“I not only use all the brains that I have, but all I can borrow.”

―Woodrow Wilson 

No, that is not a typo.  Just mocking myself.  Not the former Vice President.  Well, kinda…haha.  I have had nothing between my ears for a while now.  I’m honestly not sure when this fog set in, but I’m not fond of it.  Last night was when it was at its worst!  I could hardly put a coherent sentence together.  I know what I’m feeling, but assigning words to them, well times like these, it’s damn near impossible.  Using hand gestures, really helps, or the ultimate form of communication, ESP.  Or as my brother and I like to call it ESPN – the ESPNetwork.  I mean everyone has to be on the same channel and tuned in to hear each other’s thoughts right?  Oh the grief and aggravation it would save me if this actually existed!! Oh….now I’m thinking of Sookie from True Blood.  Maybe not so much.  There are a few thoughts I would like to keep to myself 🙂 

Right now on a good day, I probably operate on 70% of what I used to before I was sick and on medications.  These bad boys, they slow me down, but to the point where I can’t really notice it unless I try.  Takes the edge off my intelligence a bit, harder to study.  I started these meds after I took a break from UCLA, and my grades took a hit.  I didn’t put two and two together for a while.  And I switched from the hard sciences (Biology) to the softer sciences (Anthropology).  That shoulda tipped me off right there!!  Currently I’m probably at 30-40% average.  That is noticeable!  I can’t wait for the day when I have coherency, when I’m am back to 100%.  I don’t know if that is possible.  But man, taking intelligence like that for granted, I’ll never do it again.  I know what its like to be on the other side, not being able to get through “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo” because its “too hard” of a read right now.  All those Swedish name and places…!!!  Its frustrating.  As horrible, horrible as this sounds, send more Twilight my way!  LOL, I read that half conscious knocked out on Vicodin.  I think mentally I’m about there right now!