questionsss

my brain keeps on asking how,why and what..
leading my body to a dreadful journey finding the answer..
and putting my emotion on an unstable platform..

sometimes the answer is just there right in front of me..

but my heart keeps me blind..
dont want me to see the truth..
as it might not be on the same route as what demanded by my lust..

maybe questions are just excuses to run away from my responsibility

i wonder..

im tired..
tired of trying to satisfy others..
tired of trying to be someone thats not me
maybe its good cuz that someone that im trying to be so badly is better..
but god knows how much it hurts when people starting to judge..
starting to bad mouth..
seeing me as if like im just trying to get attention..
not really wanted to sincerely change...

i dont know when did i starting to be someone like this..
thinking too much bout people's impression..
taking into account what people think..
giving a damn on whats gonna be said by em..

i miss the old me..
the one who didnt give a shit bout others..
living my life as how id like it to be..
doing my stuff without even thinking twice..
life was simple..
i want samting,i fight for it..
love someone, i court her..
hate someone, i just curse him..

this life,
its not as what id been dreaming of..
everyday is stressful..
everyone is important..
too many hearts to consider,i forgot to cheer mine..
for what im believe,i care for em..
but do they care bout me,
i doubt...

maybe im lonely..
maybe im too pathetic..
but im just a man..
ive a feeling,and it is a bitch..
too sensitive nowadays..
just whats gotten into me,
i wonder..

a piece of puzzle

when i let my brain wandering around freely,
it just loves to pick a killer question..
a question that i wont be able to answer..
a piece of question mark that would let me astray..

there are a high mountain and 2 persons..
both of em trying to get up to the top of the mountain..
the only difference is their will, how much n eager they are to reach the top..

1 guy is so committed to step on the very top of the mountain...
so he struggles so much..
bleeds a lot..
but he never gives up..
he keep on walking and even crawling..
however,God knows better..
maybe He has a better plan for him..
so He makes him trips and fells down back to the very beginning..
it takes him millions times of trying to make him realizes that the top of the mountain is never meant to be the end of his struggle..
so he backs down and remains on the bottom..
he improvises and try to make some life there..

the other 1 guy, he just follows the flow..
he wants to reach the top cuz thats what everyone else would do..
so he walks..he slacks off..uses some shortcut and even sit on others' back like a parasite..
he never put so much effort as for him,
its okai if he cant reach the top..
but God is the best mastermind..
the guy manage to get his ass to the top...
without spilling any blood,neither a single drop of sweat..

its a reality..
it happens in a real life..
i saw it with my own eyes few times already..
even me myself might have been on both shoes..

the question is..
arent we gonna get something as much as how far we have been fighting for it..if we put real deal efforts on it??
isnt God the most merciful and fair??
is He gonna keep on putting us in trials no matter how much we sabar and keep on fighting,up until the moment we are giving up??
or is it the giving up the one He always wanted to see in us?

but thanks to my friend..
making me realizes that there is only 1 answer for all those question..
takdir..or simply put as kuasa Allah..

i cant remember the source but i think i heard it somewhere..
”Ya Allah janganlah Engkau serahkan diriku kepada diriku sendiri walaupun sekelip mata.”

and only now i think i can understand the doa..
after reading some words i found in the internet..

Mengapa? kerana diri kita lemah, ilmu cuma ‘sekerat’, kudrat kita terhad. Mana mungkin kita dapat mengharungi kehidupan yang begitu mencabar ini hanya bersandarkan kekuatan diri. Justeru, dalam doa itu Rasulullah saw berpesan  agar serah dan pasrahkanlah hati serta diri kepada Allah.

Kita tidak mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk diri kita sendiri. Kita hanya penerima, kita bukan Pemberi. Yang memberi ialah Allah, dan Allah menegaskan apa yang diberikanNya untuk kita adalah baik belaka. Namun akal kita tidak akan mampu mengetahui rahsia di sebalik yang pahit, pedih dan sakit. Mahunya yang manis-manis sahaja. Apatah lagi nafsu… ia akan memberontak apabila terjadi sesuatu yang berlawanan dengan kehendak tabienya.

Apabila berlaku sesuatu yang berlawanan dengan kehendak diri, berlakulah stres, marah dan sedih. Itu biasa. Hal itu sentiasa berlaku dalam kehidupan. Yang luar biasanya, apabila kita memilih untuk ‘berkelahi’ dengan takdir. Kita tidak menerima warna-warni kehidupan seadanya. Kita tidak berdamai dengan takdir sebaliknya memilih untuk memberontak, mempersoalkan dan melawannya. Persoalan kenapa? Mengapa? Sering menghantui jiwa.

Bayangkan kita sedang berjalan di tepi pantai sewaktu matahari mula terbenam. Warna di kaki langit menjadi jingga, oren dan kuning keemasan. Kita melihat dan menikmatinya sahaja. Kita tidak berkata, “sewajarnya ditambah warna kuning, dikurangkan warna jingga.”

Tidak! Kita tidak akan berkata begitu. Sebaliknya kita memilih untuk ‘bersahabat’ dengan alam dan menikmati lukisan alam seadanya. Hasilnya? Kita tenang. Kita nikmati alam seperti seadanya… akur kepada Pencipta senja.

Ironinya, sikap kita tidak begitu apabila berdepan dengan ‘lukisan takdir’ pada kanvas kehidupan kita. Sedangkan lukisan alam dan lukisan takdir itu sama-sama datangnya daripada Allah. Mengapa kita memilih untuk berkrisis dengan ketentuan Allah dan tidak mahu menerima semua itu seadanya?

i wonder whats wrong with me..
why such questions keep on appear in my mind..
why cant just let me live peacefully..
but still im grateful cuz i found the answer for this puzzle..
though there are lots more puzzles still remain unanswered..

ill die trying!!

ive been on the top for quite some time..
it felt so good
all the luxury and advantage i had in my hand,
they fit me very well..
i love it and never wanna lose it..

as in today,
the circle of life takes it's turn..
keeping me down to the bottom..
to the very depth of nightmare..

i lose all those things that used to keep me sleep tight at night..
i forget how to control things..
how to manipulate my target..
every sweet dreams seems to be memories..
keeping me smile in my sleep,
but regret in the reality..

its time to wake up..
to stand up high on the sky..
to grab what was meant to be mine..
i wont let anybody stay on my path..
i wont let em take away my dreams..
they will stand right on my enemy list...
and im gonna crash em down..

those good things gonna be mine again..
just let the time decide..
even if i cant get it,
ill die trying!!

i believe

whats the point of knowing the answer
if i cant even understand the problem..
its like taking all the meds in the world
without understanding the disease..

its no use..
the meds might be able to heal me..
but the probability??
its 1 out of millions...

when it comes to maybe..
it may be yes or no..
im lucky enough the meds i take,
its cure..
but what if it only worsening the disease???
as i never know for sure the root of the disease..

been days since i tried to figure out whats my problem..
i already know the solution...
but its nothing unless i could figure out the problem..
its like walking in the dark..
knowing where to go..
but never know where to start..

many people around me start talking..
cursing and bad mouthing about me..
for straying away from the path..
but im way too tired to satisfy their will..
whats d point of making em smile,
if im suffering inside out..

just let me..
find my own way..
choose the path to walk...
its okai if its full with thorns
its okai if i lose my leg for stepping on fire..
cuz i believe in what im holding close to my mind..
and never stop believing..

1 fine day,this bloody journey will come to a junction..
entering a brighter road..
leading to the 1 ive been missing for long..
the 1 who always trust in me..
and reminding me for the wrong road ive taken..
i believe

currency trading

thanks to my dear ex-partner for giving me an insight on a serious business..
at 1st,i didnt really believe him as he told me with only rm1600,it can generate almost 1mill..
if its that easy,obviously ramai jadi kaya..
but after doing some research,yeah its reliable..
just not so many people realize and understand the trick..

actually been 2years since the 1st time i put my eyes on currency trading..
but never realize when is the right time to make serious money..
now,thanks to him,now i understand the trick n yeah next week gonna buy 500k dinar for the investment..
yeah i know its kinda crazy since theres a lot of money involved..
but history convinces me that its reliable..
its almost d same case as with what happen to dinar quwait..
lotsa people are rich now for doing d same trick to dinar quwait..
now lets put some test on it..

urgh,even if d plan doesnt work out,
theres still no such thing as loss..
cuz the 500k dinar is a real money..
i can still change it to rm..
its okai if the rate doesnt increase as many as everyone thought..
but obviously it will still increase since the country is negara lubuk minyak..
so no loss only untung ma...

please la d currency got pv..
then rm1600 gonna be rm800k :)

just dont be a fool!!!

i dont know why but its so freaking stressful tonight..
my roomies asked me to join em chilling tonight..
well,been a week they were trying to take me out to have some fun,
but i refused since my classes started at 8.30 in the morning..
so i promised me to join em on the weekend..
but here i am,still refusing to join as my heart is in not in the right place just yet..
or else,ill end up standing like a pig looking at people..

since yesterday been thinking the real meaning of a friendship..
one of my close 1 told me that i trust people too much..
valuing the meaning of friendship excessively..
not knowing whats actually got to do with a friend..

actually im still in shock..
as i never thought would be treated in a way that i would never do to my own friend..
a way that would put my friendship at risk..
at least intentionally..

what i learn from my brother..
theres thousand ways to be rich..
harder n slow moving 1 is by the right way..
easier n fast 1 is by dirty work..
i might use the easy way in business when it comes to someone that is not my friend..
but to a friend,instead of being selfish,id help em..
thats what i should do to a friend..
at least its what i thought of..

years ago,i let go 1 of my bestest friend..
as i felt like i was not a good 1 for her..
she was too kind to me..
but me,couldnt do so to her..
as i used to be selfish and putting more time for myself..
used to like being alone by myself..
thats how a friendship is,
when u cant treat 1 as a real friend,
dun just let em stand there like a fool..
d least u could do is not treating em like u dun care about em..
herm that was my opinion once and i used to hold onto it..
as friendship is a sacret bond between 2 human being..
but yeah now i miss her and wish i could be better for her..

i used to think that theres 2 type of person in our circle of life
1 that is called friend,the 1 who should be loved and cared as much as we can,
and the 1 called people that we know..
the 1 who happen to be around us..
but never have the chemistry with us..
they are not friend..
but just happen to sit with us as a colleague..
tell me whats the difference between those person and the 1 we found in a bus on our way to work???
yeah,the only different is we know their name and background..
thats it!!

my problem is,
its too easy for me to get attach to someone..
when someone starts asking bout my probs,i put em in my friendlist..
when someone lives with me for years,i started to think that i can trust him..
but the problem is,is he really friend??
will he be there defending me when someone is trying to stab me??
will he be sad when im no longer there around??

last holiday,
i got myself in a mess with a guy..
he called me to meet up..
but not just him,with his gang..
some of em is abang long kawasan siap..
i run to my friend and asked em to accompany em...
not that i wanted em to join the fight(if there is a fight)
but just to keep me calm..
to scare em and avoid his gang from joining...
as i intended to settle it 1-1..
but yeah kinda frustrated as i heard from my own friend..
"sorry bro,not my field"
for godsake,ur friend was in danger bro..
at least dont simply say as if like u dont care
show some appreciation for our friendship,would u??

last few weeks,
my bedmate back when i was in school added me in fb...
he started to have a chat with me..
i was so excited talking to a long lost friend..
considering the fact that he was my bedmate,i was so eager to talk to him..
was feeling freaking happy to know that hes about to get marry..
but those feeling only last for a few minutes of the early conversation..
once he started to talk about his business,
asking for my help to embrace his business..
i started to get frustrated and annoyed..
for almost 10years u never contacted me...
and out of the blue moon,u look for me for some help..
i dont mind helping bro..
but at least dont just directly fire away ur intention..
is it so hard to act as a friend till u got my trust..
then even if u wanna kill me,just go on..
uve been knowing me for ages,u know that its not that hard to get my trust what..
stupid!!

gosh,its true what had been said by 1 of my senior,
once u step on the campus life,
say goodbye to friendship..
everything is a lie..
everyone is a good actor..
the only thing that u should do is be selfish n put urself 1st before anybody..
its a bad thing to do so,but thats how it goes in here...
everyone does so..
u will only put urself at the end of the world if u still refuse to believe it..
as u will only be the 1 not doing it..
just dont be a fool!!!

u r my fucking friend for godsake

been quite some time for me not writing anything here
but think im gonna start bubbling n mumbling again since im back here in moscow..

yesterday was quite stressful for me..
felt like betrayed by my own blood n flesh..
disrespected and stepped on as if like ive no pride..
i dont mind if its just by some random guys but this 1..
he is my friend,my own freaking friend..
who has been living with me here in moscow for 4years..
4 freaking years..

it was all started in the classroom..
when he wanted to go to the market which is the same shop supplying me goods for my business..
this 1 shop,it was 1st discovered by my ex-roomies..
we started 69minimart last 2years by selling goods from the shop..
the 1 big mistake done by my partners was disclosing the location of the shop to his friends..
and the info was spreading to all other student before it reached my classmate..

the moment he told all other groupmates about his plan to go to the shop,taking all of us,
i was speechless..
i knew somehow it was gonna be an awkward moment..
and i just sat there pretending as if like i was sleeping..
cuz i didnt know how to react in front of em..

on our way to the shop, i was totally blank..
i couldnt imagine what would they thinking when we arrive at the shop..
obviously they would think that i ketok so high for my benefit..
but god knows how much time i wasted reconsidering before putting my price for the business..
as i tried my best not to oppress my customers..
yes,i want the profit but thats not the only thing crosses my mind..
i also wish to help em to meet their needs..
but yeah,as i thought..
1 of my friend bought something from there,and said "selamat duit aku"
referring to the fact of avoiding buying from me..
i know that he had no attention of blighting me,unintentionally..
but yeah,it did cut me deep..

later,another 1 of my classmate uploaded a picture of us in the shop..
some random guy asked him where is it..
he told him everything..the exact location,whats in there and the prices..
i know that he has no intention of lingkupkan my business,
but yeah it might causing me to stop dealing 69minimart..
i sent him a message asking for his help not to cause me bungkus..
asking him to delete the photo..
thanks god,he's a nice friend..
he deleted the photo..

but that wasnt the point..
what was hurting me badly was what happen in the shop..
when the guy suddenly told me that he also want to open a mart selling the same stuffs from the same supplier..
he told me that the benefit is for some muslim organization in moscow..
yeah i understand his intention..
to do a good thing,to help the organization..
but the problem is,
cant he see that his good intention might causing adversity to other's life..
can tutup periuk nasi someone else..
not just 1 but 2..and the other 1 got a wife n a child..
gosh,frankly speaking,im so pantang bile ade org nk buat baik but menyusahkan aku..
i faced this back when i was a lil boy..
when my brother wanted to help our parent..
yeah its a good thing godforsaken..
but the problem was when he forcing me to do it..
unwillingly..
tot ill never face such thing now that im not a boy anymore..
but maybe,its a curse haunting my life..
putting me in constant guilty..
forever..

he told me its either he will sell the goods at d same price or maybe by comparing price..
as if like persaingan..
but its decided,either way i will just give up my business..
daripada buruk nama,baik tak yah buat business..
cuz i can see clearly that people will cop me cekik darah cuz they dont understand my situation..
even if the goods are sold at the same price, id lose as they are selling it under the name of the organization..
which joined by most of my customers..
comparing price,its a totally tutup periuk..
i took the goods from my partner from the supplier..
of course i cant win..
eventhough i can just take it directly from the shop,i dont want to tutup periuk nasi my partner,
without him,minimart 69 would never exist..
my partner is my friend,id die 1st before i cross my own flesh n meat..

last few hours,
another classmate came to me n discussed,..
at 1st i was like okai,i understand his good intention..
trying to solve the problem..
but later,i noticed that i put my pride too low..
i was like begging him not to steal my business..
"win-win situation/give n take" was used..
but all i can see,i was giving n not taking anything..

he said that the reason for the unsatisfactory is because of my price is a bit high..
but here's my secret in my business..
i took only few ruble,enough to cover the upah for those who help me restocking my goods..
yeah sounds reckless,ape penat sgt angkat barang..
u never know as u never wanna help me when i was in need for someone to help angkat barang..
200 cans of drinks,40bottles of sos tiram..its not really heavy for u isnt it..


he said that he didnt wanna kacau my business last year,respecting the fact when i was joking nk simpan duit nk kawen..i was just joking..
now that u know that it was a joke,its okai la masuk line right..
but heres d thing,all im doing,is to avoid myself from asking the money from my parent..
im a rich guy n yet trying to live like 1 as i hate living poor like i used to when i was a boy..
u never know that as u never in my shoes..


some other guy said that my partner as in my supplier mark up too much??
try to own a car in moscow,n pay for the petrol to bring those goods from the shop to spartiv..
i think if its me,i wont do this job..
all i can see is,my partner just wanna help me out..
so NEVER INSULT HIM in front of me..

i know that those involved in the conversation might read this n might hurt em..
"im sorry",that 1 is for hurting a friend..
but this is my world n im just expressing whats inside..
if u would like to hear me saying all this right on ur face,u might need to wait for the moment we are no longer friend..
as u r my friend,my own classmate,i could never say it on ur face..

i started this business since last 2years..
when u had no idea to do any single business..
when all u have in mind was only studying..
yes i did say last year if u wanna do similar business,go on,persaingan..
but what i meant was a healthy persaingan..
not to use d same supplier,knowing my original price,how could i compete u??
its my supplier's right to sell his goods to anyone regardless my rival or anybody..
but without my partner in 69company,nobody would realize the existence of the shop..
n now that i inherit the business,please show us some respect..

yeah im a bit emo..
i dont even know how to face u guys in the class later in d morning..
cuz u r my friend la macha..
if u r just some random person,i swear id take my sword n freaking kill u..
i never been insulted this bad..
n i never been treated this contemptible by my own friend..
i had swear to help n protect my own friend..
never double cross my own friend..
but today i take that back..
cus the moment that words came from my mouth,i never imagine that my own friend would do that to me..
u r my fucking friend for godsake!!!

ya Allah, Kau kuatkanlah hatiku

ya Allah, Kau kuatkanlah hatiku


the old me,didnt really care what people would think of him..
he did whatever he wanted..
he believed in himself..
and bold to go against those who hate him
he didnt have any secret cuz he wanted to be a sincere man..
he had good friends around to share whatever problems n joys he had..


however,things change when he started to listen to people's idea n perception..
he scared to do things cuz he didnt want to hurt nor to have people's bad impression..
he hurt his friend for being too straight-forward..
then, he became a new person..
he started to keep everything inside..
he refused to tell anybody about what happened in his life..
in his class,he used to be the 1 with biggest mouth..
but now,he keep quite all the time..


its not good..
cuz now he is so sensitive..
he has too many thing being kept inside..
he is like a timer bomb ready to burst..


lately, been few times he almost lost his temper..
when he heard bad things said to him on his back,
he was so eager to find em n kill em..
but alhamdulillah,he still able to sabar..


but im afraid,
if 1 day,he cant keep himself patient..
he might hurt people around him,especially those referred as his friend..
enough hurting their feeling,i dont wanna see him hurting them physically..


ya Allah,kuatkanlah diri dan imanku..
tabahkanlah hatiku untuk sabar dan istiqamah mencari redha-Mu..
cukuplah selama ni aku membelakangkanMu dan mencari redha manusia..
sungguh its not an easy thing to do..
to keep everything to myself n only letting only U to know..
cukuplah aku sakitkan hati org laen..
kuatkanlah aku..

Aku bersaksi atas sifatMu yg maha pemurah lg maha penyayang

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lg Maha penyayang..

Aku bersaksi atas sifatNya yg maha pemurah..

Teringat not too long time ago,radhi posted at my fb wall..
About a guy who was about to convert into islam
Die duduk bersendirian thinking about his decision
Berbekalkan lilin di atas meja,dia meminta petunjuk yg jelas agar dpt diyakini kewujudan Allah
Dia berkata,"andai kau benar mendengar aku,padamkan api lilin ni"(samting like dat la)
Lama menunggu masih xde ape2 tanda
"god,dis is ur last chance if u want me to be a muslim"
Masih xde ape2..
Later die baca quran,terbaca ayat yg menceritakan bg sesiapa yg mencari petunjuk,xcukupkah tanda2 kekuasaan aku pada alam sekitar??(samting like dat)
Then,he become a muslim

Masyalah,bg aku,mamat ni cukup beruntung kerana Allah memerhatikan dia dan menjawab persoalannya.

Few weeks later,d same thing happen to me..obs final

Aku xready langsung tuk jawab final exam obs sbb fokuskan mase untuk study farmacology
Even d day b4 exam,saat org laen sibuk study obs,aku sibuk promot baju varsity
Mmg da awal aku da give up,tanak sit for dat final.
Langsung x ku sentuh buku obs

Pagi exam,i woke up late..
Alone,aku pergi ke department obs
Pergi semata mata untuk dihalau balik kerana gagal..
I could just stay at home tp aku gagahkan jugak sbb xnk kecewakan sahabat aku hafiz yg nak sgt aku pergi final-->(actually tanak dgr die bebel)

On my journey in d train,ntah macam mana bole tersilap amek tren..
Jam di tgn menunjukkan yg aku da confirm terlambat sampai
Tp ku teruskan jugak perjalanan..
Dalam hati,xpela lambat..abes busuk,xbole buat final-->fail..eh aku mmg nak fail pon!!

Sampai2 kashir,exam xstart lg.
So aku tunggu lah n sit for mcq final..
Untuk pengetahuan,andaikata fail mcq,kene balik trus n xbole buat oral exam-->fail
Untuk persediaan mcq,we have to read 1000 question in russian language which was d reason aku give up,10soklan je kot aku mampu hafal..
10 OUT OF 1000 QUESTION!!!

Tp dgn pertolongan apis yg kasi aku tiru,tetibe lepas plak..
Dari cerita senior2,department ni mengarut sket
Dorg akan randomly pick a name n failkan dorg sbb malas nk cek kerras jawapan byk2
Its totally depending on luck
Sebut pasal luck ni,biasenye aku la yg plg malang dlm class
Tp alhamdulillah,diluluskan jugak aku..

Oral exam..
Wallahi aku xtaw ape2!!!
Langsung xstudy even basic tak taw
Dapat soklan,aku hantar kat senior shoi mintak jawapan..
Da nama senior,aku dpt perfect answer for all the written question

While waiting for my turn to be called by the examiner
Aku tgk bello kat sebelah,stress sbb soklan die susah
Masyalah,Bello mmg org plg rajin n pandai lam kelas tp die facing problem answering the question
Sedangkan aku yg xstudy langsung da bole goyang kaki tunggu turn-->(silap aku jugak la xstudy n menipu in exam)
Dalam hati,aku rasa malu dengan Sang Pencipta..
Dalam aku malas,Dia masih nk tolong aku
Kalau nk ikut perancangan aku,aku sepatutnya pada mase tu da fail mcq dan da kat bilik,terbaring tidor,tp perancanganNya lg hebat,aku dalam dewan exam,menunggu untuk jawab oral..
Dalam dewan exam ade 4org examiner,tp ade sorg saja yg baek hati mudah nk kasi student pass..
Dalam examiner laen tgh pancung sorg student,dia da lepaskan 3 org student lulus.

Dalam hati aku terdetik..
Ya Allah,aku xlayak untuk duduk dalam dewan exam ni.
Aku cuma hafal 10soklan dari 1000soklan..
Dalam seminggu mase untuk prepare exam,cuma 1jam aku luangkan untuk study
Tapi masih Kau berikan aku rezeki dpt lulus exam n sit for this final
AKU TAK LAYAK ya Allah,andaikata kau berikan examiner yg senang tu kepadaku dan Kau luluskan aku dalam exam ni,aku xkan mampu untuk terima. Sungguh aku tak layak Ya Allah..

2minit kemudian,
That examiner yg baik hati panggil nama aku
YA ALLAH!!!
Apa rezeki lagi yg Kau nk limpahkan padaku..aku xlayak!!!

Mase jawab soklan,semua takda masalah memandangkan jawapan aku dpt was from a senior..
Mase tu aku risau andaikata aku dpt full mark,aku tak layak!!
Then the examiner kasi extra question,aku xdpt jawab.
Lega sbb possibility untuk dpt full mark da xde..
Then result came out
The examiner wrote on my credit book
"OTL"---> singkatan untuk full mark
YA ALLAH!!
Ternganga aku bile dpt taw result..

Sungguh aku segan padaMu ya Allah.
aku langsung xberusaha..
aku malas..
Tapi masih Kau sygkan aku dan Kau limpahkan rezeki padaku.
Ya Allah,aku hina dan kenapa Kau masih kisahkan aku sebegini rupa??

Aku ceritakan hal ni kat apis dan lain2..
Mereka cuma suruh aku bersyukur
Yes i know i should be thankful
Tp aku takut!!
Aku xusaha tapi aku bersuka ria dgn nikmat Dia.
Seakan akan aku mengambil kesempatan atas sifat Maha PemurahNya.
Sungguh..sampai ke hari ni aku xmampu ucap syukur.
Kerana aku takut.
Aku xlayak untuk bersyukur.

Ya Allah
Ampuni aku atas dosa n kesilapan aku
Dan lembutkanlah hatiku yg keras.
Amin!!