Free to Be Me


free to be me

 

Free to Be Me 

I wish for you the perfect gift

under the perfect tree

not locked in a box, ribboned or tucked in a sock

but open for all to see

as visible as the brightest star,

this gift, hopefully received most festively,

would simply, and mindfully be

“a present me”

in this season of your making

I wish for you garlands of friendships in waiting,

a thousand lights of joy, harmony, and fullness for the taking.

I wish for you a time of believing

in a Pandora of possibilities set free

a time to walk through the door

that has truly opened in your mind

and imagine you are as unique

as an individual snowflake caught in a flicker of candlelight

destined to brilliantly adorn the wonderful tree of life

where your light shines        and others see it

where your life matters        and others feel it

the gift I have faith you will accept most festively,

would be the peace of mind

that comes from believing in yourself

and finding the way, to finally say

“I’m free to be me”

All That I Can Be

Photo J.T. Dodds
All That I Can Be

1.
only ever one glass of wine
no matter how beautiful the pair might seem together, 
each crafted individually exquisitely unique
engendered with a particular essence
a minion among snowflakes, crystals, stars 

yet nothing about us 
	uniquely other than 
one person, 	an individual cell, 
	a single being, being human
one body, 	one mind,
one soul of an old and scarly cat,
smugly contemplating tolerance

everything we love expresses how we feel
about this organ of water and air
this mind of matter and darkness
this exposed soul of a universal want 
and need to plant the seed 
that I am the earth 

I live in light and love
I breathe my air
I admire the flower I am
that grows upon the earth I nurture
for as I churn from day to day
the wind I create caresses my body

I am the earth
	I am all that I see, 
		all that I feel
			all that I can be

2.

if we were one light
how brilliant would we shine

the heavens would cease running away
and look back upon us 
as the star over Bethlehem 
or the light of Mecca

if we were one surface
monumentally varied and etched
with the wisdom of ages
what a beautiful color our skin would be
blinded by the light and sensitive to the touch

if we were one breathe
drawing in everything that has been 
and will be, nurturing every pore of our being, 
filling the valleys and rivers of our awareness
with an inner sigh of recognition.

that we are the earth

	all that was and will be

all that we can see 

	is what we imagine love to be



Published in "Leaning to Lean Back on Living" Collected Poems

In-Between Before and After

 

On return from my adventurous teaching experience in Mexico my first posting is a rather lengthy poem playing off the works of some of my favorite authors: Lao Tzu, Eckhart Tolle, Venice Bloodworth, Deepak Chopra, and Marianne Williamson.  I look forward to catching up on all the wonderful blogs I had been following.

 

 

a wind it is said is

the manifestation of the Tao

 

it is everywhere and nowhere

it is visible only in how the world responds

 

in itself, it is of no substance

it is noticeable in its’ absence and its’ presence

 

Lao Tzu might say

 

If on the wind is carried the consciousness of humankind,

what will can change the direction of the wind,

for there is but one consciousness, and many ways unconscious.

 

Somewhere in the thinking, the non physical human element gets lost.

What would cause be without the shouting mind creating the illusion

that it alone, restrained momentarily by silence, in effect,

can change the face of the wind.

 

You can not hide from the wind nor leave well enough alone,

unless you box yourself in, bury emotion deep to the bone

 

limbs of trees creak and stretch in the wind

like old dry arthritic bones waiting for the moment

to snap. then, not a stir nor a whisper,

the willow weeps in silence

nothing moves when the wind lies down

 

then the rustle of air

that hustles from tree to tree

bush to bush, leaving a wake of

momentary silence in its path,

a precursor, of what’s to come.

everything not tied down shivers

 

Tolle might say

 

We seek the familiar, for in the re-creation of what is known,

comfort in the knowing, at least, regardless the pain,

what is, remains in control of the mind.

 

Leaving nothing behind fills the present moment,

no room for the unknown, nothing to interfere

with the past-future continuum, the safe zone

protected from the winds of change.

 

what is it really?

a breath of fresh air?

can you taste it, smell it, touch it,

hold it in your hand?

can you capture it

hold it down, change its direction, chase it down?

can you see it

other than a response to its presence?

 

you can hear it

you can feel it

with the wind in your face

you know you are alive

 

Bloodworth might say

 

You look out your window and winter has appeared as if out of nowhere.

In your mind it is cold and bitter, wind swept sleet whipping parallel to a 

dullgray wallpaper, and you buy into it, a cutting chill down the spine.

 

Time to change your condition in life.

 

Inside where it is warm and of comfort, enjoy a mindless moment.  Listen to the music of wind chimes, and the branches of the apple tree tapping on the windowpane. 

 

Time to change your mind about life.

 

 birds dance in the wind

circle, hover, dip and dive

in the wind they thrive

they play it

 wind moves water

 

Chopra might say

 

If you are who you have been, mesmerized by memory,

you are not who you think you are, for thoughts today

crowd the way to an understanding of who you really are.

When the wind stops, not a breeze, not a whisper of thought.

 

Silence is the songbird harmonizing with the soul,

it is the sound that carries with it the in-between before and beyond.

 

Life renewing itself is the wind that calls your name, 

catching a glance in mirror of a momentary you,

a reflection in passing

of the essence that remains.

 

 wherever it comes from

wherever it goes

it always runs; hot, cold, brisk and bold

soft, sensuous, subtle, uncontrolled

yet consistent with this whirling dervish we stand down on

the wind swipes upon it ever eastward

scurrying in front of a tailwind in search of dawn

 there is nothing that stands in its way

in its path everything bends and bows

wind is change

for nothing stays the same

once the wind passes through

 

Williamson might say

 

Beyond the pale,

a parting of the mist

a whisper of a breeze

in the open window

curtains dancing

 

experience becomes a choice

in how we perceive

each and every change

a moment subject

to the winds of time

or simply, another miracle.

 the invisible hand of sunlight, the spirit of motion

scrambling from the sea, over the mountains,

across the deserts and into the plains

an unseen force affecting the motion of life

 

the wind can roar like a train passing

through the brain, or whisper

like a fat cat purring in the sun.

 

it can blow the seeds of discord and conflict,

or in a cool breeze,

on a hot day,

carry with it

the promise of rain

A room of mirrors

Rene Magritte   The False Mirror

Rene Magritte      The False Mirror

 

it was all a dream world

until now

 

life passing through me

filtered in a haze

of stillborn memories

 

a room of mirrors

each a reflection

of who I thought I was

in time

 

each one a framed perspective

of a soulful moment of mine

 

each day a new beginning

washing over and around

my shoreline of rocks and broken timber

receding, bleeding back

the life of me

 

back into the here and now of me

 

 

it is not that we don’t remember

where we have come from

the primordial mix

of all that we can see

 

it is what we hold on to

each time we crawl back from the sea

 

what is left

in time passing

a polished stone

a clutter of debris

 

each day of us a loving memory