miss sass-a-frass....

This is Kosty.

She rocks my world. She can be a HUGE grump or a major jokester. She keeps me laughing and on my toes. I am LUCKY to be her mom.

I love this video of her.....

xoxo

a little jibber jabber...& some family love

Harlee:  when we all get died will we live in a castle together?

me: I sure hope so!

Harlee: well.. (long pause) you might not want to live in mine because i WONT clean it a lot.

#mommyfail 

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me: Kosty it's nap time

Kosty: i doe sink so

me: just a little nap and then we can have popsicles!

Kosty: no fanks.

me: well you still have to nap

Kosty: I doe sink so

#bossyanddeterminedat2

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sure miss all these little rascals.

my girls miss them even more.

t-22 days and we all reunite!

xoxo

And now... she's 4!

I will admitt it, I have fallen off the blogging map! I have finally decided that its a MUST that I get back on! Harlee turns 4 today and I feel like I have to at least post a few things for her! I want to be able to look back at my blog and feel like I get to relive all of these amazing moments over and over again because they are documented!!

Tonight, I am dedicating this blog post to Miss Harlee. My little girl who has the biggest heart in the entire world. My little miniture mommy that takes the best care of her little sister. My beautiful baby girl who thinks everyone in this world is good, and kind. My little baby that still likes to be snuggled and held but swears she's grown up enough to do her own hair and make up and her baby sisters too. To my baby girl who taught me just what it feels like to give a piece of my heart away to another human being. To my little girl that has the biggest brown eyes that I secretly melt everytime she stares into mine. TO my baby girl that thinks fairytales are real and that one day she will marry a prince. My my baby girl that makes this entire world a better place simply because she's in it. I love both of my girls, dont get me wrong but today this is for my first...my oldest.. and my growing baby girl! Happy 4th Birthday Harlee Jae!


How did all of this time pass so quickly?

When I look back at the last 4 years and how much has happened I cant help but just feel incredibly lucky! It reminds me that the day we decided to have a baby was a life changing day. It was a decision we made because we felt we should, but little did we know that what was about to happen to us would rock our world and force us to learn what real unconditional almost scary at times love is.

Harlee Jae You have been a light in this world since the moment you arrived. Your daddy and I love you so so much! Thank you for always making us laugh, keeping us kind, keeping us honest, helping us speak softly, and reminding us on a daily basis that being a parent is the luckiest gift in the entire world!!!

Happy Birthday.
-mom&dad

I heart my family...

Today I have been over whelmed with thoughts of how much I have to be thankful for. In my life I have been greatly blessed, I have a WONDERFUL family probably the greatest around. I have two loving parents who have shown me how to have a successful marriage, how to love your spouse, how to love your children and most of all how to love yourself.

My Mom and Dad have always been there for me ever since I can remember. I remember when I was really little and my dad was teaching me how to ride a bike.. he would hold on to the back of my seat until he felt I was ready and then he would let go. Sure I remember falling and I most definitely remember being so mad at him for letting me fall, but I also remember the feeling that I had when I realized he had let go and I was doing it all by myself. I also remember as a not so little girl (high school) going to my mom for advice and hoping that what she was going to tell me would be a fix all to my problems.. instead she gave me a short but wise amount of advice and then let me make the final decision on my own, once again like my dad she gave me a little push and then let me go when I was ready. I remember falling and I remember getting hurt, but she was always there and continues to always be there to pick me up.

I have every reason to say that the person I am today, a happily married mommy of 1 with another on the way has everything to do with the parents that raised me. They always let me go at just the right time.. giving me enough space to fall down but enough courage to do it on my own. As a Mom I have learned that there is NOTHING in this world you wouldn't do for your kids. When they hurt, you hurt too, when they are happy you are happy too. My little girl has brought my so much joy and laughter to my life and I am so thankful for her. She really does put a smile on my face every day, I am amazed at her as she grows and I feel proud to call her mine.

My husband has been my source of happiness for nearly 5 years. 3 1/2 of those years in which we have been married. He has taught me how to roll with the punches and love the life I live every day. He is one of the most forgiving, loving, caring people that I have yet to meet. He is not quick to judge or to be offended instead he finds a way to find good in almost anything. He is a wonderful Daddy who has his little girl wrapped around his finger. He is the kind of husband that anyone would be lucky to have but I was the luckiest to find!

The rest of my family.. my Brother, Sister, Sister-In-laws, Brother-In-laws, Mother-In-law, Father-in-law and my nieces and nephew fill every other ounce of happiness in my life that I could ask for. They truly are the perfect fit in my life and I am so incredibly lucky to have them. My sister and sister-in-laws are my best-est friends next to my hubby and my mom. I love spending my days with them and would never change a thing about them.

My family truly is everything to me. My support, my joy, my friends, my lifeline and of course my flotation device on days when life gets hard and I start to sink.

I am thankful for so many other things but these things are constants in my life, and things that make my life a happy one!

Its been so long...

I can not believe how time flies and how much I have NOT been updating my blog! In the past 6 months our lives have not only gotten busier but our lives have gotten much more exciting. We are going to be having another little GIRL in March and we already love the idea of 2 girls. They are only going to be 23 months apart but we think its perfect! Harlee is going to be the best big sister and once they both get a little older we think they will be the best of pals! :) Having 2 is definitely going to be crazy but I feel WAY less nervous about number 2 than I did about number one. When Harlee was born my entire world was turned upside down. I could not even express the emotions I felt once she was born. I loved her so much that I almost became paranoid that it was too good to be true. I could not believe (and sometimes still can't) that she was mine! She was a tough little baby that really enjoyed being held and snuggled but did not so much enjoy not being near mom or dad. I could not believe how much my life changed once I brought a little one into this big scary world. Adjusting to the life of a Mom was hard but something I would NEVER change for anything. Now with number 2 on the way I feel kind of like a pro. I am already in baby mode and my life is full of nursery rhymes, poopy diapers, kids books, barney and lots and lots of long days, but I cherish this time SO MUCH and can't wait to bring another one into our little family.

Cory has been busy busy busy and we have missed him terribly these past few months BUT we are SO thankful for his hard work and work ethic. He really does work so hard for our family and we have been so blessed that he works for such a wonderful company. He LOVES his job and the people he works with and the entire company as a whole. We can't believe the way life just works out sometimes. I have a hard time believing in fate instead I just believe we have just been blessed! Even though he has had to be away from his family Cory has gotten to be able to see a lot of the US and do a lot of amazing things. He went to Alaska, New York City, LA, Texas, Denver, Kansas City, Canada, Washington, Cleveland, New Mexico, Albany, San Fransisco and many more places but they all kind of turn into one big blur for me! Although he has been gone a lot our little girl seems to still have such a special bond with him and asks about him every day. When she wakes up in the mornings, when she sees a black SUV, when she goes down for her naps and when she wakes up from her naps. At night when we say our prayers she says Dada over and over again until she says Amen! She just LOVES her Dada!

I feel great and still can say I LOVE BEING PREGNANT... Over these past few months I have realized that there is NOTHING more important than family and I DON'T know what I would do without mine so close. I rely on them and love them all so much and they take such good care of my and Harlee when Cory is away. My family truly is my world and I am so lucky to have them all. ( I still of course wish my Mom and Dad lived here.. that would make it PERFECT!)

My Very Own Word Vomit....

So I have seen so many of my friends post word vomits, and I think they are fun, so I decided to do a little one of my own!...

I love the sun, I even love sun burns, I love an early morning sunrise when the mountains are just barely becoming outlined by the sun, I love the smell of freshly mowed grass, I love ice cold water, but hate lemon in my water, I love the ocean, the smell, the sound, the sand, everything about it. I love spring, but I am obsessed with summer. I love the first snow, and Christmas decorations, I love Christmas lights, the smell of cinnamon, Christmas eve and Christmas morning, I hate the months of January-march they make me depressed. I love shoes, cut off jeans, dr. pepper, the smell of coffee, I hate the words moist and ointment, I love friends but only keep few close, I am afraid of spiders, mice and all other small creatures that scurry around on the ground.. I love being in love, and I love being loved.. I love a good cry once in a while, but even more a good laugh.. I love people that make me laugh, and laugh at my jokes, I am naturally drawn to people with dry sense of humors and think they are the best. I love a witty person, whose quick on their toes.. I love hot baths with a good book..I love my family more than anything else in this world.. my baby girl makes every day a brighter day.. and my husband truly is my best friend.. I love watching my husband and little girl together, I love hard workers but think I am kind of a slacker. I love service, and I love thoughtful people.. I know nothing about politics and prefer it that way.. I love listening to people, and trying to understand people who are my complete opposite..I want to back pack Europe, but want to be able to take a suitcase :) I envy people who LOVE to run.. but I do enjoy the gym. I dislike people who are hard to please, and even more people who make me feel guilty for being who I am.. I love a good romantic movie that makes you cry, and even more a movie that makes you feel better when you leave..I love being scared.. but hate scary movies. I am afraid of natural disasters, and have a fear of losing people. I love my life and think that everyone can love their life if its what they chose. I have regrets in life but would never take anything back.. I do believe it is better to have loved than lost than to have never loved at all... I believe in happy endings in all things.. I love prayer and think its an essential part of life.. I love a good joke.. but I am bound to forget the punchline.. I LOVE country music, I dream of being able to play the guitar but know I am not patient enough to learn it.. I love ordering Chinese food and staying in my sweats all day.. I love the lake..I love boating..I love tubing and trying to be athletic and wake board like my cute husband. I love watching my husband be athletic and hoping that our kids get his athleticism. I hate whipped cream or anything else that is gushy in my mouth.. I love chocolate and more than anything sushi. I LOVED being pregnant, it was the most amazing thing in this entire world. I love being a mom, and a wife! I am pretty good at reading people the minute i meet them. I love games, but hate card games, because I cant ever remember the order the cards go in! ha I love my mom, and think she is the most amazing mom in this world. I love BBQs in the summer and camp fires at night. I love being out doors but hate camping.. My female famous crush is Kelly Rippa.. I would die if i met OPRAH, I have a big problem with meeting famous people I always say really strange things that just pop out my mouth before my brain ever had time to process it...
I love and hate a lot of silly things in this life, but I am truly blessed, and wouldn't change anything about my life!

Im lucky to have him...

Three years ago, Cory and I were married... I cant believe how fast time goes, the busier life gets,I feel like the faster moments just seem to pass me by. When I look back at what we have accomplished, and what we have overcome in the past three years I must say.. Cory has truly exceeded my expectations of a husband, a partner, a friend, and a dad. He is such an easy going person who loves almost everyone he comes into contact with, he is passionate about so many things, his friends, his family, his hobbies (GOLF) and even his job. He works so hard, and chooses to love what he does, and the people around him. I have found that he can make any situation a good one, because he is so good at finding the good in everyone, and everything. He has helped me in so many ways to become the person I am today, he has shown me how to be strong yet submissive, loving, passionate, a good friend, a loyal person, a forgiving person, and so many other things that I was falling short of before him. Some of you may not get to experience what a wonderful father my husband is, but it blows my mind at the amount of love our 10 month old daughter has for her daddy. Her eyes light up when he enters a room, and you can tell that he truly is her world. I thought it would make me sad that the only word she has been able to say for the past 2 months is Dada, but it really does bring joy to my heart when I watch what the one little word does to Cory, I can tell he is a proud daddy, and for reason I don't feel sad, I love it.. Cory is my best friend and I am sure he is going to be embarrassed when he sees this, but I wanted everyone to know how lucky I am.. that 3 years ago, I said yes to this man... Cory.. Happy 3 Years.. I love you