Knock2..Who's there? wat? 2010??!!




A few hours after this, the new year 2010 will emerge..somehow, I cannot believe that 2009 has already come to a halt, giving way to this new, and hopefully promising year. It is kind of interesting that despite our internet in Parham Road being cut, I am still able to sit here, and write down this entry and share how things have developed this few months in Canterbury. Well, for one thing, eating Ocakbasi and Efes kebab is helping me gain a few inches, not that I would want to..but looking on the bright side, I've travelled quite a lot this winter break..so kire exercise la tu kan..ngeee:)




My trip to Manchester United was indeed a memorable one, and visiting Old Trafford Stadium would definitely remain fresh in mind. The theatre of Dreams, as they call it. Football fans out there would be dying to watch a match here, and there we were, me and my friends. Making our eyes the lense from where people out there could see the beauty of Old Trafford. It was indeed a heaven for football items, from where Manchester United jerseys, caps, knee pads could be found. Though I'm no football frenzy, I even bought a jersey for myself.. and mind you, how I love that jersey! Heee~dun wory, I did buy some for my brothers too! Not such a bad sis, eh..:) But one thing's for sure..we were definitely all lose out that very day..such an excited lot, taking pictures of every corner of the stadium whenever we could..I've never felt more like a kid..




Talking bout being a kid, a child, or anything you may wish to call it..I must say, I miss those times..when nothing could make me feel worried, or helpless or lonely nor sad..I was a kid, what would I possibly understand about life?..If I could, I would want to be a kid again..a young girl, full of innocence and free from prejudice..By the way, I bought this huge teddy bear to accompany me in my room, and also this Disney Cinderella duvet cover..Gosh, though it may sound childish..I don't mind..growing up is not everything..hihi..Hugging a teddy could make you feel so warm and comfortable inside, especially if it's half your size! haha..it's where you could pour all your love and care..




Well, initially, my friends and I got so bored being locked up inside our rooms with no internet..we tried everything from playing Uno cards, monopoli to Batu seremban to reduce boredom..it's where the monkey of our brains really couldn't stand the inactivity.....


Dusshhh...never felt such boredom and loneliness before..All the British students were back at home, celebrating Christmas, and there we were, lonely Malaysians..huhu...but it really was a blessing in disguise..it got me and my friends closer..menjalin ukhuwwah la org kate..hihi..tgk muvi sesame (semua citer thriller by da way: Paranormal activity, Final destination, The house on the left n yg seangkatan dgnny..x men la love story..hihik..walaupn yg duk tutup mata wud of cos b me!), mkn sesame, semua la sesame..senang citer, when the internet is again available, I'd miss those times..wuwu..:(






Well, let's have a look at what I have in store for my New Year resolution now:






1. First up wud be Tingkatkn amal ibadah..yg penting istiqamah..:)


2. Kurangkn mknn bekalori..ecehh..ni resolution berkurun dahulu yg dibawa ke depan ats failure2 yg lepas..haha..skang diet season finale..


3. Focus on main aim study here..dapat degree in B.Ed TESL..fullstop..no fooling around, Mira!


4. Jadi insan yg lebih mengambil berat tntg org lain, regardless of how they are with me..


5. And for goodness sake, stop wasting time, dear!!






With lots of love,


Mira Nabila..2010

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Thursday at 12:42 PM , 2 Comments

Tread Softly, for you tread on My Dreams~

Had I the heaven's embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths,
of night, and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet
But I, being poor, have only my dreams
I have spread my dreams under your feet
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams..

Such was William Butler Yeats obsession for his all-time love and crush, Maude Gonne, that he offers her the heavens of his dreams..
it is entirely personal and authentic, as the heavens of his dreams are what he imagined himself, no one else is involved in creating this beautifully crafted embroidery of his dreams..
Somehow, he must have been inspired by her beauty to be able to skillfully create his 'cloths of heavens'
However, there was no indication of his love being accepted by Gonne..
In fact, she turned down his proposal three times!
What a determined lady!

Poor Yeats..
His intention seems pure and sincere to me, as it is unconditional..
he did not ask for anything in return..
and we didn't hear any reply from the other party, right?
sah la unrequited love..huuu~

All he asks is for her to 'tread softly on his dreams..(Afterall, it is his DREAMS..)
as he has expressed his love..
which makes him all the more vulnerable of being hurt..
Mark that however hard it is for a man to express his love,
being rejected must have hurt more..

and I think it's the same vice versa~

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Saturday at 1:02 AM , 2 Comments

Hihi....LaPtop saye Da SeHat~




Sungguhku tidak sangke..
Dalam duk IT illiterate..
rupa-rupanya daku mempunyai bakat terpendam


iaitu...


menyihatkan computer yang saket...




dan rupa-rupanya..


semuanya gara-gara add ons kat on top of my website page


huh...
nampak bek..




~academic blackboard
~literature review
~CCU ny webmail page..

walaupun x tau yg mane satu culpritnya..
tapi internet explorer problem report menyatakn


ADD-ONS lah punceny...




setelah dikaji dan digodek...


tekan situ tekan sini mengikut prosedur..


Akhirnya..my facebook page dah boleh bukak...yeay~
Internet banking dah tak hang..

nak remove tag gambar on fb da xyah g bilik Syud...




Alhamdulillah..Syukur sangat2..




Walaupun setelah dua hari macam depressed
and deprived of information from the outside world..
duk mengadu kat blog sampai 2, 3 entries satu hari...


I am now back in business~
Assignment, here I come..
Glad I didn't give up..huhu...
Btw, virus sume da dicuci oleh Incik Cyber Security, which costs me a fortune..huu~
Fatin, raseny die bukan the criminal kowt~


Thanks for all the support I receive from friends, ya..




Luv you all!

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Sunday at 2:22 AM , 2 Comments

Wind Beneath my Wings~


I miss those people I knew

who bear with me through thick and thin

accepted me for who I am

those who became

the 'wind beneath my wings'....

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at 12:44 AM , 2 Comments

ALLAH knows~

By Zain Bhika and Dawud Wharnsby Ali

When you feel all alone in this world
And theres nobody to count your tears
Just remember no matter where you are
Allah knows, Allah knows.

When youre carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road you take
Allah knows, Allah knows.

No matter what, inside or out
Theres one thing of which theres no doubt
Allah knows, Allah knows.
And whatever lies in the heavens and the Earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows, Allah knows.

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon shout it to everyone
Allah knows, Allah knows.

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch your glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows, Allah knows.

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows, Allah knows.

See we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs never fret never frown
Allah knows, Allah knows.

Every grain of sands in every desert plants
He knows
Every sheet of palm, every closed hand
He knows
Every sparkling tear on every eye lash
He knows
Every thought I had and every word I share
He knows
Allah knows

**I like this nasyid so much........
a perfect cure for a mourning heart..
May peace be upon us~

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at 12:00 AM , 3 Comments

PooR GiRL~

Hari ini sangat suram..Wind storm. And when I say wind storm, I do mean..

WIND STORM...


Even the sound of the wind whistling could make one shiver in fear..But somehow, my determination to get out of my room..away from the solitude and silence proves to be much stronger than the wind itself..


Me and Weda redah jugak wind storm tu..semata-mata untuk mendapatkn our physio therapy which is none other than.............SHOPPING..................Itu saje yang berkesan buat masa ni..

We are seriously in need of mental therapy..if weda's not really in need of it..then I AM~


Besides that, we also went out on a quest..an important one..

untuk mencari light bulb putih..ye..white light bulb that wouldn't strain our eyes at night when we intend to study (not that we really do..heh~)


....we are desperately in need of WHITE lightbulb..

Due to the fact that the people here are very conscious about energy saving, they would rather use the yellow ones instead...

Well, that's our conclusion..They must have a reason of their own, eh~


Tapi...malangnye terbeli yang oren jugak..nak wat camne...It's not that we didn't ask..


My ibu told me to take good care of myself, to not walk alone no matter where I go (Jalan dua org xpe kot...hee..she said alone yg x boleh..) and she's really serious about what she says..Sampai terbawa2 kat mimpi..risau sangat katenye..


**Huh..kawan2..jangan hantar anak g UK (Ema, 2009)


And it's all because of the news of a Malaysian student being kidnapped baru-baru ni in Australia. Kedah top SPM student as I read... (tapi article tu cam xleh bukak..dapat bace sikit je..So, still not confirmed bout its realiability..)


She was abducted by four men, as I heard, who might've raped her, and locked her up in an estuary..She was walking alone from uni, which is not very far from the student housing...and Now, she's really traumatised..


..memang seriously macam dalam movie thriller yang bese I watch with Zack..sangat dramatic..and those creeps are such sadists who should be left to rot in...

..well, you know what I mean~



How I pity her..huuu...

It could have been anyone..

Anyone at all..

Being in a foreign land..

being different..

makes us really vulnerable to such inconsiderable acts..



Kesimpulannya, no matter where you are..take care of yourselves..

Walk with friends and never alone

because there is always SAFETY in NUMBERS~

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Saturday at 3:48 PM , 3 Comments

Al Kisah kami di Notts~



Begini lah gaya mereka di futsal game...

















Me and long lost school mate..;P












University of Nottingham~







Happy to have finally met Jiha again..:) Glad I didn't give up finding her amidst that crowd of Malaysians in Nottingham..







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at 3:30 PM , 1 Comment

Beloved Canterbury~

A month ago..huu

Beauty captured in a garden..;)










Christchurch Canterbury Cathedral



On da way nak g class..pavement ngan road too near....huu




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Friday at 2:51 PM , 5 Comments

Today is not MY DAY~

Ari ni genap 2 bulan berada di bumi Kent..13 Sept to 13 Nov 2009..
Sepatutnye epi..
Ye la..
Anniversary kan~
Tapi..
Jiwa sungguh x tenang
Adakah sebab x dapat on facebook?
Atau this madly driven stomache?
It's getting worse..
(Ira kate nak bwk g Superdrug beli ubat gastrik..xyah prescription pun xpe...huu..)
Atau sebab kene percik air lopak by lorry time hujan tadi
(Abes basah satu badan..ye la kan..rendah jerr...huuu)
Though I must admit it was quite funny
(Hanye witnesses yang tolong gelak tadi jer tahu..huu..)
The problem here, the pavement and road is so near..
It's impossible to not be drenched in puddle water when a vehicle passes...
Atau..
adakah kekusutan ini disebabkn sheer loss of hidayah...?
Give me the light of Faith, Ya ALLAH~
It's a combination of all, actually..
Today is not my day..
My laptop's been attacked by malicious spyware by the way..
(**Thanks to Fatin cos datang tengokkan..)
So sume social network disekat..
Seb bek still ade Blogspot tuk luah perasaan..
Waa..ibu..Akak nak balik!!
Tu la..mase my tutor Carol tanye wat my aim for the next weeks wud be..
I answered.."I'd like to reduce the time I spend facebooking.."
cewahhh..series confident je time jawab..huhu
(I meant it in a good way..so that I won't become an FB addict..huhu..)
Nahh...real2 dapat..
Betul la wat people say..
"Be careful wat you wish for"~
Tapi tu la die..
Betape essentialnye social networking ni for youngsters like me and YOU
..that without them, you simply feel incomplete..
Like there's a part of you missing..
a big part of you, that is~
Facebook, I hate it that I love you~


p/s: Kepada sesiape yg rase da lost contact wit me and wud like to keep in touch balik..
Don't hesitate to email me yee..Tu je la yg mampu Emira kate..huhu..
..until I find da solution to this terrible warfare between my laptop and those good-for-nothing viruses..huh!

Sabar, Emira..tenang~
G amek air sembahyang....huuuu...........
**Me in pain.
I'll never forget this day.
The only thing that made me happy...was..
Talking to my skulmate Shekin on da phone...
Xpe je abes credit Lebara...
credit boleh beli....
but friendship is something you can't simply buy~
Thanks, Kin..
You made my day less worth lamenting~

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at 11:34 AM , 7 Comments

This pain is just too Real~


I didn't go to the fencing practice today. Just felt like skipping it.
It's sometimes important to follow your heart, you know..huu..
Being in that hall, under that mask, holding that piece of foil..and fighting others isn't something I get to do on a daily basis..It's really something new and exciting. But those who joined seemed as though they're pros..and fighting them, especially when you're a petite, Asian girl seems laughable at times..(probably due to the difference in height and size). Well, who cares. I got that nasty Chris right in the arm once in a sabre fight, so its gud enough for me..haaa~ (Even though it was merely out of luck..)

I don't feel like doing anything today. Don't feel like eating. The gastric attack I had yesterday surely managed to teach me a lesson or two, though I'm definitely uncertain of the actual cause. I've been having it since school, anyway..and its sometimes painful that one could become so stressed and moody. And the worst part, no one else understands how you feel apart from you yourself...no matter how much you crunch your tummy in pain..haaa~

The first step in handling such attacks..breath in fresh air, and try to calm yourself. Then, probably take a few sips of milk which could lessen the acidity in your stomache. But the best action would be to gulp down gastric pills. Fullstop. It's the only way to calm a mad stomache. Huhu..I have yet to search for that valuable item, due to having no prescriptions for it. The systems here are quite different from Malaysia. You can't just simply come to a clinic and describe your illness to the doctor, and expect him or her to know the right kind of medicine for you. You have to have appointments and drug prescriptions..and the thing is..I hate procedures!

By the way, I haven't even started on the literary Analysis assignment set for us...

I'm thinking on doing the topic of love, which is obviously the favourite one compared to its rival, the topic of war. I've never been in a war, so probably I would be less emotionally touched in writing about any sort of war and analysing it, cutting through the literature work as though counducting a post mortem on those writing.

Love seems something one could well relate to. And my focus; unrequitted love~ when love is given, but not given back in return..something like Mr and Mrs Dove written by Katherine Mansfield. It's the most common thing to happen in real life..Not just any two people can have the same feelings for each other..

Sometimes, girls give false hope on guys..making them believe that they stand chances of winning the girls' hearts even when they don't..Personally, I think its cruel. Being jinak-jinak merpati is cruel and unfair for those having high hopes on you. So unrequitted love is fair for me..If you have no feelings for someone, make it clear and don't waste their time..though that is cruel..playing with feelings is even more cruel..

Just an opinion..

What is love anyway~
Could it be something like fencing?
You have to attack and defend at the same time..
and be prepared to hurt and be hurt..
Renung2kan..hee~

Back to the basics~'All is fair in love and war'~ (Eh, kene ke expression nihh..hee~)

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Wednesday at 11:22 AM , 6 Comments

Me..and life..Life as it is~



After such a loooong time ignoring my blog, I have somehow decided to call it back to life..for no apparent reasons, really, just so I could keep myself as well as those out there updated with how things are going on in my life..not that anyone would be so interested in it, anyway..huh....


I notice myself being very much inclined to whine about trivial things in life at times these days..sometimes for no strong reasons at all..just felt lost once in a while..like I needed a straight path to follow and know that I'm never going astray..hoping that I will never be left out, be forgotten, ignored or anything of that sort..especially by the one and only..ALLAH, the creator..

Berikan hamba-Mu ini ketenangan, Ya ALLAH~

It's nearly two months since I came to Canterbury, United Kingdom.

I remember having my English teacher, Ustazah Rosmawati (In my school, every teacher, regardless of whether he or she teaches Religious Education or not, is addressed as 'Ustz or Ustzh') asking us this question: "Where do you think you will be in the next 5 years? What will you become?".

I never really gave much thought about it, but somehow I answered.." I think I'll be furthering my studies in TESL in England and become a teacher.."

Well, I answered that simply because I didn't have anything else in mind. I didn't like Science.. Biology, Physics, and Chemistry drive me nuts! What more Maths..I notice myself becoming really bad in calculating even the simplest of sums these days..huu..

I liked art, but for no strong reason, our GPK1 wouldn't allow me to take art in the SPM exam..since I was the only one interested..It's quite frustrating when your interest doesn't seem to be worth considering..Huhu..
Come to think of it, I never planned my life..never really had a dream...If anyone ever asks me..What is it that you would really like to accomplish in life..I might as well have a problem figuring it out..

To me, life is what it is..You simply follow where life leads you to...a reason why I seem to become quite a complacent person at times..sometimes, a bit childish..definitely not as matured as the ones around me..my friends, to be exact..da boley kawen da sume..hehehe.. As for me..I still think of myself as a small kid, with little responsibilities..not much of a high aspiration for anything..
My ibu gets worried that I won't survive here in U.K..The proof..she mailed me 3 recipe books and a birthday card inserted inside the parcel..Well, to tell you the truth, I never really cooked at home (despite being the eldest daughter in a house without a maid)..and that's obviously troublesome when you have to survive on your own in a foreign country with no choice but to prepare your own meals..I cried reading the card and the message she wrote in the recipe books..
On the card, it says..
Akak,
You mean so much to everyone
And on your very special day
You should be reminded of the joy
That you bring in every way
For, no matter where you go
You brighten up each day
With all the smiles and happiness
You so freely give away
Happy Birthday~
And on the recipe books..
~Kalau pandai memasak, esok suami sayang..
hik3..(ibu kasi greenlight ke ape ni?)
~Dgn pesanan, rajin2 le memasak..
~Jadilah seperti ikan di laut,
walaupun hidup di air masin,
ikan tetap tidak masin!
Sesungguhny kasih seorang ibu tiada tandingan~huuu....


Don't worry, ibu! Akak da belajar potong ayam ag kat cni! hehehe....Tapi nak jadik first chef kat dapur tu belum ag kowt..huuu..
Btw, kawan2 bek..they take gud care of me..

Time besday paling best..dapat birthday cake made right here in the U.K...hee~Gosh..my birthday here..da twentieth, that is..(huu..da tua da rupeny..) was really awesome..My facebook had flows of birthday wishes from people far and wide..Japan, Australia, Malaysia..and there's also one from Cik Ratina..BPG representative..my classmate even edited a photo of me, creating a postcard out of it..and today dapat story book from my guy classmates..series sgt sweet! Terime kaseh kepada semua yg igt kat Emira...kasi bear, choc, handbag, lotion bodyshop..buat cake..You really brighten my day~and most importantly, made me feel my existence...



And I realised one thing, by da way..that I exist as an entity on this earth is a strong reason for me to not give up hope on anything..anything at all...I need to have a goal..no more of being blurr..being the left one out and stuff..no more of living as an island...Everyone else around me are just as important as I am to myself..I hope to start cherishing others more these days..afraid that they may not be there anymore by the time you start to appreciate them..or maybe it's me who won't be there anymore for them by the time they realise my existence...huuu...How those around me have taught me more than I could possibly ask for...(-_-")



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Monday at 11:38 AM , 4 Comments

ThE TraGic NeWs~BerITa HaRian..

Pelajar kita antara tiga maut nahas di India

SALEM (Chennai): Seorang pelajar perubatan tahun tiga dari Malaysia, Fatimatussolihah Aziz dan dua rakannya warga India, terbunuh apabila kereta yang dinaiki terbabit dalam kemalangan dengan sebuah bas ketika dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah sewa mereka, petang kelmarin. Pemandu kereta yang hanya dikenali sebagai Dr Sabree dan seorang lagi warga India, R Sree Kumaran, meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian, manakala seorang lagi pelajar warga India, Dr Mohseen, cedera parah dalam kemalangan itu. Fatimatussolihah, 22, berasal dari Kuala Terengganu, sedang mengikuti pengajian di Vinyaka Mission Dental College di Salem, 400 kilometer (km) dari Chennai.

Kemalangan itu berlaku apabila pelajar berkenaan dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah sewa mereka yang terletak kira-kira 20km dari kolej itu, apabila sebuah bas penumpang tiba-tiba merempuh bahagian belakang kenderaan mereka. Kaunselor Pendidikan Malaysia yang berpusat di Chennai, Khairudin Abdullah, berkata Pejabat Konsul Besar di Chennai sedang melakukan persiapan untuk membawa pulang jenazah Fatimatussolihah ke Malaysia. Mayat itu dibawa ke Bangalore, iaitu lapangan terbang yang paling hampir, dan diterbangkan ke Malaysia lewat malam tadi.

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Wednesday at 10:20 PM , 3 Comments

Cherish those you love whilst you can~




Punye la liat for me to write a new post, but in the end, I feel called to do so..
not by anything that happened to me or my own family members
but by a complete stranger..someone I only hear of through chats with Fatin, my coursemate.


The one time I could easily recall was when Fatin showed me a pretty bag her sister bought for her in India...

"Wow," I thought. "What a thoughtful and caring sister. And she studies dentistry in India, too. Must be a really cool girl!"


It was by the news of Fatin's sister's death.


A crash between the car she was in (in which she was the only Malaysian..) with a bus in India ended the life of a beautiful young lady, demolishing her dreams of becoming a future dentist, the pride of our nation. The hope of both parents in seeing their daughter become the sole doctor in the family suddenly became an illusion, merely a dream...Innama dunia Fana...

Al fatihah to Fatimatus Solehah bt Aziz (Hope this is the right spelling..)


May her soul rest in peace with those who had faith~
Fatin, I couldn't help crying when I read your post regarding ur sister's note to you..
I never really knew how she looked like in person
I really wanted to see her..

and sadly, I was only able to see her beautiful photo
wearing a purple scarf on Fb..

the saddest part was when I read her caption

"merenung mase depan", which has already ended...

She's a beauty, I must say
and now, only her picture remains~


I know exactly how your sister feels for you, as I'm an eldest sister too!

And I have only one sister who could listen to my stories about school, about college life, about my happiness and woes...

There are only the two of us, calling ourselves SISTERS..
I cannot even imagine the thought of losing her..
She was, and always will be my one and only walking diary
Becos with her, nothing is kept a secret..

A younger sister (like you, Fatin..huu) may be so annoying at times

She gets on your nerves by secretly reading your personal diary
She kept being jealous of the baju kurung your mum chose for you..
She tries to compete with you in your studies..

and she will always try to prove that she's better than you..


You could be so different from each other macam langit ngan bumi

die kuar ngan baju ghonyok pun layan~
whilst you care so much that even a single wrinkle will spoil your day
die klu balik jb from KL sehelai sepinggang pun xpe
whilst you would have to angkut satu luggage besar cam nak g oversea
die ley bace dua tiga novel dalam satu hari
whilst you have never even finished a novel all your life
die pakai spec tebal power x macam tinggi lak
whilst you could see a faraway bird as clear as crystal..

However, it is with her that I feel so connected to
It is with her that I could reflect on every single thing in life
on every decision I make
on every failed relationships I had
and on how I should react to troubles at present and in future ahead..

My sister's name is Soleha too, Fatin, which makes me feel all the more related to the news of your sister's death..

Therefore, to my sister,

Emira Soleha, walaupun susah akak nak admit,
(Probably sebab control, well you know me..)

walaupun rase geli pun ade..(sebab terpakse jiwang jap...huu)
and walaupun akak tak pernah tunjuk...


I just wanna say that...

"I love you more than you could possibly imagine..
and talking to you is better than talking to a guy.." (Hahax!..sob2*)

Nothing could possibly replace sisterly love, no matter how much you quarrel and pull each other's hair through even the most trivial of things such as borrowing lip gloss..

To Fatin,


Hope you will be strong in facing these hard times of your life. No matter how much you think you love her...ALLAH must have loved her more..
Even more than you do~

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Tuesday at 9:16 PM , 5 Comments

So long, everyone!~

Assalammualaikum...huhu..Today is my last day at home in Johor..and Sunday will be my last in Malaysia..I find it quite hard to believe, really.. especially because Hari Raya is just a week away..Wonder how it will be celebrating Raya in a foreign country..I believe I'm about to find out..huhu..

Well, I guess life is full of sacrifices to be made and this is my part..After this, I'll be staying in Kent, England and I 'll be furthering my studies in TESL in Canterbury Christchurch University..So, for those yang ade fwens kat sane roger me, kayh! It seems kind of weird that there was nothing mentioned about postponing our flight regardless of the fact that H1N1 virus is on the loose..My mum says she heard over the news that the situation is worse in cold countries like England..Pray to God we'll be fine..my priority is to study, and nothing can impede that, hehe..

Talking about my studies, I want to share this article about a Malaysian student receiving a prestigious award in English at an East London University..Her success is definitely quite inspiring as it's not often that we hear about Tesl students being highly acknowledged as such..Usually we'd hear more of students from courses like Medic and engineering doing well locally or overseas, so this is absolutely inspirational..Here's the article, just so you'd be highly motivated as I am..hee~

Malaysian is top English student at London varsity

KUALA LUMPUR: A 21-year-old has done Malaysia proud when she was adjudged top student in English at the University of London’s Queen Mary College recently.
Adelina Raisa Sufian, who obtained a Bachelor of Arts (English) degree with first class honours, won the coveted 2009 Westfield Trust Prize for outstanding academic achievement in English at the university last month.
Commenting on her achievement, Adelina attributed her success to encouragement from her parents, businessman Datuk Sufian Majid and Datin Alissa Fitri.
“I set a target throughout my study,” she said. “Most importantly, we must have the determination and confidence to succeed.
“I am glad that I was able to compete with native speakers of English, as well as students from other countries,” she told Ber- nama.
Adelina, who is also an accomplished pianist, has represented Queen Mary College in choir and mathematics competitions.
While pursuing higher education at the Oakham School, Britain, in 2004, she won the Headmaster’s Prize and was adjudged top student in Mathematics, English and Chemistry.
On her future, Adelina said she planned to write, pursue a Master’s degree and work in Malaysia.
“I love my country,” she added.

Cool, isn't it? I hope to strive like her, and win this battle just as nice, if not nearly as fine as this brainy Adelina..Well, back to my story tadi..hehe..It seems that packing luggage is not as easy as it seems..my bag is definitely bursting at the seams..and on top of that, my mum keeps wanting me to bring one kitchen stock of rempah kari, serunding, and all those stuff one would need to prepare for a month of cooking!

Hehe..She's afraid I won't get enough to eat..but really, what's on my mind is surely not food but my feelings! I'm afraid it would be hard to adapt to a different surrounding, different weather, people..everything lah~ hehe..But I'll manage as long as I remember their advice of always performing my solat and not forgetting my roots..They're basic in maintaining a balanced life, now as well as hereafter..Mark that, Emira!

We'll be heading to Ipoh tomorrow to visit my grandparents and family members there. For today, I'll be meeting family members from Kota Tinggi who will come and visit me at home..Kind of flattering to have others care so much about you, isn't it? Maktam would no doubt want to check my luggage and censor the stuff that I bring..aduhh~

Anyway, although it's sad to simply have one day to spend with them, I suppose it would be better if I focus on spending a great time with all of them, just so there will be memories to cherish after this..no matter where I will be....So, until my next post..Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan yang mulia as well as Aidilfitri yang bakal menjelma..sob2..

p/s: I'd definitely miss watching Nur Kasih, Iftitah, as well as Kalamullah on tv3..waa!

Posted by EmIRA

Thursday at 12:30 AM , 4 Comments

**Sy Yg Tenang..My Life Here is Done~

Huhu..I'm still stuck in the heart of Kuala Lumpur, whilst everybody else are enjoying happy moments in the comfort of their own homes..This is the price that I have to pay for studying quite far from my hometown..like I have often wished, it would be simply great if I could study in IPTI..Institut Perguruan Temenggung Ibrahim, Johor Bahru, the one we went for our Language camp..It was there I had my interview for this TESL thing..

Gosh, teringat kenangan lame..my parents had me interviewed at home siap2 so dat I won't be nervous..like how they supported Soleha g interview tuk JPA Social Science course tu..Tapi time Soleha, ibu pergi too..x aci..my time only Abah went to send me..Sanggup pergi Negeri Sembilan just to accompany her interview for oversea ny course..ces!! (Jealous pulak tetibe..hee~) Nyway, after this it's Soleha's turn to be here in KL kat Taylor's college tu..lagi banyak kowt da challenges that she has to face cos they say students there are quite 'socialised' and there are many Chinese lecturers..but those challenges are nothing compared to the ones that she will face in the United States of America nanti..I don't know if you think that I'm narrow-minded for thinking this, but I'm worried of her safety..huhu..Lets say the 11th Sept case happens again? Nauzu billahi min Zalik..I'll always pray for your safety, sis..

Mase interview tu my classmate Jami pun ade..kind of shocked to see him there..Kat UIA P.j pun jumpe lagi..he interviewed utk jadi cikgu ape, I don't quite remember..da la x cukup kertas and x wat lagi the essay that we were supposed to hand in on the interview day..but in the end, he did succeed in the interview even though he was in such a clutter..hebat rr die tu...while waiting for result Bahagian Pend Guru, we studied in UIA P.j..seminggu je pun..The only reason why I got UIA is because I isi form UPU to lapan2 pilihan sume mek UIA..(hihii..kte mesti mengaplikasikan subjek 'kebarangkalian' in Maths..) N I also asked advice from abg sedara yang study sane..now die in UIA Gombak..my course I didn't care sangat..all I wanted was UIA punye environment wit da hope dat it will be sumthing like in SMKA..

..kat UIA Jami took something to do with engineering kot..and wanted to change to sumthing else..as for me, I got Science Physic and wanted to change to Bachelor of English and Literature..Kami manusia bese, banyak saje ketidakpuasan hatinyee..tul x? so, same2 la kitorang berkomplot tulis surat kat administrator..hihiii..kelakar tul..And now, here we are in our niche areas..Him, doing Medic in Tanta, Egypt while I'm in TESL, bound to go to Canterbury, Kent, England..It's true, isn't it? If we know what we want in life and go for it, we'll always reach our destination...All we have to do is have faith in ourselves...

Da abes course foundation TESL kat IPBA ni, it's quite interesting to reflect on how I lived my life as a TESL student la kan..huhu..(sementara menunggu Mak Ngah pick me up at 11 jap agi..hmm..my ticket kul 4 petang..sempat ke ni, Mak Ngah? Wudn't want to miss my double decker bus! Sekali cukup la..huhuhu..) I think I've achieved the happiness that I longed for..(at least dat was before some time ago..) But hey, look on da bright side..memang betul Pian cakap, not everybody will like us in life..Even Rasulullah pun ade orang benci..(Pian pun my classmate kat skul gak...dulu die study sebelah IPBA jerr kat UM..My classmates ramai lelaki by da way cos ade streaming class mase f4 and hanye 6 org gurls terlepas ke kelas first untuk f5 including me..I cried mase tu sebab sedey sangat xde kwn..waa!!..24 boys and 6 girls..bayangkan!)

K, back to my happiness tadi, TESL memang course yang sangat best and has succeeded in developing me as a student and future teacher..I practised a lot of my English language here, be it through acting on stage, public speaking, becoming mc for weekly assemblies or doing written assignments..One thing's for sure, if you don't like writing, don't attempt TESL! It will only torture you to death! Satu piece of writing jerr mesti at least 1500 words in length and kene buat reference lagi kat belakang..adoi..
Tapi kalau minat, anything is possible, rite? Dat's what I've learnt..

And IPBA is indeed the best place to be..except for the fact that it's far from my hometown..compared to other institutes kire we're so lucky to be here..evrything is within reach cos it's in the heart of KL ..Right next to University of Malaya..near UIA P.j too! Dekat Midvalley, Times Square, Sogo, Masjid Jamek..mane allowance tak habis cepat..huuhuuu..Mase mule2 dapat tawaran dulu macam takut nak datang because of the phrase 'Bahasa-Bahasa Antarabangsa' tu..takut je tibe2 kene belajar French or German or Japanese tak pasal2 because I'm not that much of a pick-up in languages ni..Bahasa Arab pun kantoi..hhuhu...But luckily, there was none of that..We studied English semate2..nothing else..err except for Numerical literacy and Agame..both subject sampingan sahaje..Lain semua English..

Jadi orang English ni bukan mudah..(eceh..) Tau kenape? Because ramai jerr orang terer English nowadays so when you speaking cket mule people pandang slack..tu part yang paling tak best..cakap within ur cousemates pun kadang2 boleh mengundang salah faham (eh, asal I da code switch to B.M ni? k, code switch balik..) And when you tend to become the lecturers favourites, things will intensify ( Ni sume bukan description meant for me, ea..) and others will start to question what you have that they don't have..And I kind of discovered that being good in English is often associated with pride..(in B.M orang kate bajet, berlagak, poyo or yang seangkatan dengannye..) That's why sumtimes I don't really like being in the lime light sangat..better duduk diam2 wat mcm x berape pandai jerr sebenarnyee..Soleha often adviced me to do so..Should I have followed her advice, maybe case me and Mr Tan wudn't have happened..hihiiii..

Da problem (or is it rather a gud thing?)wit me, if I think sumthing isn't right or if I'm not wrong, I voice it out..whether verbally or through my writing..me and writing memang x boleh dipisahkan..Alhamdulillah, Miss Kon pernah acknowledge me as a gud writer as well as speaker..uishh..nak puaskan hati die memang sgt susah..x caye tanye my coursemates...they know..tapi one thing she said to me that I'll never forget..

"I know you are not the best, but at least you're better than those who do not speak at all.."

Terpanar daku seketika..Tu compliment ke ape sebenarnye..I took it as a challenge and Alhamdulillah..my presentation skills got better and so did my writing..Hidup ni memang kene ade pencetusnya..like the law of inertia..(me and my law of inertia, x habis2..tapi nak mention jugak..it's my blog, rite?) "A body in motion tends to remain in motion, at the same speed, and in the same direction, unless it is acted upon by an otside force"..Kalau xde orang or sumthing yang push kite, alamat tak jalan la ape2..

..Tapi yang penting sekali kat cni.. and wat I want to make clear to masyarakat nowadays is dat English is becoming the most important International language..nak anak jadi orang berjaye, leaders of the world, teach them English..send them to teacher Emi and kwn2 TESLnyee..heee~ EteMs pun rasenye shud definitely be continued cos if we're to compete globally, kite kene compete by knowing Scientific and Mathematical terms in English..takkan la nak bagi term B.M or Tamil or Chinese when discussing world issues kat conference pentas dunia like case Global warming, for instance, kan? kan? So, fikir2 kan la..the next time you hear people speaking in English don't give them that evil glare..they've discovered sumething you haven't if you do so..which is..THE IMPORTANCE OF ENGLISH..(clap10x..standing ovation..heee~)

Sekian saje from me..Rase macam da lebih 1500 words jerr ni..hihii..
Next up for me is to wait same ade kene refer paper or not for final exam..
then prepare myself tuk Christchurch Canterbury University College..Our beloved CCU..Our next destination..senior kate sekarang tgh winter so kene prepare sweater bebanyak..tapi ibu kate jgn beli pape kat cni..kat sane lagi bnyk pilihan..so, nak ikut cakap sape also I don't really know.. Biar la..mcm lambat lagi jerr..
Pre-departure briefing pun we don't know when..

P/S:
Err..to my family members living in KL; Mak Ngah, Mak Long, Pak Long..K. Wani, Ayin, Syam sume..sangat sori jarang pergi ur house even though stay in KL and selalu je nampak signboard heading to Kepong..Tapi at least da pernah pergi sekali kan Ayin, kan? Mak Ngah Punye new house I dunno how to get there..I'm simply segan nak bertandang..tapi dat doesn't mean I'm sombong..huhu..Emira x sombong..cume tak pandai bawa diri sangat kat other people's place..U guys faham, kan2? Btw, kalau free2 nanti send me kat KLIA, yee:)
Nyway, wish me all the best in life and I'll do the same for you..
May ALLAH bless us all..

Posted by EmIRA

Friday at 7:57 PM , 8 Comments

Much ado About Writing...

What is it with writing that allows you to be so free?
It's like you just write and write to your heart's content, and you will be healed of all depressions, supressions, sorrows, intimidations...and those alike..

I read a blog with this particular line..

"I read, write, and capture. It's the only way I can scream my heart out"..

Gosh, how true is that? No matter how much we say things, there will always be something left unsaid..Scream your heart out literally, and you will only embarrass yourself...
But when you write..you can plan it, make a draft, and organise your writing..
or maybe you'd just prefer to follow your heart..follow the flow of your feelings..

Whichever way, I think writing is the best mode of expression...
It beats telling or pouring feelings to friends..(or is it actually equal? Huhu..)
..except for the part that you get no facial expressions to see..but it's fine by me..:)

It's not like the only reason to write is to scream your heart out..but it's a way of showing how you feel, what you think,
it keeps you up to date with yourself and gives you self-confidence in facing your days ahead..

You know what? Writing about my family members makes me miss them less..It's great that I can just pour out my feelings on pieces of paper, or in this case on eblogger's blog sheet..and allow myself to become less tensed..

There was one time when I read about the life of a famous and pretty rockstar, Avril Lavingne..
She's a writer who writes her own songs and feels that doing so is the perfect escapism from being trapped in your own problems..I would definitely say that I share the same point of view..When you write, you are in a world of your own..you get to let your imaginations run wild..

Just like how J.K Rowling came up with the adventures of Harry Potter in all its sequel movies and books..how did she even think of creating Hogwarts school, Voldemort, the chants..they're so vividly described and so imaginative too..

Come to think of it, she was having a lot of personal problems when she wrote the book; she was a divorcee, plus she was having financial problems..she merely spent her days writing Harry Potter in cyber cafes and have had a few rejections from publishers..but I guess persistence beats it all..Because she saw her problems as stepping stones, she eventually succeeded in writing a masterpiece which will benefit her for the rest of her life! By da way, Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince is coming to theatres near you..(Hehee..wat promo pulak kat cni..)

The main point here, if you notice, is that there is a great connection between problems and the act of writing ..I simply can't deny this particular fact I've discovered a long time ago..I think that when you're so full of emotions, you get to be more creative..more expressive..And this is a good reason to not hate having problems and difficulties..isn't it? At least you get to practise your writing..ngeee~

Well, one day, I hope to be as good as Avril Lavigne and J.K Rowling when it comes to writing..
It's not that hard if you get the hang of it..and It is definitely a good habit that can be nurtured from time to time..To me, the one part in writing that gives me headaches is is in finding the right topic to write about..How do you have your own style of writing? How do you make the contents of your writing really worth reading? There's a lot to learn, I suppose..

But still, writing is so cool, isn't it?~

OK, now, my plan for this coming holiday........Quite a list, I must say!

1.Read more..maybe I'll be visiting the library at home more often.. ..or read those newspaper cuttings my father has done..I simply must!

2. I also want to write more, not just to beat around the bush, but to have a good flow of thoughts..and develop some writing skills..which is yet to be discovered..huhu..

3. Finish the 'homework' Mdm Caroline gave to us..Yep..she said we can't have allowance during the holidays without doing any work, eh?

4. Spend as much time with family members..3 years is a long period of time..unless I can afford to pay my own ticket home..which is something I totally doubt..

5. Try not to crash with my own diet principles..This is the hardest part..ngeh2..my mum's a good cook..(well, evrybody's mum is..)..What to do?

6. Watch a lot of t.v..korean and Japanese dramas especially..Teringat la pulak kat sakura in Pian's photos..(Pian's my classmate kat SMKA..He's now in Japan doing chemical engineering if I'm not mistaken..pic die kat Jepun sume best2..huhu..I really wanna go there too..)

7. I need to buy a huge luggage..maybe sneaker shoes..a boot..tapi bende2 lain sume my mum cakap beli kat sane je..lagi banyak pilihan and murah kowt..I need my Mak Tam's advice on all these..I simply don't know how to do financial management! If you ask me to manage my own money, satu Alamanda tu I want to buy! Hihiii...

Hope I can do all these before I run out of time..like money, time can simply flow without you really noticing it..

That's why I need to grab those beautiful moments whilst I can:)

Posted by EmIRA

Thursday at 8:10 PM , 5 Comments

SpLUrRge!!



Wah...today is a splurging day..
I think my money flowed like water..huuuuu...
From Alamanda in the morning we went to watch 'Syurga Cinta' at Midvalley in the evening..
So much stuff done and packed in one day!
Alhamdulillah, our letter of good conduct is done..
kami citizens of Malaysia yang baik pekertinya, InsyaALLAH...
However...(Rasa mcm Mr Aslam la pulak..)
The bus driver was quite angry that no lecturers followed us to Putrajaya..
..even the workers in the Ministry of Foreign Affairs office was suprised that we were without adult supervision..huhu..What to do..it's not like we cannot settle things ourself..
I can't accept it if they are angry with madam Yash..
for one thing, she's my tuitor..n also our saviour..
she's done a lot of of things for our cohort..
give her a break...huhuhuuuu....

Oh, by da way..
Just want to congratulate my sis, the one and only that is..
..Emira Soleha for succeeding to further her studies in Social Science in America..
She'll be doing her 'persediaan' in Taylor's College first..
caya la Soleha...I'm proud of you, sis!
I know u're such an enthusiastic person..
Time kasih la tolong kasi idea time akak nak write bout 'Lord of the Flies'..
and thanx for bacekan my social sudies book and explain to me walaupun u slept after reading that book..hahahaa....
...nanti da jadi politician jangan lupe sape yang selalu challenge u all this while..
without me, you won't be where you are..ngeh2...saje jerrr...



Nyway, another thing settled and that leaves me with my packing to go straight home..
Home sweet home..
where I'll be doing a lot of chores..cos Soleha doesn't mind da house selerak cam mane pun..she'll continue reading novels until ibu comes into da scene..heeee~
but still, I feel as happy as a lark..
I guess it's because of the freedom of being in your own home..
then again..it's not like I ever go out..
freedom within my own home, I guess...
Home is where my heart belongs...~

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at 8:10 PM , 0 Comments

Us Against The World..

Mataku sudah ngantukkk bangattt...(Syud, 2009..hihi)
Tapi nape ntah taknak tidur..
susah jugak yer ade penyakit taknak tidur ni..huhu...
kene makan pil tidur kew?
Oh, tidak...Can't possibly do that..overdose naya jek..huhu

Sukenyee lagu 'Us Against the World'..sgt significant
..sangat...bermakna..

"Cos it's us against the world,
you and me against them all,
If you listen into these words..
..and know that we are standing tall"

It's really warm to have someone telling you they'll be with you regardless of what happens..
But how much is it true..I wouldn't know..
Hope is so refreshing and rejuvenating..
but it can also be time consuming..
and painful too....
'Waiting for you is like waiting for the rain to fall in a drought...'
Sian Cinderella...huuuuuu

Posted by EmIRA

at 8:09 PM , 0 Comments

What Went Wrong?

Hmmm..today was quite peculiar to me...
I went out wit Zz to MidValley and felt really tired sampai beli barang and simply tertinggal kat counter! It's like I'm not focusing on what I'm doing...every action was subconsciously done...but the big question is, WHY?..I can't tell, really...

...and I simply can't stand being in the big crowd..I feel so suffocated..so small...those eyes staring at you..Yeah..I've been diagnosed with peopofobia (made it up myself..huhu)...I must say, I prefer being alone or in a small group of people..too many people around makes me feel insecured, I guess..and dizzy too.

My Ibu wanted me to get home as soon as possible..risau, katenye..takut I pegi ikut kawan tak tentu arah..She still doesn't fully trust this eldest daughter of hers I guess..Serious, ibu..akak tak ikut sape2 pergi mane2 pun...The last thing I have to settle right here in KL is this letter of good conduct thing..We're heading off to Putrajaya to settle the matter..and I'm gone...

I want to try and be happy even if it's hard..
Actually, I'm sad for no apparent reasons...
'I know not why I am so sad,
It wearies me, you say it wearies you..'
Haha...takpe la..emotional turmoil..bese la tu..
I'll be okay soon..unless this is a foreshadow of sumthing bad about to happen..
Nauzubillahi min zalik..

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at 8:07 PM , 0 Comments

I'M BACK!!


O, my beloved IPBA, how I miss thee!
Hehe..da kene pegi Biro tatanegara baru sedar betapa I love my institute..
huhu..duduk kat sane memang one wud not have much time for relaxation, and I thought I have already come to a phase where I could get a liberation into life..well, I didn't get it during BTN, but I do now..everything's settled except for our letter of good conduct and our results...ooooh..scary..

My experience kat kem Bina Negara Ulu Sepri, Negeri Sembilan..memang membuka minda la yang penting...huhu..I dunno where to start, really..so much happened in those 5 days..cos our schedule was so packed with activities! LDK, Kembara, 2 KM Run, choir, physical test, aerobics, just to name a few..I lost 1 kg in 1 week punye activity there..n my limbs sume memang rase mcm nak tercabut..heee~Tapi takpe..rasenye da balik IPBA balik ni things will come back to normal..but I dun know if dat's supposed to b a good thing or a bad thing especially in terms of fitness..


The first night lagi da kene elect to become mc untuk pembentangan kertas kerja..but this time in BM and its my first time..bace skrip je pun tapi terketar jugak la lutut..huhu..mane taknye I have to face 93 students in front of me..all intellectuals tajaan Petronas, MARA, n JPA..Actually rase terharu jugak la dapat meet these people..we get to eat, discuss, and do activities with bakal2 doctors and engineers of the country..sangat terharuu...huuu..tapi memang la diorang ni live up to their names..kalau yg course medic tu kite memang nampak kesungguhan and cara berfikir diorang yang slightly different from normal people like me..In my group for LDK, I had group members consisting of 3 engineering students as well as Medic students who look very intelligent..and when asked to write what they know of Malaysia's perlembagaan, Perkara 153, ISA and everything, they could give you descriptions as though telling it from a history book! I was so amazed at their in-depth knowledge...But one thing's for sure..I hate memorising facts!

No doubt, after BTN my love for Malaysian has grown..
It has opened my eyes on how lucky I am to live in such a prosperous country where different races could live in harmony..I'll come back to Malaysia..we all will..don't worry..
Being there has also made me realise that no matter how much I don't like reading newspapers and memorising facts, I need to be aware of what's happening in my country..I can't be too complacent as I was before just because I feel safe living in Malaysia..We need to be aware of current issues, our roots, and how we have come about to be where we are today...we need to know our history to learn from it so that history does not repeat itself...besides that, at a national level, politics play a vital role .....although the first thing I throw out when asked to choose between economy, social, education and politics was politics itself..heeee~

Even though I had such a nightmare just by thinking of undergoing BTN, I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be...The last night there was really fun, touching as well as thought-provoking...I realised that it's one thing to be able to know stuffs, but it's another to be able to think and reflect..And that's the most important lesson that I have learnt from BTN...(Clap10x....with standing ovation..heee~)

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at 8:06 PM , 0 Comments

DeviAnce...hihihi

Emira miss family lorrr....
Mase exam hari tu kan...
memang determined nak balik sampai ponteng kelas 2 hari..huhu
Padahal exam was the week after dat...
but I was in such an emotional turmoil dat I couldn't hold it anymore..
I just had to go back...

The problem is..balik rumah bukan study sangat pun..juz flipped thru Social Studies punye book once in a while in front of da t.v pulak tuuu..huhuhu...
Especially sebab AF7 was having da finals..
Omaigosh....I really like Akim in AF7..Transformasi die memang ketara..
From a really typical 18 year old boy..he transformed into a really charming person..
That's how much fashion trends and a little bit of hairdo can make wonders..
But on top of dat, he's got da talent and fighting spirit....simply luv dat 'I'm Yours' performance..

But da thing is, my exam questions didn't ask me 'What song did Akim sing for da AF7 finals?'
I had to answer questions like 'What are the impacts of Overpopulation? State 3 examples wit elaboration..' Waaa...even though Mdm Anne memang drilling kitorang habis-habisan on dat topic, I didn't think my answer was gud enuf..Orang laen siap mintak tambah kertas! Tu la..orang stay die balik umah...huhuhu...

Takpe la..
Yang penting I get to see my mum n ask for her blessings..
It's all I care pun....
I believe in following what my heart says..
even though sumtimes I break rules.."Rules are meant to be broken"..(Evilnyeeee saye ni..)
for those who know me, mesti they know to what extent I can actually go to get what I want...
heeeeeeeeeeeee~

Posted by EmIRA

at 8:04 PM , 2 Comments

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