Ok this post is written from a place of utter disbelief and frustration.

All around me, all around all exited women – there is the constant insistence that we should at least try to understand punters.

We can be angry with them but not to the point of pure fury; we can dislike some of them but always some proviso that we know not all punters are bad; we can say there is violence, only if we also some men were gentlemen.

We must not say that all punters are the same, that they all have the same mind-set and they all have a massive sense of entitlement.

We must always be reasonable, we must be able to listen endlessly to the excuses made for punters.

To be other is to be told we are too emotional, we must hate all men, we are tainted by our individual bad experiences – we do not see or know the full pictures of what makes a punter.

Why not say what you really think – exited women are too dumb or too damaged to know their own realities.

I have enough of being told to be reasonable about punters – when it very rare that punters are ever reasonable to the prostituted.

The most important thing that must be stated over and over and over – it is impossible to be a punter and to be a decent human being.

It is impossible to make the choice to buy the prostituted for no other reason than your selfish sexual kicks and still a good person.

I do not care how gentle you are with the prostitute; I do not care if you just talk or watch; I do not care if you decide it was peer pressure made you buy a prostitute; I do not care if you lonely, ugly or disabled; I do not care that you are on holiday; I do not care you in a stag do; I do not care it is work pressure; I do not care that you say it is an one-off.

There is never a good enough excuse for buying and owning a prostitute.

I bet many punters are ant-slavery, hate the concept of trafficking, despise men who rape or batter the non-prostituted women and girls, and know they are always the good men.

Many punters who do not think twice of poring their porn-dreams into the living bodies of the prostituted – will hate sexual torturing to political prisoners and may even fight to end animal torture.

It cannot be torture with the prostitute – it just buying and consuming of goods.

It must always be known and remembered – the moment any punter make the choice to buy a prostitute, he has firmly in his mind she is goods and her humanity does not exist.

That is why the vast majority of punters are violent – and usually it is extreme violence.

The violence comes from every angle, the violence is highly predictable and without any sense of escape.

The violence is mental, physical, spiritual and sexual – leaving most of prostituted as empty shells.

There is no such thing as a non-violent punter – just sometimes the violence is bearable.

But many of so-called gentle or decent punters eat away at the soul and mind of the prostitute.

Whilst a prostitute know at any time any punter can use extreme violence on her – there can no safe place for any prostitute, there can be no part of the sex trade that can be made safe for any prostitute.

That is why we must stop focusing on the individual choices and experiences of the prostituted – and look deeper at the punters, and force them to take full responsibility for making the prostituted sub-human.

For no man need to buy another human for his sexual greed, or to put in his violent porn fantasies into a living body.

Stop looking for excuses for punters – and stand for the human rights and dignity of the prostituted class.

Stop making punters the invisible men.

How do you find a language that fits my experiences of indoors prostitution? How do I not make just another story? How do I speak into the unspeakable?

That is part of the reason for this blog.

I speak deep into my personal for it is always connected to the  conditions of all the prostituted, whether I knew their lives or not, whether they can name it as oppression or not – my connected to each and every prostituted woman, girl or man is in my silence and all my words.

I will name myself and many of my Sisters as radical exited women.

This is because however we want and try hard to trust anti-trafficking groups, Leftists and feminists – we are continually made to feel and to be sub-human.

These groups do some very good work to end prostitution (well not most Leftists who just change by keeping porn and prostitution – but make it trendy) – but in many they are not radical in their approach to the prostituted.

This mainly comes from not trusting the voices of exited women, so they may use them for their agenda, but reject any independent thinking.

There is a massive fear to go deep into the emotional impact of prostitution – and a lack of understanding that many of the prostituted class have deadened emotions.

We are too calm or we are too emotional – we can not be right, when others are seeking reasons to only hear what they assume we will say.

I tend to be quite cold when I enter into speaking to my truths, I survived by being detached and vicious in my own emotions.

I will cold and detached when I feel or know I am being used as the token exited woman.

I bite down my bile of rage and disappointment that I viewed as an individual, as a story, as an example.

I only an individual with those I love and can trust – but my work is part of a movement.

Each event I choose to explore is common in indoors prostitution – I’m just one in millions of prostituted women oppressed in indoors prostitution.

There is nothing unique about my past – that is why I write this blog – coz now as you read there women everywhere in indoors prostitution in the same conditions, and many many many prostituted women and girls in far worse conditions.

Do not insult me by trying to make my blog into some kind of individual sad story – you do that so you can not see the connections, and not see the mass destruction of the prostituted –  class.

Do not patronise me by saying I write this blog just to get individual “healing” – that is just a way of ignoring that it a political act to write this blog.

This blog is one long testimony to further the abolition movement, it is always the authentic voices of the oppressed that push abolition into a reality.

I do not read the words of freed slaves fighting for abolition as just individual stories – I always each and every slave has a connection to each other, and their words are fiercely political in their demand for true liberation.

So it is with the multiple and varied voices of exited.

We are diverse, in many ways we disagree other many things in life – heck we are just normal multi-faceted women.

But there is a spiritual connection with all the prostituted – and many of us will fight to our deaths for each and every one of our prostituted Sisters.

We do place their lives as our priority – for each and every day we know there is an ongoing genocide of the prostituted class.

We must make it our priority for it is a huge human rights crisis – and we feel each and every day in our skins.

Yes, many exited women are a one issue campaigner – but do not condemn that until you face up to the size of the sex trade and the poison it pours into the world.

See with a clear eye that millions of prostituted women and girls are being tortured in almost every country, and in every moment of the day and night.

See with a clear that it never a “job” – name me any job where rape is the norm, name any job where murders go unnoticed, name another job where pay is stolen, and name a job where being dead inside is the only way survive.

See with a clear eye that prostitution is only made acceptable by making the myth that money equals consent.

See with a clear eye that all your excuses for the existence of prostitution and porn are built with the blood and guts of the prostituted class.

How do justify the sex trade – when women in prostitution are murdered 18 times more than other women, when the vast majority of those murders are kept in-house and made invisible?

How do you justify the sex trade – when women in prostitution come to think of it as paid rape?

How do you justify the sex trade – when torture of the prostituted it is the backbone of the whole industry, and that torture is a rehearsal for all other forms of tortures done to political prisoners and others?

See the sex trade with a clear eye, and it is impossible to justify.

So that why I stay an one-issue campaigner – and if you want to be an abolitionist, please try to be more radical.

Always when prostitution is put into the public arena – the focus is always made to be the choices or non-choices of prostituted women.

The prostitute is made an individual, but at the same time it made into a mass by being into the Other.

In most public debate or inquiry, there is a deep desire to find that prostitution must be chosen, and is relatively safe – for then it can place back into a box and forgotten about.

But prostitution is not and never has been about the prostituted women.

And most important, prostitution is never about the individual prostituted woman. She always is stripped of her individuality and made into goods.

Prostitution is not individual acts of violence done against individual women – it is always a deeply structured and institutionalised violence against a whole class of females named as the prostituted class.

The sex trade has over many centuries made this highly organised structure have the veneer of being chaotic and that most forms of prostitution is disconnected from each other.

The cleverest trick the sex trade ever did id to say it all about the individual prostituted woman’s choices.

In those simple words, the sex trade prevent the Left or liberal feminists looking too deeply into the conditions of the prostituted.

In those simple words, any violence done to the prostituted are made to appear to be her bad choices.

In those simple words, the punters can imagine all prostitutes must be willing even when he see injuries on her, when she cannot speak the language of the country she is in, when the door is guarded.

In those simple words, governments decide to separate trafficking, under-aged prostitution and so-called forced prostitution from freely chosen prostitution.

In those simple words, the sex trade profiteers assure their business run as normal with no interference or regard for the safety of the prostituted class.

The issue is not the prostituted women – it is always has been and will be that there a vast market for the buying and selling of mainly women and girls for male sexual demand.

There was, is and never will a reason for this market – so the sex trade invents and creates a network of lies and propaganda to justify this slavery and oppression.

The greatest myth is the most believed.

That men must always have access to a prostituted class – for men have an insatiable need and urge for sex.

That men’s sexual needs are so urgent that without access to a prostituted class – he will and must rape the non-prostituted women and girls, christ he may even rape a man.

This myth feeds most of the other lies and myths that the sex trade promotes.

There is the concept that men must have a place to pour out all their dark sexual fantasies, that there must a place for men to put sexual violence into women without worrying about consequences – the prostituted class is that place.

There is the idea that some men are so lonely, too ugly, disabled, anti-social or just boring to have sex or create a relationship with non-prostituted women – so throw the prostituted at him, and everything is fine and dandy.

There is perception that posh men can collect and sample many different prostitutes – he can compare and contrast, he will write the great Novel on his experiences, he may be violence or kill her but all in the name of art.

All this to hide the simple fact that there can never be any justification for the buying and selling of the prostituted class.

It is done for male sexual greed, it is done so men can express sexual hate and rage without consequences, and it is done first and foremost to make tons of money for the sex trade.

No honey words of prostituted women’s free choices can hide that.