A day I dread
There’s not too much to be said
Not a factor in my life
I tend to claim
Yet I stand here today full of strife

The majority of my adult life
I’ve been striving to show you what you’ve missed
Feelings constantly dismissed
Failed male relationships
Fleeing quickly before intimacy exists

Unwilling to compromise
Trying to surmise
The emptiness felt deep down inside
A void in which I’m unable to fill
Your role remains unstable still

Figures in my life
Always on the outside looking in
Unable to truly fit in
Desiring that type of commitment
Wanting to experience that type of connection

Continually searching within to justify your absence
Finally realizing it wasn’t my place to do so
Through true self reflection
I can confidently look at my own reflection
Seeing the best of you in myself