ostias (✿◠‿◠)

i just need to get a job and a date, and 007


amazingly i keep writing the ♥♥♥♥♥♥ steam diary
or that`s what i used to think, the reality is simple, ain`t any job coming my way, didn't get the 007 money
and i have the same chances to get a date with her than half life 3 getting announced

maybe i let my self down for stupid things most of time, but lately i kinda just wanna throw the towel and go far far away


once upon a time a friend said "What you could see at first glance, transforms into the greatest hell a human being has ever experienced"
and thats kinda how i lived the last couple of years

the truth is my life is empty now and always was like that, only now i kinda get to know more bad ♥♥♥♥ about the people i used to care

who te ♥♥♥♥ im even lying to, i keep caring about them but also quite hate those things,




well lot of things happened maybe i do some unbelievable ♥♥♥♥ or end up dead in the process

im pretty sure i can get at least a 30% of what i imaginated