di matamu cahaya
di matamu indah
di matamu delima
di matamu segalanya nampak mudah
habis arus waktu berdesir sepurnama mencari
sisa-sisa diri yang tak diketahui masih berbaki
bila mata dan diri tidak dipeduli
persis bait-bait tersusun molek namun berkunci
hati pula tak siapa yang terokai
mana tahu ada sinar malar hijau tersembunyi?
mata,diri,hati
tiga serangkai mercu gah tapi puteri perawan, masih suci
dalam mencaricari erti penyatuan kecil nurani
jangan biarkan mata terbuta
diri ternoda
boleh jadi hati kecewa...
p/s:1st attempt dalam sastera melayu.not bad ey?hehee or tak tercapai akalmu?
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
YOU, yeah you!
meeting you in the eye is something i haven't taught myself to do
maybe its been too much, between us is nothing but foe
i haven't let myself be peace with my past
when everything collides i keep it in and let it rust
oh dear time
why haven't i be spared just this once?
to retreat back through my lifeline
and trace back what i've hunt
i can hide my feelings but i can't hide YOU
that whatever im doing will be a reflection of us two
only you and you alone
the one who always slips but constantly i hold
to believe that you have crushed me is something i find hard to deal
now i live myself pretending that half of it isn't real
oh dear mine
i summon but the echo is soundless
maybe for someone like YOU
a tearfull whisper is cruelly harmless
a slight whine,soundless
i've been extra sharp but now i'm losing focus
of whats been the true YOU
and the silly imposters
oh dear YOU
mine has never heard the tickling clock of time
but time always knows what it has in mind
for mine.
for YOU,
hasty pace would mark my way back
turning from my search of tracing
i realise YOU were always there, but never i had
strangely,strangely
it doesn't matter for that
if i had other options
i knew you wouldn't be one of them!
maybe its been too much, between us is nothing but foe
i haven't let myself be peace with my past
when everything collides i keep it in and let it rust
oh dear time
why haven't i be spared just this once?
to retreat back through my lifeline
and trace back what i've hunt
i can hide my feelings but i can't hide YOU
that whatever im doing will be a reflection of us two
only you and you alone
the one who always slips but constantly i hold
to believe that you have crushed me is something i find hard to deal
now i live myself pretending that half of it isn't real
oh dear mine
i summon but the echo is soundless
maybe for someone like YOU
a tearfull whisper is cruelly harmless
a slight whine,soundless
i've been extra sharp but now i'm losing focus
of whats been the true YOU
and the silly imposters
oh dear YOU
mine has never heard the tickling clock of time
but time always knows what it has in mind
for mine.
for YOU,
hasty pace would mark my way back
turning from my search of tracing
i realise YOU were always there, but never i had
strangely,strangely
it doesn't matter for that
if i had other options
i knew you wouldn't be one of them!
Monday, March 30, 2009
lawyering
hmm. pukul 9pg td, ade kelas tutorial contract.and hari ni, ntah kenape, rase berkobar-kobar tu tibe2 dtg.mmg malam semalam, sye masuk tidur pukul 2pg utk siapkan tutorial contract (x kesah sebab subjek contract sangat2 saye minat).tp pg td sye bgn pukul 7.40pg selepas menerime sms deline,"are u sure u want to walk to class today?"sye fikir, ape salahnye?dah lame plak rase x jalan kaki ke faculty.hr2 naek kereta sje sampai environment pon makan asap.so pg td, memang semangat sye bersiap ke kelas.baju dipilh meticulously, and i wore my makeup today.hehe rase sangat best.betullah org cakap, mekap boley bg seseorang perempuan tu, a sense of girl power.cume stakat ini, muney sahaja lah yang memakainya everytime nak masuk debate tournement.
so dalam contract tutorial td, semangat yg same still meluap-luap.hati terfikir, what's going to happen today actually?why am i in such a good spirit?and i practically senyum to everyone, including the Dean! i asked him whether he wants to go and have breakfast.hahaa.lalalaa.hadzwan ptg nie ade test, so i juz message him 2-3 times this morning hahaa apelah itu pon nk citer.tak kena topik lgsung.
erm..bercakap pasal study now, stakat ni, sinar2 harapan yang dah jelas nampak is on contracts(berapa kali nk ulang?), Islamic law, Malaysian Legal Studies (maybe laa although i suck in the test before). tapi untuk satu subjek yg satu ni...aduh...
TORT
merupakan satu cabang undang-undang yang merangkumi salahlaku seperti serangan, hentaman,salah tahan,kecuaian,kacauganggu, fitnah dan macam-macam lagi.whats so hard about this subject(at least for me), is that the uncertainty in the law.u have to be very good at arguing tort because the provisions are always at haze and much emphasis are placed on equally both facts and sides of the case.statutes yang governtort pon kurang, byk pergantungan pada common law yang berubah-ubah.
kesannya?
tutorial subjek ini x ubah seperti 1 medan perdebatan di dalam parlimen."Yang Berhormat..jwpn sye ni juge betul yee.." atau pendekatan kasarnye, "i've told u that the defendant can claim from the plaitiff right?now who's fault is this?"hahaa.guys.siyesly, im not the type that can go and endure much drama in just a tutorial class.and sadly, i haven't adapt to it.
kesannye?
carrymark utk subjek ni memang sangat "memberangsangkan" la di sini ye..i've targetted something lower, but the marks were too good to be true.sampai Prof Chaya cakap.."are you happy with your marks".huhuu no Prof, u have given me more than i deserve actually.let me pulun in exam laa.
konklusinye?
studying law is all about finding where you are good at.1 thing about the course is u know u can never be on top of everybody because everyone is at par.dah xde drama zaman sekolah yg,"ohh, die ni pandai maths","die ni pndai bio".if in law, all u need to do is read,memorize and apply.that is all it takes to secure your place.the downside is, everyone is equally good at all three..so you have to be extra smart and critical thinking, both not taught in any books but you yourself have to develop it..
i know the law,
the other side knows the law too,
both can come out off the mess,
but the question is
who can come out off the mess in style..
HAHAHAHA
so dalam contract tutorial td, semangat yg same still meluap-luap.hati terfikir, what's going to happen today actually?why am i in such a good spirit?and i practically senyum to everyone, including the Dean! i asked him whether he wants to go and have breakfast.hahaa.lalalaa.hadzwan ptg nie ade test, so i juz message him 2-3 times this morning hahaa apelah itu pon nk citer.tak kena topik lgsung.
erm..bercakap pasal study now, stakat ni, sinar2 harapan yang dah jelas nampak is on contracts(berapa kali nk ulang?), Islamic law, Malaysian Legal Studies (maybe laa although i suck in the test before). tapi untuk satu subjek yg satu ni...aduh...
TORT
merupakan satu cabang undang-undang yang merangkumi salahlaku seperti serangan, hentaman,salah tahan,kecuaian,kacauganggu, fitnah dan macam-macam lagi.whats so hard about this subject(at least for me), is that the uncertainty in the law.u have to be very good at arguing tort because the provisions are always at haze and much emphasis are placed on equally both facts and sides of the case.statutes yang governtort pon kurang, byk pergantungan pada common law yang berubah-ubah.
kesannya?
tutorial subjek ini x ubah seperti 1 medan perdebatan di dalam parlimen."Yang Berhormat..jwpn sye ni juge betul yee.." atau pendekatan kasarnye, "i've told u that the defendant can claim from the plaitiff right?now who's fault is this?"hahaa.guys.siyesly, im not the type that can go and endure much drama in just a tutorial class.and sadly, i haven't adapt to it.
kesannye?
carrymark utk subjek ni memang sangat "memberangsangkan" la di sini ye..i've targetted something lower, but the marks were too good to be true.sampai Prof Chaya cakap.."are you happy with your marks".huhuu no Prof, u have given me more than i deserve actually.let me pulun in exam laa.
konklusinye?
studying law is all about finding where you are good at.1 thing about the course is u know u can never be on top of everybody because everyone is at par.dah xde drama zaman sekolah yg,"ohh, die ni pandai maths","die ni pndai bio".if in law, all u need to do is read,memorize and apply.that is all it takes to secure your place.the downside is, everyone is equally good at all three..so you have to be extra smart and critical thinking, both not taught in any books but you yourself have to develop it..
i know the law,
the other side knows the law too,
both can come out off the mess,
but the question is
who can come out off the mess in style..
HAHAHAHA
Sunday, March 29, 2009
re-redundancy
hari ini boleh dikatakan hari yang "lama menjadi baru" dalam hidup saya. mane taknye, sejak mak ambil saye dari UM pada hari jumaat lepas sampai la saye dihantar semula ke 'apartmen' saye (huhuu boley la dikatakan apartment since deco nye agak menarek jugaak), x habes2 dia complain..everything from 'ur room needs a housekeeping' smpailah 'mcm mane laa along tido dlm bilik mcm ni'. well, frankly speaking, bilik saye ni x lah teruk mane(pd pndgn seorang pelajar 19 tahun yang sentiasa sibuk) if nak dicompare kan dgn bilik2 org lain. i mean, yes, mmg meja studi saye penuh dgn buku2 and kertas2 x bersusun, katil saye haywire dgn bantal-bantal yang banyak dan cupboard saye penuh dengan baju2 and benda-benda lain. tp saye selalu berfikir, saye suke keadaan seperti keadaan ini, tp sebenar-benarnye, saye selalu tak ambil port pon.rutin harian saye di bilik bermulapd jam 6 ptg apabila sye habis kelas,makan, sembahyang, tidur sampai 2pg and then bgn utk buat revision.saye selalunye seperti tidak pedulikan 'area-area target' seperti yang dikatakan mak.for me, i can survive this way.
tp, apabila saye dihantar pulang selepas menghabiskn 2 hari cuti yang sgt best dgn parents (best sbb hr2 dpt mkn nasi briyani ayam Restoren Syed and pergi melawat Shah Alam and pusing2 cr brg kat IKEA smpai sesat), saye mule terfikir.."when was the last time i cleaned up my room?" saye ingat, sewaktu di zaman-zaman anak-anak asasi dulu, biasenye tabiat menegams tempat saye ni muncul apabila mata sudah penat mengadap buku ungu TORT (buku ni sgt sesuai dibace if tataw nk buat ape).tp di sini, nak mencari celahan-celahan mase utk mengadap buku2 lain pun seperti terkejar-kejar. jadi, sudah agak lamae jugaklah tempat saye ni hilang serinye. bukan niat utk membangkitkan semula serinye (sebab rase-rasenye seri yang ade dulu pon x drasai oleh org lain melainkan diri sendiri), tp sekadar penyedap mate, saye mula la operasi mengemas dan membersihkan tempat saye.
PORT PERTAMA
Almari baju.okayy..di sini x nak menafikan yang almari ni memang x menang besarnye and somehow saye take for granted jgk bende tu dgn menyumbat segala macam isi di dalam nye.saye mulakan dengan melipat semula baju2.gosh.byk jugak baju2.and dlm byk2 tu, sehelai due mmg saye x pernah perasan saye pakai pon.hmm.seluar.dlm weekend yg lepas,sye bru membeli 2 helai jeans, lalu menambahkan koleksi jeans yang ade kpd 4 helai.reasonable?mungkin juge if sye rajin memakainye.baju kurung??err..byk yg bergantungan tidakk dipakai.maklumlah, semasa di uitm dulu, kehendak universiti harus dituruti untuk berpakaian kurung tradisional setiap isnin dan jumaat. di sini, kalau ada pon hanye dipakai oleh budak2 PASUM yg sgt comel bersepatu tutup warna warni.tp utk menyedapkan hati, and utk menyedapkan bacaan di sini), pernah la juge baju2 kurung tu dipakai pade hari2 yang mmg rushing utk ke kelas.and baju-baju kurung ni mmg cantik-cantik belaka, so mmg x waste beli.tudung?now nie pkai selendang, tp since da start pakai, dah dekat 8 selendang yg dibeli.ade yg suke, ade yg x suke.xpe2..bile saye pulang ke penang nnti, syanaz and wani sure berebut nak kan selendang ni.tmbh2 wani yg dah start tunjuk minat kat fesyen2 tudung.
PORT KEDUA
Laci alat solek.sye mule mengumpul alat-alat solek ni since form 2, tp mule serius memakainye semasa saye di uitm dulu hinggalah sekarang.so mmg2 lah banyakk yg terkumpul dlm laci ni.sudaj berselerak gara-gara sikap endah tak endah sye semasa mahu memakainye.(org kate, alat solek ni harus dijage dgn baek agar x cepat rosak).my fave is lipstick.ade jugak yang 'dipinjam' dr mak.tp semasa mengemasnye saye rase kurang senang.apabila disusun2, foundation saye ade 4 kesemuanye, dan semua botol maseh lagi penuh.lipstick byk xpe, tp foundation??what the fishmonger was i thinking about when i went makeup shopping?adoi2.geleng-geleng kepala.then, ade lg eyeliner warne warni yang saye beli smase zaman-zaman bershopping dgn sara.and now, mmg x gune lg.hussh.bru sye teringat yg sye membeli sebotol kecil liquid eyeliner.(hehee boley salahkan mak dlm hal ni kot sbb mak yg bg duit).selepas dikemas-kemas dan disusun atur dengan baek, akhirnye sye merasekan seperti boleh membuka salon solekan sendiri yang menuntungkan.hahaa.latest obssession: ELIANTO and MAYBELINE.so, mmg2 x boley nk dibuat ape dgn ketagihan sye yg satu ini.name pon perumpuan kan..
PORT KETIGA
Meja belajar.ohh GOd.ini kawasan yg paling sye tidak suke sekali utk mengemas.mane taknye, if sye kemas, maka buku2 yg berselerakan akn bersusun rapi.bukan setakat buku shj, tp kertas2 test yg resultnye mmg 'memberangsangkan' (sudah tiba masenye utk mak dan abah memahami situasi belajar undang-undang di peringkat degree ye.utk dptkan 3.0 itu amatlah perit,jauh sekali 4.0 seperti zaman asasi).aduh.sunggug2 x suke dengan port ketiga ni.if nk wat revision pon, biasenye sye lebih suke bersantai di ats katil.kalau slalu dipraktikkan, insyallah tak tidur dah.and yeah..di port ini pon ade redundancynye ye.buku2 yg dibeli tp x dibace.dibiarkan berhabuk tanpa sorotan highlighter atau notes kecil.kne tunggu exam boost dtg.tp, menurut DR.JOHAN, xpe if kite start create our own library.hehee jd boley disimpulkan di sini, semua buke2 yg dibeli ni atas kata-kata hikmat itulah.xpe2.one day(probably when i become a lawyer), those books will be of use juge.and dah mule berangan2 utk kumpul MLJ ni!
tp, apabila saye dihantar pulang selepas menghabiskn 2 hari cuti yang sgt best dgn parents (best sbb hr2 dpt mkn nasi briyani ayam Restoren Syed and pergi melawat Shah Alam and pusing2 cr brg kat IKEA smpai sesat), saye mule terfikir.."when was the last time i cleaned up my room?" saye ingat, sewaktu di zaman-zaman anak-anak asasi dulu, biasenye tabiat menegams tempat saye ni muncul apabila mata sudah penat mengadap buku ungu TORT (buku ni sgt sesuai dibace if tataw nk buat ape).tp di sini, nak mencari celahan-celahan mase utk mengadap buku2 lain pun seperti terkejar-kejar. jadi, sudah agak lamae jugaklah tempat saye ni hilang serinye. bukan niat utk membangkitkan semula serinye (sebab rase-rasenye seri yang ade dulu pon x drasai oleh org lain melainkan diri sendiri), tp sekadar penyedap mate, saye mula la operasi mengemas dan membersihkan tempat saye.
PORT PERTAMA
Almari baju.okayy..di sini x nak menafikan yang almari ni memang x menang besarnye and somehow saye take for granted jgk bende tu dgn menyumbat segala macam isi di dalam nye.saye mulakan dengan melipat semula baju2.gosh.byk jugak baju2.and dlm byk2 tu, sehelai due mmg saye x pernah perasan saye pakai pon.hmm.seluar.dlm weekend yg lepas,sye bru membeli 2 helai jeans, lalu menambahkan koleksi jeans yang ade kpd 4 helai.reasonable?mungkin juge if sye rajin memakainye.baju kurung??err..byk yg bergantungan tidakk dipakai.maklumlah, semasa di uitm dulu, kehendak universiti harus dituruti untuk berpakaian kurung tradisional setiap isnin dan jumaat. di sini, kalau ada pon hanye dipakai oleh budak2 PASUM yg sgt comel bersepatu tutup warna warni.tp utk menyedapkan hati, and utk menyedapkan bacaan di sini), pernah la juge baju2 kurung tu dipakai pade hari2 yang mmg rushing utk ke kelas.and baju-baju kurung ni mmg cantik-cantik belaka, so mmg x waste beli.tudung?now nie pkai selendang, tp since da start pakai, dah dekat 8 selendang yg dibeli.ade yg suke, ade yg x suke.xpe2..bile saye pulang ke penang nnti, syanaz and wani sure berebut nak kan selendang ni.tmbh2 wani yg dah start tunjuk minat kat fesyen2 tudung.
PORT KEDUA
Laci alat solek.sye mule mengumpul alat-alat solek ni since form 2, tp mule serius memakainye semasa saye di uitm dulu hinggalah sekarang.so mmg2 lah banyakk yg terkumpul dlm laci ni.sudaj berselerak gara-gara sikap endah tak endah sye semasa mahu memakainye.(org kate, alat solek ni harus dijage dgn baek agar x cepat rosak).my fave is lipstick.ade jugak yang 'dipinjam' dr mak.tp semasa mengemasnye saye rase kurang senang.apabila disusun2, foundation saye ade 4 kesemuanye, dan semua botol maseh lagi penuh.lipstick byk xpe, tp foundation??what the fishmonger was i thinking about when i went makeup shopping?adoi2.geleng-geleng kepala.then, ade lg eyeliner warne warni yang saye beli smase zaman-zaman bershopping dgn sara.and now, mmg x gune lg.hussh.bru sye teringat yg sye membeli sebotol kecil liquid eyeliner.(hehee boley salahkan mak dlm hal ni kot sbb mak yg bg duit).selepas dikemas-kemas dan disusun atur dengan baek, akhirnye sye merasekan seperti boleh membuka salon solekan sendiri yang menuntungkan.hahaa.latest obssession: ELIANTO and MAYBELINE.so, mmg2 x boley nk dibuat ape dgn ketagihan sye yg satu ini.name pon perumpuan kan..
PORT KETIGA
Meja belajar.ohh GOd.ini kawasan yg paling sye tidak suke sekali utk mengemas.mane taknye, if sye kemas, maka buku2 yg berselerakan akn bersusun rapi.bukan setakat buku shj, tp kertas2 test yg resultnye mmg 'memberangsangkan' (sudah tiba masenye utk mak dan abah memahami situasi belajar undang-undang di peringkat degree ye.utk dptkan 3.0 itu amatlah perit,jauh sekali 4.0 seperti zaman asasi).aduh.sunggug2 x suke dengan port ketiga ni.if nk wat revision pon, biasenye sye lebih suke bersantai di ats katil.kalau slalu dipraktikkan, insyallah tak tidur dah.and yeah..di port ini pon ade redundancynye ye.buku2 yg dibeli tp x dibace.dibiarkan berhabuk tanpa sorotan highlighter atau notes kecil.kne tunggu exam boost dtg.tp, menurut DR.JOHAN, xpe if kite start create our own library.hehee jd boley disimpulkan di sini, semua buke2 yg dibeli ni atas kata-kata hikmat itulah.xpe2.one day(probably when i become a lawyer), those books will be of use juge.and dah mule berangan2 utk kumpul MLJ ni!
hahaa.begitulah hidup ni ye.bile la nk berubah.re-redundancy.love it.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
call me
call me SWEET, for i'm tastier than sugar
call me MADNESS, for i can go and turn everything over
call me PATIENCE, for i've got all time in the world
call me BOND, for i make a better circle
call me GENEROUS, for my words can't be bought
call me FIRM, for i won't give it a second thought
call me WISE, for i know the key to success
call me COMPETITIVE, for i'm always up to a test
call me SILLY, for i'm unnecessarily wild
call me PROUD, for i have my head up high
call me ANXIOUS, for i wait no more
call me TOP, for i have the highest score
call me EVERYTHING, that defines what u see
call me MYSELF, that's waht i always be..
call me MADNESS, for i can go and turn everything over
call me PATIENCE, for i've got all time in the world
call me BOND, for i make a better circle
call me GENEROUS, for my words can't be bought
call me FIRM, for i won't give it a second thought
call me WISE, for i know the key to success
call me COMPETITIVE, for i'm always up to a test
call me SILLY, for i'm unnecessarily wild
call me PROUD, for i have my head up high
call me ANXIOUS, for i wait no more
call me TOP, for i have the highest score
call me EVERYTHING, that defines what u see
call me MYSELF, that's waht i always be..
silver lining
i have had the reasons to go blind
to wish i had nothing else to call mine
to follow what path heartbreaks lead
in the deepest shallow i would retreat
those days i was the black sheep
the youngest, supposed the wildest but with nothing to offer
i had so much with me, i was unable to keep
i overtook the matter, and others went and prosper
if i had my way
to go back and relive those days
i wish i wish
my sight was bright enough to see
of the 'me' i had trapped inside
and has refused to let free
there is something the sky wishes to tell me
for forever has it been my guardian, my sanctuary
that in its blues and in its dark
if i see it clear i could see the mark
that in every shadow, there's a silver lining..
to wish i had nothing else to call mine
to follow what path heartbreaks lead
in the deepest shallow i would retreat
those days i was the black sheep
the youngest, supposed the wildest but with nothing to offer
i had so much with me, i was unable to keep
i overtook the matter, and others went and prosper
if i had my way
to go back and relive those days
i wish i wish
my sight was bright enough to see
of the 'me' i had trapped inside
and has refused to let free
there is something the sky wishes to tell me
for forever has it been my guardian, my sanctuary
that in its blues and in its dark
if i see it clear i could see the mark
that in every shadow, there's a silver lining..
Sunday, March 22, 2009
what goes around will TUMBLE around
not a day passed by that i haven't wonder
what happened to us what happened when we were together
coz everytime we look at each other
i know, u know
this is not what perfection should be
and then i ask myself and i ask you
should we leave or should we continue
but u said its best not to care
what's been broken can go and fix itself
i wonder, i wonder
why should i even listen
your words are not worth to ponder
maybe someday,somewhere in the distance
when you left, and i can finally measure
i'm good without you
i can live my own life
that no matter how things used to be with you
now its nearing perfection, and i survive
i'm good, i'm alive, i'm thrilled to prove
when you walk away i got nothing to loose
i'm surprise, i don't know how i manage
when you turn away all the memories faded
now i realise, when i'm writing this
it doesn't matter today cause you never exist
and if you decide to be happy
i'll just let u be
in all my past agony and my misery
i've managed to smile and MARK THIS
what goes around will retaliate
what goes around never procastinate
what goes around is just a matter of one sound
that if it doesn't come slowly
you'll be sure it'll TUMBLE back around!
sweeet retreat:)
what happened to us what happened when we were together
coz everytime we look at each other
i know, u know
this is not what perfection should be
and then i ask myself and i ask you
should we leave or should we continue
but u said its best not to care
what's been broken can go and fix itself
i wonder, i wonder
why should i even listen
your words are not worth to ponder
maybe someday,somewhere in the distance
when you left, and i can finally measure
i'm good without you
i can live my own life
that no matter how things used to be with you
now its nearing perfection, and i survive
i'm good, i'm alive, i'm thrilled to prove
when you walk away i got nothing to loose
i'm surprise, i don't know how i manage
when you turn away all the memories faded
now i realise, when i'm writing this
it doesn't matter today cause you never exist
and if you decide to be happy
i'll just let u be
in all my past agony and my misery
i've managed to smile and MARK THIS
what goes around will retaliate
what goes around never procastinate
what goes around is just a matter of one sound
that if it doesn't come slowly
you'll be sure it'll TUMBLE back around!
sweeet retreat:)
Friday, March 13, 2009
WHO SAYS U CAN'T HATE YOUR BOYFRIEND?AFTER NEARLY A YEAR OF RELATIONSHIP, I CAN SAY MY HEART IS WEARING OUT.AT LEAST I AM BEING HONEST.AND HOLDS STRONG REASONS AS TO WHY I SHOULD HATE HIM.AND I AM NOT AFRAID TO SPILL THE BEANS HEREREASONS WHY I HATE HIM
1)whenever i would fell tensed up with work and studies and wanted to dump it all on him, he would go all "sabar sayang, saya dengar k?" and went on laughing. irritatingly, those words and laughter soothes me
2)whenever i fell asleep and he had to wake me up,i would do so very grumpily and grudgingly.after realising that for the first time,strangely, he became more willing to wake me up, eventhough he often fall victim to my acts
3)whenever he acts childishly and later complaints loudly of his injuries when he knew well that i have warned him earlier, he said he would rather have suffered and hear me nagged just so he knows he gets my attention
4)whenever i had to meet him without any make up on or without having showered and he would say,"macam mane pon saya sayang kamu jugak la by.." instead of turning the other cheek
5)whenever i have had to make due preparation in order to apologise for my wrongdoings and he would crush all hopes by getting there first
6)whenever he neglected to brush his hair and messed them up because he knows i would unconciously run them through neatly with my fingers
7)whenever i had my meals unfinished, he would finish them up for me instead of insisting me to eat it all up as he should have
8)whenever he teases the way i can't do math calculation properly and gets a piece from me before both of us end up laughing
9)whenever, instead of fighting me back whenever we had a quarrel, he would surrender and let me win
10)whenever, if the quarrel gets nasty, instead of really fighting me back, he would cry
11)whenever if i said i was alone and missing him, instead of saying sweet words to me, he would come all the way by bus just to be by my side
12)whenever he shows his affection eventhough we're surrounded by my friends or his friendS-like he knows secretively that i like to be treated that way
YOU SEE PEOPLE? HOW CAN I NOT HATE THIS GUY ALL THIS WHILE? BUT THE MOST VITAL,NOT-TO-BE-FORGOTTEN REASON AS TO WHY I HATE HIM SO MUCH IS THAT HE MAKES ME UNREASONABLY AND UNDENIABLY IN LOVE WITH HIM EVERYDAY.. :)
Thursday, March 12, 2009
....as a LAW student, thou SHALT...
1) try from the start to find a more catchy answer than "because i want to learn the law" when asked on why you want to take up the course. so far, "because it'll be easier for me to BREAK the law" has been the favourite.
2) attend every class, and when you do, try to stay awake. if u must, droll for just 5 minutes.it wouldn't do you good to miss out on important case pointed out ONCE from the lecturer and its similar important details.you could save up an hour or two by not searching for the case and read it awhole in the library later if you just LISTEN.and make notes as well.
3) go to your tutorial classes as well, but go there with full PREPARATION.you don't want to look stupid in the class by not joining in the discussions when answering the problematic questions.if you are not well prepared, make sure you are really SMART enough to make up any genius answers to your question.don't make a fool of yourself by saying the defendant is not guilty when clearly he is-just to get the attention of your lecturer.
4) referring to statement 2 and statement 3, represse and diminish any thoughts of NOT going to classes and tutorials-before its too late to start.lecturers would notice if you miss out classes-at least in UM they do.if a lecturer ask your friend to tell you to come to the next class, that is a BAD sign.
5) when presented with a case, read it as soon as possible, especially if the lecturer points it out many times in class.don't wait until the weekend to read it unless you want your head to explode.and don't wait until citation of Fibrosa Spolka Akejna v Fairban Lawson Combe Barbour Ltd gets the best of you.
6) try discussing with your friends only AFTER everyone has read the topic, or the case.it wouldn't help for you to debate through the discussions of what exactly the point of the case or the topic should be-not when everyone is equally good at speaking and when the subject area itself is not definite.
7) decide on what you want to be fast,since the legal career is expanding.and work on building relationships with those influential people.at least grasp the opportunity when every once a while, impontant people from the legal freternity will come down.politicise from the start.
8) try to use your rights whenever POSSIBLE only and don't abuse it. and also, don't go around saying 'i'm a law student' whenever you want to point something is wrong. it gives a wrong impression to others.
9) find a place where you can escape for good for at least 3 days when reading and memorising facts and cases are getting too much on you.and don't have second thoughts of changing your course t.always remember that hard work pays off.
M Y S E L F
Myself is a songbird tune oftenly repressed
Myself is a heated generator often put to the test
Myself is a silent soul full of remorse
Myself is a bubbly entrance opened, now closed
Myself is a ticking clock, never the alarm
Myself is a peacemaker who now does know harm
Myself is a spinning wheel on a lonely road
Myself is a thousand words tied up my throat
Myself is a black cruise sinking in the sea
Myself is an unfair case presented without a plea
Myself is a person who used to be in the center
Myself is a person still in the center, now with a missing laughter
Myself is a theatre, my heart the entertainer
Myself is now a backstage, others the performer
Myself is a body looking at a friend who just said "pink"
Myself is smiling now but don't know what it means
Myself is quiet, my friends are hurting
Myself is ashamed, i need the understanding
Myself is changing, i don't know why
Myself just follows until the reasons came by..
~for you to know that not all hopes are lost is for me to be satisfied with~
Myself is a heated generator often put to the test
Myself is a silent soul full of remorse
Myself is a bubbly entrance opened, now closed
Myself is a ticking clock, never the alarm
Myself is a peacemaker who now does know harm
Myself is a spinning wheel on a lonely road
Myself is a thousand words tied up my throat
Myself is a black cruise sinking in the sea
Myself is an unfair case presented without a plea
Myself is a person who used to be in the center
Myself is a person still in the center, now with a missing laughter
Myself is a theatre, my heart the entertainer
Myself is now a backstage, others the performer
Myself is a body looking at a friend who just said "pink"
Myself is smiling now but don't know what it means
Myself is quiet, my friends are hurting
Myself is ashamed, i need the understanding
Myself is changing, i don't know why
Myself just follows until the reasons came by..
~for you to know that not all hopes are lost is for me to be satisfied with~
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