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How The Dead Cured My Fibromyalgia

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If you have Fibromyalgia you will know what an exhausting immune disease this is.
You ache from your jaw, down to your toes. You lack motivation and energy to do anything and the cocktail of drugs your put on seem to make you rattle.
I knew I had it right away because a lot of women who were in hospital with me had it.
The hot and cold sweats and restless leg syndrome were the worst. I had spent so much time in and out of hospital over the last 5 years from 2010-2015 they knew me by name the minute I walked into the ward.
It embarrassed me. I’m a very proud person and I don’t like a ton of attention on me unless I want it.

On one of my very last trips to hospital in 2014 I contracted a disease, they didn’t know what it was. I was immediately quarantined and put in isolation. The head of the Tropical Diseases came to see me. The hospital staff were only allowed near me if they had contact with me prior to these blisters on my skin coming out.
They said it could possibly be chicken pox which I had already had as a child but I had been in hospital for over a week prior to me getting these blisters on my body and they treated me with anti viral medication and immune boosters.
When I went for scans and x-rays people recoiled in horror at the site of me and I had to cover my face when I left my room.
I had big tape and warning signs across my door and staff had to wear special masks and stuff near me.
People would peek into my room like I was a side show oddity and it broke my heart.
I lay in my room one day with tubes and IVs pumping crap into my body and I burst into tears one day and just couldn’t stop. I cried myself to sleep.
It was the lowest I had ever been in my life and I never thought my life would change.
I knew I had Fibromyalgia. It is a common side effect of having synthetic meshes and I had three in my abdomen from my hernia repairs from my pregnancies.

After I cried myself to sleep I had a visit from a nurse. She wore pink and white scrubs and was carrying a clip board with my file on it and with her broad American accent she told me to hang in there a little bit longer because next year 2015 would be the start of change and to just hold on. Then she vanished.
I knew if a Spirit was coming to tell me this I was to do what she said and just hang on in there.

Little did I know, she was spot on accurate and so began in 2015 the change that would affect the rest of my life forever.

On the 29th of July 2015 I started my No sugar diet. I was asked by Spirit to listen to everything they said and I figured I had nothing to lose because the NHS were just making me worse. I was also about to have a hysterectomy and I was tired of everything and ready to just wait for death anyway so what did I have to lose right?

I went off all forms of sugar immediately. I went on a STRICT detox diet, where I starved my body in order to kick start my organs into performing again after releasing my body of all the toxins that had been pumped into it over the course of my life time.
From the food I ate and sodas I drank to the medications I had been shoveling into my body. I went off it all.
I was on 1500 calories a day, low fat, no white flour, low carbs, zero sugar. I could have as much dairy as I wanted as long as it was low fat.
I was to do this for 2 months and drink nothing but water. I now have developed a taste for sparkling water because it tricked my brain into thinking it was fizzy pop and actually tastes sweet to me plus it is really refreshing.

I was starving for the first 2 weeks but gradually over the course of my detox I found myself getting more and more energy.
In 2016 I started taking B12, Magnesium, L-Tryptophan, L-dopa, Zinc, Vitamin C (timed release) Glucosamine, Omega 3 and the magic herb and it transformed my entire body.
my hair and nails became gorgeous, my skin was to die for again and I slept better.
I had crippling headaches for the first 2 weeks of going off the sugar but after that I felt fantastic and I knew then I would never put sugar into my system again.

My bowels went back to normal, my periods went back to normal and I lost weight so fast it was 8 months before I realized I’d lost over 100lbs without even trying.
I had sagging muscle and skin by then so I needed to exercise and man was I ready for it.
My boys were getting exhausted from the energy I had. It felt fantastic to finally be getting out and doing stuff again.

I started by doing exercises on my bed.
For 6 months I did leg, arm, bum and tummy exercises then that wasn’t enough so I added walks to the mix.
That wasn’t enough after a while so I bought myself a little exercise bike on Ebay for 40 pounds and started cycling for 15 minutes a day, then 20, then 30, then 40, now I do an hour and it became not enough so I added walks in on the mix.
This wasn’t like I HAD to exercise, it was a NEED to exercise. I found I had SO much energy, sitting still drove me nuts.
I was like a spring pulled back ready to pounce every morning and the only way I could get rid of it was to burn it off. It felt incredible.

So I would cycle for an hour a day then walk at least 6 miles during the week three times a week and weekends at least 10 miles a day.
Then the walks got steeper and harder and before you knew it I had started to develop and ass.
I was born with Lumbar Lordosis the flat back kind so the concept of having a bum was AWESOME to me.

The health benefits of my new diet was changing my life and within 3 months of me doing this diet (I detoxed for 2 months then went on full fat dairy, high nut diet with meat slowly added of the highest quality, and never went back to white flour again) not only had my Fibro completely gone but my reason for needing a hysterectomy vanished as well as my arthritic spine I had since birth, while I still get a sore back once in a while I’m not crippled by it.
My eye sight has gotten so good they have had to weaken my glasses twice and I think they need to do it again to be honest.
My memory is on fire. I was told I could have 10 more kids if I wanted so I look forward at 44 to having a baby with my future husband one day soon also.

My gift has grown exponentially as has my libido lol Being a Scorpio it is great to feel that again. I think about it 24 hours a day lol I think the Universe rewarded me with a 26 year old future husband for that reason lol

I no longer get depressed, I’m happy ALL the time, I crave fruit and veggies and can’t stand the taste of sugar. It’s like a hit of heroine or something. It gives me migraines and makes me lethargic and ill.
The white flour I found was irritating my bowel and gut and since going off it I’m not full of gas or having the trots every day.

I haven’t had the flu once and haven’t been sick with anything for more than 24 hours because that is how long I give my body to get over it before I get my ass back up off the bed to exercise again and I feel bloody awesome.
I’m 44 and I feel 22. My fiancé thinks my body is hot lol
I got told today by a personal trainer friend of mine I have absolutely got a nice muscle definition going on and I should be really proud of myself.

Which I am. This is why I need to say this next bit in all honesty and because I have lived this experience I believe I have the right to say this next bit.
Fibromyalgia, in my opinion is a form of physical hypochondria which people over the age of about 30 get because their lives and relationships suck.
They look for excuses to be ill in order to get the attention from family and when I have handed this cure to people no one has ever tried it even for a day.
They say if you can’t kick sugar your addicted.
Sugar IS an addiction and it is a poison, as is white flour. It is designed to make you lethargic.

We are pouring this stuff into our system like junkies.
Coke and Pepsi can strip rust of metal and remove caked in urine off toile bowls when left for soak for a couple of hours yet we drink it by the gallons.
It is added to pasta sauce, cereal, baked beans and tomato sauce like it is meant to be there and it just isn’t.

Everyone I know how has Fibro is over weight, has terrible skin, in bad relationships and blaming their Fibro for their unhealthy lifestyle.
I know because I did it too.
Well I refused to go down like that. I had children, young children who deserve to have a Mother to have adventures with and not sit around on my fat ass consuming copious amounts of crap because I hadn’t eaten real food that day.
We use it as an excuse to feel sorry for ourselves but the truth of the matter is, unlike measles, mumps and chicken pox Fibro is a brand new disease the pharmaceutical companies want us thinking is real so they can pump us with the medications we believe will help mask the symptoms while never actually trying to find the cure for.

I’ve never been on anti depressants in my life and in my opinion Fibromyalgia is a physical manifestation of depression and hypochondria.
Mostly by women over a certain age who lack attention and affection in their love lives and with their friends and family.
All the people I have met who have it fit this profile.
I’m disgusted at myself for thinking it was ever okay to eat 4 cheesecake muffins or an entire pizza, and 6 donuts for a snack because I hadn’t eaten that day and needed energy.
I’m disgusted at myself for allowing myself to drink 4-6 cans of Pepsi a day because it was on special and gave me a boost when I needed it. My teeth were rotting and I was always at the dentist.
I have no one to blame but myself for what happened to my body physically.
I am proud to say I haven’t been to hospital once in over 2 years now, and went off all forms of medication within 6 months of me going off the sugar.
Nothing unnatural or inorganic goes in my body now and if it does I can feel the effects within a couple of hours.
White flour kills my guts and sugar is torture.
I allow myself an ice cream or milkshake once in a while and if it’s something other than vanilla it can give me guts ache and headache the next day so I exercise it out of my system.
I buy protein powder now and am so happy and overjoyed that I get to make my shakes while it replaces the amino acids in my muscles due to burning so many calories from exercise.
And I never thought I’d hear myself say this but even alcohol doesn’t give me joy anymore.
If I drink it’s a nice craft ale or spirits straight on the rocks but I find my green is more than enough to keep me pain free and entertaining.
I know people might get offended by this but the earths greenery has over 1000 medicinal qualities and while I don’t have it every day now because I don’t need it, when I do it has me back on top in no time.
It has replaced all my Oxicontin, Oxicodone, Amytryptalene, Oxinorm, Anti nausea etc…all of which I took EVERY DAY!!! 22 tablets in fact and sometimes I would take more than I was meant to and make excuses to get more from the Dr because the drugs dulled my emotional pain of being a fat lazy unhappy slob.
Luckily for me I don’t have an addictive personality so I was able to stop these drugs and smoking over night and never felt the need to go back.
But I know people who have really struggled to come off the drugs, the anti depressants especially.

I LOVE trying new foods now and never thought I’d be the collard green, spinach, olive eating sort but I am.
I have tried so many new foods and I intend to try more. Some I like, some I don’t. I tried crab, lobster, pork, turkey, jalapeno peppers (my fiancé got me to try some on our first date and I love them now) Bloody Mary (um…no thanks) curries which I not only love but I can go quite spicy now, goats cheese, mushrooms (still yuck) Mahi Mahi and blue gill fish both of which I LOVE.
Because without sugar coating your tongue with the slime it does, food tastes so much nicer.
I bit into a peach a few weeks ago and it took me back to when I was a kid growing up in New Zealand.
I go to the store and buy almonds and other nuts like most people buy lollies (sweets, candy) and take away food is out of necessity rather than want because we are too tired to cook once a month from being out and about because we make ur own now.
My ex husband makes the worlds BEST burgers and Dadbabs, Chicken wraps and Curries.
We make our own pizza and chilli too and it is the nicest food I’ve ever eaten because we know what is going in it.
The greens we consume now cost more than anything else we buy, we only cook in coconut oil and it makes chicken taste gorgeous.
I am happier now than at any point in my life and it is all because the dead gave me strict instructions and I followed them.

This is my own personal opinion and if you have Fibro and are in outrage at what I have said all I ask you is this.
Go off sugar for one month. Just 4 weeks.
And then come back and tell me it hasn’t changed your life forever.
Because the guy who also cured his Fibromyalgia did the exact same thing as I did and he too has never looked back.

Before you judge, give it a go. It will change everything about your body and you will not regret it.
If you want to live, REALLY live, then stop taking the stuff that is killing you.
Isn’t it worth trying? It’s better to live trying than dying not trying right?

Was 9/11 what brings about The New Renaissance?

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I wanted to share with you images I’ve been having of the new world and what happens after the civil riots and stuff end the cleansing.
I’m always telling you the bad stuff I see so I want to share some of the good stuff I see.
I’m seeing more good now than bad and this is why I’m keen to get to America.
I want to see what happens next. I want to be a part of it.
I want to see the birth of a new world from the inside, from Americas view point because it looks incredible.
So this is going to be global of course but I’m seeing it from Americas view point because that is where I will be when it happens. It IS predictive and I will be living in the US in a few short weeks. So make of it what you will.
I want to see history in the making.
America started this. I now know how with a little help from my Friends up there (if you know what I mean) *wink*…..How you ask?
Remember I said for the cleansings pinnacle that whatever it is that causes the civil unrest and the bringing about of the Elites demise etc….that the ‘very thing used to create us would be the very thing used to bring them down?’
That would be the Internet, Mobile phones, YouTube, Facebook, Siri etc………they made the technology easier to spy on us and we have created a planet of uploading, whip it out faster than a pistol on your hip one man band CNN but honest.
How though? How could all of this come about you ask?

One word.
ROSWELL!!!!
What technology came out of the craft? Or as they call it up there ‘Christmas pantomime prop’. They had to distract American some how, they had all the money to build on the technology and they needed distracting from something that was about to happen in South America. I think they nearly went to war and it would of been catastrophic. So they had to come and distract the simians with shiny things. Out of that came the internet, mobile technology, pretty most of what we use today is because of what they took from the panto prop.

Anyway with WikiLeaks, YouTube, 4chan, Anonymous, Weaponized Autism, WordPress etc….it’s getting a lot of bad people in trouble and it’s as it should be. Antifa and Fake news, all of it is a distraction. They need to spread the fear because the dark side feed on it.
But people react one of two ways when afraid. They fight or they flee.
But even those that flee will eventually try and fight back when the predator catches up to them and what is caught on camera and leaked to the world is big enough no news channel will deny the story, lives will be instantly destroyed.
Politicians, Bankers, Royals, Celebrities, Corporations, Religions etc….ALL GONE, credibility destroyed.
Antifa will join Keks, old will join young, Muslims will join Christians, Jews and Arabs, rich and poor (not all rich people are bad people) white will join black, gay will join straight etc…..in the streets and they will fill with blood.
The blood of the oppressors, some countries will be more civilized than others I’ll say that much. The anger will be such that some people will choose suicide over the pain of knowing the extent of the deceit.
Some will have mental break downs. Some will flee into self denial. It’s going to be epic.

BUT out of shit grows roses as I say and the one thing America has more than anything is LOVE.
When the chips are down no one comes together better and you only have to look at 9/11 for that. Watching all those people gather to bring food, supplies, hands on deck, support to all those brave men and women who were risking their lives that day made me proud to be human.

Crazy thought. I wonder if that wasn’t the thing caught on tape. The Twin Towers. Holy shit is that why I’ve been seeing twin stuff? I just realized.
Was 9/11 the kick off to the cleansing because they made the stupid mistake of making it so public?
Ya know what else Spirit just reminded me 11 11 (Twin towers) So is that THE Twin Towers of two versions, meaning will they try and plan another attack on two buildings? Is Grenfell fire in London another? Is there one or two more to go? Does 11 11 mean Twin Towers or two Twin Tower style attacks? We shall wait and see.
I won’t assume but I’ll certainly observe.
Anyway after all this is over America returns to how it was in the 1950s.
I’ve described all of this in other posts.

But you know, I’m always asking questions and I asked Spirit last night what will happen to all the orphans out there who are in those horrendous orphanages without love and care and Spirit said they’ll mostly get adopted.
For the ones that haven’t been damaged psychologically I mean.
Some of those poor souls will never recover and be taken care of by loving people.
I see so sooooo many elderly people using their time to love these children.
Retried British Nana working along side retired Filipino Granddad. Taking care of those who can’t take care of themselves. Animal and human, flora and fauna included.
I see the elderly who are capable feeling useful again and sharing so much of their culture, knowledge and history with those around them.
There are billions of them waiting to die who just have too much energy to die just yet and you’ll see them living even longer because they have purpose again.
They’ll teach classes and lessons to free up the time of the Teachers who gave up the love of teaching years ago or shouldn’t be teaching so they can follow their passions and do what they love and love what they do.
All drugs will become legal. Everyone will b given the option to seek help, get an education or learn a trade in their chosen field after they clean up and if they don’t then it’s natural selection I’m afraid. It sounds harsh but nature always kills off the weakest ones.
(with the exception of the innocent like children, handicapped etc…)
We will do away with governments and it will be like community juries.
So if a couple want to adopt a couple of kids from say Africa and China, their neighbours will be chosen, regardless of race, colour, religion or creed and common sense, logic and observation will be taken into account only.
Things will be taken into account like:
Finances, maintenance of the property and self if they have parties are they civil and over at a respectable time if it isn’t a block party? (because we will go back to having block parties).
How often do they fight? how often do the emergency services get called? psychologically ready? etc….because we will rely on our neighbours for everything. Because we will go back to watching the kids play in the street and a few people in the street get together to try out Jims new BBQ, so the black guy and his white wife will bring the beef patties, the Jewish guy and his wife will bring salads, the Muslim family will bring breads and dips etc…and the kids will all play and if a unknown car comes down the street everyone knows it.

When Mr Blogs has his hip operation the older kids will come and bring the casserole Mum sent them over with and mow his lawn. Even though they do it for free he will of course give them like $40 because that’s what he thinks of these kids taking the time out of their day to help an old man.

He in turn will help some of the kids with school work because he used to be a school teacher. Or wood work so he teaches shop in his garage. All with approved funding an tuff of course.
People will have jobs and business they love because of the citizens wage no one has to worry about money. The motivated will get more because they can’t stay still. These are the people who need to be doing and creating.
Those who aren’t motivated will never go hungry or without. But the less you do in your community, the less you contribute to society the less you get back after you get your citizens wages.

Prisons will be for crimes worthy of the sentence. All inmates will have free access to family and education.
The worst will be given the same rights but will fewer privileges and have the toughest sentence. They will be paid according to the job they do and all will be evaluated.
There are too many people in prison who’s parents put them there and they can’t be blamed for that.
I won’t excuse the crime but it means with the right amount of love and support they can at least try and redeem themselves.
And we as just humans owe it to them to try and give them one more chance. After that it’s on them if it’s prove they are guilty.
Housing and developed industrial/commercial areas left to go into disrepair will be revived and turned into housing.
Property development and housing redevelopment will become a good thing.
Things will always be monitored.
Peoples mind sets will change.
No one will think twice about adopting a Mongolian baby to an elderly couple. Of course they will be offered support and monitored like everyone else will.
But the elderly aren’t as old as they were when I was growing up. When you think of people like Tina Turner and Sean Connery. Tell me they wouldn’t be cool parents to maybe some older orphans. You really are as old as you allow yourself to be. I feel like I’m 22. I’m getting naughtier by the day hahahaha My little Latin Boy can’t keep up.
I’m so incredibly happy. Well there are plenty of older people, infertile, gay people, mixed race, mixed religion, single but comfortable singles who can give good homes to these gifts, these Angels in human form.

Import Export will be trade specific. We will all be encouraged to be self sufficient food wise. Because we will all only take what we need. We will all live well, all organic, fresh, chemical free, and yes with treats, you can still get fat but again the opposite end goes in the rule if you take more than you need or you take up more resources than is proven necessary the less resources you will be allowed.
Recycling where possible. For every tree chopped down a couple will be planted in it’s place.

The most creative minds nurtured. Not everyone is cut out for University but everyone has a thing. That one thing they are good at or love so much.
Whether it be growing vegetables they can share amongst neighbours or sell in return for baby sitting so him and his partner can have date nights or the boy who can fix computers who is earning money to buy his first car, we will encourage each other to do what we do best.
We won’t criticize, condemn or complain. We will observe and guide, encourage and nurture.
We will have to. It will be about taking personal responsibility as well as taking societal responsibility as well. You can’t live in a society without contributing to it.
We eventually have to get off this piece of rock. Who do you want to help get you there? The kid who can fix your pc aged 13 or a Kardashian?
If you say the Kardashians I have just two words ‘Natural Selection’.
You either jump on board or go down with the ship
Because some of us apes stopped throwing poo and picked up tools.

Diseases cured, people will live a LOT longer than they do now. Suicides will fall exponentially. Therapy and treatment given where.
We will keep populations down. It will be necessary for a while.
Countries with dwindling populations will be sent immigrants with skills and trades. To help boost the economies. They don’t need to be scrutinized but they must prove useful and productive. You can’t just go there and bum.
More money will be made and distributed. Local economies boosted.
Travel will be cheap and everyone will have disposable income so people will travel all the time.
Countries like Libya, Nicaragua, Sudan, Afghanistan etc….will be tourist meccas for history buffs. Cultures rediscovered and paraded for the whole world to see with pride.
You’ll be allowed to be proud of who you are where you are no matter where in the world you are. I believe we will have a form of Flag Day.
Where your encouraged to wear your native pride on your sleeve no matter where your a native of.
Because we should all of course be allowed to be proud of where we come from. It honours our heritage and their struggles and plights to get you where you are today. None of which would exist without the former existing first.
Migration created you no matter what nation you are from. Embrace that heritage. And make it mean something. Don’t shame them.
Veterans rewarded. Anyone who works in the Servitude of their country will.
All assholes and trouble makers will be judged accordingly.
It will take about 20 years to rebuild and recover.
But it’s already starting.
So was 9/11 the start of the cleansing caught on tape? It would make sense.
The house of cards came tumbling down thanks to the internet, conspiracy theorists, WikiLeaks, YouTube, etc……so what tips it then?
What happens that has anchor men and women weeping apologies live in national TV?
Why will we see people like Hillary on trial? Why will bankers and business folk, celebrities, and politicians be covering their heads from being kicked in by people they once employed?
There once smug, condescending faces realizing their reign of terror is over.
Justice will be bought to many. Then they can languish in prison where they belong.
For those who survive I mean. I’ve seen what the Chinese, Koreans and Africans do to their rich and powerful who did wrong. I still have haunting nightmares of them.

But it needs to be done. If our planet was a dog, they would be the fleas and we are all turning into Spot On.
That is why I called it The Cleansing.
Because that is what Spirit showed me. A dog being cleaned of it’s parasites.

So hang in there a little bit longer.
I put this synopsis to you though.
They said it would take 20 years to recover right? So 20 years from the pinnacle or from 9/11?
Because hat would mean we only had 4 years to go before all was beginning to be right in the world.
That would be a nice thought
2021 the birth of a new world? I’m seeing 44 in that as I stare at the screen lol Me and my stupid brain lol 2021/ 2 x 22, also 4yrs to go 4, half of 4 is 2,4 written twice is 44.

I’m either nuts or brave.
Your watching my brain as it is processing the thoughts I’ve had over the years culminating into a potential outcome as I get them in this post lol I’m literally typing my discussions with Spirit as I try to piece together the symbols and visions I get and file away for a possible conclusion.

The 9/11 theory is just one hypothesis.
I am grateful for my brain even if I do sound nuts. As I tell my students, Nuts is normal in my head.

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When One Twin Dies and Why

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As a parent losing a child is your worst nightmare. I can’t wait to have more children with my future husband. We want to start trying as soon as possible with conjugal visits etc……. (hot right? -_-
lol

Anyway his Dad is a twin and has sisters who are twins, My Dad had twin Brothers, my sister had twins but lost one.
I’m pretty sure he and I have two kids, both girls. But close in age not birthdays. But it got me thinking because obviously EVERYONE says ‘OMB you’ll have twins, hat if you have twins? how cool to have twins, twins twins fluffing twins. I’m sorry but Woooooah there cowboy!!! Who helps me look after these twins? lol ya know what I mean? They’d be 2 and a half by the time Daddy got out to help me lol One I can handle, not 2 at once.
But it got me thinking…….coz obviously I’m a girl so I sit and think about life with my Knight in shining Latino Hotness and then I started seeing stuff.

Spirit showing me various people who had given birth to twins and one passes away.
I know now why I was so drawn to this article a couple of months ago and this is why I love being so observant. (Suddenly being a Scorpio pays off in my real life science experiment)

Look at the poor little girl on the right sound asleep not knowing when she wakes up her life will NEVER be the same again.
She is going to grow up always feeling like a part of her is missing. Her parents forever lost in sadness and wondering the ‘what if’s’ and ‘if onlys’.
I can’t think of anything more heart
breaking on this earth than a parent having to bury a child.
Yet look at the look on the face of that Spirit Elder on the left and tell me he isn’t what the truth definition of divine purpose and Guardian Angel are?

Twins William and Reagan; William died days later of a congenital heart defect.

Twins William and Reagan; William died days later of a congenital heart defect.

When one twin dies, it is because they are escorting the one who is to survive because it usually means the life they had before was one of trauma and sadness.
They may have died homeless in their last life, or been murdered or abandoned etc….so they are given escorts. To guide them through the birth which is a traumatic process on ones Spirit because it’s physically painful having a body, they need time to grow into their bodies.
That’s what conception basically is.
The sperm and egg meeting and giving the Spirit time to get used to a physical form.
Sometimes if a trauma of a past life is present the survivor will get an escort.
Spirit Elders are guardians of the soul. So they are living breathing Spirit Elders, who of course can’t communicate or get attached, so they leave once it is necessary.

If you have ever lost a twin be proud and take with you the fact from the creation of your surviving child onwards she or he are forever escorted by the twin as protector and guardian. They NEVER separate and always keep their memory alive in the other o the child never feels detached.
I’m told for many survivors Elvis included they walk around in life feeling like something is missing. They swear they are connected to the twin in their minds and can talk to them but people would think they were crazy etc….
Elvis swore black and blue he had a telepathic connection to his twin who died at birth.

Twins and multiple births are a great blessing. We can’t have it too crowded up there now can we? hahahahahaha just kidding. I’s a constant recycling process until the balance is tipped to evolution.

TANGENT:
(Did you see they discovered other black holes? I told you I saw at least 7 of them. There might be more but I saw 7.)

I asked Spirit why multiple births and they said as only they can ‘Consider it our equivalent to a theme park ride’. -_-
hahahahahahahahaha Gotta love their sense of humour.

Your surviving child/ren will be blessed in so many ways. They have been chosen to be something special to make up for whatever it is they suffered in the last life. Do NOT fuck it up.

ALL babies are gifts from the Universe but if your chosen to have more than one at once especially if you lose some of them then you’ve been given something extra special and it is a reward gifted to very few considering the rate we breed.

I’m told here is the way to tell the trauma level of the child that survives last lives was.
It’s in how long the twin who dies stays with them for.
So what does that mean for someone who loses a twin at 90?
I’m so crying right now.

You created Angels either way you look at it.
Give thanks every day when there are tens of millions of couples in this world longing for a single child.
People who never found anyone to have a child with who regret every moment. For all the couples who live in countries and cultures who say they are the wrong sex to be raising a family.
Having a child is the greatest gift we in this universe can be given and it is rewarded to a select amount. Don’t EVER abuse that privilege because noting and I mean NOTHING will assure you an all expenses paid first class ticket to the dark side, hell, darkness, devolution whatever you want to call it.

But to those who lose a twin or any amount of children, I bow at your feet.
I wouldn’t be as strong.
Your children were and ARE the most special of the special in Spirit terms. I guarantee you your child is in the one place 80% of the population won’t get to for 20 life times.

You will meet up with them in your sleep and in memory that is fact. It’s how we connect with them while they are in Spirit until you tune yourself in to them.
But for you I’m sure they are never far from your mind anyway

I have nothing but love and respect for you all, no matter the age, a child is a child.

Why we choose to die:

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I know this post going to be controversial but I only write what I know to be truth.
As you all know I’ve been on quite the journey of self discovery this year. Everything I test myself to do this year I have done.
I successfully completed all my tasks bar one (retire the ex) but that for me and my life it is mission accomplished for this year. Next year I’ve set my goals even higher as it involves me building my life and career in the US to be with my beloved and my American family. (which is all of you who need the kind of love and help I provide).
So in these lessons I’ve learned about the physics of the Universe, the cause of the Big Bang, the Cosmological Constant, balance, time, gravity, magnetism, etc….and it’s correlation to our evolution, existence and purpose as told to me by the dead.
All done through weed and music lol

Anyway on one of my many occasions where I was asking a thousand billion questions I was told the reason why we are the only race in our galaxy who chose to die still.
The others out there have lived for millions of years, evolved beyond the need for vocal chords, physical form, etc….what we see is how they chose to show themselves to us as our primitive brains are still very visually.
When you evolve past the need to die you get to travel through time and space and to the light where all time exists. So death doesn’t exist.

The reason we do it is to fold.

1) In order to obtain optimum Spiritual light we must suffer the human experience.
Life is death, death IS life. This entire Universe is based on evolution and balance, time, magnetism etc….we are in actual fact one of the lower forms of existence basically. We are just three devolution’s away from being Dark Side Spirits and it’s up to us to find the balance so when we die we can evolve.
Without evolution nothing and I mean NOTHING progresses. We are relying on a delicate balance to make sure we all get it right so we can all climb up that ladder of evolution together.
Unfortunately for our brethren up there because they don’t die, and they are pretty much perfect in every light they no longer have that experience of life and the suffering that comes from death.
When they hurt they heal.
They have no fear because there is nothing more powerful than them, their power and technology.
Each race striving to advance and perfect their connection to the light.
Spirits in essence are recycled over and over until they get in just right and I know in cases of murder victims and victims of war, babies, kids, mentally ill or disabled, those who suffered crippling addiction, homeless, etc…those who have suffered great pain and loss in their lives evolve. The harder the life, the higher you evolve.
Because there is no greater fear on this earth than death.
To over come that fear is monumental for an evolving Spirit, so some chose lives that are short and or have great impact to themselves and those around them in order to gain the optimum human experience.

Maurice Maeterlinck said ‘The dead are the living on holiday’ and he was spot on.
When we go on holiday we like to ski, ride, swim, shop, eat, sleep, shag, drink, dance, laugh, love etc…..right?
Well it’s the same for a Spirit.
I have actually heard of loved ones who when they passed over never came back again. They evolved to such a high status in the light, they forfeited the need for human form or life again. Thus giving their suits or vessels to a new soul.
As even energy takes up space if its in large enough quantities lol
We are all responsible for each other which is why our friends up there check in on us all the time.
And NOT looking like greys and blues and giant 7 feet humans. We are the only race who needed to evolve skin and hair and shyte like that. Some of them don’t even have eyes but are incredible navigators.
There is only one bad one and they live in fear every day. We need to help them to be honest. They did bad things out of desperation.
But fundamentally they want life and it is evading them. The irony of life, they kill to live lol silly buggers.
But if we help each other we get

2) Full control of all time and space. Having that kind of control i ones evolution is key to our existence as we are ALL here for the Learning experience. To see how far as can go basically. See how far we can push ourselves to see what is beyond it all.
Evolution, creates, on every level.
We know that we create it every day, every day our Universe expands, when we create and evolve. But if we get the balance wrong our Solar system gets caught in a recycling process and planets get destroyed. I know we are missing about 50 in total, 7 just in our Solar System.
The big gap in space, is where the big bang happened and we are the result of what was pushed out from it after it was created. So I’ve been told.
Like when you detonate a landmine. It leaves a crater? Understand what I mean?
But because the Universe is all based on balance, it works the other way as well. When we get it right we create new worlds in other galaxies and they’re so much nicer than ours lol.

We have fucked this up so much we are that department store in every small town that can no longer survive and it’s shelves are empty and they can’t afford to have all the lights on and it runs on a skeleton staff and it’s heart breaking to watch because in it’s day it was the hub of the town. It took care of everyone in the town and everyone is devastated to see it’s demise.
Well earth is like that department store. We have fucked it up. It’s going to close it’s doors one day and if we don’t prepare for that or try to fix it, we will all suffer for it. No one wants to have to drive miles and miles to Walmart when they could have what they need right here.
However, the stores demise all depends on how the towns folk chose to deal with it. They can save it and rebuild it or walk away and let it die out.
The trouble is when if we let earth die out, it tips the balance and our solar system goes the wrong way and gets recycled and we all have to start again.
So we are going through various stages of evolution in order to get off and safe this planet also. For the greater good of humanity and the Universe and all that gets created in herm (joint energy masculine, feminine not one of tuther. I created the word Herm to describe it lol).

But when we have access to this light we have total power and control over time and space. We can go back and forth to the past, present and future of any living being on any form of existence.
Omnipresence is what it is.

So death isn’t something we need to fear in the light, but until we re i the light, death is all part of the necessary steps required to evolve.
It takes a selfless soul of light to chose to die as a child or by way of murder etc…..honestly, only a being with total understanding of it all would chose such a life to live.
The lessons aren’t just theirs though. There are always lessons to be learned from anyone surrounded by or connected to just pain.
But death is only hard on the living. For the death it is an adventure. An experience. A right of passage we all agree to take part in before we come down to live.
If you lost someone, you chose to have this journey with them however short the path.
These are things we decide and agree to even while we sleep (for those yet to woven (born) into our journeys fabric).

I believe one day, (until we are immortal which won’t happen while we still live by banks and government, money and fear etc…we are fucked.
However it is starting to change. We are about to tip the balance in favour of evolving). We will celebrate death.
We won’t mourn but celebrate the journey that loved on now gets to be a part of because what if, just what if, they got to make it to the light where they now get to live forever?
Once we are able to look past those fuckin Kardashians and all the distractions we allow ourselves to get caught up in, we will be able to join them in thought and memory (actual visual memory like I can now do at will) and never be parted when while we are still living in this life on this planet and they aren’t.
Who wouldn’t want that until we are all together riding the same thread of light?

But it’s up to all of us. No segregation, no hate, no labels, no dominance. Just doing what you love and loving what you do does all you need to kick start your true light.

We choose to die and we choose when we die and how.
My Dad died of heart disease. He could of not smoked or drank and eat crap the way he did. Even though his organs were healthy and that of a man half his age his heart was fucked. It was his choice.
My sister chose to die of skin cancer, she went in the sun, when she was told at the age of 14 not to.
My Mum chose to die of cancer because she didn’t have her check up the first time she felt off. Had she of answered the doctors letters to get checked up she would still be here not having died at 65 from Ovarian Cancer.
Suicides choose to pull the trigger, jump, swallow, etc…..even murder victims choose to open doors, hop in cars, follow their killer etc…..but this while it seems harsh, is ALL true.
We control every aspect of our loves including when we die. I used to think we didn’t but I was wrong, so wrong.
With the exception of the innocent ones (babies, children etc…) it’s all up to us, but all of our fate is decided before we are even born. But there is a domino effect that begins once we take our first breathe into life.
My family would all still be here. If only……however, this is nothing to be sad about. That was their journey and they willingly chose to participate in it with us.
We are all actors playing specific roles in each others plays.
Except in the future, the final scene gets standing ovations not boos and hisses.

It’s that simple 🙂

Depression: It’s our fault.

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As you all know my marriage has come to an end and the Number One contributing factor in this happening is that dirty fuckin word Depression.
In the almost 4 years I’ve been writing this stuff out the number of people who come to me suffering from one form of depression or another has risen exponentially.
I’m talking it was one in 1000 before, but now it’s more like one in 3.

Depression is a pandemic sweeping across the world and we have no one to blame but ourselves.
Why? Because we now live in a world where emotions are bad and being lazy and no longer self motivated to do anything ourselves, we run to Doctors and Governments to do something about it.

No one allows themselves to cry any more, or be angry or hurt.
People, we were given emotions for a reason. They are our release valve. They dump all the toxins in our emotions and psyche and heal us.
But with Fluoride and Artificial Sweeteners, Sugar, Antibiotic filled meats and dairy, the low fat bullshit stripping our brains of the healthy fats we need to coat it and now the medications we take in bucket loads willingly, we have depression when the smallest thing happens.
I bet you no one will have depression when the Cleansing hits and we are all having to fight for tins in the Supermarket lol

Get off your asses and take your Blob Damn life back.
We have an entire Universe full of Conscious love and light out there desperate to teach us the ways of the Universe.
All our loved ones throughout the course of our Evolutionary creation are begging us to listen to what they have to say and what do we do?
We eat cake and watch the Fucking Kardashians.

Also this ‘Labels’ bull shit and the Moral Brigade, these pain in the ass ‘Black Lives matter’ trouble makers and ‘Feminists’ etc…the governments orchestrate these little pockets of sub division so we will run to them to fix it.
Well guess what people? You get the Government you deserve.

They’re coming, and they are bringing tanks and Thought Police. So now you can’t be angry that some cops are out of control because your a Terrorist and if you say anything bad your a Terrorist and threat to the nation you live in.
Even though freedom of speech and expression are in the front of all great nations Declarations or Constitutions.

Remember when we were kids, things were so much less complicated when shit happened.
They are allowed to cry and have tantrums but when your an adult you suddenly need to focus on working and going to University and pay taxes that aren’t even legal.
We hand ourselves over to the Matrix and then wonder why we are unhappy and our souls are crying out for us to be FREE!!!!

People, please, I beg you, STOP allowing yourself the right to have a fuckin emotion. Life is shit sometimes. Its supposed to teach you the lessons YOU asked for before you came here to be you.

We are incredible Vessels of love and light and only a few of us (Empaths) understand this needs to just cry or be worried or whatever.

We have ALL had to rise above shit that when it’s over we have unclenched our butts and breathed a sigh of relief. But life’s issues aren’t the hurdles we think they are. They are stepping stones not hurdles. We place each stone there ourselves.
WE are the masters of our destiny, no God or Deity. US, we are one consciousness. We are ALL one. We are symbiotic and connected by the light in the Universe. This is why we don’t know what is beyond the edge of space because we haven’t finished creating it yet. I’ve seen it. I know how t works. I can step outside all time and see the light and why and how it works because my brian (yes I know I said Brian, watch the animated movie Igor, I LOVE that movie, it is so sweet and I feel like I’m the monster) releases its own DMT it seems without the need for the drug. We all can but mine is just obvious lol

We are ALL supposed to be like me. The way I deal with stress, the way I understand the Universe, the way I leave all the big stuff to fate, my gift is nothing if we are all like it and if everyone was more like me in terms of this gift stuff depression wouldn’t exist.
Anyone can be like me if the want is there to put in the years of dedication and training.

This year should of been the worst of my life. So much has changed. My heart has been broken more times this year than any other in my life and you know how bad my life has been.
Yet I’m the happiest I have EVER been in my entirety of life here as Debbie.
Since I gave over to the fear and allowed myself to focus on following my compass, get it. What I am, what I need to be, what I need to do etc…..to be happy. I found pure light.

And boy am I getting happy. I see only light now. I’m surrounding by spirits hundreds deep, I have the most incredible job. Oh My Blob, my readings I actually enjoy them now because I’m helping those who want direction not answers. So it spreads positivity and hope. Where as before I was always worried I was letting people down. My fear of letting people down made me nervous.

I’m teaching thee most incredibly loyal, gifted, loving students. They all tell me how they followed their gut to find me. (They followed their compass) and of my senior students I can honestly say I have found my family.
Even when I’ve had to go Dark to teach certain lessons these last few days they ALL understand why it had to be done and never judged me and in fact by having their support and permission it illuminated many truths and brought certain people to the light who should never have found it in the first place.

My sons are so clever and funny. They are bat shit crazy like their parents but they are individuals and happy even with all this going on with Mr Ex.
But they embrace my crazy and now my 7 year old is in to Physics. Even has theories of his own we like to discuss.

Mr Ex and I? We are the best of friends and will continue to love and support each other through out all of time. All divorces should be like ours. I’m taking nothing but what is mine, and he will help me with the boys without lawyers getting involved. No drama, just healing.

Everything in life has an opposite, for balance. Without perfect balance nothing can evolve. Left/Right, Up/Down, Light/Dark, Yes/No, Good smells/Bad smells, Love/Hate, Day/Night, Sleep/Wake, Run/Walk, Laugh/Cry etc…..you name it, it will have an opposite. So you have to know that when your depressed because your marriage is over, the good times WILL come. It has to. It’s Universal law of balance. But what is happening with us on earth is there are so many of you suffering from some form of emotional or Spirit blockage that we are now tipping the balance the wrong way. We either go up the ladder to light which is evolution and all knowledge, all time, all creation, everything, or we tip it the other way to dark and de evoling or nothingness. Which everything in the Universe including the dark are trying to avoid.
Nothing wants to go down the wrong part of the Black Hole. I call it The Tornado Effect.

By us not doing anything about our situations we head further and further into the black hole (metaphoric black hole of life I mean this time not the actual black hole like I meant last time).

So how to beat depression?
Honestly? Grow up. Embrace the suck, admit your dramas, get off our medication, stop trying to pass the responsibility for your bad decisions onto other people, own your problems, take responsibility and get off processed garbage. Sugar and Fluoride, MSG, SLF, Sweeteners, all that shit is killing our brains, turn off your Blob Damn TVS and read a book, go for a walk, stop being fed the lies that your not good enough. Do what makes you happy and fuck every body else. You will give love and support where you earn it. Give respect where you get it, love with all of your heart, do what you love and love what you do. Stop working jobs you hate and follow your dream. It’s better to try and be happy than fail at being happy?
Know that you chose this life for the very lessons your running away from. So face them head on.
You ask for this life. The reason your so miserable is your Third self or Highest Self knows it is here to have the Human Experience and by you fighting your compass trying to point north your denying yourself the experience you sent yourself down here to learn.

If you are living a life where you wish you were doing something else then your pointing your dial away from North. Over time that wears heavy on the dial. Now imagine your intuition is the dial and the decisions you make the magnetic force pulling that dial to North. So like a magnets polarity pushing when your put two magnets against each other, your pushing your Soul away from where it was set to be all along.

So everything you do, every thought, every action, every decision, every plan has it’s opposite response. So if you make a positive decision, a positive plan, do something there is also the alternative to it out there. The potential of what could be if you make the wrong decision.
Your gut, your intuition is your compass and no one listens to it but me lol
I’m the only idiot brave enough to listen to every gut feeling and thought BUT I’ve lost 200lbs and found the love of loves because of it. I have an incredible career now and a book coming out and I’m fighting the fight to get to New England (well that area). I’m happier than I’ve ever been and at 43 I now have a 25yr old in love with me hahahahaha (I KNOOOOW RIIIIIGHT?) lol
Bless him the silly boy lol

But I did ALL the things my compass told me to do and my life has changed so dramatically I now welcome the bad shit that happens because the Universal law of Balance dictates that what turns to shit also turns to roses 🙂
That’s why you enjoy the positives in life because it can change in an instant but it’s AAAALLLL based on what you do with what happens next that decides what happens next.

See life as you standing on a pair of skis. One ski is Light, Positive, Evolution of your Spiritual Self, the Other Ski Dark, Negative and De Evolving on a Spiritual level.
Our job while having the human experience is to balance just right on those skis, not too dark, not too light just going at the right speed to have our journey. But soon enough you get the balance just right so your skis go so fast that before you know it your traveling at the speed of what??????? Anyone?………LIGHT!!!
Good Students. I know the 4 that had their hands up immediately already from here lol (see…..Time Traveller lol)
Get it now?
Sort your shit out and watch how fast you get to the light and evolve?
My light is blinding now I’m going so fast.
Many of my students have just gotten on the slopes so I can’t wait till they catch up and they will because my experiences mean I can show them how to avoid the hard stuff. I have the cheats to life lol no having to go through the shit I went through to know what I know.
Some still have the fear but honestly if your that miserable in your life, surely trying to be happy is worth giving it a go because if it doesn’t work you haven’t lost anything and you can say ‘See I told me so’ lol
Nothing found nothing lost right?

You owe this to yourself and your Ancestors to try. Otherwise you’ll be back down for sure.
We are those kinds of nerdy Spirits lol it’s ALL about the Lesson of the Human experience.
That’s why we do it. But we control what happens, when and how. Fight or Flee.
I used to think everything was predestined but it isn’t. We choose it all. Everything, even when we die.

I chose to fight and I’ve been fighting like a bastard these last 12 months Oh My Blob.

Oh and the reason I am anti Black Lives Matter is because I think ALL lives matter. I’d like to see the people protest the Asian Slaves in the textile and sex industry etc….the African Diamond slaves, The Eastern European Orphans, (All Orphans tbh), First Nations, Aboriginals, LGBT, Men, Hispanics, Muslims,Palestinians, Homeless, Gypsies Animals, Women, The Elderly, Black people, Irish, Gingers, Nerds, Handicap, Mentally challenged, even ugly Spiders the Devils Minions, ALL lives matter, I could be here all day,trees, plants, even dark side, all victims in some way, and we allow it to not matter. We all have good and bad versions. Your going to get good Priets and bad ones, Good Teachers and Bad ones, Good Judges and DAs and bad ones, good black/White/Hispanic/Catholic/Muslim/Gay/Straight/Handicapped you get my drift, I could go on and on. But you know what I mean. If you don’t agree that ALL lives matter then your to blame for the state of all of this in this world. Your either a part of the solution or a part of the problem because that’s the balance lol See how it works? lol
See….I told you I wasn’t crazy lol The dead people in my head taught this stuff. Lol
Wait till I do my book called The Science of the Paranormal.

So we are all to blame for this shit. We got what we deserved.
We are living our collective Spiritual Karma.

A handful of people tell us who to hate and we obey. Even though deep down we know it’s wrong.
Immigration…….we ALL come from Immigrants. We ALL came from somewhere. No one will be 100% pure anything.

The trouble isn’t letting someone in from a different country but letting everyone in without checking the moral fibre of the person you let in.
If your there to work and make a life for yourself then come on in. Your going to stimulate the economy, and build infrastructure. If your there for benefits and have nowhere to go then maybe you don’t come in, especially if you can’t read or write.
BUT…..what we should be doing is helping these countries so these poor souls aren’t having to leave in the first place. And we do that by getting rid of Bankers, Government, Sovereignty, Big Business, Pointless Celebrity, Military, Pharmaceutical companies etc….
If we all lived the same way there wouldn’t be any of this shit.

I’d of worked in every country but now if it wasn’t for immigration.
Bastards. Who are we to say no you can’t come my soil? It’s not even OUR soil, it’s Earths and she belongs to ALL of us in the Universe.

We are ALL responsible for each other, when we have the SJWs and Politically Correct, and Moral Brigade getting offended by every little thing we de evolve ourselves faster than war.
War is tragic and brutal and over with eventually. Take your emotions and freedoms and rights of expression away etc…and it poisons us slowly over centuries.

This is why we are on the dark side of the Black Hole and Brethren aren’t.
We are heading towards that black holes corner pocket faster than we can maintain the balance and we all know what happens when a house gets sucked into the wrong part of the Tornado.

So you choose. Life is choice. Be the change you want to see because know one can fix what is wrong in you because only your compass knows where it’s north is.
Deny it and you deny yourself.
So don’t blame anyone else if you don’t listen to yourself. The answer is in you and has been all along.

The question is how much do you want to be happy and live the life your soul asked for?

I was taught this by the dead. I share it with you to show you that the dead are NOTHING to fear. Nor the Dark Side as just these very last days I had to work WITH the Dark Side to resolve a problem surrounding a Student of mine.

You HAVE to know the Dark to know the Light. It is the balance of life.
Don’t be afraid. I’m trying to show you how, if you just listen and trust your instincts your compass finds it’s way to where it is meant to be every time.

The bad stuff happens because it is meant to, but with bad comes good. With good comes bad. You just have to find the balance.
But as I say The Fear of the Paranormal is never as bad as the reality of it and I’m living proof.
Now I just have to be heard a little louder which is why I need to get to America. I know the course of my true destiny lies there.
My compass is set and I can’t fight the magnets pulling me in and to be honest I don’t want to stop it.
Knowing this path is taking me faster to the light and the happier I become the closer I get to it.
So I won’t jump off any time soon.
Light is soooo right. I can’t even begin to tell you.
But I’m gonna try.
I’ve been crossing over so many Spirits I think maybe it might be my thing lol My main purpose, my true gift. I just can relate to them. They trust me to do the right thing.
But more about that later.

We are deigned to self govern
So when we bottle stuff like shaking a bottle of coke eventually it’s going to explode and erupt. It’s the same with emotion.
I admire people that withdraw and mope
or like me I go off and cry
crying is my release
it’s just in how you choose to deal with it comes the hard part
finding the balance
so get angry and punch a pillow but don’t go out and punch a cow or small child
hahaha

Listen to music that you know can change your vibration, go for a walk, hug a tree, bake a cake, play golf, paint, fish (catch and release or for dinner not for sport or the blood lust), whatever it is you have to do to bring calm to your light. Stop stopping yourself from feeling. Put your anger towards something that gets that kenetic energy out of you. Just put it into the right action. Make good choices when wanting to be angry not bad ones. YOU set the balance. YOU. No one else knows your balance but you. No one IS you but you so no one can understand what YOUR balance is.
And this is what I’m teaching you all, this is what my students are doing. Skiing lessons 🙂
And I’m the Ski Instructor called Sven, but it’s a Military grade Ski Slope so I’m the Drill Instructor as well and I’m sorry but my Teacher was right and I apologize to you now Pauline, can you hear me up there? lol I’m so sorry lol You were right you little tiny person. I am tougher than you. You said I’d be a tough teacher and I laughed at you. I told you I’d bake cakes and tuck them in at night lol
I’m hard Mama, Oh My Blob, I’m like Satan with big tits lol
I’m the Satan of the Paranormal Sciences hahaha bloody typical lol
My poor students lol they are tough man, I’ve not had to drop a student in months and boy have I thrown some shit at them lol
It’s an honor to serve with these men’s and women. We are going to war together to change history forever and I couldn’t ask for a better regiment to serve with.
Our galactic brethren are with us, fighting the good fight and the light is starting to shine.
Soon enough if I can do this right, before I die there will be a few hundred thousand less people afraid of death and what happens after and then we can see death as a celebration because they get to go back to the light if they lived the right life while here.
So get it right. Please listen to what I’m saying in these posts. What I want you all to do is try it. Try the way I’m saying to be. Just for a month or a year listen to what I’m saying. It works. I promise you. You wait till you see my weight loss. Once I’m down to my goal weight you wait till you see the change it made all because I listened to the voices in my head lol The dead.
If I’m wrong……well then I just won’t play anymore lol Your on our own. I’m done lol I quit lol

Love and Light
Mama
xoxox

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