Today I am totally freaking out! I have been known to make mountains out of mole hills long story short, I am freaking out, and I am paranoid about getting cancer and dying! I know its a pretty irrational fear, but genetics are against me. I mean my Mom and Dad, Grandma and Grandpa, and cousin died of cancer, and two of my brothers survived cancer! I know that I need to be vigilant to prevent cancer, but sometimes Doctors and Insurance companies make me crazy!
To add to my freak out of the day. Today is my Dad's Birthday. He would have been 74 today. He has been gone 7 years. 7 YEARS! what?! Where has my life gone and how come I still cry so hard and miss him so much! Especially around my and his birthday? Usually around this time if year I have a major freak out, and for some reason I thought this year I was going to make it without it hurting so much. I guess I was wrong, but the hurt and the missing him, proves to me that he was really here, and that I really loved him and that he will never be gone from my memory, even when I think I might be forgetting him. I know that he is happy, and still loves me and I want my daddy to know today that I love him and miss him so very much.
*I just wanted to say how FUNNY, smart, tender, forgiving, LOVING, talented, dedicated, hard working, interesting and selfless my Dad was and is! I love you! Thanks for my family and friends with words of support!
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I'm so sorry to hear that this is such a hard time for you. I'm sure your dad misses being here with you like crazy too. The only thing I can say is that in our stake conference yesterday the LA temple president came and spoke, and he gave an AMAZING talk about the temple. He told a story about an 85 year old women who lost her mom when she was 5, and finally came a few months ago to be sealed to her parents after she had joined the church--and the indescribable joy and hope she felt. How blessed we are to have the temple and to know that we can be sealed to those people we love so dearly. We never truly have to be separated from them, even if they aren't with us physcially. You can't help but have peace and hope with that kind of message of the gospel. It may not make the days without them on earth easier... but it gives us something to look forward to, for sure! Keep smiling, and know that I and tons of people love ya. :)
Oh, and make sure you keep going to the DR! I don't want to hear about you getting cancer any time soon!!!! eek!
LOVE YOU EMILY!! :) Maybe for this one you SHOULD make a mountain out of a mole hill!! :) Be safe!
Your Dad was a wonderful man and you have so many of his qualities, such as kindness, patience and a loving heart. We miss him too! It's good, I think, sometimes to cry about the ones you've lost, it helps you to feel closer to them in a way- reliving those memories is a good thing! I KNOW your Dad loves you SO SO SO much Emily! I know he is proud of you too! You are an amazing woman! :)
p.s. I have always LOVED that picture of you and your Dad! It is precious!!!
it's ok baby! i don't blame you for being sad or freaking out, i know you miss your dad... i'm sure he was a wonderful man and deserves to be missed by you, of all people. :) i can't wait to meet him someday!
big hugs, i loves you! :) xoxo
Beautifully written! You are incredible, Emily! Both your mom and your dad our probably just so thrilled with you and what you have done...what an exciting day it will be when you see them both again!!
Emily,
Happy Birthday, DAD!! How blessed we all are to have had him as a father! The more I think about him, the more amazed I am at how absolutely selfless and loving he was. There is so much I would love to ask him...tell him... I miss him, too. We all do.
I, too, have had those "freak out" moments/feelings. It's easy to do. I must say, though, they are getting less, and less. We need to just move forward with faith... things will be okay.
Dad loved you so much... you really were his crowning jewel. He knew what a precious gift you were, and are, to our family. He is so proud of you! I often see his qualities in you... it really makes me happy to see that.
Love you, love you! Hugs!
Oh, little Emily! You are so sweet...hugs from me in this hard time! You're such a trooper, and I love that picture of you and your daddy!
Lil' Em, that must be so hard, I can't imagine the difficult times you have gone through. Thank you for sharing your love for your Dad with everyone, it is so sweet.
:( Miss you.
Em--
I LOVED your words about Dad Gibson. I find myself in humble gratitude daily for him for so many reasons which I can't list here. He helped mold Dan in to the great man that he is. (No bias here!) What a GREAT example who blessed and continues to bless so many lives!
Ahhhh don't make me cry. I never knew. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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