Sobering - my very bad mommy day
Last night the kids were playing outside & I was inside with the door open when I heard Max start crying... the HURT cry. I ran outside & found Max laying on his back by the trampoline. He had been trying to climb up & the big kids didn't want him on there so they pushed him down. He landed with his head less than an inch from the edge of the concrete patio. I of course FREAKED out at Nathan & Alexa. They went to bed immediately (it was 7pm) & didn't fall asleep until after 8 but didn't even come out of their room. They knew they were in trouble. All I could think about is that if he had been pushed just a little harder, he could have cracked his head on the patio. He could have died. That sounds really dramatic but any mother would understand. So to avoid obsessing about it, & because I felt defeated, I took a sleeping pill and was asleep before 8:30. Then today... I took the kids to the park. Our park is right...