Monthly Archives: December 2021

Really? Not Really. Really?

Posted on December 28, 2021 by joefingas

The mediation for today basically told me, ” Clear your head.” I’m paraphrasing, of course, I have no memory for exact quotes. Especially when I’m one hundred ten percent into my meditative trance. Breathing deep and exhaling through my mouth. … Continue reading →

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It Doesn’t Fit

Posted on December 19, 2021 by joefingas

I’m trying to be wordy But that’s not me Long winded Maybe But How many stanzas Do I need to say I’m an asshole A liar Obsessed with goodness and Still Being No Damned Good… It’s true… True… I thought … Continue reading →

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I Can Dream

Posted on December 15, 2021 by joefingas

John Lennon sang, “You can say I’m a dreamer.” And he knew he wasn’t the only one. And I knew that, too. I knew that because I have always been a dreamer. Long before “Imagine” was a song, I’d be … Continue reading →

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This Moment Forward

Posted on December 14, 2021 by joefingas

This is my party. I will choose whom to invite. I don’t want to cry.

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My Focus Today

Posted on December 13, 2021 by joefingas

“Today I focus On what I want to attract Into my life.” – Deepak Chopra I’m gonna do this meditation thing… This fasting thing… This take the next step forward thing… Because it’s the next step forward for me… “Keep … Continue reading →

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Desperation Hangover

Posted on December 10, 2021 by joefingas

It’s been a steady streak the last couple of weeks. I’ve made some money, more than expected, so I sent a bit to my friend, paid off my past due bills and cleared my bank account of all NSF charges. … Continue reading →

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I Have No Enemies Today

Posted on December 8, 2021 by joefingas

I saw him a few months ago. He was walking down an isle at Walmart. At first, I wasn’t sure it was him because of his slow, shuffling gait. “That’s not the way he walks,” I thought. His gray hair … Continue reading →

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The Gift Of Desperation III

Posted on December 6, 2021 by joefingas

Last night, I accepted full responsibility for the consequences of my financial decisions. Past, present and future. My girl was counting on me for some cash. She was counting on me because I told her she could, I told her … Continue reading →

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Miss You

Posted on December 4, 2021 by joefingas

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One Hand Clapping

Posted on December 4, 2021 by joefingas

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