I read a lot of posts regarding anxieties, what people are going through, different reasons. This is not a joke that we can just brush aside. Wherein you constantly feel nervous for no reason, feeling afraid, worry, anxious, often unable to sleep, irritable, restless, and worst of all, you don’t notice it, but you’re already trembling for no apparent reason, just because of how you feel at the moment  and nauseous each time it strikes, this is the worst.

Dealing with anxieties is difficult, especially for women, it often happens during perimenopause when the body slows its production of estrogen, causing changes in women’s bodies. I myself experienced anxieties during the pandemic, the lockdown. Being confined at home, you think about everything. The dark memories we had with our youngest son, the feeling I had during those times, it haunted me again. I dealt with it alone, yes alone, sharing it with friends didn’t work at that time, because everyone was going through their own struggles. I noticed then, whenever I talked with friends, I would easily get irritated with just a few words that could annoy me, my patience was very thin. With my family, I didn’t want to add to their burden, they also have personal issues to deal with. It was tough, sometimes I find myself crying at night when alone, it’s so heavy in my chest.

I fought all of it with PRAYERS, not just the ordinary prayer we do when we need God. I committed myself to doing daily devotions, I avoided people whom I knew could only create more issues, in simple conversations, I might sound bad but I prioritized my mental health more, I stayed away from things that could stress me out. I did things that I knew could divert my feelings. Listening to music, I wrote and read helpful articles about it and tried to understand. I broadened my understanding of how the people, the world changes and evolves. Most importantly, how we manage ourselves spiritually, this really matters. It’s not easy fighting anxieties alone, most often others reach the point of consulting a psychiatrist. Every scroll today in my feeds, it was all about experiencing anxieties. Maybe my calling is to share mine to help.

~Nodz