Author Archives: undermounted

unlabelled

Posted on October 3, 2019 by undermounted

i don’t recall how long it’s been since i first laid eyes on him, though i could easily search back and discover the exact date but i’d been with him almost a year when i met his 4 year old … Continue reading →

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alone in plain sight

Posted on June 19, 2019 by undermounted

what stops you from saying something to me?  i notice myself being noticed all the time. i get odd comments and engagement about how i created a sensation, yet somehow, i am off limits. who is she. look at her … Continue reading →

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he smells like sex and safety

Posted on June 10, 2019 by undermounted

i know the scent of him, where the slope of his wide neck chords down to the thick muscles that pull together before broadening to form his powerful shoulders. the softness of his full beard hides the firm, square shape … Continue reading →

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alone with memories

Posted on May 19, 2019 by undermounted

impossibly, there is no arousal without his image behind my closed eyes and the desperate futile wish that it was his hands servicing my needs and not my own.

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hurt me just a little more

Posted on May 16, 2019 by undermounted

There are times I feel as if I allow myself the luxury of emotions, I would sink into a despondent crisis of monumental magnitude. Which is why I hold so tightly to the control I require to manage my life, … Continue reading →

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non mom day

Posted on May 13, 2019 by undermounted

it’s not that I am upset or even care, but by early evening, when i finally had time to sit down and check social media and saw all the messages husbands were posting to their wives, thanking them for the … Continue reading →

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where there is a will

Posted on April 25, 2019 by undermounted

his casual message is just that and we both know it. the problem is i surge with lust enhanced by weeks of celibacy broken only by brief and unsatisfying self gratification gained alone using images of him which are burned … Continue reading →

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kids observe your marriage

Posted on April 23, 2019 by undermounted

…when the casual observations of your young adult children, about how they have viewed the conflicted marriage between their parents, break your heart a little bit, because you can’t explain the context of what they witnessed as there isn’t enough … Continue reading →

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the lies he tells himself

Posted on April 22, 2019 by undermounted

You texted me a lie. Don’t say you love me when you clearly show me every day that you don’t. You are unable to have a normal sexual relationship with me. This has been an issue for 24 years. You  … Continue reading →

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Absent by choice

Posted on April 22, 2019 by undermounted

I needed to take a break from him. A mental and physical break because only space and distance let’s me regain some of my self awareness and lets me have the perspective I need to make sure I do not … Continue reading →

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