Ghost cat woke me by repeatedly walking across my feet to wake me from my sleep. (I checked there were no mice having a party at the end of my bed.) What a surprise I have a new friend Better to have a ghost feline for a friend than nightmares that wake me up gasping…
I've started waking up at the crack of dawn. No, the spine of dawn. The crack is a bit lower and I'm talking middle of the night time here. That pleasant time where you have to remain silent or you could wake a sleeping Girlie. The Sentinel and the Bear seem to sleep like babies,…
Sure, procrastination is part and parcel of the anxiety disorder that many of us struggle with. I write there- fore I do not clean organize or plot my course in life ahead of time. I hide under the covers of a blog soft, fluffy and warm waiting for the call to get me out of…
My body shifted by four days a 23 day cycle is nothing to laugh at result: anemia acupuncture emotional release reset talk therapy garden therapy lack of sleep grief, guilt, bad news, mini ocular mushroom cloud migraines have a golden color in the pitch black inside my head terror, hyperventilation and a panic attack during…
I woke for the seventh time this morning instead of the normal sentence and ocular flag waving I woke to a stream of circular logic attempting to plan my day but starting at the end and ending in the middle. 1. Hysteria, sobbing 2. Did I pay for my pre-paid cell phone 3. Did I…
I said I would not post today because it is one of my high anxiety days, but fell asleep last night in Girlie's room watching her breathe, so I'm posting today. I'm sorry. I startled awake on my left side at 2 am face down on my hand in front of my computer a car…
Some crazy woman slept on the floor with her toddler toddling around the room dropping books on her head trying to remove individual hairs from her head, I think she licked my forehead, the storm raged outside and I thought about the muddy cleanup cardboard boxes in the neighbors yards newspapers in trees I hope…
I keep having a dream that I'm lost on my way to my new home, driving around the curves and down into the valleys and around the bend until I drive into the water that is running across the road. The water becomes a lake and I fear how far I will have to swim…
Revised (9am) Driven downstream into the rapids I wish I could drift Plato, I'm pulled by currents slammed against the rocks and thrown from my raft. My life preserver did nothing I sank like a stone and was stuck in the undertow. My partner floated above me as my knees dragged along the rocks. I…
Sun, soil and water works. Internet installation works. Girly smiling works. My ADHD went haywire this morning. I cleaned, I made calls I weeded, I almost planted Sweet Woodruff around the pine tree. The female internet installer was a wonder to me. She was petite blond and single. I asked how many linewomen were there…
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