FINALLY, AN UPDATE

One of the social workers recently gave me a copy of my medical records. I can access some of them online, but they're not updated since I came to Gainesboro Rehab.

Anyway, I was alarmed when the medical records revealed that I have a malignant neoplasm in my colon. That indicates it can very possibly metastisize and ensure upcoming death.

With all the horrifying medical things that I've gone through the past few years, nothing can deter me. I take every rotten blow in turn and do my very best to deal with them. 

What really shocks me is when I realize how tough I am.

(Long ago I was never tough......I was a sissy who pretended to be tough)

We only have two choices in our lives - - ignore everything and cowardly surrender....or fight like hell and never give up.

Anyway, I discovered (with relief)  that I had the malignant neoplasm before I had chemo and radiation. That was over two years ago. 

So, the medical report that I read was over two years old.

Right now, my problem is due to a lot of damaged skin around my butt due to after effects of radiation (and I had seven weeks of intense radiation).

I know firsthand that radiation side effects can be brutal. Strangely enough  I had very few side effects from chemo.

I'm probably boring and self-serving with this medical crap - - but I want you to know what's going on.

I'm also presently concerned about a small lump on my arm, located near where the cancerous wound was (it has healed and stopped bleeding after my radiation treatments last October).

So far, I haven't had physical therapy since Christmas. I had a bout with covid. The serious wound on my left ankle had deepened to the bone - causing agonizing pain. I'm on antibiotics again and the wound is slightly better. My left leg is partially paralyzed.

Some good news

During the past year, I lost an alarmingly amount of weight. This is due to being sick and because I hate hospital food and seldom ate it.

Right now, my average weight SHOULD be 170 or 175. A few years ago it was 180.

When I first came here to Gainesboro, I weighed a horrifying 138 lbs. I was determined to gain weight, so I had food shipments from Walmart. I secretly ate every night (and still do). My weight rose to 145. Yesterday my weight was 151. I'm getting there.

Well, that's my update. If you're confused about my medical history - - I'm confounded by it.

BTW  I'm still going to use some reruns on my posts, but I'll also have updates.

Thanks for reading this.

Jon

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NOW, ONLY AN ECHO

I wanted a simple life.

 Peaceful solitude,  - - leaving complications behind. I felt an enormous sigh of relief in the bosom of Mother Nature. I left the chaotic world and never missed it. My cats and books and music. Walks through my back yard forest which beckoned me, and I gave no resistance to the temptation.The neighboring cattle. White tail deer. Wild turkeys. Hawks effortlessly soaring almost touching the heavens.

In the morning, when I awake, the soothingly plaintive coo-coo of the mourning dove - - who settled somewhere near the window.

I savor this passing dream, that tauntingly remembers me within distant echoes.

Jon, with love

I cherish your comments. Thank you. 

Unfortunately, I've chosen not to give medical updates. Right now, I'm immersed in a serious and difficult physical impairment, which I don't want to reveal. Later, I will.