Category Archives: Affair

unlabelled

Posted on October 3, 2019 by undermounted

i don’t recall how long it’s been since i first laid eyes on him, though i could easily search back and discover the exact date but i’d been with him almost a year when i met his 4 year old … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | 3 Comments

he smells like sex and safety

Posted on June 10, 2019 by undermounted

i know the scent of him, where the slope of his wide neck chords down to the thick muscles that pull together before broadening to form his powerful shoulders. the softness of his full beard hides the firm, square shape … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, horny, Relationships, Sex | Tagged , , , , , | Leave a comment

hurt me just a little more

Posted on May 16, 2019 by undermounted

There are times I feel as if I allow myself the luxury of emotions, I would sink into a despondent crisis of monumental magnitude. Which is why I hold so tightly to the control I require to manage my life, … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

Absent by choice

Posted on April 22, 2019 by undermounted

I needed to take a break from him. A mental and physical break because only space and distance let’s me regain some of my self awareness and lets me have the perspective I need to make sure I do not … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

dominated

Posted on March 27, 2019 by undermounted

you think you’ve healed and done the work so you have been able to move past it and talk about things from your past which have hurt you, shaped you, changed you, only to watch something which triggers you into … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships, Sex | Leave a comment

there is no such thing as long term casual

Posted on March 21, 2019 by undermounted

i hate that i want you more than i want anything else in the world. i would have loved you beyond reason. i do. i always will. but i can’t let myself. you aren’t my person. you aren’t my life. … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Tagged , , | Leave a comment

Posted on March 18, 2019 by undermounted

because when he dominates me, i can trust that he will not hurt me physically, even though i need him to just enough, so that it releases the emotional pain i’ve had to keep such a tight reign on during … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Leave a comment

call of duty

Posted on March 15, 2019 by undermounted

i do not have the verbal or literary ability to detail the skill set and extraordinary performance level he has. i don’t. it’s almost to the point of ridiculous. if other men had the tiniest fraction of his skill then … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Leave a comment

his ache remains

Posted on March 7, 2019 by undermounted

the only reason i say i struggle with words to use, is because i do not want to say what i feel out loud and reveal it to you. what purpose would it serve? i don’t want to know how … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Tagged | Leave a comment

i forget

Posted on December 19, 2018 by undermounted

i’m not sure how it’s possible to forget how beautiful you are, but it doesn’t matter how many times i see you or touch you, the ability you have to take my breath away, as if it were the first … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair, Relationships | Leave a comment