Harassments Of The Day #2
Some addenda, and a few additional notes:
When I went to the workforce office regarding a status-check and/or registration process (work-related in order to receive food stamps), the front desk man did my log-in for me (not that I wanted him to do so; however, he let other people sign-in on their own). He, along with the food stamp man in the back office may have been familiar with me as they had been there during my long-ago unemployment claim, and were there at this new juncture. He entered me as a first-time visitor into the system, although I am not, and I have been in the system since a fairly long-ago unemployment claim, which I wrote about previously. He said my info was not in the (front-desk) system, but he said the sign-in computer was basically separate from the other workforce related system. Therefore, I had to do a new user name and passcode, since only back two years.
The food stamp man said I could leave my bags right where they were in the waiting area, and that I didn’t even need to come into his office. He was giving me the cyclical argument, as I wrote about previously, regarding the letter I had received which stated that food stamps needed to make sure I was registered for work. Since he is in the food stamp assistance, as well as in the workforce office, I don’t understand why he was giving me the argument of saying, Well, what is it that they say you need? And me replying, well what is needed to confirm my registration – basically that he should know being in the food stamp office as well as the workforce office. This went around and around for several cycles of questioning, without resolution. He said, also, that they weren’t enforcing the work requirements, but I had replied that I wished to comply with what was required, anyways. And while he had given me the cyclical argument, he was more than happy to assist a spanish-speaking woman with benefits who said, when asked by him, that she was not authorized to work, and she went directly into his office.
Well, I guess he did not tell me the truth, because I had received a letter (dated a few weeks ago, but only recently picked up at the food pantry) which states that my food stamp application dated five-six months ago was being withdrawn for failure to follow through with the application. What is the failure? If there was a failure to follow through, then why did I receive food stamps during this last cycle (cycles are of six month durations)? What additional information are you pertaining to? What was needed? Why no specifics? I did print out and fax a sort-of print screen page of my name in the system, which would indicate that I am indeed in the system and am registered… I do receive virtual job search information via my email (whether I utilize their own entryway service or otherwise… same thing, to me…), etc. This would probably mean that I would have to pay back the previous months of food stamp receipt.
I have been under immense pressure and surveillance, as well as threat. I have a squad of people (weirdly divided in racial categories — not by me, but by themselves) who film me at all times (both a black group and a hispanic group) with their phones; drive around and follow me (black group, hispanic group, middle eastern-ish group); accompany me on bus journeys at all times (mostly hispanic group, but also black group, and white group) and who constantly berate me while talking to each other or on the phone, saying that I’m a puta (look it up) and a cow and a pig – they share this talk aloud with library staff, which I find inappropriate); these groups let me know they are pressuring me and ratcheting things up, which is totally stressing me out. One person I had talked to quite a bit is now siding with a black group of people against me, as if provoking and instigating – I saw him and waved hello, but he then looked down at a baggy he was holding – when I got up to go in the library, he cat-called whistled at me, to which I did not look or reply, and then he told the woman I was mad because they were ratcheting things up — which is the first I’ve heard him say anything at all about this type of thing.
So… last night, Hispanics called me a piece of crap. Also, a black woman was on the phone at a bus stop, acting very racially negative toward me and my work search efforts… to the person on the phone: calling me a blood clot; mentioning the whaa-whaa about having to pay back food stamps — How did she know that I had said this to someone? (They know that I would not have the money to pay that back; but I think that they want to do this to me…); She said that she’d get a .25 slug and go pop-pop-pop-pop (that’s four times — so, one slug fired, or four shots?). She yakked on about (me?) not knowing what it was like to be poor and having to work (does she think I’ve never worked? I’m on-record/on-file beginning at age 15…) – Also, I’ve never been independently wealthy, sad to say– but I have worked and have paid rent with my money and also for expenses, etc., like “everyone else.” She said “Uncle” and “Kingman”, whatever these mean… She said she was going to bring it up at her seminar: (the topic) about the rich… Um – I’m a poor, Jewish, homeless woman. Do I look rich to you? Is she being racially stereotyping woke about Jewish people – she definitely is being so about “rich” people? Do I really appreciate the threat of being killed? She didn’t, of course, talk to me, or mention me by name, but I’m positive it is… I have so many people on my “case”; it’s been going on for a long time, it stresses me out so that I can’t focus on doing what I want/need to (is that their modus operandi — to wear me out?).
Then, she gets on the bus with her baby stroller and young child, and is so gleeful about blocking my pathway into the bus.
I hope this is not our government at work. I hope she’s not affiliated with food stamps, government, or anything else… I hope she is not receiving grant money, wages/salary, or anything else for promoting this vile filth. And I do believe she is a threat; whether this is veiled, otherwise, or just a mannerism of speech, which did not seem that way to me.
And just FYI: I’m not interested in a free house or apartment (complete with a “puta llave”) – if I want to apply for some type of assistance housing I can do so myself, at my own time of choosing – If I did receive it now, that would negate a first-time homebuyer’s tax exemption I could otherwise receive – Not only that, but government housing comes with government oversight: onto, into your property – not that I’d be hiding anything, etc.). No, I’m not interested in money or a package you want me to sign; No, I’m not interested in being exiled out of my country to Europe or some other place; etc., etc. No, I’m not crazy, as you say, but you are making me so by your harassing interventions, etc. What I want is for you to leave me alone.
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