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Pilgrimage Statistics

Consecutive Days Riding: 46                             Consecutive Days Blogging: 47

 

Today’s Mileage:  11                                        Total Trip Mileage: 397

Holidays and Holy Days on November 25:

Beginning of HajjIslamic pilgrimage rites at Mecca. One of the five pillars of Islamic  faith states that all Muslims should try to make at least one Hajj pilgrimage during their lifetime.

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Danger or the Divine?

As I ride the bike today I think back over my last few postings. They’ve been positive and upbeat. I’ve stood in admiration of the beauty along my path, the healing power of water, the treasures and memories we find as we walk along our daily beach.  I am clearly an optimistic person.  I turn terrible storms into nature mystical experiences, I see in the leaf clutter and bare trees of fall the renewing cycles of life knowing that what follows will be winter’s blankets and then spring time with bursts of color and new life.  I make a choice to be an optimist, to find hope in the process of death and decay, in the pain and suffering of family, friends and strangers.  I make a choice to see in these difficult and tragic situations, not roadblocks but challenges and hurdles that can be overcome, that can lead to growth.

I have at times plodded along only to look up and see an imposing peak in my way. Why does it have to be so difficult, I ask?  I’ve learned not to give up, not to swear at the peak in anger but to take a deep breath and start the climb. Attending to my footing, I glance up often enough to recognize the less treacherous way. I will make it to that peak, tired but stronger with a new perspective.  I choose to leave markers at points on the path (artwork, poems, and Blog postings) for other travelers.  These markers might provide encouragement for others on the path. At times I might even toss out a rope or reach down with an out stretched hand to help others take those last few steps. We might share a sip of water, a hug or a meal before we part again, each on a personal journey, holding the other in our prayers. These travelers may be a stranger in a chance encounter at a book store or church, a student who is part of your life for a semester, a client you helped through a difficult time, or a faceless visitor to your blog who leaves no comment but carries away seeds to plant on their journey.

A lonely journey at times!

But I digress; being an optimist is not an easy choice!  It’s not easy to find a silver lining in a story about a five year old murdered rape victim sold by her mother to the abuser or when you speak with PTSD veterans and hear of the horrors visited upon them and that they inflicted upon others.  It’s not easy when you watch as friends and family members drink themselves to a speedy death, trying to avoid their pain or when you sit with a pedophile, hear their story and still see him as a human being. There is no silver lining in these tragic lives.  The valuable lesson is in the consequences of our small, bad decisions that build into tragedies that destroy lives.

Step back and take a new perspective!

Yesterday I interacted with a friend, someone whose religious (Islamic), cultural (Southwest Asian) and urban background is strikingly different from my own.  Someone whose opinions I value.  His views carry as much truth as those who are suspicious of him for his skin color, his faith, his nation of origin and his foreign sounding name. The difference between us in this time and place is not about our roots but about his anger. We can dwell on the injustice and intolerance of others when we find ourselves in the minority.  We can make ourselves angry, or we can step back and see the larger process. Dichotomous thinking like “us versus them” only begets such thinking in others.  If you believe that everyone has taken sides “for or against” you, you leave these “others” no choice but to take sides.  If you prepare for battle, so will they!  The error is in the process that we follow and fail to recognize as a choice.  Whether Christian, Muslim or Jew, when we create an outlook of “us and them”, saved and unsaved, infidel and believer we have become part of the problem and not the solution.

Peaceful center or conflicting opposites?

As I stressed to my friend, this optimistic process approach is not an easy choice to embrace and live.  I have been told that I am naïve, that I am a dreamer, that I have no beliefs, that I have no principles.  I disagree!  Let me use the Chinese symbol of the Yin and Yang as an illustration.  Does the balance we all strive for reside in the center of the light or the center of the dark?  Should we fight over who is in the position of right and wrong, of light and dark?  For both positions stand in stark opposition and both positions spin and twirl. Does the point of balance not reside in the very center of the symbol, at that place where you stand still as the world revolves about you, a point of centeredness and clarity? I choose to look for that middle ground, that point at which I stop spinning, when I close my eyes and feel the solid center of the divine under my feet. I choose to do it with a smile as I walk through flower gardens, as I float in peaceful waters, as I plant seeds in my students and sons, as I reach out to offer comfort to those in pain.  What do you choose?

  

A special thanks to the photographers associated with Panramio for the beautiful scenes from along the roadside. The information on holy days and sacred holidays comes from http://www.interfaithcalendar.org.

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Pilgrimage Statistics

Consecutive Days Riding: 18                               Consecutive Days Blogging: 19

Today’s Mileage: 12                                              Total Trip Mileage: 181

     As I set the wheel spinning today I am thankful for the physical component of this pilgrimage.  A combination of  a grueling day at work and continued computer problems have left me feeling a bit like a mental zombie!  We all have such days, when just maintaining a balance seems to be all we can do.  It’s nice that my legs know what to do on the bike, they keep racing ahead pulling my mind along like some jacket draped over the back of the seat, fluttering in the tailwind!

     As I sat down at my bike I grabbed a book of my early poetry.  It’s sometimes useful to look back over our previous thoughts and emotions.  It’s intriguing and humbling to read words of past joys and struggles, and recognize how they can reach forward to touch and soothe us today.  So for todays ride I am going to share a few of these poems.  I hope you enjoy them, they calm my mind as my legs spin the wheel and we travel down the virtual road.

     The following poems were all written as I took a series of walks twelve years ago along the small river and creeks that runs through my home town.

Choices

DO I cross at the widest point

   water shallow

      barely moving

         islands of dark brown rock

            form a bridge upon which to walk

Do I cross at the narrows

   water deep

      surging rapids

         bordered by steep walls of rock

            necessitating and airborne leap

Safety versus Risk

   I ponder but a moment

      then I leap!

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Cherish and Share

The end of another walk

begs the questions

“How many more will there be?”

That is not for me to know.

Perhaps there will be one more,

perhaps dozens or hundreds,

or perhaps this was my last.

If it is then it was a good one!

For the sun warmed me,

the breeze cooled me,

and the birds sang a symphony.

I spread thistle seed to the wind,

I saw new life in young goslings,

I saw Spring’s passion in muskrat lovers.

I saw the union of earth, water, and sun

in Spring’s bright green growth.

I saw death in skeletal tree remains,

and ants bearing carcasses.

I saw in death a giving

of the sustenance for new life.

I hope there will be many more walks,

but the number of days I have left

is not my choice to choose.

All I can do is enjoy the days I’m given

cherish and share them

through images and words

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     Even on a walk on a beautiful day, the voices from our past can bear the familiar signs of struggles, of sadness and pain. Situations change, new places, new faces, an older body, but struggles may grip us and travel with us like clothing we just can’t bring ourselves to change.

Roller Coaster

Part of me says

   write a poem

      and part of me says

         you hurt too much.

One day I’m on top of the world

   full of joy

      and the uplifting energy

            of nature.

The next I’m down

   with a feeling of loss

      and sadness

            all alone.

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Bad Habit

I try too hard

   to share my wisdom

      when it is not

            recognized, desired, or accepted.

I try out of concern

   for another’s struggle.

I try out of a desire

   to share what I have found.

But things can only be given

   when there is a willingness to receive!

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     I hope you have enjoyed the words from my past.  The combination of the exercise of riding and words have helped me rebalance and readied me to face a new day.

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