Present (Randyjw; April 8, 2023)
My life story unfolds before me
Somehow, I never had a handle on it
tipping the apple cart
and the world going awry
Knowing I should be brave enough
to stand up and do the right thing
But fearfulness and cowardice
my call signs
and not feeling good about it
but letting the disgust and cosmos flow
My presence just kinking up the natural order of things
I want them to go back to the way they were,
The best way, I guess, is without me
Still trying to send my love, in thought, to all
Hoping they feel it, but as the operator, and acting like I’m on the receiving end, I envision them all saying… yeah, right —
it’s not the words, it’s the deeds
I miss everybody in my life
Those relationships need to stay just as they are
regardless of the way things have changed
seasons come and go
marching forward and back again
There’s a photo of me
among the milkweed blooms
I was anxious, you can see
Black sweater, white piping, grey pants
When I’d swing on the swings,
I was really free
At the back wall, by the door
Trying for an aerial,
but hurting my finger
in the parking lot
oh, dear; why didn’t I look?
How did I wind up in her car?
(and, no; that wasn’t me, but just the same…)
And why did this all come to be?
And how ’bout that big, beautiful tree?
I do wish my birth
had never been like this wretched curse
I should come with a big warning sign
Hazardous to your health
I wish we could turn back the clock
and you all could just pick up where I dropped off
a big skull and crossbones
a Wrong Way sign
and “X” me right out
So much in a name, you know
Why that one?
What’s going on?
Yes, I was the mistake
and you all were right, after all
We’re all so intertwined
some, in particular
Everyone, combined
But, for some,
and for some reason, now
there are things that seem to be clear
I’m seeing you (all), now, in the parts of my life
and I know you were always there











































































































































































































