How can words fit trauma? How does language speak to surviving prostitution?

I have written and spoken word for over a decade, and still the granite scream that is  that life is speakless in my stomach.

I cannot know peace without justice, not the smallness of individual – but the justice for all the prostituted class.

Trauma will never move if there is no justice – that is understood by the tortured, the racially oppressed, the enslaved.

The prostituted demand justice – but our voices constantly seemed to be sent to the wilderness.

Our voices are silenced, patronised and put on the back burner – all coz it has been decided we are not oppressed but empowered.

The prostituted are not seen just imagined.

There is rarely a space for the prostituted to be seen as fully human.

We are seen as the Happy Whore, seen as the eternal victim, seem as the liberated feminist, seen as lost trafficked female, seen as good or bad – but never seen as a fully complex human being.

Often, our allies view us as sub-human, keeping us as the endless victim.

This often means we cannot speak politics, just be pigeonholes as individual sad stories.

Our fury, our ability to see the causes of male violence and hate, our insights into trauma, our sense of connections in time/cultures and coping mechanisms for all the prostituted- all this is dismissed.

We are the experts of discovering ways to destroyed the sex trade – but all that is tossed into the wilderness.

I despair at this lack of respect, for exited women have deep wisdoms that could help  build a better world for women and men.

We are prophets trying to get out of the wilderness.

I have wanted to have a conference that highlights the multiple voices of exited women from all aspects of the sex trade for several years now.

I see this as something that can and will be made real, especially would if based outside a capital city, in say Bristol for instance.

To make this real, I am sending this post to women who are leaders as exited folks, or women who have strong Abolitionist ideas.

This is a long-term and ambition plan, which cannot be done alone but in a team, especially as international views would be essential.

I am tired of exited women being used as token speakers, tired of our expertises being seen as secondary, tired of the waste of great speakers and writers.

I do not believe there can real change until all exited women’s voices are the backbone of the Abolitionist movement.

We have deep understandings of the causes and justifications of male violence and hatred of women.

We speak to the realities of all forms of prostitution – our voices speak to the truth that there can no such as a safe place for prostitution – for there is no safety when men are entitled to buy and sell the prostituted as a class.

We speak of conditions in all prostitution that is the definition of trafficking and often slavery.

We expose the lies and propaganda of the sex work lobby.

That is just a small part of my ambitions for a conference.

I am writing this post to request help and support to push this forward.

I would love women to help raise ideas about who to invite and how to raise money to pay them.

I need help in thinking of what should discuss, especially if links with other countries.

I need help in how find a site for the conference, and raising funds for the conference.

I need help in reaching out to as many women as possible.

Please contact me privately either here or no Twitter, and I give ways to be in touch.

Thanks.

Revenge is sweet is said – for the prostituted revenge is in the far distance, but in this post I write to a route there.

Revenge is inside every word I speak or write in my work.

I see punters and sex trade profiteers. I see the sex work lobby. I see so-called anti-trafficking groups exploiting the prostituted. I see liberal feminists. I see the brothers  of the Left. I see and know all excuses made for the continence of the sex trade.

All that is in the line of my sweet revenge.

I line up any and everyone who refuses to name prostitution as violence and of itself. There can be no excuses made, just a fight to end all prostitution at its root.

I see those who refuse to know that all prostitution is rape and the conditions of sexual slavery.

Those who say it is a service, those who say money equals to consent, those who name it as sex work, those whose imagined prostitution is an empowered choice.

I see you and name you as traitors to the prostituted.

Know as you speak to your porn fantasy – that punters and sex trade profiteers are killing, raping, mentally abusing and killing the semblance of humanity in millions of the prostituted.

There is no such thing as a safe way to be prostituted, there is no access to free and empowered choice in the world of prostitution – there only moments of less pain, confusion and terror.

To be prostituted is to kill all memories of hope and sense of Self.

How can that be classed as a free choice?

So, I now choose to be an Abolitionist.

I fight not for my past, that cannot be change, but Hell is can become a learning push for radical change.

I use my past to be a witness to a small aspect of the sex trade, using my past as example of the common grinding down of the Self that is the keystone to the sex trade.

I write from a place of fury, this comes from deep grief, but mostly from a space of fighting for justice for every prostitute from the beginning of time to now.

Justice is not harm reduction, justice is not decriminalisation, justice is hiding prostitution behind closed doors.

Justice is destroying all the sex trade root and branch, justice is making every punter know he is a criminal, justice is having exiting programmes that are long-term and holistic, justice is a world where prostitution is unimaginable.

That is why I say the Nordic Nordic is the first step to true justice and freedom for the prostituted.

The route to justice must be built on the words and truths of those of us who have survived and exited the sex trade.

Our truths are varied -but all will destroyed the sex trade at it roots.

We speak to the planned and organised violence that is prostitution, we speak to how ordinary punters are, we speak to the high rates of disappearances and deaths in the whole of the sex trade, we speak to how porn and torture is rehearsed inside all the prostituted before going into the “real world”.

The exited hold the atomic bomb that will destroy all excuses, all the lies, all the propaganda that hold up the sex trade.

Listen to the Exited and then you truly are in the revolution that is what abolition is.

Vida la Revolution.