Tag: motivation

Personalities: Don’t Give Up

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I was advised by my friend there are three types of people in this world:

Passionate people who are motivated to work each day, driven by challenges and dedicated to doing the utmost best within their power.

Indifferent people who don’t really mind what they are doing, working day by day on their schedule, paying their bills, expenses, gaining assets.

Cancerous people who have a hatred of their work, people, peer pressure, frustrated people, people who intentionally hurt others to rejoice in their failures and/or setbacks, negative people who always find the worst in anything.

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My goal right now is to not only stay away from cancerous people but to keep my fire burning or glowing as my friend tells me:

“When I first met you, you know you struck me as a person who isn’t working for the pay check. You wanted to learn how to do your job well. So keep your fire burning, don’t let anything stop you. Don’t give up. Don’t ever give up. And just do the best you can.

Do you know why I say “Good morning, Good afternoon” each day? Because it’s to remind myself that I am here to serve the public, to serve the people who are in need of our services. Without them, I would not have a job.”

I remind myself to say “Good morning, Good afternoon, how are you?” to each person I see in my daily work. I remind myself not only is it respectful but courtesy to tell myself everyone deserves the attention and time given especially if they are asking for aid.

We are here to serve the people; the people (inhabitants) residing in America.

I keep telling myself I am here to better myself; to not only help others in need but to hopefully inspire others and understand we never know what tomorrow may bring.

Thanks for listening and reading. I know each and every one is truly special and unique and deserves a chance. It’s all that matters. As long as you try, and don’t give up.

Ignorance is Bliss

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Sometimes in life things are better left alone. I am reminded of a quote from my friend after a long and stressful day at work,

When they go low, you go high.

After a brief little walk around a store, I found myself staring at that quote only to see it was written by Michelle Obama.

I can’t even begin to imagine how my mental state was just a few months past. I cannot believe to pretend it never existed. How I wished at times my sadness would simply vanish and disappear into the abyss. The temptation so great to just walk out the door; walk out of my current life. The demands and drama overrode me; I began to seep deeper and deeper into nothingness. I was fed up – with myself. I knew I needed to get out. I tried and tried; but no matter what I did nothing seemed to help. I found myself creating an even deeper hole where I was slipping by each second. I was circling around each resolution only to find myself at the very same spot I wanted to eliminate myself from. Every aspect in my life was not only unbelievable but became a joke. It was my survival mechanism. My life became so unbelievable I no longer had any confidence, belief, and dignity about myself. I began to think nothing will ever change and began to wait for the death angel.

I am thankful for the new change in my life; however it does not erase all the negative in my life nor does it erase what I want in my life. We are never allotted everything in our life. Change is constant and in any moment of our lives; change is not only inevitable but something to aspire to.

I believe we should or rather I should aspire to believe that one day I am capable of doing A, B, and C. I believe one day I will no longer be financially indebted to any man. One day, I will simply disappear with paper in hand and journey out to a new road.

Me, myself, and I.

But for now, the journey is a rough, tough, and harsh one. Sometimes, we need to be ignorant in order to be in bliss.

Whoever said money doesn’t help? 😉

My intention is to focus on making the most that I possibly can to better myself.

Hummingbirds and a Beautiful City Skyline

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Dream: 

I’m over at my mom’s house. I know myself that I’m in a dream. My mom, kids, and I are visiting. I ask my kids which city in comparison do they like better. My son answered and said it’s the same thing. I replied, yes it’s the same thing as they are both cities.

We are walking around the city skyline, probably in the downtown area. We all sit down in the lucious, green lawn. I keep walking ahead of them as I tell then I need to get something from the car. I know my kids are safe as my mom is with them. They brought a book bag and some clothes. My daughter’s stuff nearly flew into the crisp, blue sky. 

Suddenly, I get knocked down, where I’m in the crawling position. I watch as a something is out of focus as its fluttering so quickly my eyes are unable to adjust. Then slowly the object comes into focus and I see a huge hummingbird swallowing a whole live butterfly ? Or some bug. The hummingbird wing’s flaps profusely and turns it’s head over to my direction. I’m frightened it will attack me so I instinctively cover my face with my hands. I then open them to see it smiling at me. I pet it gently and say you are a strong bird. The hummingbird smiles back at me saying no you are, and proceeds to fly away. 

My Next Life

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If I could tell my next reincarnated self,

Please never, EVER be married, unless you have found your EQUAL significant other, and even then it’s only after careful and meticulous consideration.

If you decide to have children, please nuture them, don’t make the same mistake as I. (Having children to make your partner happy, thinking it will save the relationship, nothing will because issues are between yourselves and NOTHING will fix it., especially children!)

Please be extra careful around people. I know I am a kind hearted person which people take advantage of. Please do not repeat my mistakes; once red flags are shown once never look back. Not even a glance backwards.

Please find your passion! I am still currently finding it at the moment, that’s why it’s very important to not get side tracked. Once relationships and children come into play your priorities change.

Most of all, BE HAPPY!

Due to my dysfunction childhoon, I have a hard time accepting happiness. I am unable to accept self love, self care, etc. Please don’t ever believe you are unworthy ! You are just as special as anyone else.

Circumstances may change, but never lose your spirit for that means you have lost the thirst for life…

And remember only you can save yourself, no one else can! 

That’s all I can think of for now. Will add more later!

~Lavender