Tag: dream

Sneaking into Another Life

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Dream: 

I snuck into a friend’s house. Not a close friend, but we are well acquainted. Cooked dinner there, then they returned home before I could make my escape. I apologized and then left.

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I find myself on the streets finding the parking spot with my boss. Suddenly, one of the roads leads up a hill. I break away and tell her I’ll meet her on a  different route since I’m afraid of heights. 

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I’m at a family brunch with Husband and kids where we end up receiving souvenirs from my grandparents vacation. The one present my husband received was a briefcase made from cardboard and pleather.

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Somehow our family breaks away while on the walk. My husband is missing and so is my iphone. My old pink flip phone i found at the bottom of my purse. My kids and I are at a friend’s house stoppin by to hang out. I borrow a friend’s phone calling my phone, thinking hopefully someone will answer. My husband answers. I’m relieved as I’m able to find two things at the same time. 

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Alarm awakens me

Revived

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Today I went to the bank to close out a dormant account and found out it was active. I was surprisingly both relieved and shocked and immediately made a small deposit into that account. 

So I’ll start tiny and grow from there. 

In other news, these pregnancy dreams are driving me crazy! I must have had my 10th pregnancy/labor dream within these past few months. It’s just getting annoying and irritating. I’m sick to death of it. I know I won’t ever have children again. (My own decision.) So why am I having these dreams ? 

I don’t feel any different from before and the only drastic change is I’m keeping myself to myself and my husband is unable to convince me otherwise. 

Overflowing Eggs and Babies

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Dream

I am cracking eggs onto a silver plated flat bowl. I cracked three eggs, but I had not noticed it overfilled and spilled. I tried to “sweep” the egg mixture onto the bowl where it just spilled everywhere and created more mess. I turned by head to the left and saw it flowed onto the floor in a straight line, like a path.

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My friend (who used bully and beat me up as child, we have since forgiven one another) brought her son over for me to babysit. I thought that was very kinds and generous of her to do so given our previous situation.

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What’s up with these dreams of babies lately? Maybe I want a new beginning, a new start in life, to start over again. Even with a new start, the past clings onto you.

A Void

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I can no longer feel.

I feel a tinge of numbness which has all but faded into oblivion.

I have faint memories of a distant car ride.

Leaves blowing about in a playground.

Sounds of multiple snapshots, taken of multiple frames.

A lovely forest filled with lavender wheat-like stalks, covering a shimmery pond overlooking a sunrise.

A wooden swing designed for a couple.

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Walking over to the dock during this afternoon, I remember distinctly the meaningless friendly chat, my mind retains the memory.

But the memory no longer has a hold on me.

Because my mind has finally recognize the reality.

It was all a fantasy.

Nothing was ever real.

(Except the void)

September

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More than half the year has gone by and yet I felt I’ve accomplished nada.

At least one burden has been emptied out (mostly).

I know better than to go where I should not.

For the times I’ve been tempted to do so, I stopped myself.

It helps me to move on from the past.

Although I am still deeply broken and vulnerable, I have stopped caring.

I no longer care who, what, when, where and why.

The closure I wished to have; are answered in my dreams.

Indifference is the magical state I wish to be.

The state where you once wrote was the worse lot in life.

This is the state I WILL be at (eventually).

Hummingbirds and a Beautiful City Skyline

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Dream: 

I’m over at my mom’s house. I know myself that I’m in a dream. My mom, kids, and I are visiting. I ask my kids which city in comparison do they like better. My son answered and said it’s the same thing. I replied, yes it’s the same thing as they are both cities.

We are walking around the city skyline, probably in the downtown area. We all sit down in the lucious, green lawn. I keep walking ahead of them as I tell then I need to get something from the car. I know my kids are safe as my mom is with them. They brought a book bag and some clothes. My daughter’s stuff nearly flew into the crisp, blue sky. 

Suddenly, I get knocked down, where I’m in the crawling position. I watch as a something is out of focus as its fluttering so quickly my eyes are unable to adjust. Then slowly the object comes into focus and I see a huge hummingbird swallowing a whole live butterfly ? Or some bug. The hummingbird wing’s flaps profusely and turns it’s head over to my direction. I’m frightened it will attack me so I instinctively cover my face with my hands. I then open them to see it smiling at me. I pet it gently and say you are a strong bird. The hummingbird smiles back at me saying no you are, and proceeds to fly away. 

Next Chapter

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Dream:

I went upstairs, a man stands alone in the empty space. 

He tells me his wife and himself as decided to divorce. While he’s telling me his tale, I gathered and rolled all the carpets together. Helping him clean the space. He says he should move out by Monday. I assumed in my mind that his wife had brought the kids away while explains why only he is alone.

Dream switches over.

I am at my old residence. I walk out to the porch where I see my husband sitting outside in the unfenced yard. I turn around walk backwards and told my friend’s ex girl had just passed away due to food poisoning. I am shocked and extremely grieved at the outcome. Despite the fact that she and I had some disagreements, we are still amicable and good friends to this day. 

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I awake to a new day. 

Your Enemy

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Dream:

Someone is chasing me virtually sending anonymous messages where I reply as truthfully as I am able to.

Soon I figure out through a couple of emails, you’re using me as bait to track your enemy.

You tell me through email I have to continue so you will have “proof.” You say you no longer wish to extend the olive branch.

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As Omtatjuan3 says, “This soon will pass.”

Trust 

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Dreams: 

I am sitting across from you. I tell you we need to let go and trust one another. Honesty is one the many issues we have. I said im being as rational and level headed as I possibly could give the events that has occurred. At this point we are hugging as I’m talking to you. 

I also made an additional point and your response was another explanation on top of another explanation. I only hope one day you will free yourself. I know not in this life, but the next. 
Peace be with you. 

In Another Parallel Universe…

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Dream:

Your presence is here. I can feel it. In fact, you’re last active three minutes ago. I see J. Duncan among the chatroom.

We meet once again in person. I attempt to engage you in small talk and general information, catching up on my life. Silence is your answer.

I gently whisper in your ear, those three words…