Seemingly not of your time
Not of your interest
Daily phone calls to check in on me
So you say
Mainly to see if I’m thinking about someone new
A form of control
Issues stemming from your past
Love claims to be your reason to keep dialing my line
Your alibis never sustain your lies
Watching life pass me by
Hoping I would be the twinkle in your eye
Tearful journal entries began to fill my nights
The pain down so deep now I’m unable to write
Sick to my stomach with delusions of today will be different
As the phone rings
Joy bubbles to the surface
Just to be suppressed by your usual mess
Another conquest to put in your chest
As the victor in this game of chess
In my life I’ve been blessed to experience fullness of life
While you beat upon your chest
I’m being made over to be the best
Left alone in your nest of secrets
Your crest screams of a love lost
Standing on the broken pieces of my heart
My soul departs
To my love that sacrificed
Not once has the word even entered your mind
Love was just a coincidence
Possibly just convenience
A scheme well played
Feelings swayed
Engaged in combat
Unwittingly swept off of my feet
Unknowingly looked upon as a trophy
A future was never in the plan
Here I am again
Same routine
Same outcome
Numb to feelings of love
Running toward HIS love
When will I learn
HE is the only one I’m to yearn for
Your view of life is incorrigible
Why did I believe you weren’t culpable
Weight lifting off of my shoulders
No longer living in your borders
HE loves me undeniably
No need to second guess
Not in duress
HE has prepared me daily to impress
Impact this swirl of darkness that keeps trying to engulf me
As my smile breaks through my pitiful frown
I praise HIS name aloud
Thank you for YOU are worthy
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