distance is a good thing. Despite being disciplined, I know if I was at home all the time I would struggle to work as hard as I do with my sister, boyfriend, cousins and neighbours to see, as well as being around for friends’ birthdays, volunteering, being a Brownie Guide leader and being available for the weekly bible study sessions happening. For this reason, I try to tell myself that long distance is a good thing but although I have my teddies, it’s not quite the same as hugging human beings! 

Missing Home

Home-bird

 

Growing up, I always wanted to leave,

Desperate to fly the nest,

I loved my family and my time at home

But thought independence would be best,

 

Weekends I’d spend with my friends

Or visiting their unis,

I couldn’t wait to start my degree,

In my new place, new town, feel free,

 

I love living out of a suitcase

Or carrying a giant bag on my back,

Travelling feeds my soul,

Excitement I will never lack,

 

Different countries, cities, villages I want to explore,

Just jumping onto trains,

I might not like it, I might return

Or never want to come back again,

 

A couple of years I’ve lived away from home,

Distance does make the heart grow fonder

Because I miss my family,

Sometimes I can’t bear it any longer,

 

Adventure will always be my dream

And live this dream I can,

I will work days, sleep nights, live the weekends

And save up for a bright green camper van,

 

Whether I’m cosied by the fireplace, cuddling,

Lying under the stars in a field or sandy beach,

As long as I’m with the ones I love

No closer to home will I need to reach,

 

But even if I go to the corners of the earth,

I’ll come back to study and read like a nerd,

Because no matter how far I travel

I’ll remain to be a happy home-bird.

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Home-bird

At this Address

IMG_1730Here I sit writing at my desk 

In my cramped student abode, 

I dream of a place where in ten years time

I could call my home, 

 

Shelves and cases will be weighed down with books, 

Cupboards of jigsaws and board games ancient, 

Life and memories will fill every cranny and nook, 

Nothing ever will we repent, 

 

Our sinking sofa will be cushion heavy, 

On the second-hand table will stand flowers in clay jugs, 

When you walk across the room 

Your toes will be caressed by the thick, soft rugs, 

 

The fridge will be always filled with food

Like olives, brie and ice-cream, 

On the door will be stuck magnets and postcards, 

Souvenirs of everywhere we have been, 

 

Everywhere will be colours and culture, 

On the walls will hang art, paintings, 

The bed will be massive and inviting

To collapse into after a day’s social work and training,

 

A bird cage of waxy candles hangs over my desk, 

Messy as hell, 

And of course there’s no peace from animal

Who will share this place we will dwell, 

 

The dogs will love the wide green garden

Where chimes sing in the wind, 

We’ll grow our own vegetable patch

And from the tree branch will hang a swing, 

 

The days smell like fresh oranges and warm baking, 

Nights spent by the fireplace, 

There is no stress at this address, 

Only laughter and love can be traced. 

At this Address

Feels like Home

The 'gherkin', using acrylic paint for my GCSE Art Graphics coursework
The ‘gherkin’, using acrylic paint for my GCSE Art Graphics coursework

London has always felt like home for me,

The rattling red buses, the chaos and calamity,

The way everyone looks down and no one smiles on the tube,

When people push you in the streets, in a rush and rude,

Everywhere you can walk to, bus or ride the underground,

Zapping through with your oyster, making a beeping sound,

Always bumping into old friends in the road or travelling,

Appreciating the street artists, living statues, fiddlers, the ones that sing,

Food from every culture you can buy from every corner,

It’s busy whether it rains or when the sun beats down feeling like a sauna,

There is always something to do or a place where we can go,

This city is somewhere that I will always love and know,

I have grown with the noisy buses and clattering trains,

They’re very far away from those muddy country lanes,

I love visiting the old museums and the modern art galleries

And standing on the wobbly bridge, watching the Thames stretch as long as my eyes can see,

The boys with their skateboards and their amazing graffiti art,

The men wear suits and women are dressed smart,

And if you really miss seeing some grass and trees

There is always Kew Gardens or a wander through Hyde Park,

All around the world I’d love to go,

Have new experiences of desert, sun, sea and snow

But when I’m ready to settle and my travelling is done

I will be at home where my heart is, back in London.

 

Feels like Home