My sister and I have almost always had a weird relationship. We were very close growing up as we were only 20 months apart (I am older) but at some point became too competitive with each other with grades, our parents' affection, sports, you name it. For a long number of years we were simply not close and we both really had no idea what was going on in each other's lives. When I got engaged, I decided that although I didn't want my sister to be the maid of honor, I did want her to be a bridesmaid so that we could hopefully become closer again. It worked and we have a much better relationship.
Once CP and I moved to Chicago I was open with my family about needing IVF to have a child. I told them everything that it would entail, but I'm not sure they they fully "got" it. Part of it is if you are anywhere with my sister, she wants all of the attention on her and is talking for most of the time. That means that it is hard to have a long conversation about a single topic because you get interrupted so many times and off track. It's often exhausting so CP and I sometimes give up on being part of conversations because she monopolizes them so much. (My parents have said that sometimes they just stop listening to everything that she is saying because she talks so much!)
Fast forward to being lucky in our first IVF cycle, obviously resulting in Izzy. My parents have been wonderful, exactly how grandparents should be. Wanting to see her, asking for pictures, excited to babysit, etc. (CP's parents are the same way but it's a bit harder for them to see her since they are both retired and living in on the East Coast). My sister on the other hand? Sometimes I feel like she could care less about Izzy, her only niece. Coupled with the fact that she at least has some idea of what it took to get Izzy here, it is super frustrating.
There are a lot of questions as to why this may be the case. I wasn't especially excited about little kids when I didn't have one because what do you do/say to them when they can't talk back to you? Maybe my sister is the same way and will be more engaged and interested when Izzy gets a little bigger? My sister and her now-fiance are on the fence about having kids...maybe it is a defense mechanism?
I get that my sister is a busy woman. But even when we are able to get together she uses the opportunity to take pictures of Izzy, sometimes take 5 minutes to interact with her, and that's it. Last month we went out to brunch for her birthday and yes, she was a little hungover, but her fiance was as well and grabbed Izzy as soon as I walked in the door to snuggle with her. What did my sister do? Took a picture of her to put on Instagram. That's it. Otherwise she was off in her own world, talking about her upcoming trip and other things going on in her life.
I don't know why this bothers me so much, but it does. She seems to use Izzy as a cute kid to sometimes take pictures of/with to post on Facebook/Instagram to make it look like she is a good aunt....but that is the extent. CP's sister is also very self-involved but if she lived closer (we will be seeing them in December), she would absolutely make more of an effort (one difference- she has kids).
I already know that I can't talk to my sister directly about this. That would be a poor, poor idea. But I don't know how to either stop caring that my sister doesn't make an effort with her own flesh and blood or change the situation so that Izzy actually has an engaged aunt. I don't expect her to babysit and I don't need her to come see Izzy just to see her. I just need more than a superficial relationship.