disappointed

每个月的今天都是我最期待的一天。。
但是，最后都会以泪收场。。
虽然我知道你什么都不会准备，
也不会特地的想想要怎么一起的庆祝
或是花些时间陪陪我，
可是我还是傻傻地等，
等待有一天你会和我一样这么的期待这一天。。

今天的我，
拒接你的邀约去看半夜场的电影，
虽然这举止有点矛盾，
但是我想要让你知道这并不是我想要的，
我不要我们的周月纪念日就以一场电影带过，
我不要你打完你的game才会想起我，
我不要！
我想说你可不可以注重一下我们的节日？
我想说我难道不值得你把时间花在我身上吗？

love

sometimes, u can feel being loved just by a single word or action..

This was what i had done to my boyfie 's car..
I had crashed the car with my house gate...Zzz
the stupidEST thing that i ever did...

When i called my boyfie and told him i crashed his car..
he just ask me where i am and serious or not..
then he said nothing one..dun worry much..
uncare face ==

After a while, he called back and told me that his parents knew about it..
They said just small thing only..not need cry..
They even said wan visit me since my boyfie said i cried badly...

 We having dinner together just now..
and i kept asking his dad that the car serious or not..
he just said shouldbe very easy can done already,,
just send to the workshop and they will fix it..

They din even angry or feel to scold me..
They even try to comfort me..
 At this moment, i feel like i am part of their family members..
being loved by everyone of them..

moody

since the moment u told me that u maybe going to australia for further ur study ,
i couldn't stop myself from getting down and moodless..
i'm feeling BAD!
yes, i do!
even cried badly coz it's the only way for releasing my sadness...
i just dun wan to be LONG LONG distance with u..
even u say there not much different from now!
but i want to tell u that "IT'S DIFFERENT"..
we couldn't meet each others even sem break or holidays!
and yet u told me that u are not going back for chinese year..
my birthday, our first valentine, our first anniversary??
who going to be with me?
and we just have a chance to meet each other after half year..
i dun wan to interfere with ur decision..
even u say u wan to go, i won't stop u..
i dun wan u feel regret next time..
and i can feel that u really want to go for it!
T.T

蒙福的我们

或许你们根本都不相信有神的存在，
但我想说我真的慢慢相信慢慢的经历到了。。

成绩放榜的前一天，我忽然犹豫了。。
若以前的我我一定说当然要去西马，
我才不要去sabah,
但我开始想说sabah也不错，
可以经常回家，
我还蛮舍不得他。。

当我拿不定主意时，我就求神说，
你要我去那里就去哪里吧。。
最后就中了马六甲。。
感到欣慰的是至少还有朋友在那里。。
怎么也没想到黄晓娴即然也和我中了一样的科系一样的大学，
只能说感谢主。。
真的太出乎我想象了。。

在这里的一切都有人帮我们打点，
可以说我们还过得不错。。
教会的兄弟姐妹也都对我们很好。。
每个星期回到主教会的感觉真的好奇妙，
太棒了！

另外，我们也太蒙福了吧！
airasia每天都在promotion!
所以，朋友们，
每个sem break, holiday你们都可以见到我们！
哈哈哈。。。

大家，5号你们就可以看到我咯！！哈哈

全新

曾经以为，或许离开对我说才是解脱，
才能找回自己逝世已久的笑容，
开朗的一面，
但事实证明了，始终你都是我心里的那根刺，
只要触碰，就注定偏题鳞伤，
让我知道自己原来是那么的不堪。。
时间或许让我把伤痛埋入心底，
但却带不走这些悲痛。
人，
有时或许太单纯了，
想法太幼稚，
所以往往都被伤透。

但现在的我过的很好，
因为我找到了微笑的理由，
找到想留下，
想回家的理由，
那就是他。。

或许以前我们爱常常吵吵闹闹，
没有好好珍惜在一起的时间，
但这短暂的离别让我们更明白彼此的心意。。
不知以后的我们会怎样，
但现在的我们却想要好好守住这得来不易的爱情，
不然它慢慢的冷掉，消失。
在这里的短短三个星期，
我发现自己个改变了许多，
我学习不再那么的执着，
有时当你把手松开时，
原来一切都会是那么的美好，
一切顺其自然就好，
不用过于的强求。。

所有发生的事情并非偶然，
我们可以从中学习功课，
改变自己，
这应该比唉声叹气，埋怨来的好吧。。


人生，就是充满着酸甜苦辣，
好好的享受吧！


终于把头发剪短了。。
这是我一直以来想做却没勇气做的事。。
一个全新的我 <3 <3

my wish

firstly, i have to congratz myself..
finally, i made up my mind to buy a present for rewarding myself after working for few months..
yeah..iphone 4..
i got it..xD



bro's white iphone..
although white looks nice too, but i like mine more..
hehehe..



my wallet!!
bought it using my own pay too..

quite proud of myself..
i manage to buy the things i want and also travel around using money that i earned..
sometimes, u will have sense of accomplishment by buying somethings u wished so much by your own money..
yesh..
thanks god for loving me so much..
finally i got most of the things i wish..

lastly, i wish to get a watch for myself after sg trip..
so now i have to start saving money again..xD

recently

I am fine for sure..
It's freaking boring to stay at home..
Watching pps, eating, fbing??
what else i can do..
kinder EXCITED i'm going to know which uni i will be going on 15th of july..
and also can't for sg trip with my beloved friends..
daryl soon, we are going to meet up soon!!

we had been staying together for 1 month plus..
it's so fun but also quite annoying coz of their extremely loud crying sound..


she loves taking pics..
and my phone is full of her photo already..


It's sunday..
the day before they moved back to their own house..


dadi..heart him..
dadi, i love u so much..
i know u love me too..
everything i requested u will try to fullfill me..
dadi, i do miss u so much..
sometimes i do think that if last time we din even move here,
maybe we will have more time for each others..
and dadi..
thanks for ur hardwork to give us a better life like now..
and everything u did for us remain in my heart..
dadi, do take care of urself..
and i will pray for u..hope god will bless u more..xD


Found this inside my room..
that what my boy did when he AEROPLANED me..lol..
u DESERVED it..hahaha..
now, even u aeroplane me, u won't do such thing anymore..
hehe..what u will say is only a SORRY..
SORRY SORRY..
sometimes it's kinder useless to say it..

u remember that i told u..
when u come pick me up next time, rmb to open your windowpane,
lighted a cigarette, started to smoke to let mum know that u NEVER EVER change..
haha..maybe u will treat it as a joke..
but actually i hope that u will say u will try not to smoke..
Dadi doesn't like ppl to smoke, drink..
but yet i found a bf with all these "requirements" fullfilled..xD
mumi always remind me to think wisely and i bet i know wat she's trying to tell me..
mumi, sorry for IGNORING what u said..
maybe one day i will regret for the decision i made today..
but that my option..
just let it be..