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conspiracy, Politics, QAnon and others, Secular Wings, Spiritual Abuse, Trauma Talk

Material Consistent With Mom’s Beliefs

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Continuing on with sorting through Mom’s beliefs and learning to not be triggered by them and rendered useless as this stuff comes up in conversation.  Marjorie Taylor Greene is a person who just won a Republican primary in Georgia.  This is a portion of a blog she use to write in and is archived online, however it is that that is achieved.

It highlights everything I’ve heard from mom.

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Even an Atheist knows and must be intelligent enough to know, that Satan worshipers are real, Cults are real and ‘True Evil’ exists. Disinformation is also real. It’s the job of the media and the entertainment industry to keep the public saturated with stimulus designed to keep us blind and distracted. This is where most people ‘tune out’ because it’s too hard for them to swallow. They don’t want to believe that there are people in this world buying children to rape and kill them as sacrifices. It’s tough to stomach but who are we if let this continue, who are we if we choose to turn a blind eye. Evil exists, and it exists at the highest level of the United States government. Don’t be naive and think ‘it can’t happen here’ because I assure you that it is.

The level of importance of this operation equates to a ‘Good vs Evil’ battle that transcends politics. This is a ‘Global Evil’ that attempted to takeover America. Many in our government actively worship Satan, Moloch/Molech and participate Pedophilia, Spirit Cooking, etc. Most Americans are afraid to look this Truth in the eye but True Evil does exist regardless of your religious views. This is not a joke and most definitely not a game. Thousands of Pedophiles and Child Traffickers have been arrested since Trump was sworn in. They are all under heavy investigation, including their funds and their affiliations.

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When I was a Christian there was a time that I believed those in leadership positions knew what they were talking, teaching and preaching about.  I trusted them and though I questioned, I trusted that overall, God was using them, though imperfect human beings.  David comes to mind.  A man after God’s own heart.  An adulterer and a murderer but who are we to question “God” the invisible entity that rules the Universe?

As I wade through TGF (The Galactic Federation) material and those who channel information and post videos, claiming expertise and divine authority (like pastors), I am reminded how people come across these videos and start to actually consider that whoever is doing the channeling knows what the heck they are talking about.  Overall, they are trusted as true sources and before long a foundation of belief forms.  Trump is being used though he may be an imperfect being, it is because of his imperfections and who he actually is that the soul that entered him can use him to lead the way for the ultimate purpose of ascension . . . healing . . . the new earth.

 

 

Christian Years, conspiracy, Death, Emotions, Healing, Leaving Christianity, Life, Personal Recovery, Politics, QAnon and others, Secular Wings, Spiritual Abuse, Trauma Talk

I’m a lower vibrational being . . .

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*Note:  You might not want to watch this 32 minute video.  Just me continuing on my journey.

The video:

This is not my mother.  This is what my mother believes.  This is only a hint of all of it.  She is only one person.  She indicates that she received this from The Galactic Federation and that it is only one perspective.  She claims she is not saying it is the truth or not the truth.  However,  you will hear her say towards the end that it is absolute.  That everything she is sharing is happening.  That’s another way of saying, it’s the truth.

Most of my time researching these various beliefs that mom has embraced as absolute truth, including Donald Trump, I am reminded very much of my former Christian beliefs.  My previous born-again world.  As this woman listens to the higher beings of TGF, so we Christians listened to the Holy Spirit.  We did our own channeling too.  Hearing from the third person of the God-being who was our higher being.

Years ago, I poured myself into the study of Christian cults.  It probably led me to understanding my former born-againism and how essentially it was not unlike the cults I was studying.  It would be years before I understood that I no longer saw any absolutes in literalism and just knew I needed to stop calling myself a Christian.  In the journey, we were very much abused by the church leadership as well as former Christian friends.  It was a layer of trauma that traumatized an already fragile psyche and left me studying spiritual abuse for many years.

It has taken years of therapy to get to the point of me starting to understand what trauma does to the mind and to the body.  Stepping back into material that is very triggering hasn’t been easy.  I can only do it in small chunks.

This video is just over 32 minutes and I imagine some will not listen to it and that’s okay by me.  So often, I think people minimize this kind of stuff you’ll hear in this video by people like this woman.  More and more, we hear QAnon stuff, conspiracy stuff, anti-Covid, mask and vaccine stuff and now a politician who is known for QAnon beliefs won a primary in Georgia, U.S.A.

There are similar themes.  You’ve got your good souls and your bad souls.  You’ve got invisible beings in charge.  You’ve got your ascension destination and your heavenly reward.  You’ve both got a world perspective and you both have a new earth in common.  Both have the undeniable approach to all death as just part of the Plan.  It’s just part of the whole stew that we must go through to reach our higher consciousness or our mansion in the sky.  For some evangelical Christians and Galactic Followers, Donald Trump is the bees knees.  God uses him whether we like it or not and the Galactic’s whether they like him or not, believe he’s there to break down all the programmed darkness to usher in the ascension.

And both put in a lot of time making excuses for him because, ‘Well God &/or well, The Galactic Federation.’  And heaven forbid or Neptune forbid anyone ever speaks up in a negative way either about Trump &/or the belief-systems.  If they do, they are just evil.  Like me.  :/

 

 

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Anyone Here Heard of Med Beds?

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Do a search for Jared Rand.  I really don’t want to put a direct link.

This is the stuff that mom is in to.

There is not a time during my visits with her that she doesn’t bring up these med beds.  We can already cure cancer.  These beds are in the basements of hospitals just waiting to be used.  Isn’t it terrible that they use mustard gas on cancer patients.  Imagine that.  Mustard gas.  The poison they used in the war.  

This isn’t anything new really.  Way back when mom got into Sylvia Brown stuff.  Read all of her books.  Believed in her 100%.  When I would discuss with her that others had been harmed by her failed work she would tell me that those people are just evil.

Jump ahead some more years and as I’ve mentioned here before and perhaps have moved into my password-protected or private mode, The Golden Age of Gaia became her sure foundational belief.  As she talked about it with me and her sisters, I remarked that much of what she was saying reminded me of my days in the church.  That didn’t go over well.

Along the way, I picked up various phrases she would say that led me to believe she believed she was not going to die.  Ever.  There was always this edge to her that she was not leaving.  She wouldn’t have to.  The cures are there AND the alien benevolent light-bearers would over-ride the evil when humanity finally got their shit together.  Much like the Christian rapture predictors, the new agers have their end-times stuff too.  Or perhaps an easier way to look at it is to say, finally the new-times will arrive but, everything must be in order first.  So they too have their dates when the aliens are arriving or the new cures will be known or the universe will align.   Just like the rapture folk, when it doesn’t come to be they simply blame evil and wait until the next enlightened soul gets back from Neptune or Mars with a new date channeled from yet another archangel.  You get my point I’m sure.

As mom now watches those around her die, she’s still here and to her that means she’s one of the chosen.  Like the Christians who will be raptured.  Chosen.  She won’t have to die.  She won’t be caught up in the clouds like the Christians.  She’ll just be here in time to hop into a med bed pod and be regenerated.

During my recent visit with her she again just threw-out there that “it will happen.”  That’s why I’m still hanging around she’ll say.

She’s waiting.

I listen to her.  I don’t fight with her.  I don’t agree with her.  When she says I know you’ll laugh at me, I don’t laugh.  I smile.  Not because of her beliefs but because she says this a lot which tells me maybe along the way she’s wondered too if none of this makes sense.  But mom is desperate for hope and healing and she hasn’t reached it on her own or in connection with any in the family or with professionals.  She only looks at the future and cannot land in the present other than to mock that which is the present.

I tend to think my mission is to love her where she’s at.  I know what it is to be desperate and need hope and healing.  I know what it is like to have the structure all around you that was suppose to be your sure foundation, crack and crumble.  I know what it is like to scramble around in vulnerability hearing messages from other humans that tell you they’ve got the answer.  I know what it is like to feel crazy.  I know what trauma can do to you.

It’s difficult though not to try to lovingly counter her.  Any countering is seen by her as rejecting her.  Of course that’s a lot like Christianity too isn’t it.  Leave the faith and friends and family take it personally.  They reject Christ then they reject you.  Mom is like that.  She once said, “Why don’t my children believe me?”

I’d like to ask her what age she’ll chose to be when she hops back into the med bed pod.  I wonder, has she thought this through.  Would she pick 30 and have some more babies?  Would she pick 20 and chose not to ever have babies?  What if she could regenerate but we her children decided to just go ahead and finish out our days and die a natural death?  Would she be able to handle that?  What might happen if she reaches the age of 90 and just as she thinks she’s next in line for the pod, the powers that be decided there are too many others ahead of her desperate for regeneration and healing.  Children with cancers.  Wouldn’t they maybe take precedent over her?  What if there’s just too many people in line and she doesn’t get to be healed.  I shake my head a bit like I’m trying to wake up from delving into this mess.  I am curious.  But does curiosity out-weigh just letting her be and let her think she’s right.

I’ve been by the bedsides of so many people who have died.  I’ve helped so many people on their journey at the end.  I’ve listened.  I’ve chatted.  I’ve honoured wishes and advocated for people with their doctors, nurses and other hospital staff.  I never challenge their beliefs in any way.

A family member who knows I refer to myself as an atheist, marvels at how I do that?  How can someone who doesn’t believe in God help them die?  I tell her it’s not my responsibility to tell them what to believe or judge their beliefs.  I’m there to honour their journey as a fellow human on this planet.

Zero to eighty happens in a cosmic second.  I can’t change anything in between.  The in between is over. It’s gone.  I can’t vouch for the future or the after-life or what might be.  I can muse about it but my character and integrity hold me to a standard of simplicity.  If I’m with you when you die I will honour you as a human being who is here and soon won’t be.