Tag Archives: fear

shifting priorites

Posted on August 23, 2015 by undermounted

i am planning on lying as a way to avoid conversations i simply don’t care to have. there are people i just don’t have the energy or the desire to deal with anymore. it’s not that they are troublesome in … Continue reading →

Posted in Who I am | Tagged fear, health issues, looking inwards | 1 Comment

dangerous country walk

Posted on April 14, 2015 by undermounted

We left the building that had given us shelter from the late heat of the day, strolling in pairs or small groups behind our guide and other guests. We had been sitting queued in chairs, waiting for our turn … Continue reading →

Posted in The Book | Tagged book, death, fear, nightmare, panther, story | 1 Comment

Yoga breathing for relationships

Posted on March 13, 2015 by undermounted

… ever been so mad you just drank an entire glass of amaretto and realized that it was probably 2 cups you just downed as a shot? sometimes i wonder at the little things and how they add up to … Continue reading →

Posted in Relationships | Tagged anger, depression, fear | Leave a comment

Quote: what ifs

Posted on March 12, 2015 by undermounted

Nothing is more frightening than what our imagination comes up with, when we think about the ‘what ifs’ of what ‘might have’ happened.

Posted in quote | Tagged fear, immagination, quote, what ifs | 5 Comments

night terror

Posted on December 19, 2014 by undermounted

startled awake, heart pounding, my eyes fly open to see the dark room of night in that brief moment of sudden awareness, i mentally check my environment i’m in bed, my spouse is beside me; in fact he is still … Continue reading →

Posted in depression, Poems, Who I am | Tagged admission, fear, night terror, night terrors, nightmare, pain, sleeplessness | 11 Comments

regression

Posted on November 7, 2014 by undermounted

Pampered man’s mistress Sugar baby and Mommy Dom More than a casual affair Less than completely open Binding ties of communication With silken lace trimmed stockings Gossamer panties and bullet bras I should be happy and feel secure Instead of … Continue reading →

Posted in Affair | Tagged affair, emotional stagnation, fear, lack of trust | 3 Comments

time alone

Posted on October 13, 2014 by undermounted

we were not meant to live so closely together that we have to ignore everyone we see to preserve our individual space and sanity. the dis-associative behaviour is not natural for humans. we shut out so many people that sometimes … Continue reading →

Posted in ideas | Tagged alone, change, failure, fear, isolation, random thoughts | 12 Comments

rejecting rejection

Posted on June 19, 2014 by undermounted

I remember being young and angry Masks that you wear when scared I had violence inside of me Protective of the fragile soul It desperately tried to shelter I learned to hide my authentic self I rejected the negativity verbally … Continue reading →

Posted in Relationships | Tagged blaming your child, child abuse, cutting family ties, fear, hate the father abuse the child, hateful mother, hateful parents, the damage a mother can cause, unloveable, unwanted | 1 Comment

the meeting

Posted on June 5, 2014 by undermounted

He is as beautiful as I remember. Every fine line and detail, perfect. I have never had this type of full body instant reaction to any other person in my entire life. Physically, I completely respond to his presence. It … Continue reading →

Posted in Relationships | Tagged affair partner, arousal, fear, i met him, ignoring what you want, making assumptions, meeting your old affair partner, re-connection, walking away | 4 Comments

regression

Posted on June 3, 2014 by undermounted

I can not get lost again in the comfort of solitude and sadness because I haven’t climbed my way out of the well I threw myself down, to get away from him. Now his shadow is looming over the round … Continue reading →