Category Archives: friends

never the same

Posted on July 16, 2016 by undermounted

i felt your betrayal, the isolation of your leaving me, and it’s impacted the fragile and tentative way i have of trusting anyone. i loved you … once. “There are all kinds of love in this world but never the … Continue reading →

Posted in friends, Relationships | Tagged choosing sides, ending a friendship, friends, hurt, old friends | Leave a comment

stupid notifications

Posted on May 27, 2016 by undermounted

life is going along all hunky dory then i get a notification on my phone reminding me it was your birthday and it pissed me off that i forgot to delete it, like i did everything else. i thought i … Continue reading →

Posted in friends, Relationships | Tagged friends | 1 Comment

goodbye old friend

Posted on May 3, 2016 by undermounted

i thought about you today, for the first time, in a long time. i had happy news and for the briefest, fraction of a moment couldn’t wait to tell you, until i remembered we have not spoken in forever. i … Continue reading →

Posted in friends, Relationships | Tagged friends, goodbye again, missing you | 2 Comments

when mental illness kills

Posted on February 10, 2016 by undermounted

ok fine. I AM angry and trying not to be. Anger is futile and masks fear and frustration. I am not angry at the person. because when people make a choice, you have to accept it whether you agree with … Continue reading →

Posted in depression, friends, mental illness, Relationships | Tagged addiction, alcohol, alcohol abuse, alcoholics, drinking, mental health, mental illness | 3 Comments

drinking death

Posted on February 10, 2016 by undermounted

have you ever been so ‘tired’ that the word doesn’t seem right when you use it as a vague description of your current state of being? it’s not even being exhausted. maybe bone weary is a better way to express … Continue reading →

Posted in depression, friends, mental illness, Relationships | Tagged alcohol, alcohol abuse, alcoholic, death, depression, drunk, mental illness, slow death, suicide | 5 Comments

obviously oblivious

Posted on February 5, 2016 by undermounted

One of the loneliest feelings in the world is when someone who is supposed to be your partner asks you ‘what’s wrong’ with attitude and disdain in the hours after learning of a personal tragedy and death of a close … Continue reading →

Posted in friends, Husband, marriage, quote, Relationships, Truth | Tagged alcoholic, alcoholism, death by the bottle, disconnected, everything is fine until it's not, sadness, suicide by shots, when a friend dies | 17 Comments

lessons learned

Posted on December 19, 2015 by undermounted

I’m not sure whether to hate you for not contacting me or to be proud of you for your resolve to focus on a single woman in your life, even though we’ve never been romantically involved. It’s hard for me … Continue reading →

Posted in friends, Relationships | Tagged broken promises, childhood lessons, hurt, lost friends, not trusting someone | 5 Comments

i’m still not talking to you

Posted on December 1, 2015 by undermounted

dear you know who, just a reminder that you suck and I hate not talking to you even though I know it’s necessary and do NOT want you to contact me even though i know you are probably creeping my … Continue reading →

Posted in friends | Tagged best friends, moving on, no contact, you can't have a best friend of the opposite sex | 8 Comments

so long, farewell, adieu

Posted on November 27, 2015 by undermounted

i want to be mad at you but am not. still. you suck. it’s broken my heart. lack of contact says everything that needs to be said and i understand. i deleted an entire page of all the other stuff … Continue reading →

Posted in friends, Relationships | Tagged ending a relationship, old friends, sad | 5 Comments

running away

Posted on February 5, 2015 by undermounted

well … why not? running away is not just for little kids. i’ve decided to take a wee break … a small field trip. there are times that you simply have to pull back and lick your wounds and give … Continue reading →