Normally, I like to give something up for Lent.  The hardest thing I ever gave up was sugar.  I have the biggest sweet tooth!  So it was incredibly hard to go 40 days without anything sweet, and watching those around me eat sweets.  I think the hardest part was imagining what the first thing I would east would be, or just thinking of sweets that I loved, cause then I had a craving I couldn’t fill.  I wanted to give that up again this year, but I am trying so hard to gain weight, that pulling any sort of food wouldn’t be a good idea.

I have lost 15 pounds the last few weeks, I think it is because of a hormonal imbalance, with my cortisol levels, but I”m not sure.  All signs point towards that being the root of the problem.  And gaining weight is so hard.  I’ve been on both sides, but trying to gain healthy weight is harder I think than trying to lose weight.

Anyways, so I was thinking, what I could do for Lent.  And I have been terrible about writing here in my blog that I started a few years ago, so I thought I would try for 40 blogs in 40 days.  I haven’t been doing them because I don’t like talking about myself when I don’t feel good, its been a little depressing, etc, and I think I just need to get over that.  Give up my time which is something I haven’t wanted to do in the past because writing these things, “takes too long” sometimes, and I avoid it.  But do I have anything better to do?  No, lol.  But this is what I’m giving up, time, and dealing with mild depression for Lent.  Jesus did so much for us, and this is the least I can do.  Really.  I also think this is just something I picked up in HS that I felt like I needed to do for my faith.  I’m not Catholic, lol, I’m Episcopalian.  I don’t think we give stuff up for lent.  At least that is not how I was raised.  Not how my church did things.

I also do need to keep my friends better informed – which is why I did this to begin with.